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Sometimes it feels like this.

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I can't wait to be thin and pretty for when I meet the one, that's my goal, I can't meet my soulmate in the state I'm in now

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No more boyfriend so I can spiral as much as I want!!!!! Yay!! :))

I'm actually kinda happy

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My mum literally got me pumpkin pancakes yesterday and that's basically all i ate yesterday besides an extra small potato, and now me and my s/o are gonna have a pumpkin spice date because my favourite coffee place brought it back for the season, including pumpkin muffins.

Thank god he's okay with sharing half with me so less cals for me

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In the past week, I lost 1.8kgs, not as much as I wanted but I also ate out with friends/bf so that's still pretty good!!

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Me when i say im gonna starve for a week

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So I'm trying to stick to the IU diet when I'm not out with my friends or special one so my plan now is

Breakfast: Banana - ~110cal

Lunch: Slim Fast + chocolate powder- 120cals

Dinner: Extra Small Sweet Potato- 60 cals

And if I'm out with people, or I know I'm going out, no eating until we get food.

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Okay update:

I love romance and all that but boys like to eat too much fr. Been dating a lot this summer and f*cking hell mate, I gained back 3 kgs from eating out with boys. But no more takeaway dates for me!!!

I shall be skinny for October so I look good in fall couple pictures tho :)

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I'm also starting to get a real thigh gap, even when I was younger and I was a bit more sick, I never had that

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Ever since my binge I've been eating around 400-500 besides 1200 last saturday. I just weighed my self and I lost 2kg! I guess whatever I've been doing is working

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Ugh fuck me, I just binged so much, probably 2500+ Calories, I'm so full don't even want dinner, I'm gonna mega restrict next few days fr fr

I was so hungry today before I binged I felt like I was gonna collapse,I couldn't even pick up my drink, but I should've just stayed hungry, but no I just happen to live 5 minutes away from a store so I bought so many bags of crisps and sweets, none of it tasted good either, fuck all this processed food, tastes like death in a bag

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Great, my scale broke 🫠🫠🫠 its 2 kgs off. Someone tested it out for me since she just got weighed at a checkup, and yup, 2kgs off exactly. That's what I get for buying a 4£ scale 🥲

But hey, according to it, now I'm 53kgs!

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I'm so surprised I have not gone over majorly at all this past week, I'm like prouddddddd. I think next Wednesday I'm gonna post a body check tho, just to track progress as I'm gonna start working out tonight.

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My food from today

Breakfast

Coffee with cream - 30

Apple - 97

Lunch

Large potato - 268

Dinner

2 rice cakes- 80

Sliced chicken- 54

Lite dressing/spread- 20

Snacks

Some chicken- 50

So hard today with my first shift at a coffee/bake shop, I just wanted to stuff my face with sweets and sugary coffee

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From yesterday

Kinda ate like the IU diet yesterday

One apple

One potato

But instead of protein shake, I had rice cakes and lunch meat

But my mom also got me a bagel but I split it with her

Also I weighed myself this morning and I weigh 54kg now, yay

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Here's my calories from the past two days

Haven't really had the energy to post or anything, but oh well

I hope I can working out soon, I just can't find the time lately, but I'm starting a new job and I'll be on my feet most of the day so hopefully that'll help. My last job I lost a bit of weight without watching what I ate because I was walking so much (perks of retail I guess)

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From yesterday

I feel kinda bad for going so low, but I did kinda overeat the day before, and I found out I'm a lot heavier than I thought I was

Last time I was in deep shit with Ana, I lost my 'aunt flo', and I don't wanna cause anymore damage to my body, but I also don't wanna be fat