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My medication has basically killed my sex drive & I feel like I’m gonna relapse

I tried to kill myself. I’m still here though.

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i fell off the wagon. started to binge & purge again.

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why has no one fallen in love w/ me yet i’m so bored

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I owe it to myself to reunite who I am with who I’m capable of being

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that weird trauma dichotomy where you’ve always been considered more grown up and mature than your peers but now that you’re an adult you feel like you’re still a child emotionally

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Death of Me - PVRIS

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In Favour of the Sensitive Man and Other Essays by Anaïs Nin

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I am constantly torn between wanting to fix myself and wanting to destroy myself.

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And according to research, Childhood Trauma (child abuse) puts you at risk for

– Depression

– Anxiety

– Decreased performance at work

– Trouble sleeping

– Chronic stress

– Alcoholism

– Addiction

– Suicide

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roads

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My medication makes me so fucking drowsy all day smh

I tried to kill myself. I’m still here though.

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I tried to kill myself. I’m still here though.

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“Most adult children of toxic parents grow up feeling tremendous confusion about what love means and how it’s supposed to feel. Their parents did extremely unloving things to them in the name of love. They came to understand love as something chaotic, dramatic, confusing, and often painful—something they had to give up their own dreams and desires for. Obviously, that’s not what love is all about. Loving behaviour doesn’t grind you down, keep you off balance, or create feelings of self-hatred. Love doesn’t hurt, it feels good. Loving behaviour nourishes your emotional well-being. When someone is being loving to you, you feel accepted, cared for, valued, and respected. Genuine love creates feelings of warmth, pleasure, safety, stability, and inner peace.”

— Susan Forward, Toxic Parents: Overcoming Their Hurtful Legacy and Reclaiming Your Life

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literally every sleep advice pamphlet and website: don’t do things before bedtime! no reading! no video games! don’t watch tv! nothing stimulating at all within two hours of going to bed! :)

me, an adhd: you fools. you buffoons. i can’t even manage one minute without stimulation. i will die before following this advice and that is a threat

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I think the worst part of the way I was raised was the fact that my parents are convinced that if I’m scared that means I’m guilty of something. No. I’m scared because I’ve been conditioned to expect pain as punishment.