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A loaded bank account, a healthy relationship and a comfortable life is all I really want rn

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i accidentally pressed my messenger profile in the app and it automatically brings me to reactivation, kinda browse through it, and there were a lot of people who messaged me if i’m okay and why am I deactivated.

one of the best things about stepping away from social media is seeing who actually reaches out when I go quiet. It’s a reminder that the real ones will always check in, even when you're not visible online.

#thoughts #socmeddetox

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📍 SG, 2024

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it's me and my unhealthy sleeping schedule against the world

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this “hello love, goodbye” movie is a really tear-jerker for me.

being a bread-winner is really tough, and even when it feels like you wanted to take a rest, there’s this guilt that you should’ve been working instead to earn more and can give more to the family.

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holy week recap:

• woke up at 5 AM to run few kms at the track

• deactivated all soc med accts

• watched rewind movie 2x and cried a lot for both times

• build my profile on onlinejobs.ph (been wanting to do this since last yr)

• data clean-up on phone (photos, videos, SMS, apps, etc)

• do some of the household chores (folding clothes, fixing beds, clean tables, washing dishes)

• and ofc, filed an OT for work.

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My heart is too pure for meaningless relationships & friendships. I value them deeply

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while my other socmeds are deactivated, i was able to delete unnecessary photos/videos, i also went thru my SMS and when i’m randomly back-reading messages i can’t control comparing my current job to my previous job (esp when filing a leave)

sharing here some snaps:

this are my conversation with my previous boss from my first job.

vs.

this is how i informed my boss that i needed to take a leave.

the get well soon and no problem response is more appropriate rather than asking for the pending tasks and my ways of working.

i was really happy i was able to leave my first job, and even if it took me a long time, at least i’ve built all the courage i needed to work in a more competitive industry and is also concerned in employees well-being. so this is my kind of life lately, i’m more happy and free with my current job.

#lifelately

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"Let your dreams be your wings".

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short run only bc we came in late at the track and it’s too hot to continue! 🥵

#lifelately

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yung head namin lagi ako sinasabihan na i really sounded like my boss/lead but it gives so much pressure in me as he expects me to be in the same path.

but sorry i just can’t. it’s bc ever since i started working i always have to talk to the high-level people (general managers, president, CEO, supervisors) which is mentally, physically and emotionally draining. there are a lot of times i had to skip my meals and cr breaks, and it’s very rare to have enough and good sleep as i am preparing for everything in perfection bc i am respecting their precious time. although i’m grateful that I got to work with them closely and it was very advantageous in my career, it didn’t help to have my healthy state of mind.

now that i’ve got to take a step back in my career path, i’m just so happy that i really found a good balance between work and life. everything feels so nice as i’m able to unwind after every stressful event. but maybe someday, i could go back to that path again. time will come and i might want to interact again w/ the high-level people. or maybe if God will allow, i’ll be in that level already.

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It's a lot healthier to go for a daily walk than to sign up for a gym membership you won't be using because you hate that kind of exercise. It's a lot healthier to eat a frozen meal than to skip a meal because you were too tired to cook something healthy. It's a lot healthier to take a quick shower than to procrastinate an elaborate routine for days. Don't aim so high that you won't be hitting anything!

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When you know yourself, you don’t need the world to know you

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if only i could be selfish just once, if only i could walk away from all the responsibilities i never made, if only i could make those people who turned their back on me understand how much effort and understanding i've made for them, if only i could open up how frustrations comforted me when nobody knew how much restlessness i had, if only my sighs are loud enough to whisper where my disappointments are coming from, if only i could fathom what emotions i must have been feeling when nothing seems right and just....

if only i could, i would.

Silent Screams of a Breadwinner's Heart, Riza Joy Betis