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me and my man playing together 😖

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soup!

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should i go into pharmacy school with no bachelors or buck up and outdo my peers 😶‍🌫️

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somehow managed to get to my online class late then get to my noon class on time by making a 2 hr drive in an hour and 15 minutes 😖 little wins girls!!!!

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oldie but yeah im so happy i have this man back in my life i could explode

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this is and will forever be the love of my LIFE and i will shout it from the ROOFTOPS!!!!!!! until i die if he wants me to

my MAN came back into my life and the skies have cleared. the birds are singing. the oceans and rivers and lakes are clean and the air is crisp and fresh. the children are fed and playing in the park, the parents are gleefully watching and conversing. the soup a mother made for her son is warm and healing and reminds him he is home. the animals are quiet and calm and the forest is their shelter. i am whole.

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my MAN came back into my life and the skies have cleared. the birds are singing. the oceans and rivers and lakes are clean and the air is crisp and fresh. the children are fed and playing in the park, the parents are gleefully watching and conversing. the soup a mother made for her son is warm and healing and reminds him he is home. the animals are quiet and calm and the forest is their shelter. i am whole.

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my life is good again everybody clap!!!!

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HE WANTS ME BAAAACK!!!!!💕♥️🥰💙💗💖💞💓❣️💓😻💝💘🧡👩‍❤️‍👨🧑‍❤️‍💋‍🧑💟🏳️‍🌈👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨

it is so inexplicably insane to have to come to a point where i believe i will never find love. i have essentially lived my whole life dreaming of finding the love of my life one day and was so singly inspired by that one dream that i never lost hope even after the most absurd or disheartening of experiences. i have never considered myself a pessimist nor a miser. to find myself now believing that love isnt worth it anymore is so incredibly shocking and heartbreaking in an all new way that i truly am unable to convey in words how empty i feel. and talking about it just makes me feel like im being dramatic or whatnot but it truly feels as if ive lost my purpose in life. i dont even want to try anymore. i have given up on the only thing ive ever genuinely and passionately wanted for myself. it is so agonizingly lonely. i want to be proven wrong so badly but im truly convinced that no man i love will ever want to stay.

anyway. homework time!

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thank goodness today is a holiday, i was able to rot all day yesterday in PEACE #thankful

currently doing my meal prep and regretting that decision but HAPPY that i have today to get it together

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Ivan Kardakov by Dmitry Maximov (2021)

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thomas jaquet

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alexis doyle

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From twitter

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Roof Gardens in Rome

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blaire snaps

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im turning my tumblr into an open complaint space for how heartbroken i am because its My Decision! anyway. almost every day of my life now is getting through my day as preoccupied as possible only to be left with nothing but him on my mind as i lay in bed waiting to fall asleep. i hope he's ok. i hope he knows i still love him. maybe its wrong but i hope he still loves me too. sighh