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One must imagine Sisyphus with gender dysphoria

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James being more concerned he likes Regulus than the fact he likes men is real to ME

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Impossibly difficult to apply for engineering jobs when my only real goals for my future are to be a boy and maybe also to be martyred

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happy trans day of visibility to every character i've hyperfixated on bc i can't not make them trans too

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“There’s nothing heroic about suffering” okay but what if I suffered and I was kinda sexy with it. Like my shorts were a little too short and you could see my ass when I bent over. What then.

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the book of job can be a very queer book actually. it's all about how you can't actually just hold to theological propositions totally divorced from reality and personal experience bc you think the world doesn't make sense otherwise. it's about clinging to your own righteousness even as your 'friends' try to drag your name into the dirt bc it threatens their elaborate theological diorama of the world where everything is nice and neat. it's about how pain and suffering is not a punishment for something wrong with you. and it's about struggling with God, and understanding that in the end we know nothing and can say nothing, and yet if we resolve to speak our truth perhaps in the end we can be judged to have spoken rightly of God like his servant Job.

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Blasting Bayside on the way to church feeling very DYH Remus Lupin-coded

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they say a dog is a man's best friend. and a woman's best friend? well it's the walking corpse of course

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anticapitalist for religious reasons

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i mean fuck i like pain i like grief i like desolation i like sorrow i like to mourn

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harrow soup comic! harrow soup comic!

took some creative liberties with the structure of it all otherwise it would've been 20 pages long... love u tazmuir and all your words but i removed some for my sake... enjoy...

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i want to submit Hazel Motes from Wise Blood as The OCD Guy Ever because his entire story and character is basically a fight with religious ocd that never specifically gets called that and i’ve never related to a character’s ocd traits more and also he’s just fucked up, interesting, kind of evil, and also funny! and you can also see me ranting about it if you search “wise blood” on my blog where i also found articles where the authors agree with me lol. anyway that’s my propaganda please enjoy

OCD guy of all time!!!

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Passionate about the headcanon that the apostle Paul is an autistic trans man

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I see the choice in front of me and it haunts me in the same way Jesus haunted Hazel Motes. In the back of my mind, a wild vision of the man I could be. There are many ways God imparts grace, therefore many things in life are sacramental. At the Eucharist, we remember the bodily transformation of Christ. Christ has died, Christ is risen, Christ will come again. A body broken, buried, raised, transformed. And so, in the same way, I think that transition is a sacrament.

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miserable that there is no way 2 avoid being treated as either a man or woman

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Lately I just want to exist in a way that feels natural. No over explaining, no performance, just moving through life in a way that makes sense to me. Slower, softer, more intentional. Less about proving, more about being.

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Prince: I wish to marry!

Queen: Only if she can pass my test: failing to sleep on a bed with a pea under it!

Prince: Why are you screening for princesses with sensory issues?

Queen: She must be true royalty! Only the most autistic girl in all the land shall marry my son!