anntheo-96753

[anntheo-96753]

After a long time...

02/09/2022

Long time no see.

Form my previous entry to this one, I guess life changed and with it, I changed too. Feels vulnerable and powerful at the same time. Some turning point of life, they say. But life was already turning in circles, however, it is time for me to break out from this cycle.

The playlist that I am sharing today reflects these thoughts of mine. So lets get started:

Karuppu Vellai- Vikram Vedha (Lyrics on point)

That's Hilarious- Charlie Puth

Matilda- Harry Styles

Aigiri Nandini- Armonian ( empowered, also religion doesn't matter)

Norwegian Wood (Demo)- The Beatles

Palthu Fashion Show – Palthu Janwar (This is pure fun)

Well that's all for this time.

[anntheo-96753]

Playlist 2... Sufi

11/04/2022

Now this genre of song just slides me into tranquility. Softly. Smoothly. Sufi is poetic and I don't how many people are aware of this genre. But for me it's pure gem. Sufi is / was highly religious and spiritual. Originally, this is a devotional form associated with Muslim mystics known as Sufis. The roots of the same can be found largely in Persia, parts of the Arabic world, Pakistan and India. However, the religious part is recreated in current Sufi songs. I guess, however I am not really sure of it, Sufi in the present time is highly romanticized. It's more kind of invoking a muse with a religious touch to it.

Sufi is kind of Intense also calm. I don't know how to describe it. Hmmmm... its like pouring water on a hot pan... there is this hot sizzling sound and silence. Heheheh.... I don't know if it is making sense... Anyway my love for Sufi is eternal.. so I wanted share some of my favourites here...

Khwaja Mere Khwaja - Jodhaa Akbar|@A. R. Rahman| (This song is Face of Sufi when it comes to India) HINDI

Kun Faya Kun- AR Rahman - Rockstar HINDI

Alhamdulillah- Sufiyum Sujatayum ........Malayalam

Sufi Dance | Sufiyum Sujatayum | M Jayachandran | Vijay Babu ...... Malayalam

Vathikkalu Vellaripravu -Sufiyum Sujatayum ...... Malayalam

Mukkathe Penne - Ennu Ninte Moideen..... Malayalam

Vathilil | Ustad Hotel..... Malayalam

Teri Deewani- Kailash Kher HINDI

Saiyyan · Kailash Kher HINDI

Allah Ke Bande · Kailash Kher HINDI

Ps: I hope you are in good health

[anntheo-96753]

Playlist 1... Unplugged

08/04/2022

Somehow, I find peace in this unplugged version of the songs. Especially when the songs from India. Unplugged version of songs throw emphasis on lyrics and it's so beautiful... Instruments mellow, vocals on point. Brings out so many emotions, there is love, there is longingness... excitement of waiting for someone... heartbreak... assurance... a promise and happiness.

I usually close my eyes, let my hair play with breeze and sit in solitude. Experience the magic that these songs take me.

These are some of it. If someone is listening to it, headphones please!

Ennavale - Arvind Venugopal f. The Quintet - Music Mojo - Kappa TV

https://lyricsraag.com/ennavale-adi-ennavale-kadhalan/ (lyrics with meaning)

KANMANI ANBODU COVER SONG - SACHIN SIBY & SHYAM KUMAR AS

https://lyricsraag.com/kanmani-anbodu-kadhalan-meaning-guna-kamal-haasan/

Innum Konjam Neram - Shweta Mohan f. Bennet & the band - Music Mojo - Kappa TV

http://www.bollymeaning.com/2013/12/innum-konjam-neram-lyrics-english.html

Nenjukkul Peidhidum - Kaushik Menon - Music Mojo Season 2 – KappaTV

https://lyricsraag.com/nenjukkul-peidhidum-translation-vaaranam-aayiram/

Masala Coffee - Munbe Vaa (Cover)

https://lyricsraag.com/munbe-vaa-song-english-translation-sillunu-oru-kadhal/ (very cheesy)

Mele mele vaanam - Vethaalam - Music Mojo Season 2 - Kappa TV

Vennila Chandana Kinnam - West Coast Vibe - Music Mojo Season 3 - Kappa TV

https://paattinteparibhasha.com/2020/11/16/vennila-chandanakinnam/

Tu Hi Re - MTV Unplugged (Full Song) – Hariharan

https://labelrebelofficial.com/bombay/tu-hi-re-hindi-song-lyrics-english-translation-and-meaning-bombay-movie/

Aaj Jaane Ki Zidd Na Karo - Papon | MTV Unplugged

http://www.bollymeaning.com/2016/09/aaj-jane-ki-zidd-na-karo-lyrics.html

Piya Tose Naina Laage Re (Cover) - Jonita Gandhi feat. Keba Jeremiah & Sanket Naik

https://www.filmyquotes.com/songs/1249 (Lyrics descending order )

Ps: Songs are in Tamil, Malayalam and Hindi. These are only few which I currently remember.

Enjoy!

PS: heheh... some lyrics are really cheesy... sorry

[anntheo-96753]

Playlists

07/04/2022

A day without music is so lifeless. Music is so much woven into my daily life that life feels empty without it. And there are times, when I don't know what to listen to. I forget about the songs that I have listen in the past. For ease I post it on insta so when I am searching for it, I'll find it in my archive. Now, that I uninstall insta, I have nowhere to post and remember it. Therefore, I thought of creating a playlist here. Also, the entire purpose of this page is to oil my writing process. So, I'll posting a playlist and will be writing why I'll like that particular song.

If anyone by any chance comes across this page, Do share a song, language doesn't matter.

Hope you are in good health!

[anntheo-96753]

Break

05/04/2022

I am taking a break from social media! and its not a new thing. I am not that of a social person. So I tend to go out it for while and come back again . So it wouldn't matter that much, I guess.

Well, while taking a shower i prepared a long Nobel price winning speech to write here but when I began to write i am going blank. And it is breaking me. This keeps happening. And its an ongoing for quite some time now. I talk to people, they say its a phase but some where this phase is eating me up. To release myself from this agony, I turned myself to social media. I tried to scroll my worries away. Now at this point, I just cannot stop scrolling. An addiction i must admit.

I being Me can never give in to any kind of addiction.

So i thought to take a break.

Also, this addiction of mine lead me to create some unexpected dreams and realities. So much that I am forgetting who I am and What I want with the life. I think its high time that I focus on myself and get back on track before its too late. I accept my emotions and not feel guilty about it. Not pity myself 'others' are doing it for me. I rather choose to pick myself up and fight with myself, first.

I have hurt so many of them, What do I do ? i don't know what to do about it. I ll make a way, right?

I feel like I am rowing in two boats simultaneously and its time for me to choose one. So i need time and think thoroughly and clean on what I decide.

Anyway, why do I write here? I don't know, I always felt that you were always with me. Whenever I was sailing through a rough sea, you were there as the lighthouse. It might be coincidence. But those were beautiful coincidences. I felt hopeful. I treasure it. And I wish to do the same for you, someday. Before that I want heal myself.

So when I say i am out of socials, I am never out of it, really. There is always some apps like Twitter, Tumblr and SLOWLY which i rarely use I'll be here! These apps are less interactive, so I wish to keep it.

Till I come back,

Be Happy, Enjoy your time with your loved ones.

Take care of your health.

Don't be apologetic or guilty towards your actions.

Don't over do yourself.

Ps:

Don't resist the rain and storm I'll never leave you lost at sea I will be your lighthouse keeper Bring you safely home to me I will be your lighthouse keeper Bring you safely home to me

- The Lighthouse keeper (Sam Smith)

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My Wishes as per 2022(It might change, I don't know)

22/01/22

With the outset of the year 2022, there is this urge to create a wish list. I never had a wish list. I am or I was a kind of person who believes/ed in "go with the flow". But these days the flow isn't that good. The stoic person in me is dying somewhere and I am kinda happy about it. I am not an eye for aye person either . But Enduring without showing it -is leaving me without self love and self respect. Therefore, I feel like when I go to sleep, I should have something like a warm soft blanket or a mellow cloud which would eventually put me to a peaceful sleep. And this what wishes are for me. For too many days spent in languish, here is my wish list.

1. I wish to see a Lighthouse. I really don't why! but Lighthouse always ring peace and hope. The harmony of the waves and the Sturdiness of lighthouse is something I wish to experience.

2. I wish to have a pet. A dog, a sloth or a hamster or an owl. I am still not sure tho there tons of videos saved on my insta I am not sure what kind of pet I want. However, I wish to have a pet. There is this inner anguish of being alone, which I need to overcome. And I wish to experience unconditional love.

3. I wish to watch whales swimming someday. When I am extremely stress or sad I gravitate towards these benevolent creatures. The sound of the whales is my quick pill for relaxation. Therefore, I wish to see them for real and listen to sound for real.

4. I wish to a penpal with whom I can share music. I have been using SLOWLY for a while and I have got many friends. Different culture, different taste, different personalities and so on. But I wish to have a friendship where I could talk about daily life through songs. I am true believer of "Music shatters any language barriers". so any kind of song is welcome. Music is like books it opens up to an entirely different world. Also, I am intrigued rather curious to know what I feel today, was felt by someone else EXACTLY the same way, few years back and made a song out of that feeling. What is this shared feeling?!

5. When I lay down on my bed, hanging my one arm out of the bed. I wish someone to hold it and help me walk through my nightmares and sleep paralysis.

Is it too much to wish for?

[anntheo-96753]

Writing while I Think...

Lately, for me, writing has become an excruciating task. When I put myself to write, my whole world starts spinning 360 x 180 (just some numbers). Tornado of thoughts hurling inside my head, disaster on the paper. 

To initiate with,

I sit with book and pen, then change to paper and pencil and slowly shift towards my laptop. 

To get moving, I change places -from hall to balcony, balcony to the kitchen, kitchen to hall, hall to bedroom and from the bedroom to sleep. 

Also not to forget the bgms, Full concentration video for 1hr, Caffe music, Calm music, meditating music, LoFis and reverbs.

-  I have wasted one day finding myself in the vacuum of words. 

I guess the more I earn my degrees, the more I fall short for the words. Where are these learnings and readings going? 

Earlier, when I sit to write, I already knew what it would look like or sound like but now both my mind and hand goes like this                     

                                  ........................................................ ‘blank’

I think about a topic and ends up in a pot full of topics. How does a lyricist come up with words?

Me; if I have to wish someone, I would just write 

Happy birthday/anniversary. Have a good day!

Congratulations!!!!!! (Zero emotions).

(If I am writing, more than this:- YOU ARE A SIGNIFICANT HUMAN)

I have this chaotic thought process.... my thoughts hop from milk tea to tiny book stickers to Edgar All Poe to How deep is the ocean?  Why are some humans so tall? to Camus to What will I eat? What if someone ate me? on and on and on. After this hurl, I end up having an existential crisis. 

Meanwhile, I rant here, my brain goes like, you have an internship to complete and a paper to be published and a thesis to complete.

Heart is my friend- it says “Sleep a little longer”

[anntheo-96753]

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This page is just for my writing practice.

If you come across this page,

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