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Due to a high volume of messages that include defense and/or justification of pro-ana, recovermotherfucker has decided to streamline the process of ripping you a new asshole! You may now fill out this easy application in order to ensure that your new asshole installation can be completed as quickly as possible.

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Tired, unoriginal excuses for posting pro-ana (Please select all that are applicable):

It’s for ME, even though I made my blog public!

I’m not responsible for how other people are harmed by what I post. If they don’t like it, they shouldn’t look at it. Nevermind that many of them are minors!

It’s a lifestyle choice, not a crippling and deadly mental illness!

I’m suffering too, so please respect my right to take it out on others!

Please choose one to express your feigned surprise that someone running a blog called “recovermotherfucker” was a dick to you when you tried to justify your pro-ana posts:

“Wow, you could chill with the language and aggressive tone, tumblr user recovermotherfucker? If only I had some clue that maybe you might be a blunt person.”

“This conversation is triggering me, even though I’m the one sending you messages.”

“You should consider that they might be suffering too, and your words might harm them. It is infinitely worse that a pro-ana experiences mild discomfort than it is that they are inspiring others to die a slow death.”

Thank you for submitting your application. Your new asshole should be ripped within several hours. Stay classy, pro-ana!

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I am going to remember this image forever, it will save me so much time

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Stop glamorising EDs

No matter how many ‘stay safe lovelies 💕’ you end your posts with and ‘I don’t support eating disorders’ you tag on your posts and stick in your bios, you WILL still effect people. I was sucked into the pro-ana community at 9 years old. 5 years later and I’m pretty sure I’m on my deathbed because of the amount of damage purging and low restriction has done to my body. No matter how much you claim the pro-ED community isn’t hurting anyone, it is. Any young or easily influenced person could stumble across this shit by accident and end up fucking their life up in the long run. You wouldn’t want Binge Eating Disorder, you wouldn’t want Pica, you wouldn’t want any eating disorder that doesn’t cause weight loss so why do you want Anorexia/Bulimia so badly. Did you know that Bulimia actually makes a lot of people gain weight and still wrecks havoc on their organs? Bet it doesn’t sound as appealing now, huh. I know this post won’t get through to anyone but please just consider what I’m saying. If you do end up developing a full blown ED from this you’re probably gonna end up hating this community as much as I do. Lose weight healthily if it really is an issue for you, don’t go trying to develop a life ruining disorder. It’s not worth it.

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Losing weight is not the solution to your problems. The sadness does not leave when the weight does, remember that.

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Confessions of a former thinspo blogger

While I ran my disordered black and white blog 2 years ago, I did not consider myself pro-ana because I refused to give out tips and tricks. Looking back, I can’t believe I was so fucking ignorant. And sadly, I gained hundreds of followers with each selfie I posted— You know the usual sucking-in, look-at-my-thigh-gap, body-checking photos. I had thousands of followers and each one of them praised me for my sickness, and it became the biggest trigger  for me to lose even more weight. Every time I hit a “new LW” I would post a picture and watch as the followers, notes, and messages flooded in.

After my account was terminated and I was no longer staring at black and white photos of emaciated women every day for hours on end— surprise, surprise, the condition of my mental health greatly improved. I went into recovery and stuck to it for the most part, although sometimes I would still find myself looking through the thinspo tags on twitter. What I found was horrifying. 

There I was, half-naked  on some random person’s twitter with my hands wrapped around my thigh to show how small it was. Even though my blog was terminated, my selfies are still floating around not only tumblr but twitter too. I saw myself on pro-ana accounts all the time and there was literally nothing I could do about it. There has probably been millions of people who have seen my old photos and been incredibly triggered by it, and it’s all my fault. I chose to post them for validation, and as it turns out that did nothing but harm myself and others. I was dying in the photos, engulfed in my sickness and absolutely miserable. I would do anything to take the selfies back— but unfortunately that’s not how the internet works.

Seeing yourself as someone else’s thinspo is every pro-ana’s dream right? Well let me tell yall something: whenever I see those photos of myself I feel nothing but pain, regret, and sadness. Thousands of people have objectified my body and used it as a tool to self-destruct. And there’s nothing I can do about it. They glorify my emaciation but have no idea what my life was like at that point in time. They don’t know that I was on the verge of heart failure and am now fighting to gain my life back. To them I am an object to compare themselves to, not a person.  I didn’t think I was encouraging others to starve by posting the pictures, but now I can see the damage I’ve done and it breaks my fucking heart. I’m sorry for ever posting such triggering photos, and I’m sorry to everyone whose seen them.

Moral of the story: Think before you post shit online because it never goes away. Ever. My future daughter could stumble upon those images of me one day and be triggered into the disordered behavior she will already have a genetic predisposition for. There is literally nothing in the world I am more ashamed of. 

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What Anti-Pro-Ana Won't Tell You

Anti-pro-anas will never say how addicting eating disorder behaviors are, or how wonderful it actually is to restrict your food for the first time. They’ll never talk about the highs of starvation or the highs of purging, even though they’ve all experienced it. They won’t talk about the pure elation of stuffing your face during a binge, or how it’s almost as good as sex, because the focus will be on the negative comedown, when you’re hungover from sugar and doubled over in pain. 

They’ll never talk about how losing weight makes you feel you’re on top of the world, or how getting compliments for the first time makes you feel like you’ve accomplished something amazing. They’ll never gush over the honeymoon period or the times when not eating gives you the control to get all your shit done and then some. 

But maybe they should, because then pro-anas would know they actually know what the fuck they mean when they say “Hunger hurts, but starving works.” They know what they mean when they say “I didn’t eat for three days so I could be lovely.” They know what they mean when they say, “Cake or collarbones.” Because they’ve all said it. They’ve all had those thoughts in the beginning. 

That was their — our — reality, at least at the start. 

So yes: Eating disorders are fucking great. They are. They fucking make you feel amazing. It’s like nothing in the world can fucking touch you, because you feel light as air and better than everyone. Eating disorders are wonderful.

Until they aren’t.

Eating disorders are only fun for a while. The rest of the time you’ll wish you never developed one in the first place, because those first few months will never be worth the years you’ll suffer. 

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According to the study “Low Involvement Learning: Repetition and Coherence in Familiarity and Belief”, we are more likely to believe what we see if it has been repeated, or we repeat it.

How does this impact pro ED?

It means that by reblogging thinspo and pro-starvation phrases, you are more likely to believe that what you are doing is normal, and that eating disorders are normal and okay, rather than deadly ways to deal with chemical imbalances. It is proof that tagging your stuff “pro Ana” and “pro mia” and “starvation diet” is dangerous because it reinforces a dangerous idea, and reinforces that eating disorders and blogging this type of content are solutions, when instead they are problematic as well as deadly. It further proves how dangerous the culture of pro ED is. If you’re repeating it, you’re likely believing it.

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Stop trying to make excuses for your toxic behavior. It’s not ok to encourage people to harm themselves. I DON’T CARE IF THEY ASK FOR IT. I DON’T CARE IF THEY “LOOKED IT UP”. I DON’T CARE IF THEY WILL “SEE IT SOMEWHERE ELSE”. I DON’T CARE IF THEY “ARE ALREADY HURTING THEMSELVES” I DON’T CARE THAT “LOOKING AT ONE POST DOESN’T MAKE SOMEONE DEVELOP AN EATING DISORDER”. I DON’T CARE IF YOU THINK YOUR BLOG “DOESN’T MAKE A DIFFERENCE”. Guess what? IT DOES. I don’t know how to explain this in a way for pro ana’s to understand that nothing in this world will make it ok for them to encourage people to harm themselves. I was around eleven years old when I first discovered pro ana content. Sure, I was already hurting myself but I listened to the bullshit people had posted online. I used the “tips & tricks” I found. I listened to the forums that told me I should do x when I go over x amount of calories. I listened to the “If you see this don’t eat for x amount of time” posts. I already had a voice (and still do) telling me I was fat,disgusting,worthless,unloved,etc but then I came into this world where there was an endless amount of people telling me I wasn’t good enough. Don’t tell me what you are doing doesn’t have a negative impact on others because it does. I’m not telling anyone that they can’t use the internet as a way to vent and reach out to others. You can do that WITHOUT glorifying,promoting and belittling life threatening mental health disorders. 

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How I Feel Running This Blog

Rational thinker: We need to take DUIs seriously and spread education about driving under the influence. People who drive under the influence are not only endangering themselves, but putting other people’s lives at risk! Irrational thinker: Hey! Be careful what you say! You may offend people who drive drunk because they may actually have real problems, like alcoholism! You should be more sensitive to their feelings!  Rational thinker: But statistically speaking, most people who get DUIs are not alcoholics. And regardless, they need to understand that their actions have consequences, and that they are potentially affecting other people’s safety and well being.  Irrational thinker: But you still may hurt their feelings! They are people, too! Rational thinker: So I should just be okay with people driving drunk? Irrational thinker: Yes!

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If you ever feel like ‘you’re not sick enough’, remember that a normal person doesn’t want to be sick at all.

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Why do you guys literally admit that thinspo triggers you or was even a defining factor in the creation of your ED and still post it publicly

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Oh man. Pro anas have always been thinking like this.

“There’s no other possible reason why you could have so much of a problem with us publicly glorifying and lying about the disorders you’ve lost so much to. You CLEARLY don’t know what it’s like or you’d be one of us!”

Like sure let me tell everyone how to be sicker and then earn my Anorexia Badge from you guys

They act as if people with eating disorders would be okay with the toxic information they post on MPA.

Don’t worry. Those of us with actual eating disorders think your site is appalling. You know, because we *do* know what we are talking about and understand your site is harmful.

REBLOG IF YOU HAVE AN EATING DISORDER AND HAVE A PROBLEM WITH MPA!!!!!

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Pro ana logic based on posts I’ve seen floating around:

“You anti-pro-ana blogs really think you’re helping by reporting blogs that promote self harm and inspire people with eating disorders to compete with each other. This is my safe space where I publicly post things that trigger me and me only. Which is fine because I can guarantee that it’s not hurting anyone else.

I’m also going to call you guys anti-ED instead of anti-pro-ed because I want it to look like you automatically hate those of us who have eating disorders to divert attention from the fact that we insist on glorifying our symptoms to cope, despite the fact that many anti-pro-ana bloggers have eating disorders themselves which is why they’re so against pro ana to begin with. Just say you hate all anorexic people and move on. It’s what I want you to say so I can keep triggering everyone else like my ED wants me to without having to take any responsibility. It’s not like there are anorexic people out there who DON’T run pro ana blogs. Running a thinspo blog and posting body checks is in the DSM, so you’re automatically discriminating against us by telling us to think about who it’s affecting.

Getting our blogs deleted won’t cure our eating disorders, because that’s clearly the outcome you’re expecting. There’s also no way in hell that eliminating pro ED content could help prevent someone else from developing this sickness that ruins our lives or getting sicker than they already are. So don’t even try. I’d rather feel fleeting validation from posting my restrictive intake amount than try to prevent anyone else from getting sicker. Again, despite the fact that many anorexics refrain from being pro ana and pro ana is not a fundamental aspect of anorexia, I cannot help it and you’re being ableist.”

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I had to begin recovery in an abusive household, not because I believed I was sick enough or because I believed I deserved it, but because I knew it was doing nothing for me and I had to work on healing just to cope with everything else.

I would have loved to have had the perfect moment to choose recovery. You can’t wait for that. I still wish I had better resources, that I could have started recovery with more control instead of just having to out of necessity, but I don’t think it always works that way. Looking back, I wish I started recovery much earlier than that.

It will get easier to keep choosing recovery. Sometimes you have to start in an awful place in order for that to happen if you have no other choice.

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Posting thinspo is not a victimless activity. Someone pretty much always walks away sicker after viewing it, even and especially when they are already ill. If that’s what you want, that’s your prerogative, but don’t complain when tumblr takes your blog down. Thinspo is a direct violation of its terms of service. Just because you can trigger others into getting sicker doesn’t mean you should.

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Being mentally ill is not an excuse to glorify your illness in public.