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𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐀𝐋, 𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐑𝐄𝐔𝐍𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐐𝐔𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒.

All   sentences   are   taken   from   a goodreads search of the keyword: betrayal, tension and reunion.   Change   names,   pronouns,   locations   as   you   see   fit.

“It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.”

“But the cruel thing was, it felt like the mistake was mine, for trusting you.”

“I used to advertise my loyalty and I don't believe there is a single person I loved that I didn't eventually betray.”

“I think I realized that I would rather die because I betrayed them, than live because I betrayed you.”

“Stab the body and it heals, but injure the heart and the wound lasts a lifetime.”

“It's hard to tell who has your back, from who has it long enough just to stab you in it....”

"What was it that you wanted and why didn't you fight for it?”

“I could never hurt him enough to make his betrayal stop hurting. And it hurts, in every part of my body.”

“Betrayal is common for men with no conscience.”

“Why shouldn't I hate her? She did the worst thing to me that anyone can do to anyone else. Let them believe that they're loved and wanted and then show them that it's all a sham.”

“Her only way home was to betray her friend.”

“Only those you trust can betray you.”

“Do you know what love is? I'll tell you: it is whatever you can still betray.”

“When you care about someone, you can’t just turn that off because you learn they betrayed you.”

“This is why my betrayal was so terrible. Because you believed me incapable of hurting you, and yet I did.”

“Even as your body betrays you, your mind denies it.”

“Whoever controls the king, controls the kingdom”

“True love is tested when betrayed.”

“One day you will learn that love does not always betray you.”

“I don't want to fall in love with you because you'll just end up using it against me.”

“You don't stop loving someone just because they hurt you. It would certainly make things easier if you did.”

“Why do you react that way if I don’t mean anything to you?”

“Do you always fall into the arms of handsome strangers or is this a new thing for you?"

“And I'll save your life again and again, aimlessly hoping you will allow me to stay in it.”

“Mark my words, Prince. I will be your undoing."

“Tension, in the long run, is a more dangerous force than any feud known to man.”

“You are mine, Born-in-Fire. Even if only the two of us know it.”

“It wouldn’t have been fair.”

“may you and i never forget this tension is here so we could love”

“Looks like I’m done for. You wanna grant a dying man a final request?”

“Your mind always resides in unseemly places."

“I’m glad you came tonight, though, Heather. I thought you wouldn’t as soon as you knew Yoko Ono was coming.”

“Being in the same room with the MacDonald men was like standing in a demilitarized zone.”

“Friendship is a tension. It makes delicate demands.”

“The body tells the mind what to think.”

“There is always doubt and always fear. There is always trouble, always tension. Tension and trouble; fear and doubt; war.”

“Silence is its own kind of tension.”

“Tension is the Mirror of our Past.”

“You survived; I survived. We’re together again. I once begged the gods to let me see you — if only for a moment. To see you and know you’d made it. Just once; that was all I ever hoped for.”

“There was just no good way for a dead son to greet his mother almost two weeks after his funeral.”

“A ‘hello again’ after the final goodbye is sometimes harder than just keeping the goodbye as it was.”

“A family reunion is like an unlicensed surgery. Every­one has a scalpel, and anyone could be operated on.”

“I knew she'd come back to me. [...] And she knew it, too. We both knew our time wasn't over.”

“I was delighted to see you again, and forgot for the moment that all happiness is fleeting.”

“I had to see you again  or I would die.”

“I was mad because this moment was supposed to be simple, and it was not.”

 'We're all alive. Please don't cry on me about it, though.'

“I hate myself that I wasn't there for him. I hate that I could not feel it in him. How could I not know what had happened? How could I not hear it in his voice, his comments, or in his demeanor? He needed my help, and I couldn't feel it.”

“I, um, I thought you might want this back.”

“Sometimes it's easy to forget how much you miss people until you see them again.”

“Why couldn’t I have spent the last few months like this, wrapped in your  arms?”

“I’d think about you and how I didn’t want us to end. It’s complicated…’

‘Of course I did! I’ve missed you so much, I hurt from it.’

“I’ve only imagined seeing you again. That you’d come to my home. That I’d run into you on the street. That I’d look up, and you’d be there, and you’d be well . . . and I’d tell you that I love you.”

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𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐀𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐒, 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐎𝐈𝐒𝐄 𝐕𝐈𝐁𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐋𝐘. odysseus leans into her grip, smiling all the same. “come now,” he tells her, voice a playful hum. “a little water never hurt anyone.” though it only lasts for a moment as she pulls him in, and the ithacan king kisses back with warmth and love. fingers glide up her back, rubbing gentle circles.

when she pulls back, he does the same – content to bask in her warmth and love and certainty. only, his eyebrows pinch when he realizes she looks worried. threads of concern pool against the pit of his stomach, until she speaks, and everything locks up. his brows shoot up, eyes widening. odysseus pulls his hands in front of their bodies, one brushing against her stomach as if he might understand the will of the gods themselves.

“really? truly?” he asks, voice a low buzzing whisper. he imagines her stomach swelling further, spending their days content and close. he imagines holding his son or daughter, singing them quiet nothings. eyes search hers. there's nothing but joy written on his face. “you’re sure?”

Penelope shakes her head. "Because now you're soaked through," she says. She brushes his hair back from his temple again, laughing.

She pulls him in for another kiss. He matches her madness, and there's nothing but joy in her gaze for it. What a wonderful life they've had. What a beautiful time.

She holds his face in her hands and presses a kiss to his lips. She looks at him, a little anxious but more than anything excited.

"I'm with child," she says. She searches his gaze for a reaction. "You're going to be a father."

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"Elizabeth Barrett Browning from Aurora Leigh, 1856" - x

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OPHELIA (2018) dir. Claire McCarthy (requested by anonymous)

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— Anaïs Nin, from The Voice

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— I Guess the Old You is a Ghost (#589: June 25, 2014)

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i've been vibing really heavily with circe and athena, so like this for some memes or a randomized starter at your muse. if multi, let me know what muse you'd like them to interact with? and which of my powerhouse ladies you'd want to interact with them. <3 ody is also still on the table too, ofc.

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𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐇𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐀𝐒𝐌 𝐈𝐒 𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐈𝐌, 𝐎𝐑 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐒, 𝐈𝐓 𝐈𝐒 𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐈𝐒 𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐈𝐓, 𝐓𝐎 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐔𝐑𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐎𝐖𝐍 𝐃𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓. the sorrowful weight seemed forgotten, and instead replaced with the warmth of a man too caught in his own tale to care. in this moment, they’re newly married and he’s telling his wife some sporadic adventure he’s stumbled into that has upset a bystander or two, sheepish laughter and grins. though it doesn’t last, not when she agrees that she will in fact help bring the memories to life to decorate their halls.

no, odysseus doesn’t expect it – but he’s thrilled nonetheless. in the moment, the man pushes himself up and practically flips them, catching one of her hands in his and eyes wide, teeth on full display as he beams at his wife. “really?” he asks, startled, bewildered, but equal parts excitement. he listens to her fondly, softening as she tells him her own vision, dying the wool and bringing his memories here – together. 

emotional tears spring forth in his vision, and he has to blink them rapidly to ease the sting. “I’d love nothing more.” he responds, shoulders sinking to relax a little more. when was the last time he’d felt this at ease, he wonders, but doesn’t linger on the thought as penelope speaks once more. odysseus smiles. “that does sound like you,” he teases, “but what can I say? I’d probably have done the same.”

Penelope beams at him at his enthusiasm. It's what she'd longed to see, reflected in his gaze when recounting his journey. She watches his hands gesturing in front of them, as though he was pointing to the image of the memory itself.

"You'll have to help me see them, then," she says. "I'd like that. We can dye the wool and bring the sights here to our halls." She likes the idea of weaving with Odysseus, listening to him tell stories of his travels while she brings them from his mind with her loom.

Penelope nods, brows going up when his do.

"The naiads travel where they like," she says. "They bring stories with them, sometimes gifts to trade. Back in Sparta, my uncle got cross with me because I was always trading pieces of jewelry for things from the nymphs."

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OPHELIA (2018) dir. Claire McCarthy (requested by anonymous)

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sexual tension prompts.

i deleted my old blog by mistake, so i’m revamping these!! if you want to reverse them, add a +, like so: [ PIN ] + and the roles will switch! these prompts are inspired by THIS MEME! they’re designed for all muses, regardless of whether they’ve interacted before or not!

[ PIN ] : sender pins receiver against a wall.

[ HANDS ] : our muses’ hands touch. (anything from grazing past or the hand holding content we all deserve.)

[ GAZE ] : sender watches receiver from across a crowded room.

[ GUIDE ] : in order to guide the receiver, sender presses a hand against the small of their back.

[ INVITE ] : sender asks receiver into a private room with nobody else present.

[ TOUCH ] : our muses touching one another discreetly but intimately in a public setting.

[ LICK ] : sender licks something from their thumb or lips in front of receiver.

[ SLEEVES ] : sender rolls up their sleeves to reveal their forearms.

[ SMIRK ] : while interacting with receiver, sender can’t resist a smirk.

[ NECKLACE ] : sender fastens a necklace around receiver’s neck, leaning in close to do so.

[ CLOSE ] : our muses are in a position which leads to the sender stepping intimately closer to the receiver.

[ UNBUTTON ] : due to heat or stress or other reasons, sender unbuttons the top of their shirt to reveal their neckline.

[ DANCE ] : our muses dance together in close quarters.

[ DEFEND ] : sender physically intervenes between receiver and a source of unwanted attention.

[ TEXT ] : sender texts intimate content to receiver.

[ PHONE ] : while on the phone with receiver, sender flirts teasingly during the call.

[ BEHIND ] : unexpectedly, sender arrives close to receiver from behind, taking them by surprise.

[ WET ] : our muses find one another in a torrential downpour of rain, both soaking wet.

[ LEAN ] : sender leans tantalisingly close to receiver to retrieve something or catch their attention.

[ LOOK ] : sender initiates intense eye contact with receiver.

[ ALONE ] : our muses find one another alone in an isolated setting.

[ ASK ] : sender asks receiver if they’re single.

[ WHISPER ] : sender leans close to receiver’s ear in order to whisper something to them.

[ BRUSH ] : sender reaches forward to brush a strand of receiver’s hair from their eyes.

[ STEADY ] : sender steadies receiver by placing their hands on their waist when the receiver almost falls against them.

[ SMILE ] : sender begins to grin at something the receiver is saying, like a big unstoppable grin.

[ PULL ] : sender pulls receiver into their side as they’re walking together.

[ STRADDLE ] : while sparring, sender gains the upper hand and pins the receiver in place, straddling their waist in the process.

[ BLADE ] : sender, having been enemies with the receiver, places a knife to their throat, but does nothing else.

[ STARE ] : while the receiver is speaking, the sender’s gaze drifts to their lips.

[ UNDERCOVER ] : while pretending to be a couple for the sake of a mission or other purpose, sender and receiver find themselves giving a Remarkably Convincing performance that leaves them questioning how platonic they really are.

[ AFTER ] : sender has just impulsively and passionately kissed the receiver without any warning nor apparent reason. how does the receiver respond?

[ REMARK ] : after someone passes a remark on what a cute couple the seemingly platonic sender and receiver are, the sender casts a meaningful glance at the receiver, expecting them to say something about it first.

[ PHOTOGRAPH ] : as someone volunteers to take a picture of them on a day out, sender instinctively wraps an arm around the receiver to steady them, holding them close for a photo that turns out to be more romantic than they were expecting.

[ CHALLENGE ] : after the receiver teasingly suggests that the sender is a terrible kisser, sender immediately and fervently proves them wrong with a long, passionate kiss that leaves the receiver taking back what they said.

[ LANGUAGE ] : sender begins to speak seductively and fluently with the receiver in another language.

[ CONSTANT ] : after days/weeks/months/years of endless flirting back and forth, sender finally dares the receiver to go beyond flirting and break the tensions between them properly.

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— David Foster Wallace

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↪ 𝑫𝑶𝑵'𝑻 𝑺𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑬 𝑨𝑻 𝑴𝑬 . ( a collection of lyric starters from an assortment of billie eilish songs . adjust phrasing as necessary . )

you scared me to death .

there's nothing left to save now .

i don't think i caught your name .

i like it when you take control .

you're sacred and they're starved .

how dare you ? and how could you ?

one of us is gonna lose .

i don't even really know how it happened .

i'm out of sympathy for you .

just let me hold you .

don't talk about me like you might know how i feel .

try not to abuse your power .

i wish someone had told me i'd be doing this by myself .

it's not like me to be so mean .

you just want what you can't have .

would you like me to be quiet ?

i haven't slept since sunday .

i don't want to want you .

it hurts , but i know how to hide it .

i'm the only one who does it how you like .

you better keep your head down .

a lot can change in twenty seconds .

why aren't you scared of me ?

i thought that i was special .

you're looking at me like i'm see-through .

you were a hero , you played the part .

i never really know how to please you .

see what you wanna see .

gold's fake , and real love hurts .

no way , i'll call the cops .

maybe you should leave before i get too mean .

i just wanted to protect you .

you only listen to your fuckin' friends .

they're never gonna give you love like ours .

all you wanna do is kiss me .

don't you know too much already ?

it's weird that we care so much until we don't .

i didn't change my number , i changed who i reply to .

i don't know what feels true .

did you really think this is the right thing to do ?

i would hate to see you go .

i'd never treat me this shitty .

i'll only hurt you if you let me .

you made me feel like it was my fault .

now i know what you are .

i feel more and more like i was made for you .

you wanna kill me ? you wanna hurt me ?

don't try to make me feel bad .

wait , you know what ? maybe just forget it .

was i made from a broken mold ?

you want me to be yours , then you've gotta be mine .

tell me "nothing lasts" , like i don't know .

wait a minute , let me finish .

you know i'm not your friend without some greenery .

my demands aren't high to make .

stop , what the hell are you talking about ?

we both know i'm worth waiting for .

you ruined everything good .

you really know how to make me cry .

your love feels so fake .

i wanna be alone . alone with you , does that make sense ?

spit it out , what is it exactly ?

i'll never let you go .

if we were meant to be , we would've been by now .

you can pretend that you don't miss me .

just fucking leave me alone .

don't say i didn't warn you .

it's pretty cool , right ?

i think i might have fallen in love .

i tried not to upset you .

do you even feel anything ?

don't ask questions , you don't wanna know .

i've been walking through a world gone blind .

i just wanna make you feel okay .

i know you don't care , but can you listen ?

don't you know i'm no good for you ?

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— Ocean Vuong, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous

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PINTEREST QUOTES WITH POTENTIAL

ASSORTED SENTENCE STARTERS pulled from various quotations I have seen on Pinterest while creating boards for my muses.

CHANGE gendered words and in-universe phrases as needed.

SPECIFY muse for multimuses.

❛ Who’s a heretic now? ❜

❛ If I stay here, trouble will find me. ❜

❛ What’s it like to be so free? ❜

❛ I watched the whole world fall apart. ❜

❛ I am teaching myself how to be free. ❜

❛ The only solution is to stand and fight. ❜

❛ There’s something tragic about you. ❜

❛ You were never a saint. ❜

❛ To be a woman is to perform. ❜

❛ l speak in verses, prophecies, and curses. ❜

❛ Now I know what I was born for. ❜

❛ There’s a light in all of us, trying to get free. ❜

❛ There is nobody innocent here. ❜

❛ Look who’s digging their own grave. ❜

❛ Come a little closer, if you dare. ❜

❛ Family defines you, even if it demands sacrifice. ❜

❛ History does strange things to dead women. ❜

❛ I can’t believe the things I’ve done. ❜

❛ Hubris is a bitch. ❜

❛ It’s all in your head. ❜

❛ I keep my visions to myself. ❜

❛ We could be heroes. ❜

❛ Take my hand, and I’ll protect you. ❜

❛ Open your eyes. This is the revolution. ❜

❛ I am so much more than they told me I was. ❜

❛ Let me be your muse. ❜

❛ I’m not just a pretty girl. ❜

❛ Your fear of looking stupid is holding you back. ❜

❛ I wish I could be the perfect daughter. ❜

❛ I am not who I was before. ❜

❛ I won’t just be a puppet on a string. ❜

❛ If I can still breathe, I’m fine. ❜

❛ Straighten up, little soldier. ❜

❛ Am I a monster, or a victim myself? ❜

❛ This isn’t the way normal people live. ❜

❛ Your impression of me is wrong. ❜

❛ I wish I could let all this anger go. ❜

❛ I wasn’t born to be soft and quiet. ❜

❛ If I hadn’t fallen, I wouldn’t have met you. ❜

❛ Maybe there’s a hero in me after all. ❜

❛ I am happy anywhere that I can see the ocean. ❜

❛ They should be terrified of you. ❜

❛ I have seen the future. ❜

❛ Let go of the illusion that it could’ve been different. ❜

❛ My father is a good man. ❜

❛ I went to war with myself for you. ❜

❛ I care too much in a world that cares too little. ❜

❛ If it makes you happy, then it’s not a waste of time. ❜

❛ Speak your mind, even if your voice shakes. ❜

❛ You make everyone around you feel seen. ❜

❛ If you feel nothing, then why are you shaking? ❜

❛ Let’s run somewhere far away. ❜

❛ You carry your last name like a burden. ❜

❛ You are at war, even in your dreams. ❜

❛ We met for a reason. ❜

❛ I designed my own catastrophe. ❜

❛ You and I are the same thing. ❜

❛ Never let another soul tell you what to fear. ❜

❛ I have always loved the sea. ❜

❛ I didn’t say I liked it — I said that it fascinated me. ❜

❛ You will never be forgiven. ❜

❛ No one ever really dies. ❜

❛ Your son is gone. ❜

❛ Death must exist for life to have meaning. ❜

❛ Your mouth is full of white lies. ❜

❛ Loving me is a death sentence. ❜

❛ There is a thunderstorm inside of you. ❜

❛ Beauty is a weapon. ❜

❛ You haven’t even seen my bad side yet. ❜

❛ How do I stop the guilt? ❜

❛ I am a victim of introspection. ❜

❛ Love is what gives me strength to survive. ❜

❛ There is nobody innocent here. ❜

❛ You’ve seen too much too young. ❜

❛ I am not of mortal men. ❜

❛ Tell me what it’s like to conquer. ❜

❛ I like who I’m becoming. A lot. ❜

❛ I don’t believe in promises anymore. ❜

❛ Parents kill more dreams than anybody. ❜

❛ You are woven into my veins. ❜

❛ You are a diamond. They can’t break you. ❜

❛ I must not hope. I must not cry. ❜

❛ It’s no wonder that you can’t sleep — you’re haunted. ❜

❛ You are made of destructive magic. ❜

❛ You are so unique. ❜

❛ I myself am a haunted house. ❜

❛ You comfort others with the words you want to hear. ❜

❛ You’ll find love, kid. It exists. ❜

❛ You talk like a book. ❜

❛ You are one of God’s few mistakes. ❜

❛ I’m not capable of saving you. ❜

❛ Curiosity often leads to trouble. ❜

❛ I have crossed oceans of time to find you. ❜

❛ I can do this. Even if I can’t, I have to. ❜

❛ I can’t go back there! ❜

❛ Forests have secrets. It’s practically what they’re for. ❜

❛ Can you remember who you were? ❜

❛ Are you proud of who you have become? ❜

❛ I see in you an old soul with young eyes. ❜

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HANNA MANGAN-LAWRENCE as SEPPIA in SPARTACUS: VENGEANCE (2012) Episode 9: "Monsters"

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random edits. the royal family of ithaca

personals & non-mutuals, do not reblog. mutuals are welcome to if they'd like