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my life is good again everybody clap!!!!

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HE WANTS ME BAAAACK!!!!!💕♥️🥰💙💗💖💞💓❣️💓😻💝💘🧡👩‍❤️‍👨🧑‍❤️‍💋‍🧑💟🏳️‍🌈👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨

it is so inexplicably insane to have to come to a point where i believe i will never find love. i have essentially lived my whole life dreaming of finding the love of my life one day and was so singly inspired by that one dream that i never lost hope even after the most absurd or disheartening of experiences. i have never considered myself a pessimist nor a miser. to find myself now believing that love isnt worth it anymore is so incredibly shocking and heartbreaking in an all new way that i truly am unable to convey in words how empty i feel. and talking about it just makes me feel like im being dramatic or whatnot but it truly feels as if ive lost my purpose in life. i dont even want to try anymore. i have given up on the only thing ive ever genuinely and passionately wanted for myself. it is so agonizingly lonely. i want to be proven wrong so badly but im truly convinced that no man i love will ever want to stay.

anyway. homework time!

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thank goodness today is a holiday, i was able to rot all day yesterday in PEACE #thankful

currently doing my meal prep and regretting that decision but HAPPY that i have today to get it together

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Ivan Kardakov by Dmitry Maximov (2021)

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thomas jaquet

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alexis doyle

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From twitter

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Roof Gardens in Rome

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blaire snaps

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im turning my tumblr into an open complaint space for how heartbroken i am because its My Decision! anyway. almost every day of my life now is getting through my day as preoccupied as possible only to be left with nothing but him on my mind as i lay in bed waiting to fall asleep. i hope he's ok. i hope he knows i still love him. maybe its wrong but i hope he still loves me too. sighh

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Day 8, swallow-tailed kite

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Tony Curtis and Sidney Poitier The Defiant Ones (1958) dir. Stanley Kramer

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some shots from April 2017, Contax T2

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Lily of the valley by Kawarazaki Shodo (1899-1973)

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good morning. i oveslept today but i have no regrets! i am still sad about my breakup 5 months later. i have A's in all of my classes, and monday is a holiday! and a piano lesson tomorrow!