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"I ... I don't know" April  said and ran a hand through her hair. Jackson said exactly what she wanted to hear, but she could not understand why she continue to feel this way. Confused. She looked at him desperately. "I'm like the worst hook up ever,right?"

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"I guess you’re supposed to feel happy about it…I don’t know. I feel good about it, but I don’t know where we go from here." Jackson shrugged a little and called someone over to get him and April another drink. "I’d do it all over again, April. I really would, but I can’t help but feel like you regret it the tiniest bit even though you say you don’t."

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April took a deep breath and put her head down. " I ... I'm so confused. I'm trying to clear my head but it's not working." She took another sip trying to buy time and than she looked at him "I don't regret it, not in that way. It was beautiful and ... and unforgettable, but I do not know how I supposed to  feel now?" And then he smiled. And April could not resist not to smile back."Don't do that to me" she mumbled.

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Jackson raised an eyebrow as April spoke. “Yeah…you look real fine. What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours? We’re supposed to be friends or something else, you should be able to talk to me…but you can’t and you’ve been avoiding me. Truth be told, I’ve kind of been avoiding you too…but just because I thought you’d regret it.” Jackson let his brain catch up to his mouth as he spoke. He sat down in front of April and smlled a little. A smile he knew that she couldn’t resist.

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April took a deep breath and raised her head, but immediately regretted. There was he, Jackson Avery, headed in her direction. She glanced quickly over her shoulder, but it was too late to escape. Here we go April,just be cool.  She was trying to look casually, but it was difficult with a heart that beats like insane. She did not know what to expect, but on her list was certainly not "Hey Apes,what's wrong?"

She looked at him for a few seconds,not knowing what to say. Everything is wrong, she thought, but instead of saying that she took a sip of her drink and muttered "Oh I'm fine ... Jack-man" with a touch of irony in her voice.

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After a long day of picking up the slack of the doctors who weren’t working after the plane crash, Jackson headed over to Joe’s. He was glad that he wasn’t on the plane, but some of his people were and he was feeling the force of it just as much as them. He got to Joe’s and looked around. He spotted a familiar face and walked over with a smile. “Hey, Apes. You look slightly troubled, what’s wrong?”

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I'm fine, except that I'm big failure and I hate my life ...  so yeah I'm fine.

Finally..

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Ah Kepner. Thank you. How are you?

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Good for you dr.Sloan.

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Finally..

Get to leave the hospital. 

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Oh that would be ... wonderful.I don't know how to thank you.

Oh look at me babbling about my problems. How are you after the plane crash?

Is there some more bad news?

Oh.. I see. It makes sense now. Would you like me to vouch for you? You have two good hands. You should use them to help people.

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April's mind was an apsolute mess. She clutched the bottle of beer in her hand  while her mind just went on and on. Everything was so shaky. Chief Hunt still has not withdrawn his offer so it is possible that there are still some chances for her to stay in Seattle. In her mind was constantly crossed picture of her and Jackson in the bedroom and a pig farm. April took a long sip of her drink and shook her head.

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Oh I did such a stupid thing. 

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Oh God this is so complicated. *rolled her eyes* 

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Like I said, we are avoiding each other. He is a guy, I guess he supposed to step forward and talk. And there is always a chance that if we avoided the long enough, it will all disappear and it will be like it never happened. Is it?

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Oh I don't know. Sure he has those beautiful blue eyes,and great body ... but what am I to him, I have not even passed my boards.

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Oh Dr Shepherd I failed my boards so If Cheaf Hunt withdraws his offer, I will have to replace patients with pigs from my family's farm.

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  Pig..? Your definition of weird isn’t quite the same.as mine. 

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It's not a bad word, it's a bad thing to do ... I mean not bad, it wasn't bad at all ... but ...  oh Meredith I don't know what I'm supposed to do now.

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More precisely, we are avoiding each other ... since ... boards and that thing.

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Just hold on. 

well maybe if you ... ugh ...   run into Jackson, just tell me what he says about ... you know, these past events,boards and that ... stuff.

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Well not really,I'm freaking out but at least I was not in a plane crash. How are you?

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Well at this point, the only thing worse could be that my dad says he does not have a pig on which I will take care.

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Don’t say it. It always gets worse.