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the creepypasta fandom is so dead that there's not a single video on youtube with actual ben drowned lore on my native language so i have to watch it in english

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any thoughts of ftm tim. rain please. ftm tim with a fat t-dick in my mouth. WHO SAID THAT!

GIVE IT TO ME GIVE IT TO ME I AM DROOLING EVERYWHERE PUT THAT T-DICK IN MY MOUTHHHHHHHHHHHH. this is about to be incredibly thirsty.

As I type this, I am working on a Masky + Jeff t-dick headcannon thing so keep an eye out :)

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Little afab Tim was the classic “messy kid that you can’t tell if it’s a boy or girl at first glance” appearance. Shaggy haircut, scraped-up knees, always coming home muddy and bruised because he just needed to burn off that restless boy-energy.

Was nerdy as hell—obsessed with horror movies, superhero flicks, comics, anything violent and grotesque because it let him live out fantasies of being the tough, strong hero, even if everyone around him kept telling him he was supposed to be a “nice girl.” Always compared himself to the big strong main character that always saved the day.

Loved to act out cop and robber or cowboy and rebel roles with friends—a plastic knife tucked in his belt, running around yelling “I’m the bad guy!” and it just felt right, like the aggression belonged to him, and no one could tell him to sit still or be soft.

Had a couple neighborhood boys he hung around who accepted him as one of the guys, which helped him survive, but still went home to parents who forced him to wear skirts for family photos. That made him burn with shame.

When he got older, he fell into video cameras and storytelling—documenting everything, creating worlds where he could be the character he wished he was. Masky, in a sense, was the grown-up evolution of those childhood roleplays: an identity that could be harsh, unbreakable, male.

Teen Tim would put on sports bras under giant hoodies, trying to flatten his chest while avoiding locker rooms, telling everyone “I’m just shy,” but really wanting to disappear. If anyone feminized him in childhood, it felt like being punched in the gut—but he didn’t have language for it. He only knew he hated hearing “young lady.”

He’d definitely draw himself as a boy in school art projects. Comic heroes, video game characters, action dudes—he’d design them to look like him, but male, an escape hatch.

As any media and internet rampant child does, Tim found transitioning and symbolic metaphors for such in film. The first real time learning what it meant to be trans was a film festival entry that gave a really poetic presentation on transitioning and the elements of that. He dove deeper, looking up buzz words and researching what a binder was—and it kind of all went from there.

There’s something heartbreakingly real about Tim using Masky to finally live out the fantasy of being strong, unstoppable, respected as a man—even if it came at the cost of everything else.

Tim, by the time Marble Hornets starts, is probably only recently living openly as a trans man. He’s legally changed his name, maybe started low-dose T, maybe hasn’t even gotten top surgery yet—or decides not to get it at all—depends on how he feels.

He still feels raw and exposed, especially on camera. He’ll check angles obsessively so nobody catches sight of binder lines or any slip-ups. Those “behind the scenes” takes where he’s adjusting his hoodie? That’s him making sure nothing is showing.

The anxiety is off the charts: not just because of the Operator, but because he’s still working out how to be seen as Tim. Correcting people on pronouns, bracing for slips, constantly hyperaware of his voice, his shoulders, the way he takes up space on the crew.

Alex and Brian (Hoodie) respect him, and Masky becomes a tool to reclaim his masculinity. He makes Masky hyper-masculine on purpose: broad, terrifying, unstoppable. In the mask, he doesn’t worry about being read as “not man enough”—he is a man, no questions.

During the stress of the Operator, that old dysphoria flares. He feels like his body is betraying him again, that he’s too fragile, too easy to break. So he pushes harder—taking risks, doing dangerous stunts, trying to prove he’s strong enough.

Physical dysphoria + mental decay go hand in hand. The constant Operator interference makes him doubt his reality, and he hyper-fixates on his body: “Why do I still feel like a scared little kid?”

The Operator, in a twisted way, makes him more determined to be Tim. If he dies, he wants to die as Tim, no one else. That fear fuels him to correct people sharply if they misgender him, even as the tapes keep rolling and the world collapses.

If you look at his movements during the series—hunched, guarded, tense—it’s partly the dysphoria talking. He’s so aware of how every part of him is being recorded, judged, preserved on film.

There’s also a deep resentment. He’s just started to live his life as himself, to be free, and now this monstrous creature is tearing it away. There’s a special kind of rage there, one that burns through every Masky appearance.

Tim grows up with this sense that “being a man” means being big, being loud, being dangerous. When he’s younger, people treat him like a “tomboy,” calling him “feisty” or “wild,” but it never feels right. It feels like they’re letting him be “like a boy,” but not a boy. That cuts deep—so by the time he transitions, he’s determined to go all the way.

In his head, real men are fearless, aggressive, capable of hurting if they have to, and respected because they can instill fear.

So once the Operator takes him and he becomes a proxy, that deep-seated idea comes roaring forward. Masky is built on it: a brutal, cold, unstoppable force. When Tim kills or threatens or screams at victims, it’s cathartic—he feels powerful, like no one could ever misgender him again.

He channels every drop of dysphoria-fueled rage into becoming someone terrifying, because if you fear him, you can’t question him.

It goes from survival to performance: hyper-masculine, toxic, even, but it makes him feel safe. Killing is twistedly validating. It’s the ultimate declaration that he is a man—strong enough to protect himself, violent enough to protect what’s his, and ruthless enough that no one will ever see “weak” again.

There’s an almost childish logic behind it, like he’s still that kid trying to prove he belongs in the boys’ club—except now the stakes are bodies and blood.

At night, maybe he lays awake and wonders if he’s overcompensating, but the next day, he’ll pull the mask on and stomp those doubts out. Because in the mansion, in the field, in the kill, he is Tim. He is a man. No one can argue that. No matter how loud is head is to tell him otherwise.

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test post thingay dont look at it too hard :pp

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Not really the biggest guy on creepypasta ships but i fw toby n ben and helen n liu a bit. more on helen n liu i think they can have funny dynamic. seemingly mentally balanced individuals fortified with rationality and reason and then u put them into a room w eo and they are shockingly Not Fucking Normal Anymore

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I dont know who the hell the B stands for but god its disgusting that you ship anyone with Dib. Thats a whole ass child, freak. Wanted to follow for the Pokemon content but you're out here shipping whatever the fuck badr is. Dont fucking ship the kids with irkens jesus christ

HUH????? BADR IS MY NAME ITS A NAME IN ARABIC I DON’T EVEN WATCH ZIM DUGDHBCHBVHJVFH WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU ON

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wyd if your neighbors stared at you like this

reference!:

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guys the fucking shadowvanilla post i did in like a time crunch is almost to 700 notes . im peaking

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ZENO REMAKE SPOILERS IN TEXT

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This is more different than what I normally do, but I haven’t seen other people with this take so I wanted to share it. SPOILERS for BY 10 (also I talk about Christianity a lot here so if you’re not comfortable with that you probably shouldn’t read it)

In promo art with Eternal Sugar we see her a lot with this golden apple, which is later revealed to be the Fruit Of All Pains (this is from memory bear with me if the names are wrong). Originally I thought this would be connected to the golden apple from Greek mythology as that’s what most of Eternal Sugars domain and even her subjects are based after. 

   If your not familiar with it from what I know golden apples usually have three meanings or places in Greek mythology: One being the Golden Apples Gaea (the earth) gave Hera (Queen of the gods) that reside in Hera’s Garden, Two the Golden Apples Aphrodite gave to help a hero (slightly important as Eternal Sugar is based after Aphrodite), And three the Golden Apple of discord which is more widely known as in Mythology it’s what started the Trojan war. 

   This happened when Eris (Godess of strife and discord) threw the Golden Apple and said something along the lines of “May the most beautiful goddess catch it” the goddess who ended up fighting over it were Hera, Athena and Aphrodite. Aphrodite does end up winning the contest, but I believe she ends up throwing the apple away anyway. 

   I won’t go into the myth much more as it isn’t that important to the rant, what is important how this is the second instance Aphrodite is directly connected to Golden Apples. 

 If you step back from Greek Mythology though and look at it through the lens of Christianity we get really interesting parallels. First of all if you start thinking about how Eternal Sugars garden is supposed to be a paradise a place free from all worries and pains, it sort of reminds you of Adam and Eve’s garden/Eden. 

   A place free from all worries and troubles of the outside world. There’s even more parallels when we bring Shadow Milk into the picture, someone who’s already been heavily associated with the Devil/Christianity and forbidden knowledge.

Shadow Milk comes to Eternal Sugars garden in a disguise, and as @ Jamma/Jambound on twitter pointed out is the one who brings up The Fruit Of All Pains (TFOAP) /reminds her of it. While disguised as something harmless yet what he leaves as is something we’ve seen before, Shadow Milk leaves in the guise of a snake.

This disguise is the very same one the devil came in to trick Eve into eating the forbidden fruit. Not only this if you go back to the Promo TFOAP is surrounded by a snake, a motif from what I’ve seen is found no where else in Eternal Sugars Garden. Shadow Milk appearing also distracts Eternal Sugar and gives Holleyberry a chance to escape.

Unlike the devil in the original story, Eternal Sugar is very open with what the fruit does and what will happen when one takes a bite of it. She shows/tells Holleyberry this in an attempt to scare her away from leaving her garden, because who wouldn’t rather stay in paradise?

In the end even the affects of the Berry are the same. By taking a bite you will no longer be shielded by god/the being you follow you and everyone you know will be revealed to the harsh truths of the world. Yet one could say by choosing to eat the fruit as Holleyberry did, you instead are choosing to be awakened to the truths of the world. By not being sheltered by god and given all you could ever want/need,you are choosing to live in a world with struggle. Taking this into account it’s even more Intresting that Shadow Milk is the one who brings up the Fruit first considering the truth of the world is something he’s also directly tied to. 

People who are reading this, you should probably thank my friend @gremilnboxedin for beta reading the typos were scary.

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loud , deltarune chapter 3 spoilers // audio: vinesauce joel

edit: i uploaded this to youtube!

im gonna make good art based on chap 3+4 at some point i just got very distracted watching joel's playthrough

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sooooooo... can we talk about krusei now

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morning sky

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hi I'm not dead

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PSA: “Healthier” does not mean low calorie, low fat, low sugar, low carb. Healthier does not mean less.  Healthy is relative to each person’s needs.

Also, guilt-free is not a description for food.  Guilt is not an ingredient; it is a feeling.  No matter how many ingredients or calories you remove from that food, the guilt is in your mind, not the food.

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Father and spice

my favorite frames :)

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Terms of endearment.

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I will die your daughter.