arabellawearsblack

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your life is not an optimization problem

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the more i try to explain gender to cis people the more i understand plato's allegory of a cave

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It's funny how when I was 22 I was like wow I'm probably gonna feel like this for the rest of my life and now I'm almost 27 and I'm like no bitch it was like that for only a moment....that's how it always is and always will be

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I don't think I'll ever not be in love with you, and I'm okay with that. What a breathtaking feeling you give, my love. Your voice feels like home to me, but the home you yearn for after being out at sea for months with no land in sight; the desperate yet incredibly comforting realisation of "oh, I get to sleep in my own bed tonight. "

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honestly i think a good place to start for People Who Don’t Have Disabilities But Want To Help Out People Who Do is to just… take more breaks when you’re doing stuff. set a precedent where you are not always pushing through fatigue just because you can. it is literally humiliating to have to be the first and or/only person to take a break from stuff constantly. it makes me feel so terrible to be doing the least amount of work in a group setting even when i am doing as much as i am physically capable of, even in circumstances when i know no one else is necessarily judging me for it. 

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being on the aro spectrum would be a lot easier if being single wasn't made to feel like a literal death sentence

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to be so honest things are falling apart and the center is lowkey not holding either

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in 2025 we:

treat ourselves nice and that includes but is not limited to doing those little things like painting our nails or styling our hair and eating and drinking things we actually like

draw the things we want to draw and write the things we want to write and try to ignore the demons in our heads. can't let them win

log out from social media when it makes us irrationally annoyed

tell our loved ones that we love them.

do not under any circumstances give up. even if we land back at rock bottom again. even if everything around us collapses. we keep going. we can keep going. we will keep going

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we were meant to live slowly!!!! we were meant to savor moments and feel unabashedly lazy and frolic and smell the flowers and laugh with our entire hearts and love with our entire souls!!!!! don’t ever feel guilty for resting!!!!!! don’t ever feel guilty for slowing down!!!!!! enjoying life shouldn’t be something you’re ashamed of

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something genuinely insane about going somewhere and getting to feel “i had some of the worst years of my life here” and “i was loved here, once” simultaneously.

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not romantic not platonic but a secret third thing [what would happen between earth and the moon if the earth stopped spinning as illustrated by xkcd randall munroe]

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wishing gender euphoria on all trans people, wishing for all trans people to feel at home in their bodies, to be absolutely and entirely in love with and at peace in their bodies

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I think the fast paced society we live in currently has brainwashed me into thinking i can upgrade myself and my life just as fast as when i restart my computer or phone. I have forgotten the natural cycles of life… how the moon takes her time to be full or how the crops take their time to grow their fruits. 

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mutuals come over for a sleepover and we can all fall asleep cosy together like a pile of kittens in a basket in a cartoon

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I MISS DRAWING <- is literally doing everything besides drawing