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The kid you loved wasn’t the man he became. You’re allowed to mourn the memory of your childhood you just lost even if you disapprove of the adult it made reality.

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Louis, Harry, Niall and Zayn have posted this statement for Liam, via One Direction’s Instagram. 🤍 (17 October 2024)

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The most sure sign that someone doesn’t know much about poetry is when they insist that poetry has to rhyme.

And the most sure sign that someone is a little too pretentious about poetry is when they say that they hate rhyming poetry.

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Louis' tribute to Liam via instagram - 17.10

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I used to watch and rewatch the One Direction video diaries from the X-Factor since they distracted me from my teen angst, and it's just so surreal that Liam is gone

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The worst part about Liam Payne dying is that people are posting about “the switch up is crazy”

Like no. He was an abuser and made horrible decisions, but nobody wanted him to die. He was getting hate for an INCREDIBLY valid reason, but we all recognized that he needed mental and physical help. He needed to go to rehab. He needed to get away from drugs and alcohol and improve upon himself away from the public. No one wanted him to die.

We’re not mourning the life of an abuser, we are mourning the part of him that we adored and looked up to for a massive part of our childhood/ teenage years. He was a huge part of how I was introduced to my love of music. And yes, he did horrible things and made horrible decisions and over the last few years has been anything but admirable, but none of us wanted this.

Maya didn’t want this. And everyone saying that it’s her fault can actually go burn in hell. She likely already blames herself enough. She likely already wishes she hadn’t spoken up about it out of the guilt that she likely feels. You guys commenting all over the socials about how this is her fault and “are you happy now?” Are actually horrible people.

A 7 year old boy just lost his father. A woman just lost her long term boyfriend. Two parents just lost their son. Several young children just lost their uncle. Show some fucking respect. Joking about it and hating on people who had nothing to do with what happened is not doing anything but twist the knife for the people who this has ACTUALLY effected.

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heartbroken is such an understatement, but i am so beyond heartbroken for them all. this is incomprehensible. i hope beyond hope they are given their time to work through this and grieve.

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started thinking about zayn, going on his first tour in less than a week, losing the one he last shared this with ten years ago . then i started thinking about louis, who’s strength and optimism is being pushed once again after losing his mum, sister and now brother. thinking of harry who also lost friends in similar circumstances . and niall, who was the last of the boys to see him, as his friend came to support him and sing the words they sang together back at him . thinking about them together . how they protected each other the best they could from the start . none of them deserves any of this

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me towards the end of the lucky video: oh that’s so beautiful, it’s ending with them meeting their younger self and making peace with their future :’)

the actual ending: your younger self is dead. you can never return to that little girl but you will spend your life wishing you could. you killed her to become what you are. why are you crying?

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i loved one direction with an all-consuming force when i was younger. it hurts deeply to mourn someone you were a massive fan of as teenager, and became a peer of as an adult.

i know people change and grief is unsure or complicated when it’s attached to a fond memory or the feeling a person gave you and not tangibly the person themself. i can see many of you on here are struggling with that right now and i understand.

a few years ago i purchased a home that Liam previously owned. there were rumors the house was haunted. He assured me it was not, and i believed him. because i know the ghosts that haunt us aren’t tethered to buildings. They live in parts of us that are harder to reach and they go wherever we do.

as a parent, a fellow artist, and a fan, i simply cannot fathom this untimely loss. my heart goes out to his family, friends, and the fans. 💔

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Kansas City, 28/07

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The Great Impersonator [part I]

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#7: “What are you smiling about, sunshine?” (donate!)

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people who write poetry are so scary literally how the fuck did you do that

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being on tumblr for a long time but never reading homestuck like

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Why I’m a Gaylor:

• Nashville kid / music industry gay recognize Nashville kid / music industry gay

• It’s too late to turn back now

• I enjoy seeing people be free and I like it when they use their voice for the greater good

• Autism