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(my mom convinced me to do one less trip and just take her to the bookstore with me one time. i spent $50. i went there for a planner.)

I can behave normally around books

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The person I reblogged this from deserves happiness and love

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a quote from a piece that will likely never be shared (unless someone explicitly asks, but then i have to make edits and that’s scary)

“Maybe in a world where I’m simply a character in someone’s favorite book, I’d get a hero arc. But in this world, I’m nothing more than an unknown tragedy.”

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it’s like 3:30am and i have a telehealth appointment at 8am i can’t SLEEP and no one is active on discord im gonna actually go insane 🫠

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*through gritted teeth* the first draft doesn't have to be perfect it just has to exist the first draft doesn't have to be perfect it just has to exist the first draft doesn't have to be perfect it just has to exist THE FIRST DRAFT DOESNT HAVE TO BE PERFECT IT JUST HAS TO EXI-

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my thoughts come crashing into me at the speed of light, taking with their speed my breathing and heartbeat. why, the cat who has been killed and brought back an impossible number of times wonders, does my heart always race with my thoughts?

i need to get out of here, so i do. i tug on my shoes, or my boots, or even my slippers, then slip out the door with a paperback in hand. i’ll get lost in a reality not of my own, for an hour or two or four. a ghost among the known and unknown humans.

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actually i told my mother about you. she is happy i’ve made friends, and is happy that you’re nice to me. thank you

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Reminder that you're actually interesting. Your hobbies are interesting, your interests are interesting, you are important and loveable and people appreciate you. You're just a loveable, interesting person.

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i wake up at 10:30. i yearn and cry. i play minecraft for four hours. i stay up until 4am. i repeat.

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my feelings as i scroll through tumblr with plans to play cotl the rest of the day after my class

Narilamb save me

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went to sleep at 4, woke up at 8 for an appointment at 11. it’s 10, and i’m dressed, and was going to game for a bit. i’m laying in bed doomscrolling on tumblr because it’s the only app where the political posts are “if you’re queer in the us, i love you. if you’re trans in the us, i love you. if you’re poc in the us, i love you.” and that’s about all i can handle right now. i feel so numb, and there’s been a pit in my stomach for the past week.

LMAO I just found out that it’s Stress Awareness week.

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shitten shenanigans. shittenanigans if you will

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Find the smallest things to live for, because as much as it looks like the easy way out. It won't hurt them, they'll count it as a victory. They will take your death and be happy that you died.

So live, live to spite them. Live to prove them wrong.

You. Have. To. Live.

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You are going to laugh until your stomach hurts again. You're going to be in awe of a sunset. Watch your favorite show while you eat your favorite food. Find money on the street. Discover a great band you haven't heard of before. You will find your way back.

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…And I think to myself, as I sit on the once living tree that’s now rotted and dead and horizontal, that maybe I’ve made my impact already. That, at a mere nineteen years old, maybe I’m already done with what I’ve been here to do. Or, perhaps, a small voice in the back of my mind chimes, I’m just getting started. Which thoughts do I follow? The ones that wish to know how the flow of the water over my body would feel, or the ones that want to go new places and be with the people I love, even when I feel as though they may not love me the same?

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i normally stare at my phone when i walk bc eye contact w people is scary, but lately i haven’t been doing that.

wanna know why?

because i ran into boycrush One Time walking back from history and he said i’ve walked past him multiple times before that while on my phone and i will jump at any chance possible to talk to him. so this crush is helping me better myself in multiple ways bc he’s also the only reason im going to my classes rn!

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pasta has been an actual life saver for me this semester ngl. y’all know the ‘fed is best’ stuff? yeah, that goes for college students too. obviously nutritional food is more ‘ideal’, but guys, eat. please. even if it’s just like.. ramen or something. there is a 100% chance you will function better with some sort of food in your system. also, hydrate, please. with water.

Some tips for surviving uni (especially for people with bad mental health) from someone who had depression during the first 1.5 years of uni and recently finished their thesis:

1. If you are able to cook, learn easy and cheap one-pot recipes that you can make several portions of - like pasta. Take lunch with you and if possible reheat it (many unis provide microwaves). Hot lunch is so much better than cold, especially in winter and can really lift your mood. Try to make the food you enjoy eating (it may seem obvious, but it's easy to forget it). Avoid only eating sandwiches if you have a long day.

2. Talk to your professors. If you know you won't be able to finish project on time the best thing you can do is talk to your professor. Often they are pretty chill about it and will let you deliver your project a week or two later. If you want to take a photo of something and don't know if it's allowed you can also ask.

3. Talk to older students. They know many things - which professors are chill and reasonable, old exams photos and notes. Sometimes they know where you can print something for a reasonable price or eat cheap.

4. Take notes and share them with the other students. Also ask them for their notes. Don't be afraid to ask for help when you don't understand something and offer help if you can give it.

5. Find a place to study. If you can't focus in your room, try a library or any other space your uni offers to study. If you can't focus on it, try parallel studying with other people. Just sit in one room, each person learning their own thing. You will feel more motivation to study if there is another person around you that will notice if you start scrolling your phone insted of studying

6. Use scihub and anne's archive to get to the literature you need. No, it's not stealing.

7. Sleep! It's very important to have a decent sleeping schedule.

8. If you don't pass an exam it's not the end of the world. You always have a second chance and if this also doesn't work out, go to your professor and ask for another one. You won't always get it but some of them appreciate the effort and will let you rewrite the exam for the third time.

9. Always have pasta and some easy instant sauce at home. And some ready-made meals. If you have a freezer, use it. Don't rely on them but in case of an emergency you will not be left with nothing to eat