anticipatedexhale
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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Here With Me
Remus Lupin x gn! Reader.
Warnings: nothing but teeth rotting fluff I'm melting.obviously this takes place in the marauders era،this is shorter than what i imagined but it's ok.
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Nothing could ruin your day today, remus had promised you to take you out on a cute surprise date. And you were over the moon.
You just finished the stressful week of exams and you were ready to finally breathe and doing it with your favorite person you were absolutely ready.
Changing your clothes, brushing your hair, putting on your favorite perfume all with a huge smile on your face.
Grabbing your bag you noticed a small note that fell from the bag, curiously you picked it up, you noticed the tiny hearts drawn all around it.
You smiled as your eyes landed on the pretty handwriting you were familiar with.
"meet me at our spot on the hill behind the school I've got a surprise as pretty as you, definitely not prettier than you but you get it- love Remus<3"
You giggled at the sweet note he wrote for you.
Sighing dreamingly you got out and started running up that hill, you seriously couldn't wait to see him.
Your eyes lightened up seeing the love of your life fixing the flowers in his hands, he looked nervous it's adorable.
You slowly walked up to him, smelling the sweet smell of the food he prepared, the candies and cake that had the most delicious looking frosting.
"hi there partner" you grabbed his attention, immediately he looked up at you with a smile growing on his face.
"hello my dove, you look gorgeous as always" he sighs dreamingly looking at you admiring how lucky he was to have you.
You smiled back with the same wide smile, "and you my love look as handsome as always" you placed your hand on his cheek giving him a soft peck on his lips.
You both sat down taking his hand into yours, you both felt at peace, at home.
All problems of the week are forgotten, just the two of you in your own little world and you wouldn't want it any different.
Laying your head on his shoulder, you felt his hand squeezing yours, "missed you" he broke the comforting silence.
You smiled. "I missed you more love" you replied almost immediately, squeezing his hand as he did to yours.
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Hours passed and you guys were still in that spot, laughing, talking,sharing bites with eachother.
Everything was so perfect you wouldn't want to change that in anyway, and you were sure he wouldn't either. The soft breeze around you, making the flowers and trees softly dance in command.
As you heard the soothing calm voice of your lover reading quietly to you, you feel your eyes start to slowly close, drifting off to sleep.
Remus felt your breath even out, soft snores traveling through the silence, a sign of how tired you were from the stressful weak.
He chuckled to himself, gosh you were so adorable.
Taking you back to the dorms, sneaking away from the teacher roaming the halls.
Arriving in your room he slowly shook you, "Dove come on lets get changed so we can sleep better yeah?".
You grumbled some nonsense but it was clear you didn't want to get up.
He smiled at you, "i know my love but we have to get comfortable".
Changing into some more comfortable clothes, luckily you had stolen some clothes from Remus so he too was able to relax.
Laying in bed, your head laying on his chest, arm wrapped tightly around each other, two puzzle pieces fitting one another so perfectly.
Remus placed a soft kiss on the top of your head before he drifted off to sleep, and so did you.
Even though you were going to deal with james and Sirius's teasing you all day long, and the little look lily gives you "i think i know what you did".
But you don't mind, being with the people you call family no matter how chaotic is the most comforting thing you've ever experienced.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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In The Name Of Love.
Bucky Barnes x female!reader.
Summary:there was once man that had vowed to protect and love you unconditionally for the rest of your life, but when fate finally brought you back together was he really the same man you loved? Or a monster that was stripped from every promise he ever made to you.
Warnings: fight scenes, blood mentions, sad reader and sad bucky, HYDRA needs its own warning, cursing.
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You felt your whole world crash right in front of you, forgetting how to breath, the air slipped out of you.
Looking into the eyes of the man that you have dearly in your heart.
But no.
It can't be him.
No it can't.
You didn't believe it, you knew It couldn't be him.
They said he was gone. They said you were crazy for thinking he'd come back.
You lived year after year sitting in grief at the loss of a man that you'd bring the moon to.
But at that moment you don't think he'd do the same.
"I'll be back my love, just like every time"
God how much you wished you had been more stubborn that day.
You didn't want him to go on that awful mission.
You regret that day so much and you will till your last breath.
You still remember your last kiss, it was never meant to be a goodbye kiss in such a way.
You wanted him back, but the day steve came up to the door of your house, the same door that you shared with him . It was the day that a piece of you died.
It hurt so much, you were one strong woman but you couldn't help but break down and shut yourself out from everyone you knew.
Even though steve stayed by your side the entire process you knew he too was suffering.
He was there with you, he was there sharing those stages of grief with you.
And still to this day suffering.
As you faded back into reality you didn't notice how close you were to bucky before you zoned out.
Steve's voice in the back warning you to stay away, he didn't want to risk it and trigger bucky in a way that might hurt you.
"bucky..." You whispered searching in his eyes for the old man you used to adore.
"You remember me right?.." you gently added again, getting even closer you felt his body tense around you yet again.
Slowly placing a hand on his cold metallic one, "I thought you were gone.." you didn't believe that he was real, he was in front of you.
His eyes softened at your voice, it's almost like he knew you, yet you were still so fat away into his memory.
It didn't take long until those cold-hearted eyes came back to view, he harshly pushed you away now rapidly trying to get you as far away from him as possible.
You felt Steve drag you away from the scene as quickly as possible.
You knew it wasn't like him to run away from battles but this one was for this best.
He called some backup as you felt bucky still following you. Like a predator following it's prey.
You couldn't get over his cold eyes, they weren't the lovely eyes you'd wake up each morning too.
They were full of hatred and anger, and you hated every single thing about that.
As you were sprinting away from the shell of a man you no longer recognize. You hear the gunshot before feeling it.
But you knew there was no time to just breakdown, you had to escape.
Not once in your life would you imagine him hurting you in such a way.
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Weeks passed since the incident, you isolated yourself completely from everyone.
You didn't wanna see those sympathetic looks, and "I'm sorry for her" eyes.
You were no longer you, just like bucky a shell of your past self.
Steve was also taking it hard but it will never hurt as much as it did for you.
Your shoulder now healed but the scar that was now mentally imprinted in you didn't.
It would seem as if you were over reacting, but how could you be labeled as such when you haven't seen the one man the love of your life for decades and living a lie your whole life. And when you finally get to meet him, he isn't himself.
The days you spent wasting your time on finding him.
How the smile you had on your face as you were so determined to find him, soon faded into a deep frown.
You didn't hear any news from the team about new information, you knew there would be but never bothered to ask.
You hated everyone and yourself the most. But it was time to put on your best show and do your duty.
Getting up to dress up in your suit that was repaired from the bullet whole, you stared at the stop that has been sawn with a frown.
Sighing you left the room to go to the others, everyone welcomed you back with happy faces but you knew something was off.
There was something they weren't telling you about, you chose to ignore this feeling since it was probably just you being paranoid from everything that happened.
You'd think that your first mission after a break would be a piece of cake but boy you were wrong.
Everyone decided to scatter around the area, even though you knew it was a bad idea.
You dreaded the moment you saw bucky and another spy from HYDRA both come up your way.
Panicking you stayed in place, frozen.
This isn't like you, you are so confident and powerful you didn't get scared from just a simple fight.
Too frozen in your own world again you didn't notice the spy throwing his weapon your way.
You shut your eyes tightly, taking a deep breath just accepting it.
Nothing.
You slowly opened your eyes again seeing the familiar metal hand so close to your face.
You looked at bucky, as he returned the look, his eyes were like the ones you know, not those lifeless pair you saw weeks ago.
His eyes search yours for a moment before attacking the spy again.
Fighting with bucky by your side made the colors fade back in.
You didn't know why he was helping you but you weren't complaining.
Though you both are powerful enough to take down a lot, there is only so much someone could handle.
There was no time to waste on private matters you thought, you pulled away sticking again.
You felt more alive than you ever did since the day you lost bucky.
Him by your side fighting, protecting you and you doing the same it felt so right.
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The team wanted to celebrate the victory all together, you put two and two together and found out what happened with bucky and all that drama.
You didn't have the energy to deal with it, you wanted to stay in your room and rot away.
A knock snapped you out of your trance, groaning you said "Can you leave me alone? I said I don't want to join" not bothering to get up.
"Please open the door my love", that voice, that nickname.
Your eyes widened, flying out of the bed, walking slowly to the door you still felt his presence still waiting on the other side.
Placing your shaking hand on the door knob, heart pounding in your chest about to leap out.
Turning the door knob the door opened revealing bucky, not daring to stare up into his eyes.
A moment of silence passed before you heard bucky lowly call out your name, you would've missed it if your mind wasn't filled with bucky,bucky,bucky.
"Please look at me..." You shook your head now feeling yourself tear up at the memories coming back to you, good and bad.
"Please.. I'm sorry I'm so sorry my love, i know you hate me so much after what i did to you, but i hate myself even more." Bucky apologizing wasn't really usual.
Your feelings took over as you went into full sobs, "can i touch you...?" Bucky asked before entering the room and closing the door behind him.
You weakly nod, he immediately reacted, grabbing your arm and pulling you close to him.
You both sighed in relief, after years and years of suffering you finally got your bucky back, and bucky finally had you.
"I'm sorry, please forgive me, I'd never want to hurt you, I'm a monster" he hid his face into your neck too ashamed to look at you.
You lifted your hand and placed it into his hair slowly petting it just like you used too.
At that bucky held you even tighter overwhelmed with feelings, "Bucky look at me" that voice of yours would make bucky melt into a puddle.
Shaking he lifted his head now staring down into your eyes.
You saw the bucky you love, the bucky you spent years and years thinking about, the bucky that consumes your mind everyday.
You softly placed a hand on his cheek, your touch igniting sparks within him, you smiled and sniffled, "This won't be an easy process to get back to where we were..but if you're by my side i don't care how long it will take."
You could've sworn you saw tears in his eyes, he nodded slowly, "i missed you" he said with a grin placing his forehead on yours.
You held his hands giving a reassuring squeeze, "i missed you more".
This was a new beginning, a new chapter in your life, and you would wish for bucky to be with you in that chapter till the end.
You both have each other back now and definitely will not let go.
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a/n: I don't write for marvel but gave it a try for my friend so um enjoy? Idk i hate it sm.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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Haven't I Given Enough?.
Steve Harrington x gn!reader
Summary: you've given everything to him, you've done everything for him to love you but it wasn't enough.
A/n: I AM BACK Y'ALL I KNOW U MISSED ME MWAH I HOPE TO WRITE OFTEN AFTER MY BREAK! This isn't as long as i wanted it to be but i tried.
warnings: heartbreak, insecurities, one sided love, stevie being so stupid.
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What could you have done better? Maybe you should've styled your hair differently or maybe a different style of outfits? Or the way you talk?.
You ripped every inch of the person you used to be away from you just to be the perfect person for him. You were no longer recognized by those you held dearly in your heart.
With every tear drop your eyes let go, you felt a piece of yourself fade away.
The empty promises he'd promise you almost every single night, and you blindly believed in him. You had so much hope.
You were so tired of being the one trying to fix and save the relationship while he had eyes for another.
Steve was a boy man that never knew what he wanted, he was confused, lost in a world of lies, he was living a lie.
The way you'd wish he'd look at you the way he looked at her, sparkling eyes that were brighter than every star in the whole Galaxy.
You should've known it wasn't going to last, you were dating him .
The boy that had every girl on their knees, the boy that way too dumb to ever notice feelings around him.
You waited for him, waited for him to come home for you, to eat with you at the dinner table.
It was all a lie and both of you knew it, it took you longer to notice that the string connected between you and steve was no longer as beautiful as it was.
It was just stuck around your hand now, Suffocating you. While steve was the one roaming around freely, you were stuck in a war.
Watching him fade away hurt.
The fact it hurts more knowing that he wasn't from the very beginning of what you considered a relationship.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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Understand
Steve Harrington x gn! Reader
Summary: after an incident you seek understanding from your boyfriend something your parents couldn't do
Warning: toxic parents, cursing, my daddy issues, not proofread, hurt/comfort.
A/n: i haven't posted on here bc of writers block and bc this month has treated me like shit so, this is something that happened to me couple days ago sadly without the steve part but i did cry my eyes out (my Arab parents would never understand)
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Sitting on a table with relatives and your family is normal, but you've always made it clear that you hated loud sounds and busy areas.
Your parents choose to ignore this problem. You've been sitting in the same spot for hours, now feeling overwhelmed and scared.
You didn't know what had gotten into you, but you didn't feel like yourself.
You grabbed your mom "Can we leave now please" you asked softly, she nodded turning back to the conversation she was having as if you said nothing.
It was getting too much, shaky hands and breathes, teary eyes you had no idea what was happening.
You got up to go to your dad, you shook him a few times, he didn't listen giving you a raised eyebrow and a mean stare.
"Dad can we please go" you said, no reply.
"Can we please go! Please i feel really overwhelmed!" You didn't mean for your voice to be this loud.
But you felt so out of place you didn't think before saying those words.
Your parents immediately excused themselves from the table, on your way to the car you tried your best to get your parents attention.
"Please i didn't mean it I don't know what came over me, i swear" you explained but no one replied to you.
Your mom knew better than to side with you because if she did, she'd be on your dads bad side.
How pathetic, the whole way to the house was silent but the tension was thick you could cut it with a knife.
Trying to hold back your tears in the back seat of the car, wondering why this even happened in the first place.
All you thought about was steve, and how much you wanted to curl your body into his and cry your eyes out.
Luck wasn't exactly on your side since your dad stopped you right when you wanted to go to your room.
"What the fuck happened back there huh?" He asked rage in his eyes and tone.
"I don't know please forgive me.. I didn't mean too i was just so mad-" .
"Mad? You have no reason to be mad, a young person like you shouldn't feel emotions, i am the one supposed to be mad here". He said interrupting you.
Before you can reply he continued, "This was so embarrassing, what will the family think now, i have a crazy child who seeks attention any time they get, I can't believe i have a child like you what a waste."
Crazy.
Waste.
Those words hit you like a brick. You stared down to the ground, tears falling from your weeping eyes.
You ran upstairs to the room immediately dialing Steves number.
Even though it was the middle of the night and he was most likely dead asleep you hoped he would reply.
You needed him at that moment, "Hello..?"his low voice, a sign that he was sleeping.
"Steve..I'm sorry for calling you at a time like this but can you please come and get me.." your voice in a whisper, although shaky.
That's all it took steve to hastily wear some clothes and drive his way to your house.
When you saw his car parked outside you ran your way to him.
He was waiting for you, leaning on the hood of the car. When he saw your puffy red face, worry climbed its way to his features.
You tightly hugged him, "i-im sorry for waking you up at such our but please i need you" you explained.
He nodded, the drive to his house was quiet but a relaxing calm quiet.
You felt as if a heavy weight was lifted away from you. Hand in hand you stared at the dark streets of Hawkins.
Once you arrived you stole a shirt from his and jumped onto his bed, his soft covers and intoxicating scent completely takes over your senses.
The bed dips beside you, as you feel his hands wrap around you, your head now laying on his chest.
"Do you want to talk about it?" He spoke softly. You shook your head as no not trusting your own voice.
He understood and hugged you closer, tightly holding you, a hand caressing your hair.
He knew it was something about your parents but he chose not to speak.
"It's ok my love we can talk about it tomorrow or whenever you want" he said pecking your forehead.
He understood you, something your parents couldn't do, you felt safe, he was home to you.
You nodded, before dozing off into your lover's arms hoping that tomorrow would bring you a better day.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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Moonlight.
Steve Harrington x gn! Reader.
Summary: a sleepless night transforms into a wholesome cuddle session.
Warnings: pure teeth-rotting fluff, I'm obsessed with steve, wife reader, husband steve just because 🫶, disclaimer english is not my first language so bad grammar.
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It was three in the morning, the bright moonlight shining through the windows of the room, painting so delicately a light blue color around her beautiful skin color, it illuminated from the thick curtains.
She huffed as once more she shuffled around the smooth silky sheets of her bed, trying to find a comfortable position as she tried seeking the sleep she desperately needed.
She looked around at the empty spot beside her, sighing, she missed her husband steve.
He told her that he'd work late that night but she never would have guessed it could get that late.
The empty cup of tea she'd made sitting there on her desk, she turned to hug her husbands pillow finding comfort in the scent he left on it.
Besides the beautiful moon light, the angry red alarm that sat on the desk showed out brightly how late it is.
As if it's taunting her, the clicking sound it made was the only thing that's keeping her from drowning in deep thoughts.
She heard rustling from inside of the house, based on the movement she'd memorized so well, she knew it was her husband.
She immediately got up while running through the hallway, seeing her husband taking off his shoes.
"Stevie" her voice low from the way she was deprived from sleep.
He quickly turned to her, a bright smile spreading across his pretty face, "Baby why are you still awake" he asked in a worried tone.
She whined, a sign that she was frustrated, "couldn't sleep" was the only answer he got when she threw herself on him.
Wrapping him up in a tight hug. Resting her head in the warmth of his neck, nose nuzzling the soft skin.
Steve brought his hand up to rub soft circles onto her back, hoping that she'd relax, turning his head to give her a quick loving peck on her temple.
She hummed in happiness at the loving touch, finally pulling back, she waited until he was ready for bed so she can finally get the comfort that she'd been needing and the sleep she'd been wanting.
"C'mere pretty" he said grabbing her closer yet again, foreheads against each other, eyes filled with hearts and love for each other.
He pulled her up, she immediately got the hint wrapping her legs around his waist, blushing furiously.
His large hands came up to soothe her thighs, the sight of her in his clothes made him melt.
They both got to the bed, resting her head on his chest, both swallowed in each other's presence, he pulled one of his hands , pulling it up to her face, caressing her chubby cheeks, admiring her pretty features.
He wondered how he'd become so lucky to get someone like her, "Pretty, my pretty baby" he whispered, smiling happily.
She pulled him in for a sweet loving kiss, now becoming impossibly close to each other, pulling away she yet again found her spot inside the side of his neck again.
"Try to get some sleep yeah baby? I don't want you to be tired in the morning" he says, pulling you tighter against him.
And that was it. Both your breaths start to even out, finally getting the rest you both needed.
Hands grasping one another, with the two shiny rings that shined brightly in the beautiful moonlight.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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Not A Normal Love Story.
Steve Harrington x fem!Reader.
Summary: Going after your kingdom's greatest enemy isn't exactly a good idea, but you are no fool to reject his little games that he oh so enjoyed.
Warnings: some suggestive writing but not too much for it to be called smut, making out?, Bad writing, enemies to lovers kinda trope, villain stevie 🫶. Part 2 is coming soon!!
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"Why exactly do you choose to risk your life just to see me" you asked frustrated, this is the third time steve sneaks in the castle just to see you.
"You don't sound so happy to see me princess" he said getting closer, twirling you around pulling you tight against him.
Faces inches away, you could feel his breath on your lips, you composed yourself keeping the cold expression on your face.
But to be honest with yourself, you were about to melt, you didn't want to get away from his touch. But for the sake of your sanity and his ego you had too.
"Well if you sooo desperately wanted to know" he said teasingly, pulling you back in chuckling.
"You aren't so afraid of me like the rest.. princess" he said smirking, you kept eye contact as he leaned back on the wall.
"No I'm not afraid, why would i? You're so pathetic" you refused to back down, head rising up in confidence, raising up an eyebrow at him.
His gaze got darker and darker, as if he was drinking up every inch of you and that was driving you insane.
"Why not" he asked sarcastically, "You know what I've done, baby" he said in a pout, it was like he was making a fool out of you.
You knew the power he had, the things he'd done to people, the manipulation he'd put others through was absolutely no joke.
"If you had planned to hurt me, you would have done it." You started showing no fear in the tone of voice you put on.
His smile grew wider, eyes never leaving yours, you couldn't get yourself to look away, his beautiful eyes sparkling in the dark room.
"You're a clever one aren't you baby" his dark tone sending shivers down your spine, he placed a hand on your chin bringing it upwards.
"Tell me then...why am i here?" He tilted his head in fake confusion.
At this exact moment you knew you were playing with fire, you were the match, and he was the gasoline.
One wrong step and it's all over, "I asked a question baby, you have to answer" he whispered.
"Well, you could be doing this for your own good..or maybe" you said, holding his hand that was grabbing onto your chin pulling it down harshly.
"maybe you just want me" you whispered getting impossibly closer to him.
Your statement definitely did something to him, a glint of fire appearing in his eyes, a moment of silence passed. The tension is so thick it could be cut open with a knife.
He slowly dropped his head onto your shoulder, another shiver coursed through you as you felt his heavy breaths on you.
"you're so clever" he whispered lowly into your ear.
"Is that so? Maybe I'm so curious where this will lead me" you pushed back smirking, he lost composure at that point.
"You know curiosity kills the cat" he smiled devilishly and you smiled back with the same energy.
You hummed, bringing his hand up to lips, slowly placing a small kiss right on it.
You knew this caught him, "Well yes it does" you claimed, now hand in hand with him."But satisfaction brings it back".
Before processing anything you are pinned against the wall.
"Be mine" he breathes heavily, that look in his eyes that you always wanted to figure out the meaning too was being revealed right in front of you, it was devotion, full devotion to you and to you only.
"Please i want you to be mine" you smiled back mischievously."How about you make me yours all by yourself?".
Your hand now loosing itself into his hair, running through the fluffy smooth hair of his.
He didn't need to be told twice before clashing his lips onto yours, pulling you in with a greedy kiss.
Your bodies tightly press against each other, hands frantically exploring each other.
Lost into each other's touch, pulling away from the kiss, the only thing was the string of saliva connecting both of you together.
Your body buzzing with excitement. his hands brushing up and down on the bare skin of your legs, climbing to your arms, soothing the burning skin.
You both meet again in another breathtaking kiss, as you both loose yourselfs in one another.
You felt your stomach fill with butterflies, this kiss was soft.
Sadly getting away from each other, you heard guards outside of your room.
You shared a glance of surprise with steve as you ushered him to hide in the closet.
"Your highness are you okay? We heard some um..well questionable noises." Your face burned up at the embarrassment.
"Yes! Um everything is ok just fell that's all." You said trying to end the conversation.
They left soon after, steve got out of the closet staring at you.
"The closet? Really" he asked, his lips still lingering in the sweet taste of you.
"I was panicking" he hummed in response, "looks like I should leave now," you pouted not wanting to depart from him.
"Aw don't be sad princess I'll be back for you soon" he smiled sweetly at you, jumping out of your room with one more peck.
Maybe you could get used to steve, well if it meant that every night will end like this and more.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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Friends.
Eddie Munson x gn!reader.
Summary: Eddie is helplessly in love with his best friend. He’s coming to terms that he wants something more but he has no idea that you also wanted something more as much as he did.
Warnings: cursing, feelings , i have something for the best friend into lovers trope, angst to fluff , a lot of feelings, cursing, bad writing, i think that's it.
A/n: i think it's clear i love this trope, a little too much, anyways enjoy!!
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"Please for the love of god eddie I can't stand watching you be stupid, just confess already" Robin scolded, before shoving a bunch of chips into her mouth.
Eddie shook his head at the girl, "You don't get it ok? That's impossible, they are my best friend".
Eddie turned away from robin, stomach twisting and turning as he remembered that you were right now, in this moment, on a date with some guy you met at work, it should be him with you not some dumbass.
"i wouldn't want to ruin anything between us , i can't imagine losing them" Eddie spoke up again.
Robin rolled her eyes, "I feel like I'm in one of those really cheesy teen romance movies, you are so dumb, you know that not confessing will cause more trouble and drama?".
Eddie scoffed," Yeah they love me so much, that they are out with some guy I haven't met properly yet".
"They are with another guy because you are the one that's too much of a coward to confess" Robin said ignoring the death glare she received from Eddie.
"Whatever it's too late anyways" Eddie replied,running his hand through his hair. Dropping his head down as a gesture of defeat.
Eddie's house phone started ringing, interrupting his deep thoughts, "Hello?" He said wondering who would it be.
"Hi eddie" your voice shocked him, why were you calling him? Did anything happen? You didn't sound very well.
"Hey sweetheart, you okay?" He asked gently, he heard you sigh " Um is it ok if you can pick me up" you said.
Eddie was immediately ready to put on his shoes and grab his car keys.
"I'll be there honey you stay where you are". His voice, trying to stay calm even though he was freaking out on the inside.
"Who was that?" Robin asked. "Y/N , they didn't sound well" he quickly replied running around grabbing everything he needs.
"Do you think the guy did something?" She started to feel anxious.
"For that guys sake, i hope not" he said before heading out.
Once he arrived at the place you told him about, he felt as if he knew this place, the cold winter air hitting his face, as people gathered around in restaurants or the kid playing in the snow.
He saw you sitting on a bench near...A restaurant! Yes that's why he felt as if this place was familiar you guys always went here in the summer.
"Hi there pretty" his voice startled you.
"you scared me!" You whined, shooting a glare his way.
"I'm sorry, my love" he said bowing down with a smirk.
You scoffed "Yeah sure you are".
You noticed him shivering, " are you only wearing this sweater?" You asked.
He nodded "i didn't know it would be this cold outside." A small grin on his face.
You shook your head "what am i going to do with you" before turning to give him your scarf.
"No,No please don't you'll get cold" he said stuttering.
"I have enough layers on, don't worry" you gave it to him forcefully.
"thank you" he muttered, shyly putting it on, your scent immediately taking him in, feeling warmer than ever now.
"It's nothing really" you said.
After some silence you said "I want ice cream" , "in this weather, are you crazy?" Eddie questioned in a high-pitched tone.
"yeah why not?" You answered, he nodded "Good to know I'm friends with a psychopath".
"Keep teasing me and you'll be the next victim of mine".
After getting your way with eddie, and him finally agreeing on ice cream, you decided to go for a walk until you both finish.
Eddie was studying your face the whole walk, with his heart pounding rapidly in his chest.
"So how did your date go"he tried to start a conversation.
"He didn't show up" you said with a cold tone, and Eddie's eyes went wide.
"That jerk stood you up?are you serious I'm going to kill him" he shouted, he felt so mad why would anyone do such a thing to you.
You didn't deserve that at all.
"It's not a big deal it's fine" you said. But Eddie immediately blocked the way in front of you.
"not a big deal?" He held your shoulders tight and stared deeply into your eyes. You swore he could see right through you at how intense he was looking.
"Are you sure you're okay? You know that dumbass doesn't deserve you"
"It's fine eds i swear". He looked confused waving his hand in front of your face clearly hating your answer.
"i said you know he doesn't deserve you right?" He asked yet again.
"I'm sure he had a reason not to show up" you said ignoring his question.
"or..maybe he noticed that I'm not worth it" you said before ripping yourself out of his grip, you turned around walking back to the place you originally came from, now snow falling heavily around everything.
"Hey!" He yelled thinking it would get your attention.
It didn't, but something cold hit your back, you turned around to see Eddie's angry face, nose red, mouth turned into a frown. He looked so adorable yet so mad at the same time.
"How dare you say something like that about yourself!" he shouted, "Have you lost your mind?!?!? Should i call the hospital??" He yelled again.
"Your being stupid it Eddie come-" another snowball to the face cut you out. "EDWARD MUNSON".
"Oh my god I'm sorry, did i hurt you?. Please say something I'm sorry, Y/n?.....Y/n?" He looked at you, getting scared as he saw the anger in your face.
You grabbed a bunch of snow in your hand and charged at him, and that's how he knew he was your victim now.
You jumped on him shoving the snow you had in your hand all over his face.
"have mercy please I'm sorry" he said between broken breathes and laughter.
Now Eddie was a somewhat good runner but that time you caught him off guard.
"Now that is what i call revenge" you said in a confident tone.
You both didn't notice how close you were until the laughter stopped.
You stared at each other, your hands on his chest, his arms around your waist. It was almost too perfect.
Both of your cheeks are tinted with red. Your gaze fell to his lips and before you can even react your lips were on his.
You didn't know what you were thinking, it just felt so right at that moment, soaking in each others presence.
Eddie was frozen for a moment but he didn't have to think twice, immediately kissing you back with the same energy, pulling on hand up landing on your cheek pulling you impossibly closer.
You both pulled away at the same time, bodies flush against each other, heavy breathes could be heard.
"Eddie I'm so so-" you couldn't form proper sentences "I shouldn't have... I'm so sorry".
"you kissed me" he said breathlessly.
"i-" at the loss of words your cheeks began to heat up even more.
"OH MY GOD YOU KISSED ME" a large smile spread among his pretty features, squeezing you even harder against him, hiding his face in the side of your neck, feeling the happiest he'd ever been in.
You stared at him in awe, "You like me?".
He nodded shyly not trusting his own voice, but the smile on his face never once fading.
"Are you serious, like you're not just saying that because you feel bad about my date?" You asked.
"What? Absolutely not i love so much" he said, not skipping a beat. "you are everything to me Y/N, you have always been by my side through thick and thin, and my love just keeps growing for you everyday, you are the kindest, funniest, prettiest, most special person I've ever met and i would do anything to keep you by my side forever".
You blushed deeply at his words and smiled widely, "i love you too Eddie...i wanted to tell you this but-".
"you were afraid to ruin what we had" he continued your sentence and you nodded in agreement.
"I've gone on so many dates trying to find someone that i would love like you but i never worked, I'm sorry". You explained.
"Hey it's ok now, we have each other right?" He said with a smile bringing your foreheads together, noses brushing.
"can i call you mine now" you whispered.
"Always been and always will be yours baby" he replied with hearts for eyes.
After getting up and walking towards the car he stopped you again.
"Can i get a kiss" he asked, pouting. "Um let me think..." You made a face as if you were in deep thought.
"Sure." You continued, grabbing the scarf you gave him and pulling him close for a kiss. Eddie smiled into the kiss happy to finally have the partner of his dreams right there in his arms.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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I'm Here
Steve Harrington x gn!reader
Summary: after a shitty breakup with your boyfriend, you have your best friend there right by your side.
Warnings: hurt/comfort, breakup, feelings, readers gender not identified but they did have a boyfriend, there will be no part 2.
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Another knock on the door interrupted your little crying session, you groaned seeing Steve's stubborn figure in the doorway, although you've told him multiple times you wanted to be alone he wouldn't listen.
"Get up" he said pulling the insane amount of pillows you're hugging away, "Go away" you whined pulling the blanket to cover your head as he turned on the lights.
"i said get up" he repeated, "Yeah well i said go away" you turned your back to him not wanting him to see the mess you're in right now.
Steve huffed, "Come on stop acting like a child and get the fuck out of bed".
"You're really nice you know that?" You replied sarcastically.
"I'm serious" he sighed pulling the blanket away from your head, " you haven't left the house in days, you've been skipping work, and you aren't eating properly you can't keep doing this" he explained.
You knew deep down that he was right but obviously not wanting to admit it, Even though you'd very much rather stay in your room for the rest of your life, you couldn't.
It's only been a week since you found out about the secret relationship going on with your boyfriend and his co-worker he told you not to worry about.
The wound still hurts like hell and you couldn't just ignore it.
You still remember vividly how you found out , how you were so thoughtful to visit him after he cancelled your date for "feeling sit" but you were met with a disgusting sight , you wish to erase it from your memory.
The first person on your mind after that incident was steve, the way you immediately ran to him. You cried your heart out that day in his arms as he slowly caressed your hair.
You still remember how he didn't hesitate to hold you in his arms, while you were shaking and leaving wet tear stains all over his shirt. You couldn't forget the sweet and soft words he'd whisper in your ear how it's not your fault and how it's gonna be all ok.
Since that catastrophic day, you've locked yourself in your room. isolating yourself from everyone and everything.
You slowly sat up on the bed, not noticing the tears streaming down your face until you saw the droplets hitting the sheets beneath you.
You turned to steve whose expression immediately turned worried seeing your pretty face tear stained.
"It hurts steve" you muttered through broken breaths, you felt pathetic at that moment.
"I know it does honey" his sweet voice, his calm sweet voice was all you wanted to hear.
"Come here" he said carefully as he laid beside you covering both of you in the blanket. Arms now wrapped around your waist pulling you closer. He pecked your temple.
"How about we go for a walk a bit, hm? This room is doing you no good" he said with a smile growing on his face.
You smiled back, a smile that made steve Harringtons heart flutter, he missed you so much.
Raising his hand slowly he wiped away the remaining tears you had.
"I'm an idiot, aren't i" you whispered quietly, letting the insecurities inside of you speak louder.
He frowned , you knew steve hated when you talked that way about yourself.
"Hey look at me" you did what he asked seeing how he was already staring at you. "don't you ever talk that way about yourself, it's ok to cry, it's ok to be hurt, don't you ever think your stupid or dumb or whatever just because you're expressing normal emotions."
You sighed, nodding. "I just want to know what i did wrong".
"What the hell are you talking about? Please don't tell me you're blaming yourself for what happened".
"No it's not that" you said averting your eyes away from him, something you did when you'd lie.
"I can't believe this" he sighed, feeling a high amount of anger rushing to him.
"I'll break the mother fucker into pieces the next time i see him".
"Steve!" You yelled pushing him back playfully, he laughed.
"Listen ok? I'm going to tell you something and you're going to listen, what happened...back then... it wasn't your fault don't blame yourself for his scumbag actions, he doesn't deserve you, do you hear me?" .
"But ste-". "No none of that i said you're going to listen until I'm done".
He sighed before continuing, "it's his loss he will never ever find a partner as pretty and caring and lovely as you are".
You didn't notice but Steve had a lump in his throat afraid he'd just exposed all his feelings to you because of his stupid rambling.
It was no secret to anyone...well but you, that Steve Harrington is so utterly in love with you in ways that could never be explained with words.
"Have you eaten?" He asked ,trying his best to change the subject.
Sighing once you shook your head. Fine I'll be back.
After some time he came back with some take out he sat beside you on the bed before getting his spoon filling it with the food he got.
"Say ahhh" he said with a smug grin on his face, you rolled your eyes "i hate you" you said before taking the spoon from him.
"No you don't you loooveeee mee" he said in a teasing tone.
"i may love you but you are still a dork" you said not noticing the way Steve suddenly stopped eating, clearly looking nervous he looked at you eat, choosing that it's better to let you eat in silence.
He hoped you wouldn't hear the way his heart was basically pounding in his chest, he just couldn't express the way you made him so nervous.
"Thank you stevie it was delicious" you said mouth still full from the last bite you took.
He scoffed cheeks burning with a red tint. "yeah your welcome and don't call me that".
"Yeah i know you like it." You rolled your eyes.
"We should really go out" you turned your head at the statement, "yeah i guess you're right." You sighed.
"I know I'm always right" he said playfully, you laughed "Oh shut up".
He immediately noticed the change of atmosphere around you guys, you turned to see you slumped up again frowning.
"Care to tell me what's bothering your pretty head again" he asked.
You sighed "i really don't want to go out I don't think I'm ready, I'm sorry if that annoys you." You explained.
He nodded grabbing the empty food bowl and placing it on the bedside table.
He sat down beside you again, reaching out for your hand caressing your knuckles.
He stared at you with so much love and care you didn't think it was even possible to look at someone that way.
"we can do whatever you want" he said giving you a tiny smile.
Not wanting to cry again, you threw yourself at him burying your face in his chest, adoring the feeling of his scent intoxicating all your senses.
And to Steve you felt like home, you used to hold him with so much care when he had problems now it's your turn.
You pulled back to stare at him after some time,steve looked at you with so much care and fondness it almost took your breath away.
It felt as if a current of electricity just went through your body as his gaze fell to your lips then back up at your eyes.
Steve bought one of his hands to your face, caressing it Slowly, he felt as if his heart was about to explode. You looked so beautiful staring at him, those pretty eyes that would out shadow any stat drove him insane.
He really just wanted to throw all logic into space and kiss you right then and there.
But he knew the consequences of doing so, he didn't want to ruin what you guys already had.
"i- lov- i mean i-" he tried to muster up the courage to tell you the words he's been meaning to forever.
But he just couldn't he was too much of a coward and idiot, it frustrated him how he didn't have the power to say those words to you.
"Steve?" Your sleepy voice snapped him back to reality, "did you say something?" You asked.
He took a deep breath trying not to evaporate at that exact moment, the way your eyes were so puffy hurt him,he wanted to fix this , he wanted to treat you the way you deserved.
"How about we get some sleep mhm? You look tired honey , we are going to have a long day tomorrow" he said with a smile trying to avoid the sadness that was building up in his chest.
You didn't know why you felt dumbfounded at that, you had so many thoughts in your head but all of them left you so confused, why were you dumbfounded? Why were you disappointed?.
You just nodded laying your head back down onto his chest.
Not so long after you were asleep in his arms, you looked so soft, and so at peace, Steve didn't dare to move.
He wanted so badly to confess his feelings and declare proudly to the whole world how he is so in love with you.
But he couldn't, not now at least, you were still dealing with such a heartbreaking end to a relationship he wasn't about to let his feelings get in the way of your healing.
You need a friend, a best friend at this moment not a boyfriend.
Admiring your peaceful sleeping face, he let it slip those three important words out of his mouth. Hoping one day you'll hear them, hoping that he could finally be with you.
But for now, he was content with being the Best friend in the story, and he wouldn't want it any other way for now.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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What Were We All Along? (Part.2)
Summary:you always thought that it was too good to be true, the outcast dating the popular cheerleader,how cliche.But after an event you find that your theory was correct maybe after all it was too good to be true.
Warnings: sad reader, angst to fluff, cursing, a lot of feelings, this is a part 2 to my previous fic,a really stupid rushed ending, i hate this so much help, um kissing? Idk
part 1.
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The last couple of days were hell for both you and Eddie, Eddie has tried multiple times apologizing yet he never got the forgiveness he wanted.
Well mainly because he was sending you gifts, not talking to you like a normal person would which made you even madder, if he so badly wanted your forgiveness shouldn't be here right now standing in front of you explaining?.
You sighed, grabbing the 100th flower bouquet he sent. Staring at it you noticed something odd about it.
A note, a note is what you saw, you slowly held it into your hand looking at the writing. You immediately knew it was Eddies handwriting, it was messy just like him.
"Meet me at our spot at 8 tonight please -Eddie" his name had that stupid heart beside it, you were thinking of not going, but you knew that he wouldn't give up, Knowing Eddie he'd probably bring you the world at your feet just for forgiveness.
"I think it's sweet he's doing that" Nancy pulled you out of your trance, sneaking behind you.
"You should go, really i know what he did is stupid but you can't keep avoiding him your whole life" it's pure logic really she was right and you knew that, but you couldn't get yourself to look at those pretty brown eyes not after what happened.
"You really think i should go?" Your voice is filled with genuine curiosity, she only hummed "Trust me if you don't you'll regret it." That's all she said before leaving you alone in the room with nothing but your brain making up so many scenarios.
But of course life goes on and 8pm was slowly arriving. The sound of your clock ticking broke the tense silence.
Soon enough you had the guts to go get dressed and head to the spot.
Once you arrived it was already beginning to get dark the sun saying its last goodbyes as it painted the sky a red-orange color.
You noticed the boy with frizzy curly hair running around in circles nervously waiting, obviously waiting for you.
"Hi" you said, his eyes immediately shot up,you saw the glimmer of hope that flickered in his eyes.
"Hi"he said breathlessly not believing you were actually in front of him.
"So why'd you bring me here?" You questioned, he looked nervous he looked scared almost.
He took a deep breath "Look Y/N i really wanted to talk to you about what happened a few days ago can you please hear me out" he said desperately trying to get you to cooperate.
He didn't care if you rejected his apology he needed to explain everything that happened.
You both sat down on a bench nearby after you've agreed to give him a chance and hear him out.
"You can start now" you said, "Yeah-yeah right ok um well as you know it's true,i mean like the bet,but please before you react i want to tell you that I've loved you for so long, longer than the bet. The bet gave me a door of opportunity for me you know?"
He noticed that you were still quiet so he continued "This was never a lie, we were never a lie, I've loved you for so long, and im not about to make it all disappear because of a stupid bet, you know I rejected the money a couple of bucks is worth nothing against receiving your love".
His voice was wavy at the end, hand creeping closer to yours slowly entwining with yours.
Tears pricked your eyes as you heard his little speech. You turned to him, you searched your eyes silently, waiting for a response hoping you wouldn't just get up and leave.
But he didn't expect you to be grabbing him by the collar and kissing him. He immediately kissed back with no hesitation hand sliding up your neck to your face holding your cheek softly.
You both pulled, "So i think that's a yes?" You rolled your eyes at his sarcastic question before pulling back for another kiss.
It wasn't a lie after all you thought, maybe it was all going to be ok.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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What Were We All Along?
Eddie Munson x fem!reader.
Summary: you always thought that it was too good to be true, the outcast dating the popular cheerleader,how cliche.But after an event you find that your theory was correct maybe after all it was too good to be true.
Warnings: placing a bet on the reader,arguments, cursing, stupid Eddie but we love him, breakups?, Not sure if I'll make a part 2.
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You've always wanted to be in those cliche highschool love stories, when it came true it felt so perfect you were so happy, You loved Eddie, and he loved you..or so you thought.
It all started when the infamous Eddie Munson himself came up to you and asked you out in front of everyone, although you didn't like the stares you got from people around you, you happily said yes.
You and Eddie immediately got closer soon, but you always felt this tension that would appear every time you and Eddie would sit together with the hellfire club.
Even though they had said multiple times they liked your company and that they liked you in general you thought there was still something up.
You tried not to think about it, tried your best not to question Eddie's so called love for you.
You walked up to Eddies trailer hearing some of the boy's voices coming from it, it wasn't unusual for Eddie to have them over but you decided to stay there trying to listen to their conversation hoping to find the answer you wanted.
Sadly you were met with the only answer you never wanted to hear, "You know Eddie you should thank us, without us betting you to ask Y/N out you would've never did".
You felt your heart drop, eyes going wide, a gasp left your mouth as you tried to concentrate on what they were saying.
"Yeah i mean we know that she's totally not your type, I can't believe you're still holding onto this relationship" the rest of the boys chuckled at that statement yet you couldn't hear Eddies voice amongst the boys.
You got up trying to collect yourself as you knocked on the door. Eddie opened it looking shocked for a second but then calming himself down immediately.
"Y/N hey! I didn't know you were coming?come on in we were just talking about um...the upcoming campaign! Yeah that" he said clearly sounding like a lie, wow really what a smart excuse you thought.
You nodded your head humming before asking "Hey eddie um can we maybe talk..." "Yeah sure what is it??" He leaned against the door frame.
"Well i was thinking about talking to you..." You looked back at the boys before continuing "Alone.".
A bunch of sounds like "oooo" were made from the boys as eddie grabbed your hand to take you somewhere private.
"Did something happen? You don't seem okay" he asked fearing the worst.
"i heard." You said coldly trying your best not to fall straight into sobs.
"Heard what sweetheart...??come on you're making me nervous" his eyes searched your figure frantically trying to read your body language but failing.
"I heard what the boys were saying before I knocked" Eddie felt his whole world just freeze.
Shit.shit.shit no this couldn't happen, why? Why did you have to come at a time like this.
"Is it true" your voice, now coming out as a whisper not daring raise it afraid of humiliating yourself.
No reply. You asked again "Eddie is this true" voice cracking, with a higher pitch now.
You looked up to see him nodding. A silent yes.
Knowing that he's too ashamed to say it out loud. "I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU! WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER FOR MONTHS AND-AND N-NOW YOU TELL ME THAT IT WAS ALL JUST A LIE". You screamed pushing him away hard.
You didn't care if you hurt him, you were too busy slowly watching your heart falling to pieces to the ground.
"no please love-" "DON'T CALL ME THAT" you stepped back, tears streaming down your face, shaky hands curled up into a fist.
Eddie frowned looking at your state he didn't want this to happen,he loved you, he adored you.
But now he felt as if you were slipping away, his eyes now also tearing up.
He grabbed your hand pulling you closer, "Please listen to me, i-i wanted to tell you but i was so nervous that this would happen, a-and i really do love you and it isn't just about the bet". He explained.
But it was just too late for that now. Now all you saw in front of you was a man who betrayed you. A man who broke your trust. And a man who shattered your heart into millions of pieces.
"If you had told me earlier we-we could've worked out" you explained with shaky breathes.
He could've told you, he should've told you,he would've told you but he didn't.
He was silent not knowing what to say. He knew he broke your trust but he didn't have the words to speak he didn't know what to speak.
"Fuck you munson" you said before leaving. He stayed in place staring at your figure getting farther and farther, smaller and smaller.
He ran back to the trailer opening the door a little too hard. The boys stared up at him with wide eyes. "Eddie are you okay?".
"I fucked up" was all he said before the rooms fell into silence.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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Back To You
Steve Harrington x gn! Reader.
Summary: you were childhood best friends with steve that was until king Steve decided to take over years of unresolved feelings finally get their way out of both of you, you both hope it's not too late to fix it.
Warnings: Best friends into enemies into lovers type of trope but you aren't fully enemies just distant, a lot of feelings, sad but happy ending, king steve deserves a warning, crying, sad steve and sad reader but promise fluffy ending.
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You first noticed the changes in steve behavior ever since freshman year, you knew ignoring it won't help, you knew that not talking it out together will worsen it. But you simply chose to ignore it.
The way he'd avoid you at all costs knowing being with a reputation like yours would immediately ruin his reputation and obviously he didn't want that.
Of course you noticed the way he'd stop visiting, and would rarely reply to your calls.
It hurt you but it was no use, he was so stuck in that world of his that he wouldn't listen. He'd tell you "you're just imagining it" "I don't know what you mean". Obviously not knowing that his actions would affect you so much.
"Hey Steve,do you think we could go to that new restaurant that opened not far, you know we could catch up. You've been distant lately" you were aware of the laser eyes burning spots into your skull.
But you didn't care, you were talking to your Steve not their steve, you seemed to notice how his eyes would flicker from them to your figure.
Mustering up the courage to reject you, he didn't want to but he couldn't let his high status get ruined because of some restaurant.
You heard snickering behind you, you tried to ignore them waiting silently for his answer. He finally looked back at you.
"No actually I'm going to a house party i-i mean it's m-much better than going out with you" he said trying his best to not sound hurt, wincing at the smile that was slowly dropping from your face.
You knew that he purposely raised his voice just to let them hear, all that chest puffing eyes still flickering between them and you. As if he was trying to read their brains, trying so hard to get them to accept him.
He slowly pushed you back walking away to them , you watched as someone patted his back as if it was a gesture of celebration for passing his "mission" which was pushing you away.
That was exactly the last time you'd spoken to him. It hurts you to be distant from him, you missed his smile, his touch, his scent. His everything.
Although you saw that precious smile of his from afar it wasn't the same as if he was there with you.
Your eyes would brim with tears seeing all the polaroid pictures and camera videos of both of you together.
It hurts you think, but you still kept everything, each gift, each wrapper, each picture and video.
You couldn't just let go, he was it for you, yet it seemed as if you were nothing to him, he just left you there, never called or asked.
Seeing girl by girl being by his side, they didn't last for long but you always imagined yourself being in the position of every girl.
Smiling up at him, staring into his eyes, holding him close. You'd dream about it every day and night. It was all you could even think about.
After your graduation it felt better not seeing him everyday, and his stupid face felt relieving. You didn't feel much pain and hurt anymore since you occupied yourself with your job almost every hour of the day.
You worked in the mall before the tragic fire, you knew steve worked there but you chose to never talk to him.
Little did you know that he would talk about you to robin every chance he gets, she'd sometimes have to find ways to shut him up, the guilt of how he so awfully treated you never left.
He knew you worked in the mall but he didn't have the courage to get up to talk to you thinking that you'd hate him, and would just smack him in the face and well he deserves it.
But the universe decided to finally put this to an end, you walked into your first shift at this store called "Family Video" you had no idea what you were supposed to do.
The so called "manager" looked at you up and down and said "You're hired" it was stupid but you weren't complaining atleast you got a job.
You entered the door, expecting to see a random person behind the counter but no.
Your eyes locked with Steve Harrington himself you both froze still staring at each other, your reactions showing how you definitely didn't expect each other.
He looked so different so...mature, he wasn't that boy you were so in love with years ago, the way your heart pounded in your chest made you feel like you were a teenager in love all over again.
You started walking again, feeling the palm of your hand get sweaty. "Hi" you said breaking the awkward silence.
"Hi" he replied breathlessly still not believing that you were there right infront of him.
Just you being in the same room as him made him feel so much emotions all at once.
He quickly grabbed your hand out of instinct and dragged you to the staff only room, you gasped trying to get out of his hold.
"Look listen i-i h-have so much thing to say i know this is so crazy and stupid after years of us ignoring each other I'm so sorry i was so stupid for hurting you i wanted to apologize for so long but i was so so scared of you rejecting me, i know t-that words don't matter anymore and that i could do nothing for you to forgive me but please give me a chance" he rambled eyes searching yours, crazy and wild.
You stayed silent the whole time shocked at his sudden burst, you took a deep breath.
"Steve you have no idea how much you hurt me", "i know" , "you left me.", "I know" , "i hate you" " i know" he replied after each sentence.
Tears flood your eyes face getting red, "no please don't cry , please im so sorry, please just please im begging you let me make it up" he said now basically begging you, eyes also starting to tear up.
"please sweetheart please just one chance" you pulled you closer into him.
You placed a hand on his cheek, he flinched waiting for nothing but a slap on his face.
But it never came, he slowly opened his eyes to see you staring at him with eyes sparkling in the dim lit room. You slowly caressed his face.
"Lets start from the beginning yeah? I would love to be called yours" you smiled at him.
He didn't think it was possible but his heart started beating even more, cheeks turning as red as an apple. Eyes frantically searching yours.
A smile creeped up on his pretty face, a smile you've missed.
You couldn't help but smile back with the same love he put in his smile.
"You know i heard there was a new restaurant that opened close to here maybe you want to catch up" he said raising an eyebrow.
You playfully slapping his chest wiping away the few tears that fell from your eyes before saying "I'll think about it" between broken giggles.
He loved that sound, he missed that sound, and now that he gets to hear it yet again he won't let it go.
It took a lot,a lot of feelings , a lot of emotions to get back close again.
But now Steves happy to look at your pretty face and call you his.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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Loud
Eddie munson x gn!reader
A/n:this is an event that has occurred with me a while ago, I'm normally a very quiet person but once im comfortable im very loud I've run into some rude people a couple of times especially if they can't understand the basics of emotions.
Warnings: insecure reader?,other than mike being an asshole i think that's it.
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You walked up to the room hellfire is usually placed excited to see your boyfriend and his little friends.
You opened the door only to hear "Oh its you" mike rolled his eyes sitting back on his chair. You gave him a confused look, "What do you mean by its just me?" You questioned.
"Well we thought you'd be Eddie he's late" he explained looking at you up and down.
You shook the weird feeling in your chest and sat down beside eddies thrown, yeah it's true he made you a throne just for you.
Even though you didn't play dnd you were still his "Queen",and you'd never say no to a throne brought by Eddie Munson.
Usually when the group would play dnd you'd be talking to Eddie about your day but today you were awfully quiet and Eddie was obviously the first one to notice.
After the campaign mike stood up and boldly told eddie "This is probably the best campaign we made in months, finally peace and quiet is all we need", peace and quiet you wondered wasn't he the one screaming and yelling just seconds ago?.
But you knew damn well what mike means by saying that. You looked at Eddie waiting for him to respond to mikes clearly directed message.
But he didn't seem to notice, too busy talking to dustin. You sighed trying your best not to get some teenage boys words into your head.
But it did hurt and there was no way to ignore it, you knew this was stupid and dumb of you to make a scene about it but sometimes simple words can hit the heart in so many ways and it's not always good ways.
Soon enough everyone left and it just left you with Eddie, "What's going on in the pretty head of yours" his sweet voice taking you out of your deep thoughts.
"Oh nothing just...tired" you thought it was best to lie since if you told him all about mike you'd believe that you'd see mikes face all over milk cartons labeled missing.
"Am i annoying to you?" Stupid question to ask you think but the worry and guilt you were in was blinding you.
"Annoying? Sweetheart you're far from that, why would you say that?" He asked now closer to you.
"So you don't get annoyed at the fact that i talk too much?" Your questions seemed to worry and confuse Eddie even more. Why the hell would you say that? Did he accidentally say something? Did someone say something to you?.
The thought of someone ruining your day or mood made him feel angry to no end. You were an angel you only deserved love, he has to sometimes pinch himself just to see if you are real and that he's actually with you.
It hurt him to think that you would think any day that you were annoying or "talk too much".
"What?...No baby you could never be annoying or even think that you talk too much, i love listening to your silly little stories and seeing your cute smile while you get all happy and excited telling me about your day" you flushed at his statement feeling love and adoration for him grow even more in your heart.
Gosh what did you do to deserve him? You shyly turned your head away but he gently pulled you back into him faces almost colliding.
He slowly pushed the hair that fell on your face back, he closed the gap between you two pressing both your lips together.
Fire ignited in both of you as you went deeper and deeper into each others love and comfort.
Insecurities were completely normal but Eddie would make sure that he'd make them disappear in a matter of seconds. Especially if it means he could see that precious smile on your face.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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Autumn Weather
Eddie Munson x gn!Reader
A/n: fluff because i felt like it
Warnings: absolute tooth rotting fluff with eddie and Eddie being a sweetheart.
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Knocking on eddies door in the middle of the night probably isn't the best idea, but your excuse was not being able to sleep and you just missed him shouldn't that be enough?.
He opened the door with half lidded eyes and messy hair, "hi" you said giving him a wide grin before entering giving him a well needed hug.
"Your freezing" he mumbled into your hair hugging you tighter, you hummed back in response inhaling his intoxicating scent.
He grabbed your hand leading you to his bed. The sound of the wind whistling outside is the only thing both of you can hear.
Too lost into eachother "Here wear this" he gave you some shirt he randomly grabbed from the pile of clothes.
You quickly jumped onto his bed snuggling deep into the warmth of the blanket and pillows around you.
He soon joined you pulling you closer to him, "I missed you" you mumbled, "Missed you more" he immediately replied back.
"I love having you here, i love this just me and you together" he confessed voice low and clearly tired.
You placed your head on his shoulder his curly hair tickling your face. "i love you so much" you said sleeply before dozing off into your lovers arms.
He smiled holding you impossibly closer, Eddie never had so much love and adoration for someone until you came along.
You made him feel loved and cared for giving him what he has craved for so long.
A smile remained plastered on his face after he closed his eyes feeling content with you by his side.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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A Love Story Titled As Failure.
Steve Harrington x gn!reader
A/n: im in my sad era yet again finally got rid of writers block and i genuinely want to write, wanted this to be for eddie but lets all be serious steve fits the heartbreak genre.
warnings: angst, NO PART 2, breakups, arguments, kinda a toxic relationship, little bit of fluff but meh, i love writing steve being a total dumbass.
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This was stupid, it was stupid how you couldn't get over him. Even though he hurt you, and it was obvious.
The man you thought would cherish and love you like he promised broke your heart in a matter of seconds. And it was all because of one stupid argument.
You haven't talked to anyone in days, shutting off everyone all at once, you didn't want there "its gonna be ok" or the "he doesn't deserve you".
You didn't want any of that, all you did day and night sit in bed curled up under the sheets.
Eyes puffy, mouth dry, too lazy to get up to change or brush your hair.
God you hated being like this but all you thought about was him, his scent, his laugh, his smile all the way to how he used to look at you.
You groaned as you heard a knock on your door. "Go away" your voice barely passes as a whisper.
The knocking didn't stop even after you ignored it multiple times.
You got up dragging your feet on your carpet. Slowly opening the door, your eyes widened seeing him standing right there Infront of you.
You stepped back being too stunned to close the door in his face as much as you wanted to do that, you couldn't bring yourself to.
You were frozen as he walked Infront of you closing the door behind him.
Your eyes stayed locked on the floor not daring to look up into his beautiful Brown eyes.
Why was he here?
Didn't he say he wanted nothing to do with you.
Yes him with his own words.
He broke your heart and now has the nerve to show up.
"They told me to check up on you" he said breaking from your trance, of course they did your so good friends wanted to make feel better by bringing the cause of pain right to you.
When you didn't reply he continued "You know i never meant to hurt you right? I know you deserve better than me and that you think I'm a total jerk but please let me try to make it up to you" he said again seeing now you lifted your head looking straight at him.
His eyes frantic trying to search yours as he was waiting for an answer "Please just say something." He said voice dripping with desperation.
"You hurt me more than you'll ever know steve." You said cold tone trying to hide your hurt. Because you knew any second now you'll burst in tears just looking at him.
"I-i know i know sweetheart b-but please let me try again give me a chance" he said getting closer now trying to hold your hand.
"P-please i-i'd do anything to make this work, tell me anything I'll do it, just please dont leave me."
You ignored him, this wasn't like other times this was different this time you didn't feel the sympathy and sadness you'd feel for him no. All you felt was pain, a pain that he himself caused.
"You know what's sad about this? Is that im trying so hard to hate you yet i can't , i cant bring myself to do that. You are all i think about and just hate." You said pushing his hand away.
"You hate me?" He said voice cracking at the thought of you hating him, you can't hate him, no this was your anger speaking his mind was telling him, trying to calm himself down.
You couldn't bring yourself to answer. Really you didn't like him nor did you hate him.
It was so overwhelming that the air around you guys could almost choke someone.
"Do you think i liked hurting like this?" Now it was your turn to ask and steves turn to find the answer.
"Please look at me please- come on we can try again i-i p-promise to not hurt you" at this point both your faces had tears streaming down.
You shook your head passing him as you opened the door silently telling steve to leave.
"I'm sorry but there is nothing you can do. So please leave. We both know this won't work, don't make this harder on me" you said looking back down again trying to control your emotions.
"Please your hurting me i can't do this, one more chance i promise it will be better this time." at that you grabbed his arm roughly faces so close to each other.
"Hurting you? Please don't make me laugh harrington, don't make promises you couldn't keep." You pushed making him stubble out the door.
"Im begging you, don't shut me out." He said before you shut the door in his face.
You turned around sliding down the door with your face inside your hands.
Unstable breathing as you felt steves presence still outside the door.
It was unfair to both of you , as you both saw the depressing and painful ending of your love story being written by no other but you and steve.
A relationship between you two that could never be complete, a relationship between you two that's more like a dream.
Maybe this is a sign for the both of you to stop dreaming about this painful love.
A love story that was titled failure as you both burned away the days together living on false hope.
The pair of you both saw this coming yet you didn't leave. You didn't stop this from happening, now thinking about what was the purpose of staying.
Picking up both of your hurt slowly, You weren't special.
Neither of you were.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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Somewhere Only We Know
Steve Harrington x fem! reader
A/n: artist block is the shittiest thing in the world to experience but finally i came up with this thing.
warnings: fluff, the thought of dilf!steve needs a warning, kinda spoilers? eddie is alive here, reader can be any gender but there is talks about pregnancy.
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It's been a few months after the whole vecna incident everything is almost back to normal, and that dream of steve is finally going to happen and it was going to happen with you by his side.
Everyone around you guys were helping put boxes inside the trunk, you and Steve were in the back picking up some left over boxes, "You know im going to miss those shitheads" he broke the silence saying. You looked up at him you knew exactly who he was talking about.
"You know they would visit like everyday without invitation right?" you questioned.
You know you'd never be annoyed if robin, Eddie, and the kids would come by. They were like family to you anyways.
Dropping the last box into the car felt so relieving to you. you sighed swiping the sweat off of your forehead.
You turned your head only to see Steve bickering with the kids , you chuckled deciding to get closer to them.
"No i can't believe I'm finally going to get away from you guys" was the first thing you heard steve say when you got close enough.
"what's going on?"you questioned, "Steve won't allow us to sleep over" Eddie answered pouting.
"Oh? weren't you the one saying you'll miss them?" you said almost laughing at steves face when exposing him.
"Aww stevie will miss us, I love you too man" Dustin said opening his arms as if waiting for a hug. Steves face was priceless to say the least.
"Yeah stevie who wouldn't miss friends like us?" steve rolled his eyes at Eddies claim.
"Yeah whatever come on lets go" he grabbed your hand and walked you to the car, you sat down in the passengers seat with a wide smile on your face.
It was finally happening you couldn't believe it, you never knew you'd get this far. Steve started the car looking you right in the eyes with his charming smile "Ready?" he asked.
You nodded slowly looking back at the people who you have spent the craziest of years with waving goodbye right at you. you smiled waving your hand back.
The car started to move you watched as slowly the kids figures started to fade .
You turned and sighed happily as you felt steves hand holding yours caressing it slowly.
It took weeks to finally finish your dream house, and you still felt unreal, all of this was unreal.
You slowly walked through the now decorated House.Filled with furniture, you sat down on the couch Steve following right behind you .
You both sat there in comfortable silence, "I love you and i love this" he said planting a hand on your cheek slowly.
"I love you more" you replied giving him a Bright smile, "Listen this might sound really silly but I've always imagined a house full of tiny harringtons running around" he said still looking into your eyes.
"yeah? i don't think anyone would handle mini you walking around" you answered back."But i did miss one single detail", "mhm what is it?" you asked.
"You're there with me always" he looked at you with full Love and adoration.
He patiently waits for your answer, "You know? I'd love that" you whispered.
You watched as his eyes flickered with hope. he had that big stupid smile of his on his face.
A few minutes later he breaks the silence you've created yet again "imagine six Harringtons just walking around"
"SIX?? ok ok calm down there harrington" you said giggling pushing him away now.
"I know six is a lot but how about we start counting from now."
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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"Why did I fall in love with you again?"
Eddie munson x fem! Reader
A/n: ok so listen up this is kind of a kingdom au? I really thought this au/trope would fit eddie and thought this would make a change from my usual fics.
Warnings: cursing, angst to fluff, angry reader, Also very annoying eddie (but in a cute way), enemies to lovers, injuries (yk i can't go a fic without this), confessions, a very shit title, think that's it?.
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Conversation with you and Eddie were only bickering, most people told you that you both looked like an old couple, which annoyed you to no end. Knowing that eddie also hung onto that phrase.
"Oh god please give me the patients i need." you said sighing as eddie followed you everywhere you went since the moment you opened your eyes that day. "Don't you mean strength?" he said grabbing an empty basket near, "if i was given strength i would've killed you a long time ago" you said before ripping the basket away from his grip.
"Aw come on now i know you love me" he said, "i despise you." you said in a cold tone "yeahh..no you don't".
You rolled your eyes at his words, gosh how could you handle him everyday is what you always asked yourself.
A knight walked up to both you with a every worried and scared look on his face, "your highness, captain we are under attack we've tried evacuating everyone but we couldn't they got us first" he said as he tried to catch his breath.
You and Eddie shared looks and looked back at the knight who was basically shaking in his gear.
"we'll be there you try your best to keep them away" you said as he nodded running out.
Both you and Eddie got ready for the what so called "attack", it looked worse than that. You watched carefully as the whole kingdom went into chaos.
It was getting darker and darker as the fight continued, stepping on random corpses, multiple injuries and blood smeared everywhere wasn't exactly a sight to see.
"you know your highness i would say i value my opinion more than yours but in this situation you seriously need to make a decision" Eddies said now holding his sword tightly.
"What the fuck am i supposed to say, please stop this and let's all be friends so we can live a happy ending" you said faking high pitched tone.
"well we could just run away" he offered with a smirk, you rolled your eyes for the hundredth time today "don’t be ‘smart’. The battlefield is no place for Math Scholars." you pushed him away from you.
"oh come on your highness i know you care for me". "Stop talking or tomorrow won’t come." you said giving him a quick glance.
“Please don’t look at me with such hatred.” he said again with that pouty fake sad tone, you would've killed him if you weren't in a middle of almost war.
“I shouldn’t care for your life, but I’m starting to and it’s becoming an inconvenience.” you said lowly hoping he wouldn't hear, other than the disturbing sounds the are around you finally felt peace hearing eddie finally shut up.
"w-what?" he said silently. "what do you mean!" he said raising his voice as you stared walking away from him.
"HEY NO COME BACK" he started running towards soon enough he blocked your view standing now right infront of you.
"what the hell did you mean back there" he said voice now serious, you looked up finally locking your eyes with his “God Why did I fall in love with you again? you are the most annoying human being on earth”
You walked further leaving him frozen in place.
You felt blood dribble down your face as you slowly walked around the battle fields, those fuckers were gone but there damage wasn't.
You spotted the familiar long curly hair you've grown to love, you sighed remembering what you've said to eddie just hours ago.
You slowly sat down next to him, "hey" you said watching some of your people helping each other out and some going out for materials.
You heard nothing in return "hey! Why aren't you replying to me dumbass" you turned seeing that his hands were cold now, injuries scattered across his pretty face.
"Eddie?.." you whispered getting no response. "shit shit no no come on wake up you can't do this" you tried lifting him up getting him help immediately.
It was almost sunrise as you sat beside eddie on the nursing bed. Slowly caressing his scars on his face, carefully as to not hurt him.
God the thought of him dying and you not getting the chance to apologize hit you hard.
Couple of hours later you heard a groan, you shot your head up to see Eddie trying to sit up, "hey hey be careful" you said helping him out.
"hey sweetheart missed me?" he said with a cheeky grin on his face, yeah you knew he'd be ok. You hugged him..tight, he gasped at the feeling not being used to you being affectionate with him at all.
But he wasn't complaining. "im sorry" you said almost a whisper eddie would have missed it if you weren't so close to him.
"why are you apologizing your highness" he said now face to face with you, lips almost touching.
"I was so stupid to call you annoying i just didn't know how to handle my feelings and i know this is like really fucking stupid and dumb yeah i know but i couldn't imagine a life without you and i just love you so-" he stopped your very stupid rambling with a kiss.
A kiss that was very much long awaited from both of you. A kiss that was very much needed.
A kiss filled with all the love and adoration you both had for eachother even though it was never said out loud.
"Remember when we used to hate each other?" he said smiling at you, you gave him back a teary eyed smile before pecking his lips again.
You both enjoyed the comfortable silence around. Not being so used to it.
"You know eddie you tell a single soul about this and you will never see the light of day again." you said looking at his gorgeous brown eyes.
"There you are my sweetheart i wondered were you went" he said happily both of you falling into fits of giggles.
Yeah you both really were an old couple.
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anticipatedexhale · 2 years ago
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Thorns
Steve Harrington x gn! Reader
Warnings: death, hanahaki disease (this disease is pure fiction.), one-sided love, heartbreak, deep mentions of injuries and blood, no exact timing in what season this took place.
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You laid on your bathroom floor, crumbled up blooded tissues all around you, red flower petals scattering the dimly lit bathroom, cuts all of over your lips from the thorns of the flowers, it hurts is all you can think of.
You wished you never came to this town, you wished you never met Steve, you wish you never even existed at this moment. It was so painful sitting there watching your timer tick until you finally give up.
You had no energy to get up, but you knew you had to just one last time hear Steves voice.
You slowly got up, mind hazy and foggy, eyes blurry, legs almost giving up as you walked to your house phone, you dialed Steves number more than once.
No reply, the beeping sound flooded your hearing sense.
You sighed as it went to voicemail. "Hey Steve" you tried to gather yourself but your voice betrayed you "i know you won't reply now, but i just wanted you to know that i care for you ok? And I'll care for you forever, please don't forget me ok? It'll all be over soon and i know".
"im sorry i know you would hate this-" you started violently coughing as more and more blood covered your clothes and hands, the crimson red color was all you could see. "im sorry..i love you please forgive me." you said before closing back the phone.
You laid down on the floor yet again, feeling your face get hotter and hotter, it felt like hell, your eyes fought to stay open, your limbs unable to move. You limps painted with that red color like it was expensive lipstick.
Your lungs hurt as you tried to take a breath, it was all so much. Your phone rang once. You couldn't help but stay in your place.
No you couldn't even get up anymore. Once it rang, then twice, then third...then it stopped, everything, everything stopped, the pain. the ringing. Everything.
You eyes finally got the rest they needed. You hand had a bunch of flower petals you were still holding onto you imagined it was Steve you were holding onto, that gave you comfort.
Relaxed, a new feeling you felt, finally. After weeks of this torture this was finally gone, all the guilt of ignoring everyone you cared for and loved its all gone.
You felt guilty these past couple of weeks since you never wanted anyone to worry, you didn't want anyone to give you those pity looks, no sad eyes filled with tears.
You knew they were worried even if you didn't tell them. But they couldn't do anything, no one can do anything about this, except for him.
Poor Steve so oblivious to feelings, he wouldn't think in years his best friend would like him? No you guys are only and strictly friends right?.
It's too late, they were all too late, by the time they arrived at your house, it was too late, everything was gone now. Lost.
It was there time to feel guilty, the guilt of not being there for you, specially Steve.
He blamed himself for not realizing his stupid love sooner, he could have saved you. He thought of the pain you were in, in the last moments you were alive. You needed him there, and he wasn't even close.
You needed him.
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