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*This is a recording of my heart after running in place and doing a handful of squats*

A fantasy of mine, is to employ a cardiophile cardio-fitness-coach, who forces me to exercise, while closely monitoring my heart.

He’ll push me until satisfied with my beats per minute for each exercise, and examine my heart during recovery, listening, palpating my chest, feeling my pulse points… encouraging me and praising me for making my heart work so hard for him.

Regular stress tests with echocardiograms where we can watch my heart race and flutter.

And even heart rate monitoring on days off, just to keep an eye on things…

That would keep me motivated for sure.

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In the mood to test my heart this morning.

I did a few exercises, and then held my breath. I love the way the pounding slowly intensifies as my heart becomes more and more desperate for fresh air… and I love the sounds of the delicious gulping beats my heart makes when she finally receives it…

Please, tell me what you hear in my heart…

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My heartbeat, shortly after my visible video. Not sure how to record my heart and video at the same time….

How does she sound?

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My body is too soft and fleshy to make out the shape of my heart… but she’s there, and she’s pumping strongly beneath it all.

I have to exert myself a little for my pulse to bound like this… I could feel my heart swell and kick with force after just a small amount of exercise🫀

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A steady heartbeat will make me feel all cozy and comforted.

A nervously pounding heart is adorable.

A fast heartbeat is thrilling.

A slow heartbeat is impressive.

A visible heartbeat is divinely sexy.

But, a heart that is working hard, whatever the reason may be, and struggling to keep up… stumbling here and there, is my absolute weakness.

I like to imagine what it must look like inside, the steady rhythm interrupted; skipping and stuttering… striving to regain a normal rhythm. A pause between beats builds suspense… an irregular rhythm stirs intrigue, the resilience of the heart, trying as it might to beat normally, to keep life flowing, is so very beautiful.

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I carried heavy groceries, this was how my heart reacted…

🫀How fast is she beating?

Does she sound okay?

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True Story:

Last night I dreamed I was at the doctors office for a routine checkup.. I was relatively relaxed, and believed I’d only be there for a quick visit.

To my surprise my doctor said, in quite a serious tone, that she needs to examine my heart. She didn’t explain why, or what they were looking for, or what tests would be performed, or even how long it would take. My doctor simply told me that my previous doctor had indicated some concerns about my heart on my chart, and that she needs follow up to see what is going on.

This certainly was news to me.. In an instant, my mood shifted. A pit formed in my stomach as my heart began to slam in my chest. Fast and hard. Which, of course, made me worried about how my anxiety fueled beats would influence the results of these surprise tests…

The doctor led me to an exam table where I was to sit and wait… waiting only made me more nervous… the doctor left for a while and returned with a specialist. The cardiology specialist proceeded to poke and prod at me, feeling my ankles and legs and working her way up my body. I felt somewhat violated. With every passing moment, my heart throbbed with increased intensity. Finally it was time to examine my heart itself… my heart was pounding as hard as ever, it felt as though it might burst.

And then, I woke up!

I awakened to my heart beating so forcefully that it made me a little bit frightened… all that slamming in my chest, from just a dream…

How would you complete the tests if you were the heart specialist?

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Can anyone tell me something about my heart?

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