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𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗏𝖾𝗌𝗌𝖾𝗅, 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗏𝖾𝗌𝗌𝖾𝗅 𝗂𝗌 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝖾, 𝖺 𝗌𝗁𝖺𝗉𝖾𝗌𝗁𝗂𝖿𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖻𝖾𝖺𝗌𝗍, 𝖺 𝗅𝖾𝗌𝗌𝗈𝗇 𝗂𝗇 𝖿𝗅𝗎𝗂𝖽𝗂𝗍𝗒.
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apostatrixe-archive · 24 days ago
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(semi-) hiatus notice! 18th — 26th dec. i’ll be around lurking until the 23rd probably, but i’ll spend that time filling my queue and being silly. if you need me, please find me on discord. after those dates above i’ll probably still not be the most active, since i’ll be at my in-laws in the uk from the 23rd dec — 3rd jan.
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apostatrixe-archive · 26 days ago
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Sparring/Training Sentence Starters
Requested by Anonymous
“Come on, then! Hit me!”
“Your stance is all wrong.”
“Am I doing this right?”
“I feel like I’ve been chewed up, spat out, and run over repeatedly.”
“Get down and give me 20!”
“How many miles/kilometers are we running?!”
“Hey! Watch where you’re swinging that!” 
“Nice punch! Now do it again!” 
“You won’t hurt me, I promise.” 
“My grip feels off…” 
“Have you ever used a(n) __ before?” 
“I don’t want to hurt you…” 
“I think I’m going to feel that tomorrow.” 
“If you can lift me up, then you can lift these weights just fine.” 
“On a scale of one to ten, how much did that hurt?”
“Here, you put your feet like this…” 
“Relax. I’m trying to help.” 
“Can you teach me how to __?”
“God, we stink.” 
“Are you doing okay?” 
“Are you alright?” 
“If I do fifteen push-ups, can I be done for the day?” 
“Come on! Another round!” 
“You can win this time!”
“Work your angle a little more and you got it perfect!” 
“What are you doing up at this hour?” 
“Where did you get that bruise?” 
“Hey, no, stop. You’re going to break your fingers punching like that.”
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apostatrixe-archive · 26 days ago
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✱˚。⋆ ↪ 𝐌𝐄𝐋𝐓 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐎 𝐌𝐄 . ( a collection of prompts centered around ... well, smut. adjust phrasing — mature themes, obviously . )
| -> ( ... ) lightly spicy.
meet me in the bathroom in five minutes.
shhh, they'll hear you.
i'm serious - right here, right now.
i needed a distraction, and here you are.
keep reading, don't let me distract you.
can i touch you here ?
i have five minutes, let's make this quick.
you seem to know what you're doing.
oh, we've barely just started.
i won't break, don't be afraid.
can't we just sneak off ? no one will notice.
i'm getting under you to get over someone else. is that okay ?
did you start without me ?
[ in the shower / tub / pool ] are you gonna join me or not ?
you're the one who told me to let off some steam.
you have no idea how long i've wanted this.
looks like it's just us here ... privacy at last.
can we come up with a safe word before continuing ?
you're so beautiful, [ name ].
take these off.
you take them off for me.
wait ... won't they hear us ?
don't get sappy on me, it's just sex.
can we try something new tonight ?
i skipped underwear, just for you.
if you tear that, you're paying for it.
i've missed this so much.
you just want me to do all the work ... it's kinda hot.
you don't have to hide anything from me.
tell me you love me ... i won't hold you to it, just say it.
you know what i'm waiting for.
is this the [ piece / lingerie ] i picked out for you ?
feeling risky ?
your scars don't make me see you any differently.
take me to the sofa, i can't make it to the bed.
i want this. i want you.
i don't know how i ever lived without this. without you.
i could never share you with anyone else.
do you want to come in ? i was gonna take a shower ...
i want to forget. just help me forget.
is this okay ? [ ... ] tell me if that changes, alright ?
you can pretend i'm [ name ], if that helps.
let's make this last ... i want you to remember tonight.
this doesn't have to mean anything.
i want to hear you say it.
do you trust me with this ?
let me take care of you.
right here on the counter ? naughty ...
i want to paint that pretty neck plum with hickeys.
someone's feeling bold tonight.
don't worry, i'll buy you another one.
you turn me on so easily --
say please.
| -> ( ... ) xxxtra spicy.
you're doing so well for me , [ name ].
i thought i told you to [ wait / stay still ].
choke me . i promise i'll be fine .
i'm so fucking [ wet / hard ] for you.
fuck ... that's amazing , right there ...
i'm all yours ... fuck- all yours–
touch yourself for me.
can you come from just this ?
ah-- you're going to leave a mark.
do you want to taste yourself ?
please, [ name ] - i want to come.
do you have any idea how good you taste ?
you look so fucking good down there.
show me where it feels good, [ ... ] right there ?
faster ... fuck, i'm so close.
please, please, plea-
if you don't quiet down, everyone out there will know what we're doing.
say you're mine. shout it so everyone knows what we're doing in here.
don't stop, fuck, please don't stop-
i won't stop until you've come so hard your legs shake.
get on your knees for me, baby.
are you getting close ? i'm almost there–
fuck me like you hate me. pretend if you have to.
fuck me like you love me. pretend if you have to.
i love the sounds you make ... i can't get enough.
get yourself off ... i love watching you.
come for me. now.
grab your [ toy ], i'm about to rock your world.
please touch me. please, i'll do anything.
look how pretty you are when you're about to come.
we shouldn't ... ah, we shouldn't be doing this.
fuck, [ name ], i'm coming ... fuck-
tell me how badly you need [ it / me ].
you feel so fucking good.
please, i'm so close.
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apostatrixe-archive · 27 days ago
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❝ There's something on your mind, Daya. ❞ Teia tilts her head, questioning where her statement is not. They have known each other for a long time; skilled though Daya is at keeping her thoughts concealed, she can tell when there is a persistent concern.
And with as many concerns as they have of late, the Seventh Talon cannot guess what exactly this is about. ❝ Is it something with the Antaam? ❞ Everything seems to be, these days; The occupation is fairly recent — it would be in their best interest to root it out before they settle too comfortably. Easier said than done, when the city was somehow handed over to its invaders on a silver platter. Vi and House de Riva had recently arrived to aid, but even so... 
❝ Or is it something else? ❞
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DAYA KNEW BETTER than to lie out right to Teia. For a moment she considered if her worries have done stewing and are ready to be revealed, or if she should just keep it to herself. It was a worry founded in suspicion after all, and it was everyone's safety she was always worried about.
"It all went too fast, too smooth," she started, the words tasting bitter in her mouth. "And yes, you know this, but... I am simply trying to peace together who gave them the key, if you catch my drift." The implication was simple. Someone clearly betrayed Treviso. Maybe it was a politician or maybe even a high ranking Crow. "I can't help but wonder, how much of our operations now get back to the Antaam." 
There was this deep unsetting feeling since the Demon of Vyrantium had died. Crows always turn against each other eventually. But usually the intrigues were reserved for each other. It never included Venatori, Antaam; it was an Antivan exploit. "I had one of my fellow mages tailing an Antaam convoy heading out of the city. I have not received word back yet. That concerns me as well," she admitted finally. It was not a contract of any kind, but she knew that she was not at liberty for giving out such an order. Really, it was not even an order, as much as an agreement between brethren. But Daya made a habit of taking the heat for such things. 
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apostatrixe-archive · 30 days ago
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I made a new rook and... i'm in love
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apostatrixe-archive · 30 days ago
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✱˚。⋆ ↪ 𝐙𝐎𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐂 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒 . ( a collection of headcanon prompts based on each zodiac sign . adjust questions as desired . )
⊹ — ARIES . ≻ how does your muse handle competition ? ≻ what is your muse's biggest regret ? ≻ how does your muse handle losing control ? ≻ how does your muse express their passion ?
⊹ — TAURUS . ≻ what is your muse's most prized possession ? ≻ how does your character show their reliability ? ≻ what is your muse's favorite way to relax ? ≻ what simple things does your muse find joy in ?
⊹ — GEMINI . ≻ how does your muse communicate with others ? ≻ how does your muse handle the duality within themselves ? ≻ is your character predictable ? unpredictable ? ≻ how does your muse react to change ?
⊹ — CANCER . ≻ how does your muse react to emotional manipulation ? ≻ what is your muse's most treasured family tradition ? ≻ what is a cherished memory your muse holds close ? ≻ how does your muse express love & care ?
⊹ — LEO . ≻ does your muse lead others effectively ? ≻ what is your muse's most arrogant behavior ? ≻ is your character confident ? charismatic ? ≻ how does your muse handle being ignored ?
⊹ — VIRGO . ≻ what is your muse's most dedicated project ? ≻ how does your muse assist others in times of need ? ≻ what are your muse's standards for themselves ? ≻ what does your muse find beauty in ?
⊹ — LIBRA . ≻ how does your muse bring balance to their surroundings ? ≻ is your muse a people pleaser ? ≻ how does your muse navigate justice & mercy ? ≻ how does your muse handle having to confront someone ?
⊹ — SCORPIO . ≻ what is your muse's most transformative experience ? ≻ is your muse the jealous type ? are they possessive ? ≻ does your muse engage in introspection often ? ≻ how does your muse deal with obsession ?
⊹ — SAGITTARIUS . ≻ is your muse a workaholic ? what's their view of workaholics ? ≻ what is your muse's most reckless decision ? ≻ how does your muse handle commitment ? ≻ does your muse experience wanderlust ? where would they go ?
⊹ — CAPRICORN . ≻ how does your muse demonstrate their ambition ? ≻ is your muse an optimist , realist, or pessimist ? ≻ does your muse value their legacy ? what have they done to ensure it ? ≻ what is your muse's average daily routine ?
⊹ — AQUARIUS . ≻ what is a cause or a movement your muse is deeply involved in ? ≻ how does your muse handle unpredictability ? ≻ does your muse challenge the status quo ? how ? ≻ what subject or field is your muse passionate about learning ?
⊹ — PISCES . ≻ is your muse sensitive, or do they have a thick skin ? ≻ does your muse have any escapist behaviors ? ≻ what does your muse dream about ? are they lucid , do they sleepwalk ? ≻ how does your muse handle harsh criticism ?
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apostatrixe-archive · 1 month ago
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Send 🌿 to accidentally get caught under the mistletoe with my muse.
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apostatrixe-archive · 1 month ago
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bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements
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apostatrixe-archive · 1 month ago
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Is your muse aware of their needs in a relationship? //evelyn
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evelyn would be hard-pressed to indulge most of her needs. she is rigid, straight as an arrow. she achieves goals and completes tasks. relationships were never in the realm of possibilities while being in the circle or stopping the sky from tearing apart. now, sure, she had her fair share of flirtations and trysts, but she tried to keep them neat and easily ended. dreams of marriage, undying love, care, and support died the day her magic manifested.
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apostatrixe-archive · 1 month ago
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How open are your muse and their partner/s about their relationship? //dayanara
d. —
being a crow comes with responsibilities and dangers that can be complicated by engaging in public relationships. if her partner was another crow, there would be a handful people who would know (like teia, and by extension, viago). while i have a hard time imagining her getting entangled with a regular civilian, any non-crow relationship would be an extremely private affair. no need to put a crow target on someone’s unaffiliated back.
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apostatrixe-archive · 1 month ago
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𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞 !
    do   you   want   a   certain   kind   of   ship   with   my   muse  ?   check   out   the   key   below   &   send   me   a   symbol   to   tell   me   what   kind   of   ship   you   want   !     note  :    my   muse   =   blog   owner’s   muse     /     your   muse   =   sender’s   muses
romantic relationships !
💘  friends to lovers ❣️  enemies to lovers 💜  love at first sight 💙  slow burn 💚  skinny love 💔  exes to lovers again 🖤  on again , off again
familial relationships !
🌼  older sibling 🌺  younger sibling 👭  twins 🌻  friends like siblings 🍃  cousins 🌵  parental
friend relationships !
☀️   best friends 🌦   enemies to friends 🌈   friends since childhood  ⛅️  friends of circumstance  ☁️  school friends  🌩  friends from traumatic experiences
enemy relationships !
🔪   friends to enemies 💣   stole something from my muse 🔦   stole something from your muse 🗡   bullied my muse 🔫   bullied your muse ⚔️   family feud 🛠   fueds between mutual friends ❌   guilty by association
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apostatrixe-archive · 1 month ago
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IT’S  ALL  ABOUT  THE  YEARNING 
❝  you need someone.  let me be that person.  let me be what you need.  ❞
❝  look,  i dunno if i’m the kind of person you need or even want right now.  but i’m looking around and i’m the only one who’s here.  ❞
❝  i never realized how much i needed you until you were the one person who wasn’t there.  ❞
❝  you asked me once,  if i would ever take a chance on us…maybe that ship sailed.  but.  ask me again?  sometime— doesn’t have to be today.  maybe tomorrow just.  ask me again.  ❞
❝  i know i can’t protect you from everything,  but i wish you’d let me protect you from the things i can control.  ❞
❝  i used to have so much faith.  maybe not in deities or something but,  in the world.  the universe.  i believed their was a purpose to it all.  i’m not sure when i lost that.  ❞
❝  have you ever had something…missing?  like something just doesn’t feel right inside you but you don’t know what it is.  ❞
❝  sometimes,  i just need the world to be beautiful.  i know how dark and ugly it can be but i just want to see something good and focus only on it for a few minutes.  ❞
❝  i was sort’ve hoping you needed me.  is that selfish?  ❞
❝  people need someone to see them for what they are and not just see it but accept it.  i want to be that person for anyone i can…but it can be so suffocating to be that person and also remain unseen.  ❞
❝  sometimes i feel i’m being crushed under the weight of everything i’ll never be.  ❞
❝  you’re looking at me but you’re not seeing me.  do you know how that feels?  just see me.  please.  ❞
❝  i want to deserve you.  i’m trying to deserve you.  ❞
❝  i know i fucked up.  i know i did but don’t shut me out anymore.  let me in.  please let in.  ❞
❝  every time you smile at me,  i memorize it.  i remember each moment that i get to be the one to bring out that light inside you.  no matter what happens between us,  that’s what i’ll remember.   ❞
❝  i can’t help but think there’s got to be something out there for me,  somewhere.  just some place where i actually feel like i belong.  ❞ 
❝  the world is so big.  why do i never feel like i fit into it?  ❞
❝  when i’m with you i feel like myself.  i feel like every side of me is present and accepted.  and i feel good about it—  i feel good about who i am when i’m with you.  ❞
❝  do you like me?  i know you love me.  i know you care about me but.  do you like who i am?  ❞
❝  i want to look in the mirror one day and not feel uncomfortable with my own reflection.  ❞
❝  just take my hand and close your eyes.  pretend we’re anywhere else but here.  ❞
❝  so,  what would you be?  if you had to power to change all the things making you unhappy,  what would your life look like?  ❞
❝  do you even know what it does to me?  every time i see you cry,  any time you’re hurt even the smallest bit it just— do you realize how deeply you’ve imbedded yourself into my heart?  ❞
❝  i don’t feel like a whole person without you anymore.  i don’t fucking care if anyone else would say about that.  you’re part of who i am now.  the most important piece of me.  ❞
❝  every time you walk away you take another piece of me with you.  ❞
❝  i’m only really living in the moments when we’re together.  the rest is just existing until you look at me again.  ❞
❝  it feels like there’s a string around my heart and it’s connected to you.  everywhere you go you’re just tugging me behind,  pulling me towards you.  ❞
❝  you’ve got me in the palm of your hands.  you could crush me and i would still thank you for touching me at all.  ❞
❝  i no longer know where i end and you begin.  you’ve wound yourself around my soul so tightly,  you’re all i feel anymore.  ❞
❝  you’ve stolen my heart,  the least you could do is tell me what you intend to do with it.  ❞
❝  i don’t have perfect words.  i’m not the kind of person who knows how to sound poetic and shit.  so all i know what to tell you is that i belong to you.  i don’t know if you want me.  but i’m yours.  and at this point however it is you need me,  i’m here.  ❞
❝  you’re the only thing that matters anymore.  i can’t eat,  i can’t sleep—  all the goddamn cliches from every stupid movie and song.  you’re all i think about.  i’m useless except when i’m yours.  ❞
❝  i haven’t stopped thinking about the way you laugh.  i’m hoping i’ll get to hear it again.  ❞
❝  when your eyes are on me,  i feel like something worth seeing.  ❞
❝  just let me look at you for a little bit.  ❞
❝  i would do anything for you.  all my lines and rules.  they mean nothing when it comes to you.  it’d cross and break them all just to make you happy.  ❞
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apostatrixe-archive · 1 month ago
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30 Questions about your muse and their relationships...
A set of questions for your favorite pairing, from a little more of an analytical perspective. Adjust wording as desired.
Can be answered IC or OOC!
What does your muse think of love? Of romance?
How does your muse fall in love?
How does your muse fall out of love?
Is your muse ready and equipped for a relationship?
Is your muse aware of their needs in a relationship?
How vulnerable is your muse ready to be with their partner/s? Is there anything they're hesitant to share?
Which of their needs is your muse willing/ able to voice in their relationships? Which needs do they struggle ( or even refuse ) to articulate?
In what ways is your muse prone to sabotaging their relationships? Do they do these things consciously?
What does your muse want in their relationships that others might be hard-pressed to give?
What drew your muse and their partner/s together?
What keeps your muse and their partner/s together?
What would break your muse and their partner/s apart?
What does your muse want, or expect, out of a relationship?
What does your muse want, or expect, out of their partner/s, specifically?
What does your muse think they're getting from their relationship?
What does your muse bring to their relationship?
How has your muse's experience in their relationship differed from their expectations/previous relationships?
How often do your muse and their partner/s see each other?
How much space/alone time does your muse need from a partner?
What are your muse and their partner/s like on a good day?
What does your muse do when their partner has a bad day?
how physically intimate is your muse with their partner/s?
how emotionally intimate is your muse with their partner/s?
How well do your muse and their partner/s communicate?
How open are your muse and their partner/s about their relationship?
How does your muse talk to other people about their partner/s?
What would your muse be willing to change for their partner?
Would your muse ask/expect their partner to change anything for them? (If so, what?)
Would your muse stay in a relationship if the person didn't like their friends/family/lifestyle etc?
How does your muse behave toward their partner/s during a fight?
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apostatrixe-archive · 1 month ago
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↪ DRAGON AGE INQUISITION: SKYHOLD - INQUISITOR'S QUARTERS
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apostatrixe-archive · 1 month ago
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Something's Wrong With You (senses)
Eyes
"Can you focus on me?"
"Hey... I'm over here?"
"What are you looking at?"
"Whoa, hey - sorry, didn't mean to startle you."
"I'm - I'm right in front of you."
"Can you... can you not see?"
"When did you lose your vision?"
"Hey, it's okay - it's okay. Let me take your hand and lead you."
"Don't be scared - it'll be okay. We'll fix it."
"Don't flinch - I'm going to touch you."
Ears
"Hello? Hellloooo?"
"Are you ignoring me?"
"God, you never pay attention -"
"I'm talking to you!"
"Why aren't you listening?"
"Pay attention!"
"Listen!"
"Can you not hear me or something?"
"Why are you looking at me like that..?"
"What - wait... you can't hear? Why am I saying this you can't hear it."
Mouth
"Why are you making that face? I spent ages cooking that."
"Why are you adding salt to that?"
"Whoa, you're drooling like crazy."
"Are you choking?"
"Bland? How can it be bland?"
"I can't taste anything."
"My mouth just tastes like blood."
"Everything tastes of nothing."
"My tongue's gone numb."
"Bleh."
Nose
"Eugh, can't you smell that?"
"Oh, that smells hideous."
"It reeks in here!"
"You stink."
"I think I broke my nose."
"I can't smell anything?"
"I think I've gone nose-blind."
"Should I... be able to smell anything?"
"I think I burnt my nostril hairs out."
"Everything just smells like smoke."
Feeling
"I think I just burnt my fingerprints off."
"My hands have gone numb."
"I can't - I can't feel anything. At all."
"Are you touching me? I can't tell -"
"Your hands are shaking."
"Okay - if you're going to keep dropping things you need to put them down."
"Can you feel this?"
"I'm going to run my fingers through your hair."
"I'm taking your hand."
"It's okay - it's okay. Just take a breath. The feeling will come back."
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apostatrixe-archive · 1 month ago
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sorted out my blog. like for memes. x
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apostatrixe-archive · 1 month ago
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sorted out my blog. like for memes. x
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