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I'm so fuckin tired and I want to just take my car with no cell reception and go to a cabin in the wooded part of the mountains and just freeze on a balcony

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crying over epic the musical rn, listened to the whole thing multiple times on repeat at work 100/10

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crying over epic the musical rn, listened to the whole thing multiple times on repeat at work 100/10

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I still wake up wanting to text you, wanting to let you know how life has been and where I am rn. I'm just scared

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I spent yule with my friends, spending christmas with my family. Celebrate your perfered holiday and have a good time

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My want to reach out to you bur my knowledge on how it will end up

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sorry for not believing that I'm easy to love when you say that after admitting you no longer love me in the way you are refering to

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whenever I imagine myself, I'm fighting. Fighting to live, fighting for my friends, fighting to stay awake.

I am fighting for everything in my life and I'm scared of losing it all again and even losing more

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I love my friends so much aaaaa

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it's almost exactly a year since my grandma died and I don't know how to feel

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just learned that your first tarot deck is supposed to be gifted to you, so I haven't been doing tarot correctly but I have gifted tarot to someone before so atleast I got that 💪💪💪

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stay safe?

Thank you, you too

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life is funky

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I am mourning my grandma

the one who died almost a year ago, December 12th 2023

it's so weird that my other one wants to drug me

The one I spent so many summers with

that i spent almost every week with and slept on a air mattress in front of her old massive TV which width was larger than mine and length was taller than my hieght

shaving cream and Richard Simons of a time that died with her

while the other prays my existence away

asking my father to drug me rather than let me continue

Thinking that refusing to tell one their sinning is a sin themselves

I don't even have the grandma I could joke with about this

I wish you were still here

you keep appearing in my dreams as if you never left

your spirit is coercing me that your with me

and yet I'm no longer able to see you around

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i play fortnite now too (I'm not very good though)

Thats fun ^^ I would ask to play together but its an anonymous ask so lol, fun yo know someone checked out my stream tho since I didn't post about fortnite

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I'm sick and I streamed and I wished specific people would watch it that wouldn't reach out to me any other way

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covid the second time hits diffrent