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That adhd(?) feel when instead of reading long text like a normal human your eyes decide to skip across sentences and read whatever it wants like the uncontrollable heathens they are and you take 3000000000x longer to read something because every few words you gotta force yourself to go back to actually read the sentence in chronological order. In fact, I’m convinced the reading lever in my brain is set to “best stuff first” and if anyone knows how to turn it off that’d be great

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one fairly common experience of gifted children is wishing for pain. wishing you had some great big horrible thing in your past so that you can justify the pain you’re in, and so that you’ll deserve help. it’s exhausting and it fucks you up and to anyone out there who feels like they haven’t suffered enough to get help: you’re allowed to want help. you’re in enough pain. you deserve to feel better

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“3 Defining Features of ADHD That Everyone Overlooks”

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i’m mentally ill too but fucking listen to me here. you need to take responsibility for your actions regardless of whether or not they’re a product of your mental illness. you don’t get to manipulate, gaslight, take advantage of, or straight up abuse people because you’re mentally ill! you don’t! what the fuck! why are some of you still thinking it’s okay to say things like “manipulation is okay because i have _____ and need attention from my significant other”. oh my god. Don’t fucking do that

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genuinely moved by this clip of pingu being comforted during a panic attack

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about adhd

it concerns me that people really don’t know that adhd isn’t a personality type or behavioral problem.

adhd isn’t someone who’s personality is driven by fun and disorder.

adhd is someone who’s brain goes all over the place looking for dopamine, because it doesn’t make or register enough of it, and when it finds a source of dopamine, it hyperfixates on it. it’s about deregulation of attention as well as emotions.

it’s not a person who can’t behave. a person with adhd can look like a lot of things. misconceptions about what adhd looks like kept me from even looking for a diagnosis, and it also kept myself and others (professionals, even) from taking my suspicions seriously.

everyone’s encouraged to reblog, but if you don’t have adhd, keep your additions to the tags.

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hey whats up everyone, hows yr summer, what heartbreaking truths has everyone been coming to terms with lately

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having memory issues isn’t just forgetting things.

having memory issues is memories lost or never made.

having memory issues is things poorly remembered or partially remembered.

having memory issues is remembering things the wrong way or in the wrong order.

having memory issues is recalling everything except for the parts you want to remember or remembering everything but the useful bits.

having memory issues is remembering things that actually happened as if they didn’t or remembering things that never happened as if they did.

having memory issues isn’t just an “old person thing” and having them when you’re “too young” doesn’t mean that you either have to have some romanticized tragedy in your past or else you’re just not trying hard enough or not paying enough attention.  memory issues can stem from age, illness, injury, trauma, genetics, socialization, expectation, medication, any number or combination of things.  other people not thinking that your memory should be a mess doesn’t make it any less of a mess and doesn’t make it your fault that it is.

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things that made me stop wanting to die that require no effort whatsoever

change the color used to highlight text on your laptop

move the pictures on your wall

stack whatever clutter is in your room into piles even if you don’t have time to clean it all

slightly vary your commute, even just by one street

change where you sit and scroll aimlessly on your phone even if it’s only to the chair in your room instead of your bed

drink water or juice out of a wine glass in the morning because nothing is real

shower with the lights off, without music

buy $3 flowers at trader joe’s—they look bad next to the more expensive ones but they look so good in your room

start typing things you don’t post into your notes. your thoughts can be worth documenting even if you don’t deem them worth sharing

wake up super early just once. you don’t have to make it a habit it’s just extra satisfying to go to bed that night

listen to the entirety of your favorite album from 2015

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beep beep sometimes when you have been in survival mode for a long time the parts of you dedicated to Wanting Things atrophy and you forget how to envision a future that feels rewarding because you are busy with the business of staying alive, and it can seem like your life must be pointless because you can’t imagine any long term goals. sometimes even when you leave survival mode you can’t remember how to Want Things. that doesn’t mean you need to give up on having a good and fulfilling life, it just means that Wanting Things is a muscle you need to gradually strengthen. the part of you that has dreams and aspirations is still there, it just fell asleep, but if you wiggle it enough it can and will regain feeling. it’s okay to start small

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I felt that

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girl character in a movie: *has a mental breakdown*

me:

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pay attention to how you speak to yourself. we would never in a million years speak to others how we often speak to ourselves. don’t let your inner dialogue become toxic. we so often talk about self love yet we’re our harshest critics. be kind to yourself.

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