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I can’t deny that babies are adorable. Especially when they’re aren’t yours to begin with. I’m not saying Baby T isn’t, but the experience is completely different from what I thought it was. I used to think that I could handle them with ease or perhaps the challenge wasn’t that much of a problem. Maybe I was wrong?

Baby T arrival has indeed been amazing but the gullible part of me had it wondered should it be as easy as ABC when they’re crying? It’s either hungry or nappy needs to change? But it doesn’t seems the case recent nights. He has weird rejection even when he was being fed? He simply just unleashed the hellish pathway! I’ve been trying to be more patient and give in to him as much as possible. Having myself transformed into a zombie isn’t fun at all!

Sleep time was havoc and I barely sleep well. Sometimes it was only for 30 minutes when you just put him to bed after his feed. Thinking that he will only needs the attention 2 hours later (it was supposedly 3 hours) but I was wrong again!

His feeding time seems to be shorten and requires more feeding which is understandable. He is nothing but a growing child. Due to deprivation of sleep, it does affect me mentally, especially when I’m not employed and trying my best again to hustle for jobs. I don’t know what tomorrow holds but I’m really doing my every bit to make this possible.

Once again I’m dreading that my emigration plan will be disrupted. I’m definitely feeling unpleasant about my current situation. Maybe my partnership will take up soon so let’s see how it goes. If this isn’t working after 3 months I reckoned, it’s time to seek more stability and screw whatever I’m doing. It’s just not worth it… and yes I’d like to blame it to Singapore once again for being so rigid, and simply fuck up. All I asked is to pursue my career in work that I can strive for and thing I’m pretty much good at. Why isn’t this happening? I’m serious tired hustling but yet I can’t stop because I’m still far from my goal. Goddamn it…

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17 minutes of my birthday has begun and this year is unusually unique because of my Baby T. Having the best gift thus far in my 42 years of life, is really receiving such precious and priceless baby. A gift that has been waiting for me for the past 10 years.

Being a dad the first time on my birthday is truly special. I still can’t believe this is so real. I could be expecting a surprise birthday cake from my silly and lovely wife but that’s okay. This year is different and I don’t really need any of those. I really want to help her during these difficult time.

Make sure our little 2 weeks old monster is well taken care of and there’s no hiccups. I’m already glad that I can still get my one day off on a Saturday where I can truly enjoy my ride. Anyway it’s great being a dad and I just wanna wish myself a happy birthday to me!

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Parenthood is definitely not what I expected. At least not in a bad way. Yes new parents will have to go through the initial stages of cranky baby, feeding sessions, diaper changing and many more. But as parents, I guessed we just got to embrace them because it’s part of the parenting process. I never said it was easy but I’m coping it and work with my Darlin wife.

Peanut really has a thing for late night. During the day, he was as calm and peaceful at the lake. But when night fell, he somewhat transformed to an adorable cranky little monster. But having that said I still love him. Though I would prefer him to be as calm as he was in the day.

Well, there’s still a lot more ahead so I just need to embrace them all when time comes. Why worry? What I really wanna think of is also how can I cope with work? Especially at times like now? I’m keeping fingers crossed for the retainer jobs and hopefully they last me a long time to come.

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And I supposed the “journey” had already begun, taking me through broken sleeps and juggling time in wee hours? Haha.

Woke up sort of rested in the ward from that wretched so called sofa bed. Giving me entire backache and groggy head. Little buddy will be coming later to join us from the baby ward. And Me being daddy gotta tend to him while mommy can rest and recover from her c-section wounds.

I reckoned these would always be a precious little pieces of memories that I will never forget the rest of my life.

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The moment is finally here!! After a long marathon of waiting and trying to induce for labor of this little bugger. We waiting more than a day and a half straight. Eventually, our OBGYN suggested to go for c-sec is a better and only way to go. And finally after much hustle, he’s finally here.

The first time holding him made me teared in eyes. It’s a sensation I can’t exactly described. But it’s all good… darn good! Beautiful boy.

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Today we checked into the hospital at approximately 8am thereabouts and we have been waiting and waiting. It’s been a waiting game but I kept telling ourselves that, “good things” come to those who wait… especially this precious little one! We can’t wait to see him but just need to wait for more contraction and then dilation for the cervix to bring him out naturally.

Currently we will be expecting the third pill to be inserted for dilation and hopefully by then it will be a smooth delivery. It’s been an amazing experience and this is just the beginning I believe. There will be heck more fun and exciting times ahead. And I’ll walk these with my love and tiny tots.

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In the 2 to 3 weeks time, I will be expecting my first child, and I seriously don’t know what to expect. A lot of people have been telling me that hardship is coming for a newborn in the house. To me, I always say come what may, I believe we will find a way to deal with it. I’m not saying that it’s easy, and neither am I saying that it is hard. Surely there will be some form of complications or challenges along the way, but I would like to view them as the learning process and a precious one actually. I do believe that a child grows up real fast, so embracing all these challenges, it’s also part of his growing up isn’t it?

I would like to see him grow alongside with us and provide. Nurturing him into a young man with fine personality I also believe it is the parents duty to pass on to the child about the principles and moral in life. I’ll let him grow in the best way possible through the best environment we could provide. It is definitely a new chapter in our life, despite at a later time, is still considered a blessing nonetheless. I will cherish each and every moment watching my boy becoming a young man in time to come.

For the meantime, I’m trying to find stability in the financial support. I pray that whatever I’m doing will be smooth sailing (although I know it’s not). I’ll try to be as resilient as possible to ensure I’ll stick to my goal. Hey buddy, please know that daddy is trying his best to give you the best! 

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This year has so much exciting news and I can’t be happier to meet my boy coming late March or early April! Tyler aka Peanut has been my long awaited baby!! After almost a decade he’s finally coming to help me “complete” my little family. Our folks can’t be happier too when I broke the news!

Miracles seem to happen when you least expected. It was in early August and we are already preparing for the upcoming IVF procedure to commence and one evening I was greeted with much joy when I saw Nic flashing her test kit in her hand. It seems like an ART test kit initially but when taken a closer look at it, I cried out loud!

Truth to be told, I was expects baby girl and I already decided to named her Madeleine or Maddy in short. But it was all right, because it’s still my kiddo after all. So everything was good.

The emotion of conceiving is amazing. I can’t exactly describe the feeling but more of a mixed emotions. Nevertheless it’s still a beautiful feeling to have.

Nic was so excited and we had already gone baby shopping for his necessities. From stroller to baby cot and bottles, we have them all prepared for his arrival.

Fast forward today, I was also broken with the news that my last day with ADAM will end in March. So am I relieved? In some ways I am, despite how much I’ve been struggling and dragging my feet to work. However, it did provide me the financial support I much needed. Further more, Peanut is coming and I’ll definitely needed this more than ever. But I wasn’t as worried as before, in fact I told myself, come what May and I’ll embraced them in every way possible.

I supposed this is part of life too? Just be resilient about the ordeal and view it as a closed door which shall lead to better opportunities before me. And of course if I could get a job in Australia, then it will helped me too to fast track my goal plan. But as of now I’ve no idea what is coming up next. More importantly, I really hope to get a place of our own mainly for investment purposes and to get passive income. As we aged, we will probably be less employable but we gotta find ways before that day comes. Good planning is imperative and it has to begin earlier to harvest the fruits!

For now I’ll keep my options open, received my boy with open arms and look far ahead into my future with gratitude.

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Another year just flashed and now it’s 2023? Gosh, where’s those time? Interesting year for me, filled with both the goodies and the shitties. But I’d rather talk more on the goodies because it matters to me more! Well, I’ve a loving wife and finally we are going to have a kid coming this year! This tiny tot is keeping me quite excited and in suspense. Telling bedtime stories and talking to him has now become a new experience, and I love it the way I envisioned it.

Definitely making changes for better days ahead. Gonna have a “brand new start” in whatever I’m doing. If this don’t work, I’m gonna find something else that I can rely upon. Can’t let such setbacks jeopardize my future anymore. With new member in the house, I gotta do something about this.

Happy new year and I do look forward for the best to come and greatness in life that I deserve.

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I can’t be more grateful and appreciate for everything that has happened to me by far.  Setting up ADAM has been quite an experience for a year and a half. I’m grateful because I was given an opportunity to create some thing that I never did in my life, however, it may seems it is not what I’m expected. The company that I’m working for may have the resources and mainly the funds. To realize this, but it has it’s owned conditions and unforeseen factors within.

The problem with this company is because it has too much voices, and structure, and this organize workflow, which primarily causes the downfall or even the operations to be so poor at the current moment. There are definitely solutions out there in the market, which can turn the tide around and resolve the problems.  unfortunately I don’t think the company or the head of the management will be interested in spending more money for a flat business entity in their perspective. 

Honestly, I was promise with something that seems to be a dream yet a nightmare of reality. Therefore it did not set my expectation right from the beginning. This has gotten me really disappointed and upset throughout this period of time.  I have been trying really hard in any way possible to bring in the revenues through the jobs and projects, but it seems to be futile.

With my team shrunken it means that I will have to be getting myself more involved doing all the work that my guys were doing previously. Sometimes I’m asking myself is this the right choice to be taken away from the start?  But what really kept me going is the desire to make things happen to proof that I can. And mainly for the sake of my family especially my newborn baby that’s coming soon. Hence, I’m caught in between the stability and uncertainty. I’m now not even sure this is sustainable and stable enough to bring me to my end game 10 years from now? I need to retire outside of this dreadful place and toxic culture and people!!!

Let’s see how long I can stretch myself. Even rubber bands have their limits to snap.

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It happened to me when I was least expected! It’s on the 12 August when I came back later and here I have a dipstick looking apparatus flashing before my eyes, I thought it was some kinda joke initially but to my inexplicable joy, it was the greatest thing ever! I became a dad and I’ve absolutely no words for this moment I grasped.

We wanted a kid for approximately 9.5 years and it seems like yesterday still that my mind is in indefinite awe! I still can’t believe that we are not parents to this little precious potato. We called it potato because of the app where it indicates the growth and the estimated size so for about 9 weeks now, it’s the size of a small potato.

Our OBGYN has officially declared our status as new parents during the last visit with another round of ultrasound scan. There’s so much running through my mind since then.

Of course we were glad we had some names previsto choose from and what worries me was the growth of this little one. Is he or she going to be healthy? Will there any complications? It’s only natural and besides it’s a precious little gift we have been hoping for.

I only shared with a couple of friends. But eventually everyone will learn about the news. I really hope I can go on in the current work and aiming to semi-retire when I turned 50 or 52? The time where I can dedicate time to spend more not only on myself but also this new child gifted to us. I really hope I can support the kid as long as I possibly could, to watch him or her grow into her adulthood. And settled down at the end of the day.

It seems a little too old but it better late than never eh? I really don’t know why else to expect other than to be readily facing what comes my way. And touching a little bit on work? It has been mentally hectic, exhausting and stressful. This I’m not gonna lied. I’ve gotta do everything and anything from editing, design, networking, planning, all the way to shooting photos and filming. It never seems to end, it’s only the beginning really

Team is also not helping but giving me tons of problems. Managing people is hell of a problem and taxing. They’re so unreliable, and can get pretty unreasonable for most of it. Maybe I’m too soft? But I told myself to simply suck it up and move on as far as I can. Until the day comes for me to wrap all of this up and really have my life.

I still have my goal crystal clear, to get out of here and start a life in BC or at the very least in Perth or something. Surely there’s better options and opportunities ain’t it? Life here is getting worse, struggling to meet the ends seems like a mind fuck torture. Everything seems to increase but not the wages, not the sales.

Well, I guessed this is it. Hold on and face the challenges that’s coming my way. The good thing I’m relieved for now is I’m definitely doing better than the pre-COVID situation. Financially sort of stable and making small steps to progress for the end game. I guessed everything happened for a reason and just keep looking forward. Looking forward to seeing my little one safe and sound.

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Some people are just wretched and mean. They will sink in deep in your flesh like parasite, feeding your emotions, your kindness. I supposed this is one of those times that you need to brace yourself and go through the process. And I guessed it’s gonna take awhile, for this agony inside to subside.

Though the words from such hypocrite shouldn’t mean anything to me, it’s mere senseless and nonsensical mostly. And displaying nothing but cowardice I found pathetic. Unable to take ownership or even accountable towards mistakes is really a shame. But words do hurt people, and more often than not when one isn’t appreciated and yet taken granted for, pry deep inside.

One thing for sure is, I leave no room for absolute insolence! This is preposterous and not necessary in most situations. So don’t you dare raised your tone at me and sneaking behind discretely doing all the spewing of shit behind.

I oughta be more cautious but it’s inevitable that people like that are well disguised among us. Picking them would be finding a needle in haystacks. Perhaps it’s indeed true that it doesn’t pay to be nice? However, it’s really tough when such personality and characteristic is ingrained into my DNA. I’ll still try to avoid having such episodes. It’s draining and I’m tired to deal with shit like these. So fuck that and screw you, you pathetic and wretched Son of the Bitch!



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Already passed a quarter of 2022, almost half a year gone by. And almost too fast to fathom what actually happened all these time. I have fear lingering all the time, buried deep inside the abyss of me. They creeped on my spine whenever I’m at ease, thus making me really uncomfortable. I can’t sleep well, I can’t think straight and I’m really tired playing these games.

I’ve fear for my folks leaving and I don’t know exactly how I’ll handle that. But that’s not the main problem, the main problem is after they’re gone, soon it’ll be mine. What does the afterlife hold? I do not know and all I know is all the stressful thoughts that haunts me.

I’ve fear that I’m gonna be ill and in pain. I really fear that my memories will be taken from me. All the good memories that happened throughout my lifetime. The good people I loved and knew ages ago. Watching people all around growing old, kids becoming teens, it’s all scary. I’m truly petrified of it. I don’t know what I can do, only trying my best to shaft it back to where it belongs and hide them deep. It doesn’t resolve the issues, I know… but what more can I do?

I thought I could embrace everything in life. I thought I knew how to manage it all. Perhaps, I was wrong… perhaps I thought I was brave to see them through.

I really love what I have. I’m blessed and I’m grateful about everything I get. But the fear lies in the lack of time simply can’t be eradicated. It’s very real! Time seems to speed up after 20s and double up on the 30s! Now entered 40s, I’m feeling like myself hanging by a thread off a cliff!

I’m trying to find faith in that all mighty entity, but I just don’t know how to connect. It’s not like I’ve never tried doing so. I just can’t seems to connect.

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The year 2022 came rolling real fast, and now we are entering the tip of March as I typed. It’s scary to see how time flashes and everything seems so intimidating?

Well, I sort of like what I’m doing but I also kinda dislike it. Dealing with all kinds of shit I never had before. Creating curriculums, editing curriculums, updating curriculums, planning for projects, making changes for projects, managing people in the team, dealing with all the shit from people.

Honestly, it’s very hard to strike a balance with these! I know, I know, I gotta be grateful for this opportunity that I never had. Cherish this moment before it’s not there blah… blah… blah… it’s not that simple in whatever I’m doing. Maybe I’m just not used to the new arrangement, or maybe I’m just not able to see things right? The way it’s supposed to me?

It’s just frying my brains every single day! I’ve got a clear sense of how I’d really like to run the show but like I said, it ain’t simple. I’ve got a plan and just make it work, and voila!!!

It’s like a one way ticket that was presented to me and took an unspoken oath that I can’t break them. Many times I’ve had asked myself, what have I gotten into? Yes, it’s indeed an opportunity, a lifeline to get me to my life goal. But is this really for me? Or I just have to accustom myself to these great challenges?

I do love what I do… but it’s not entirely too! It’s like a love and hate situation, where I’m kinda caught in between, at times getting qualms over certain things. And far too many time I’d really like to simply lose it all… blew off my top and fuck I don’t give a shit! If only it was that easy choice to make.

Getting onboard with such huge responsibilities doesn’t comes with a handbook. It’s a free play, you gotta do what you do, to make things work. There are decisions to call for and you’ve got no clues about the consequences or it’s repercussions in store for you. You’re not even sure if you’re making the right choice just about everything? It’s devastating most times!

Well, one could say just breathe and things will fall in place? I’d say cut that shit and it doesn’t work this way that I’m fucking sure. You get sold with some dreams that aligned with yours but the irony was, I don’t seems to be getting what was being promised?

Trust? Well yes I do trust the man who gave me “the opportunity” hence I’m still here working my ass off, cracking my head everyday, while my insomnia gets worse! I can’t find a balance in my work!!! I needed more smartass to come join me to make certain things happen.

Marketing peeps are giving havocs and mind fucking me all the time. That made me question myself if I had made the right choice for all my hire. Is this guy the right fit? What if he or she ain’t the right one after that? Can I just ask this person to leave? Can I really do that without feeling sorry? Oh goddamn it!!! Why must I have to deal with all these shit? Oh yea right, I forgot that I brought this upon my own. So deal with it right?

Media peeps aren’t letting me slide that easily either. Whinny, pathetic and egotistical shit just got me! Maybe I was too nice? Maybe I simply can’t handle this? Oh for fuck sake, cut me some slack fucking hell! Most people tends to think that they’re so good in what they had done in the past, and that gave them a validation to “command” what to do?

Spare me these craps! I seriously can’t stand all these fucking bullshit! But yet, I can’t rid of them!! Why? Because hiring is a pain in my goddamn fucking ass!!! Why are these people so needy, attention seeking fuckass? If one has the expertise, then why bother to seek directions? Nobody told you to claim the title? And why is it my job to “guide” when I’m not even proclaimed to be the pros?? Enlighten me for fuck sake!

Was it mean to be a show? To show me that this person needs affirmation? Or simply just make my day a little busier? And yes, I can’t take the emotional roller coaster ride with surprises, I don’t do that very well. When you’re happy, you spoke with joy, claiming to support the team and shared your thoughts, driving my business as a “partner”. You see this business like your own child, hence you’re making sacrifices for it but you’re doing all these because we’re on the same page?

Come on, cut this shit already! Don’t promises you can’t keep! Which by the way is something I hated extremely!!! Words are cheap and people simply can’t honor them with pride. I had quite enough of these seriously.

Just give me a goddam break for these bullshit! I don’t need to listen to your beautiful stories about what you have for me, giving me empty words about dedication and future plans! Just do your goddamn job and shut the fuck up! I’d really appreciate that fuck sake.

Worse thing is colluding with other people to brew negative vibes, made the team fragmented and confused. I really shouldn’t consider such person to stay right? What good does it really bring to me and business even they’re “good” with what they do technically? These people are always, ALWAYS FULL OF THEMSELVES PERIOD!

This is what I’ve intended to do. I’m gonna be a strict boss! Im gonna show to these motherfuckers that I mean business! I don’t have to worry that I can’t do without them, they should think they can’t do without me! Because of me, I gave them a chance. A chance to grow, a chance to work something with me and make all the business happen. Without me, they’re just shriveling weed that constantly seek support or looking for any chances to step on anyone around them to climb higher!

Extremely toxic!

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It’s been quite a pleasure and such blessing to be able to catch up with another old schoolmate! Honestly, I really don’t know what to say, nor what to do but I guessed the catching up (despite a short one) was kinda sweet. 

I don’t really know Steph that well actually, all I know she was that girl from animation class and she seems pretty good at what she does. We did chat and hang out a fair bit back in the school days, it was all good but perhaps time flushed most of those away. 

Seeing her again today feels great, like really great... it seems like reconnecting or something? Time really flies and so much has changed, but I supposed everyone seems to be doing great ain’t it? Steph really hasn’t changed one bit, other than losing some weight, looking slimmer but the essence of her remain unchanged!

One thing I really envy is that she could really move around, never stay in one place for too long. In this essence, she’s much like me, I too love to move about, have a little taste of life moving from places to places, getting those exposures. I guessed I can only do that at maybe a slightly later time I reckoned?

I seriously hope to catch up more with these folks once again for many years to come, where we could reminisce the old good days when we were all young and aspiring artists in our own ways! Of course, I still can’t forget the fact and my goal of moving to Canada, and that’s what I shared with Steph too... I’m looking forward to the day that I can settled down, host an old friend or two in my own back yard with that stunning view of the lake and mountain where we chill over nice wines and great food. It will come soon... real soon!

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Watched a second show on Netflix without my babe tonight, Love Hard. Not a typically unusual romance movie but it has the basic values about oneself and real romance.

This is the first time I’m paying attention to this young actress, Nina Dobrev. Just realized she’s Bulgarian and a Canadian citizen. Anyway that besides the point. She in that show is a writer for some romance column and she’s been using this Tinder kinda app to look for her Mr Right and bam, she found him… almost right.

Do you spend almost every day together on the phone texting calling and it seems like they knew each other forever. And so one day she just decided that she wants to drop him a surprise visit and that’s where things go wrong.

He realize the guy that he swipe and like it’s not white it is in reality, I’d rather she’s been catfished. She was really mad in the beginning but then the guy also named Josh in the movie told her that he will get her to the guy in the picture, and she agreed to stay and play girlfriend until the holidays are over. Well I wouldn’t want to be a movie spoiler so I should just stop right here about the story.

If there’s one thing I learned about this movie, it’s about being honest to oneself and everyone else, it’s all about being yourself. It will never be a happy ending living behind a pack of lies. We could lie about everything or deceive ourselves every day into the perfection of how we perceive the things that we love, but in reality we just have to love the imperfection.

I think this is very true in our daily lives, that’s a reason why we meet we meet, and someone who we loved and be loved. Sometimes love is just as magical and enigmatic in its own way. There must be a reason why we fell in love with our partners or wives, it’s almost like someone out there simply just connect the dots and it all makes sense. For some reason, The one that walks the rest of your lives with you seems to understand you, cares and love you without asking for any return. They were just asking for you to be yourself be truthful and love them in return. It’s really not too much to ask to be honest! Loving someone is easy but truly love someone is really something else, maybe we should open up the eyes and different shade between a crush and love.

Well I mean a crush can turn out to be a true love sometimes? I’m not sure about that, but I do know that when you found that special one you just know it. Life is really short, I’m not saying that we should be settling for the second best but do you know and be aware of that someone special, and that somebody could be just the one to spend the rest of your life with you. Just make sure that you know and never to miss this opportunity because it might never come. Nina Dobrev decided to be honest towards the end of the movie and realize that the one true love was the guy that stood before her all along, and she was just too blind to say that.

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I’m feeling a little emotional and I’m feeling rather deep in my thoughts after watching the show Finch from the Apple TV.

I would say it’s a pretty good show real good movie that reflects about humanity and what’s real in this world. The show is briefly about how Tom Hanks also known as Finch in the movie, created a robot to take care of his dog after he die. They had some time together and everything seems to be a little bit weird, when finch was trying to teach the robot, Jeff about the human ways and living experience.

Well Poor Finch it’s rather sick, from all the radiation he gets that makes his health deteriorate and come to a point that he had to go. And this time Jeff had already let much of the human ways and took care of the dog. They even made a trip down to the Golden Gate Bridge, and a postcard on the fence on top of the bridge.

It was just a brief how the story goes in general, a simple movie with deep meanings about humanity can be so catastrophic can be so crazy among themselves. Why are people born so selfish, everyone is so cruel to the mother nature, and all they know what to take and take more of whatever she has to offer. It makes me a think that someday this might be the reality, if he’s not gonna happen in this lifetime of mine but surely it’s gonna happen someday. Even though technology has been better even after year I’m sure they’ll be upon a time that we will be going at the peak of technology and whatever goes up has to come down I guess?

Truth to be told I’m really very afraid, afraid The day might come and I’m not sure even know how to handle that. I’m just feeling very emotional because I could really feel time this time around like literally field time through my skin. Time of course in reality it’s just a form of measurement to us a human, and this measurement intimidate me a lot, it tells you when you are going to expire or just an estimation.

I’m thinking back about all the time I have and what do they go? How did I spend the time when I had them? Was it well spent or just let them sleep through my hands? I’m just questioning myself from time to time ever since I can 20 and it seems like time is flashing me by so quickly And I can’t catch up.

Well I guess I’m more sensitive as I grew older, and I tend to cherish the time I have now, I’m planning how I’m going to use them more wisely than before. most importantly, I hope to fulfill my dream my life goal dream to get out of Singapore making my way to Canada. Life is in permanent therefore we should live life to the fullest realize all the dreams that you could ever lay your hands on before it’s too late.

And of course, The line that finch said in the movie is deeply engraved in my head, humans are full of contradictions which is exactly true! for some reasons I just don’t seem to like humans or any other people you know, I would prefer to live in the woods, near to the lake, in the mountains, just want to be close to the Mother Nature feel her, embrace and cherish her.

Having people around just to disastrous they cost more harm than good to destroy everything along the way. Do a drill chop down the limb timber to kill all the living things that’s in the sea and the land and anything that flies. Basically people just consume everything they could get their hands on which is repulsive and very saddening. Why can’t people just love this world a little bit more? Why are human beings created to be so selfish to seize everything they have in the path?

Oh well, The bottom line is just simply love yourself more love mother nature even more and have a good life! i’m not sure where I’ll be after I left this world, I certainly would love to transit to the a better world if that’s even possible. Live life to the fullest for life scarce!

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