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ang-paborito · 4 months ago

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Vietato Retold

Eric's POV

They have another sister, Ma. Cristina, who is 10 years younger than Eric. She's the 4th child followed. Eric had been protective of Cristina. She's very religious and dainty. Smart, too.

Eric protected Cristina when she bludgeoned a man to death when she almost got raped. Cristina was 13. They been close since then. However, when Cristina graduated from High School, while heavily drunk, Eric and Cristina had incestuous sex.

Their mother found out immediately. Catching them the morning after. While she doesn't want her family to crumble or send her son to jail, she made sure Cristina forgot it. She sent Cristina to study in Baguio and will only allow her to come home three times a year. She forced Eric to get married fast.

Cristina took Mathematics. After graduation, she decided to become a nun. But after a year, the convent burned down. She received a scholarship to study in Oxford, London for two years and worked there a year.

Eric picked her up from the airport. Cristina returned and took a teaching position at their old university, one of the country's best.

Eric and his family went to Baguio for a relative's wedding. While vacationing, Cristina got caught in the rain so she called Eric for help. Eric came but they were blocked out from getting though. They had to stay on a hotel separately. Then together. Cristina asked why Eric acts uncomfortable around her. She wonders if she hurt him.

Eric said no.

Meanwhile, back home in their province, he discovered the incestuous relationship between his siblings. He tried to protect his youngest sister from his older brother.

But he had his limits when Soy seduced him. Out of hate and anger, Eric raped Soy.

In which he started to have an affair with the youngest sister.

Eric continued to have feelings for Cristina but wouldn't touch her the way he kept touching Soy.

Cristina on the other hand had been receiving suitors but nobody is match for her. A lot of men were obsessed with her but she expressed disinterest which worried her parents especially her mother. Cristina was successful with her career especially getting a lot of invitations and opportunities but she had so much money.

At some time, Cristina started to remember about her and Eric but Eric quickly denied. She disappeared to go on a religious break.

After the lockdown, Cristina reappeared and announced that she's getting married to a man she met a few months back.

She got engaged to Alfonso del Peralta, a Governor's son and senior partner of a famous law firm.

At this time, the incest is going strong among the siblings.

Cristina and Eric become a bit closer. But when Cristina learned from Eric's wife that Soy and Eric were having sexual relations. To which she tried to uncover. Cristina caught one of his brothers, Martin, having intercourse with Soy.

Cristina confronted Eric. Then she asked if he thinks about doing it to her.

Eric denied trying to protect the truth. Their mother asked Cristina to leave for a while and questioned why does their mother always separate her from the family. She sensed that Eric and their mother were hiding something from her.

Cristina packed up and left but Eric caught up with her lying on the fields.

Confused, Cristina cried if she did something or their mother knew about the crime she had committed.

Eric told her the truth. That they had sex together. Cristina broke down because she had been protecting herself and was increasingly obsessed with religion and cleanliness it was because she was filthy.

Eric calmed her down and kissed her. They kissed but Cristina was more horrified. CRISTINA admitted still being in love with Eric and so does he.

Cristina fell asleep in the hut. They kissed but they promised that when she would get married, they'll have to stop. Eric would stop having sex with Soy because it'll make her jealous and she would be okay if it would be with Maricel.

Eric promised.

Eric showed her the sheets where he took her virginity. Their mother hid it.

Meanwhile, Allan revealed to Soy about Cristina and Eric that they had a special relationship.

Cristina left for Baguio.

Cristina and Alfonso got married.

Eric broke his promise and still touched Soy who is now in love with him but still continues the affairs with her other brothers. Cristina helped out Soy to get a masters degree in the city. Eric asked Soy t install cameras in their room.

Soy lived with Cristina and Alfonso much to Alfonso's annoyance. Eric told Soy to seduce Alfonso but Alfonso caught up with her then insulted her being a trash compared to Cristina. Alfonso had Soy be raped by a criminal to be used for his case.

Eric watched the daily relationship between Cristina and Alfonso which was just wholesome. Soy though get vague information about the weird actions between her sister.

Cristina discovered the hidden cams and punished Soy. Soy discovered that Cristina and Alfonso were into BDSM. So Cristina sexually tortured Soy along the rules of BDSM which she liked.

They went home to Tarlac. Eric found out what Cristina did to Soy and it sparked argument.

They made peace eventually when Allan almost killed Soy while having sex by choking her too hard.

Allan mysteriously died.

Cristina came back again.

Later on, Cristina and Maricel was on a car accident. Cristina survived but Maricel died. Eric blamed Cristina for it.

Cristina returned back and hadn't returned to her family for a year.

Returning, Eric and Cristina argued heavily that turned almost into Cristina killing Eric. They kissed and proceeded to have sex. They started their sexual relationship but Cristina delineates that she loved Alfonso and will choose her husband over her brother.

Cristina came home and unknowingly, Alfonso knew her affair between the brother and they talked about it. This reveals the real Alfonso. Although he was asexual, he loved Cristina and their sex is more on power.

Eric would see Cristina every week in Baguio. Cristina had multiple sex with Eric however it had to stop when Alfonso had an assassination attempt.

She also announced pregnancy but Cristina tricked Eric it was his.

According to Soy, Cristina had been pregnant already before a month before going back to Tarlac as evidenced by the discarded pregnancy tests.

Their sexual affair still continued. Eric though increasingly is obsessed with Cristina and talked about taking her away and living away.

Cristina said that she won't leave Alfonso. Alfonso would find her anyway.

Meanwhile, Eric and Soy were secretly having sex again and he got her pregnant. Eric wanted Soy to have it aborted but Soy wanted to keep it.

Soy asked Cristina for help and Cristina sent her to Vietnam for a while to hide there. They told their family she's there for work as a teacher. So that she'll be away from Eric who was trying to get it aborted.

Cristina and Eric had a fall out again because of it. Eric though afraid losing Cristina, promised to stop it.

Months went on and Cristina gave birth to a boy, Rusco.

The family went to see her and the new baby.

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ang-paborito · 7 months ago

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I love my Potterhead husband but ...

I'm annoyed at him being a Harry Potter fan. I have nothing against harry potter. But my abuser, my sister's husband loved harry Potter. He introduced me to harry Potter books but he molested me when I was 5-9. I didn't know that it was abuse back then.

Wala Kasi silang anak pa noon, Ako pinagpapraktisan nila na anak. But I the sis husband is a bad man. We go to the movies pa pag may release ng harry Potter. Minsan nakagitna ako sa kanila, he is molesting me kahit katabi namin ate ko.

Natigil when I turn double digit.

Mga 14 ako pinalayas sila sa Bahay Kasi nag-away sila ng papa. I cut them off since then pero nagbati din sila. Pero Ako sobrang layo na ng loob ko. I also confronted my sister about that Kasi Minsan na nya kami nahuli pero wala sya ginawa. Pinagalitan nya pa ako.

Now I married a potter head. He's the sweetest guy on earth. He's pogi naman, hardworking, soft-spoken, funny and never ako binigyan ng sakit ng ulo. He's my first boyfriend and I was also his first girlfriend. Now we are married. Perfect na...

But he's very Harry Potter fanatic huhu.

Yun lang talaga ang kinaiinisan ko na hindi naman nya kasalanan. By the way, the sis husband gave me harry Potter books and CDs when I was a kid everytime he does that. I never got rid of it. When my hubby and I were friends pa in college, I gave it to him. So Akala nya potterhead din Ako.

Tamang kinig lang and support naman ako. Even if I was not super into it. Pag Harry Potter nabubuhayan sya ng dugo. Memorize nya pa mga spells. Basta may Harry Potter themed na cafe or place, gusto nya pinupuntahan. Worst of all, he has friends who are potterheads too. Ginagawa nilang personality.

Nakakacringe seryoso.

I thought it wouldn't affect me and nawawala din yung pagkafanatic nya. We got married 2018 and when we moved to our small apartment, he still has memorabilias even the books and CDs I gave him. Nag-away na kami nyan at sinabihan ko syang napakachildish niya. Nagtampo sya and was about to give it away but I don't like seeing him hurt. Kaya naguilty ako sabi ko wag na ok basta it wouldn't take much space.

Btw, sis's husband died in 2021. Dun ka lang sinabi sa hubby ko what he did to me. Pero di ko masabi naiirita ako sa pagiging Harry Potter fan nya Kasi childhood nya yun eh. That was his happy childhood elementary days. His parents bring him to the cinemas. Yung childhood ko ng Harry Potter eh associated with abuse eh parang sinira ko dn childhood memories nya.

Pero tiis na lang ililibing ko hanggang hukay haha. Buti na lang hindi nya ginagawang cosplay kink yun kundi omigahhhd.

Malapit na kami mag-6th wedding anniversary and magtu-30 na din. We were planning to go to Japan and gift ko na sa kanya yung Universal Studios na harry Potter theme park.

Pero my god, my mental health talaga. I think I should go back to therapy huhu.

Pero sige, mahal ko eh. Wala naman syang masamang ginagawa in fact he does everything good and right pero sumasakit ulo ko dahil naalala ko pa din kahit long time ago pa and my molester died already.

Feeling ko hanggang magkaanak kami puro harry Potter pa din. More reminders of my bad past. But I don't really have the heart to tell him.

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ang-paborito · 7 months ago

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Saint Mary's School for Troubled Girls (Ma. Cristina)

Eric has a work project in Baguio and will stay in her estranged sister's home, Cristina or Tina.

Eric has 5 other siblings. 4 other boys and only one girl, Cristina. Though Eric has been the closest to Cristina next to Alfred who is born a year ahead of Cristina, Eric feels nervous around her as they haven't been together this long ever since Tintin was 16.

Cristina is research microbiologist in a university. She is meticulously clean and religious. Dainty and feminine, Eric reveals that she's not weak and that's why he is scared of her because she could stand up for herself and fight.

Eric notices that Cristina comes out every night and comes back early in the morning.

Eric though always notices Cristina's still dainty behavior from her dressing, calculated actions and being a neat freak. Tintin has a cat named Bimbo who didn't like Eric at first.

He slowly notices Cristina becoming a woman but though she has parade of suitors, she has no lovers.

He has learned a few things about Cristina. Cristina spent college in Baguio and only comes home every year but they never talk as Eric is married and sometimes he is at his wife's province.

After college, Tintin went to London to study take her Master's degree. Worked there for a year and has been abroad for four years before coming home. Tintin also often goes missing for religious travels and can't be contacted.

There are also tons of missing people.

Christina's friend, Angela arrives and seduces Eric. As they have sex, Angela made Eric reveals that he is attracted to his sister, Tintin.

Eric reveals more of Tintin's. When she was young their, godfather attempted to kidnap and rape Tintin. Eric comes to rescue but Tintin picked up a rck and beat up the godfather with it until it dies. Eric told Tintin to hide it so it won't complicate Tintin's life. He stripped off Tintin and changed her clothes. However in the following days, Tintin is scrubbing her hands off repeatedly untp it bleeds out.

Eric notices it makes her stop but she can't. She feels the guilt. Graduating elementary, she is invited to go to an exclusive all girls catholic boarding school in which she immediately went.

Eric and Cristina made a promise to forget what happened.

Eric reminds Cristina about that as he knows that when she cleans at 3 in the morning, he knows what's going on. Knowing what is her guilt he knows she has hurt someone.

Cristina says she's fine but Eric starts to notice that sometimes she's days away. He dropped in at her work and finds out she doesn't work there anymore.

A series of flashbacks shows that Eric has been visiting Cristina in the high school before he gets married.

Cristina tells Eric that she did again. She hurt someone again.

Cristina repeats the process of cleansing herself. Eric suggest she learns how to hold a gun or MMA. As she did.

Eric asks Cristina about it and Cristina says she quit months ago and is just doing volunteer teaching. He starts to question about her expensive lifestyle but Cristina shuts him off until she collapsed. Eric brought her to the hospital and learns that she has a wound in her leg caused by stabbing.

Years ago, During a summer vacation, Eric picked Cristina up going home to their province. Having grown close, Cristina often sneaks into Eric's room. They often spend a lot of time together in the paddy fields.

While drunk, Eric kissed Cristina on her lips when she was crying. Cristina confesses of being in love with Eric and shared a kiss.

Their mother is horrified seeing them hugging each other in bed seemingly intimate. She rushed Eric's wedding to a closer date and insists Cristina to stay in Baguio longer.

Eric told her they cannot do that again as they are siblings. Cristina then joined the order of Matriarchi as a paid hitgirl.

Eric asks Cristina about her strange behavior. Cristina reasoned out that it was just an accident. They get home and Eric takes care of her.

Eric and Angela continues sleeping with each other and asks about Cristina but Angela is mum about it.

Cristina and Angela are staking out on their new target. Cristina knowingly that Eric is also just behind them, they turned around leading him to a night club.

Eric got mad at Angela for bringing Cristina there and poisoning her mind. Cristina and Eric fought.

Meanwhile, Cristina learned Eric slept with Angela in her own house. They argued and Eric kissed her. Tintin pushed him away and told him to leave.

Eric left and goes home to their province for a while. While staying there, he has become indifferent.

His mother questioned him about Cristina and reminds him that they are siblings.

Eric though came back but has seen Cristina in a nondescript attire, soiled and hands bloodied.

Eric has thoughts that Cristina has killed someone or hurt someone again.

Cristina couldn't speak as who she killed that night was Angela who was doing crimes herself using the sisterhood.

Eric bathed her, seeing her body.

They slept beside each other. Eric tries to get the truth out of Cristina but she wouldn't say a thing.

Eric promises whatever her secret is there he will hide it no matter how bad it is.

Cristina cries and admits still having romantic feelings for him. Which shocks Eric and in turn he kisses her again and forcibly stripping her but Cristina stops her. She says they have to control themselves.

The next days, she tells Eric that she's looking for a new job. And that in the evening Eric catches her dolled up and going on an orchestra date with someone else which makes Eric jealous.

Cristina thougj has a new partner, Franco, temporarily.

They go to a orchestra to kill a target. Franco shows interest to Cristina and ends up having sex in a hotel room. Franco drops off Cristina late at night while Eric is waiting. They argued about about their relationship. When Cristina cried Eric confronted her and they kissed again before Cristina shuts the door.

The next morning, Eric tells her that he's leaving as his project is almost finished and will come back when needed.

Eric left and chose to stay in a hotel for the next few days until he returned to the province.

Cristina continues her relationship with Franco as Franco has been reassigned. Cristina works alone now as a killer.

Months went on until Christmas and Cristina comes back home to celebrate and Eric acts fine with her. Even as far as announcing to the family of Cristina's new boyfriend for the first time.

Going to the farm, the other men are entranced by Cristina's demureness and femininity and has been the subject of attention even to their very own relatives so Eric went along with her.

They talked normally asking each other's lives since they separated ways.

Eric sort of insulted her pretentions of being clean and holy when in fact she is very dirty herself.

Cristina slapped him and Eric attempted to rape her in the middle of the grassy lands. Cristina almost bludgeons Eric but she stopped. She hugs Eric and it later pours down. Cristina kisses Eric he ended up giving her oral sex. He pulled her into the nipa house near the farm and had passionate sex for the first time.

While drying their clothes after the rain, they are both naked talking. They get into reality what will happen to them. They are not allowed to be together.

They both agreed to let it pass for a while and hide for as long as they can. They both made up rules that they can't have sex in the house where Eric's family is at and where their parents and siblings are.

They had sex again before going home but Eric warns Cristina to avoid their mother's suspicion as she already had an idea about them.

BOOK 2

Their sexual relationship continues when they are both alone or sometimes they check in a motel. Cristina has to come home still not breaking up with Franco.

Eric comes back to Baguio and continues the relationship with Cristina.

Cristina and Franco though argues with their arrangement. Then Franco catches them kissing. So Franco traps Eric and Cristina together until they are having a threesome.

Franco promises to keep their relationship and will let her be in relationship with Eric.

Franco though has a secret gay identity. He is the son of a congressman and he can't be caught gay.

As their relationship progresses, Eric's wife, Janna is suspicious of Eric having another woman in Baguio and asks Cristina. Cristina promises to guard him while engaging in sex with Eric.

Meanwhile, Eric still has no idea about Cristina's double life.

Eric and Janna's argument kept getting worse. Their mother is also becoming suspicious so Cristina and Franco announced getting married because Franco is being pressured as well.

The suspicion dies and a mont later, Franco and Cristina got married.

Eric took Cristina's condo unit so Cristina could stay at Franco's house. But it's for show.

They are still having sexual relationship. Christmas time arrives, Janna caught them having sex. Cristina shoots Janna fatally and then Eric but in areas where he will still survive.

She tells Eric she has to do that and leaves to steal things in the house to make it look like a robbery homicide.

She drives away and Eric is contacting police while nursing Janna and his own.

Book 3

Janna eventually dies but Eric is in a coma for three days. Everyone is in the burial and Cristina is watching Eric and explained everything and apologizes. Eric forgave her.

After a few days after burying Janna, Eric gets well and is investigated.

Cristina has to leave to let everything chill.

Cristina comes back and continues their immoral relationship. Eric moved to a new house with his children and there Cristina can freely be with Eric.

Later, ballistics shows up on Agent Daniella radar where the same weapon used is consistent with former murder victims in other parts of the country.

Cristina admits the truth to Eric but he accepts her.

Daniella though sympathizes with Eric and is curious with Cristina.

Daniella ends up sleeping with one and the other thinking the siblings don't know about it.

Cristina becomes jealous so he ended the relationship with Daniella.

Cristina did the same. Daniella though comes closer to the truth.

Discovering Cristina crimes.

Franco killed Daniella and warns Cristina that the order is turning against her for killing an innocent person.

Cristina decides to end her relationship with Eric to pay for her sins. Eric though kidnaps her and puts her in a secret place to hide for a while. Franco helps out as the order is hunting her.

Cristina and Eric continues their relationship until she got pregnant.

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ang-paborito · 7 months ago

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The Talk

I wanted to talk about my own assault but I never talk about it to anyone. Not just anyone. But I always talk about sexual assaults--the dynamics, the effects, the system.

I grew up learning about it through my dad. I know his work but he never tell me in details because I'm a kid but I observed it. He lets me play with the victims usually.

My mother insensitively pointed out that it's like playing with broken dolls.

Is someone really broken because someone broke them? Am I broken because I was forcibly touched?

I don't feel broken at all. In fact, I felt all these years I built up again.

In science, welewen that every cell of our bodies die and replaced and every 7 years we become different person.

I felt like I have an obligation as a survivor with forced resilience to help girls stand up again and be unbroken.

I mentioned that I survived through privilege not through resilience. Without familial connections, money-- I would have killed myself.

The proceedings finished when I turned 14 in and my attackers are now behind bars.

Do you notice how I choose my words?

Instead of saying "r***" I say attack or assault or r***** I say attackers. I would say pigs but pigs are way too cute to be equated in such derogatory placement.

I couldn't say "I was r-d." I would say I was attacked. Or in TAGALOG terms, "Napagtripan" "Nakursunadahan."

My sister, Julie, told me to never cover my words. Just say the direct words. But I can't and it's not the shame. My family told me not to be ashamed but it's not the shame. It's because my body rejects it. I'm in denial that things can happen to me.

I felt up all those feelings--disgust, anger, and pity. There is shame, self blame

My father couldn't even look at me but I saw him cry. When the judge declared their verdict, he cried in tears. He didn't hug me but he said sorry.

He was so sorry and he repeated it over and over again. He said is his fault.

He was very disappointed in himself. What greater insult to a man is that the monsters he is fighting would ruin his own home.

Imagine being a firefighter and your family dies in a fire.

He kept blaming himself because he is supposed to drive me back to Baguio. He didn't like the drive because its tiring him already.

He took me in front of the church where we waited for a bus. My mother hated those colorum buses or any other b class buses that are not GL or Victory.

She always told me GL is the safest. (I thought she was biased becaue the Lizardos and her has history).

So dad spotted the first bus and made me took it and I had to commute instead. The commute was easy. Hope in the bus going to Villasis, then wait for another bus bound to Baguio.

I should have missed the bus. You know how you said before that if you missed the bus, you are meant to miss it.

Am I meant to have caught the bus in time? Or was the people who missed are just lucky?

I had a classmate who is older slightly older but she has to drop out to help her mother in Mindoro.

I told my mom about this and she thinks it's a good idea to practically adopt another girl. She's Evelyn

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ang-paborito · 11 months ago

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I'm just trying to protect my siblings pero ako yung kontrabida

TLDR: I'm prohibiting my younger sibs from hanging out with my half-sibs and their families but this causing a drift between us.

Context: Medyo complicated fam structure namin. Basically, my parents both lost their spouses before remarrying to each other. Mom had no kids from first hubby but dad got tons. Aaaaand those grown ass kids didn't like my mom because she was almost in the same age range with them.

When they were all living together, the first family made my mom's life miserable. Yung sister ko first hand nya naranasan yung abuse like when our parents were out, tinali nila sa labas sister ko.

They were also the cause that my mom miscarried.

Dad cut them off and they bought a new house pero still supporting yung mga nasa college pa lang.

Pero he forgave them and reconnected kasi yung mga apo.

Laging ganun, gagawa sila kagaguhan, away cut off tapos reconnect. But they don't change, they just get better.

What's worst pati mga anak nila they are teaching them how to treat us and they spread these lies about my mom na wala namang basis. Super inggitera pa sila like if we have brand new clothes, toys, and things ninanakaw nila. If we go on trips as a family local or abroad, naghihinaing sila sa amin like they are making us feel guilty.

My sisters and I remembered it very much. My younger brother he was still a baby when we took him in (adopted). Yung half-sister ko who gave birth at the same time na inaadopt bb brother, she didn't like it kasi our dad was more enthusiastic with the newly adopted son kesa sa apo na kadugo nya.

My dad caught her in the act of pinching bb brother's nose until magpurple yung lips.

From then almost a decade na we didn't have contact. They were trying to reach out probably to ask for financial help, pero my dad wouldn't let them in.

We only got together once when both parents died, and we gave them a chance to renew the relationship and natutuwa naman bb brother to play with nephews and nieces his age. Kaso, it seems that they didn't change. They're materialistic and envious. Example, if my brother has a new console or gadget like psp or iPad, giniguilt trip nila yung bata so he will give the thing sa nephew. Or to ask me gifts through him. Pinahiram nya yung psp and it's gone na.

From then on, binawalan ko sya to ever bond with them. I told him why, especially that he almost got murdered.

Sumunod naman sya years later but lately he is requesting to bond sa kabila kasi they are reaching out.

They are also reaching out to my younger sister na graduating na by promising her to find her a job sa city hall. Inuupdate nila if may CSE na sya. Pero younger sister ko she wants to come with me abroad.

Then the other nights, I saw my brother's story na THEY WENT TO LA UNIOOOON with that sister who tried to kill him 17 years ago. I'm so angry and all this trauma coming back again because my oldest niece older than me and her sisters were playfully drowning me when I was 6.

Off course I sounded like a paranoid mom. I messaged my half-sister to fuck off and threatened her if ever something bad will happen sa brother ko.

Ito namang brother ko galit pa sakin nakakahiya daw kasi they are nice to him naman daw and they didn't say anything bad about me.

I told him na if may gusto sya ipabili dun sya sa half-sister namin.

Reply nya: OK.COOL

Arrrrrrggggghhhh

😡😡😡😡😡

I told this to my older (whole) sister and sabi nya lang "Hayaan mo so he'll learn the hard way. He'll see them through if nagbago sila or not."

I didn't like the idea pero baka nasasakal na din sya sa amin kasi lagi namin pinagsasabihan and we are kinda overprotective to him. I thought we are doing a good job taking care of him but at the end, things happen.

Ang akin lang naman, I don't want him to experience what we had experienced with them. Kasi sobrang fucked up mga ginawa nila na iba borderline criminal na and if I ever list it, 2025 pa tayo matatapos.

Even if kinwento namin sa kanya parang walang pake because they are our memories not him eh.

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ang-paborito · 11 months ago

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Context: I have stepsiblings who were my Dad's kids from his marriage. After first wife died, Dad met my mom and had second family--us.

And these sibs and their own families are super bullies to my mom and to us while growing up. I won't detail the rest pero I'll never forgive them for making my mom's life miserable.

My dad ended their contact with this family because siraulo sila borderline criminal pa.

So we don't have much relationship anymore lalo na when our parents died, we cut contact totally.

But this is what. The kids from that family they are reaching out sa younger siblings ko. Yung sister ko sumunod naman when I said not to respond to them but my younger brother who is 17-- he is my problem and I'm scared for him.

He wants to spend time sa kabila which I always tell him no and gives reasons why not. I understand my brother kasi wala syang gaanong relatives or even cousins na kaage nya, kami-kami lang talaga. Dun sa kabila naman, he shares interests with the other boys doon.

He was too young when we cut connections with them and off course di na nya naabutan yung kagaguhan nila sa family ko.

My half-sister reached out to me and to my older sister many times na isama brother ko sa sleepovers, occasions or trips para may Kasama mga anak nya. Which I responded, "Fuck off and your ugly kids." You know why? Because my brother and her first child arrived at the same year, nauna anak nya. And when my parents adopted my baby brother, they were very excited and happy esp dad. And this half-sister nagmamaktol kasi dad didn't have that same enthusiasm when her first baby was born. And my older sister caught the bitch pinching our baby brother's nose Hanggang magpurple Yung lips.

That's when we cut them off in 2006.

I told my brother about it but I don't think he cares since he doesn't remember if. At that time nadulas na sya, "mabait naman sya sakin". Turns out he was hanging out in that compound.

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ang-paborito · 11 months ago

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Baguio Magic Syndrome

My history professor was obsessed with me when I younger. He was my tutor by the way and knew me my whole life.

When I was 17, he kidnapped and raped me repeatedly for three days. My parents aren't around. Days later, Apollo had some thinking on what to do with me. He can either keep there forever or kill me. I begged that I will be his girlfriend. I'll allow him to use me just free me. I begged and he forced me to tell him I love him. I did everything.

He let me go. I didn't show up in school for days but he suddenly showed up in my house claiming worries. He is close with us

So Apollo went up and I almost startled. I tried to lie but he did it again. We kissed passionately. I went with the flow. He fucked me on my bed but fast. Mom never seem to have cared because she's busy.

I went along being his girlfriend. He rented a room so we can have sex there.

I began to like it until I my own initiate. We began to have a relationship that was illegal in the law. I'm a minor and he's married.

X CA xx can

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ang-paborito · 11 months ago

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Chapter 17

Naging malayo sa Amin si Prima dahil nakatuon ang pansin namin Kay Fierro. Sinusubukan ko maging mabuting ina Kay Prima. Isang malaking takot ko ay baka may mga lalaking katulad ng ama nya na gago at gagaguhin sya sa murang edad. 16 ako noong inakit ako ni Apollo. Sa ganung edad, ipinakilala nya ako sa twag ng laman, sya ang unang lalaking umangkin saakin kahit alam nyang mali at krimen iyon. Ginahasa nya ako noong 18 ako. Binuntis nya ako noong 19 ako.p

Hindi ko to binangit kay Apollo dahil pinakasalan ko naman sya.

Lagi na umuwi ng late si Prima. Minsan nakakaamoy ako ng alak at sigarilyo.

Pinagalitan ko sya na wala sya mapapala sa kakasigarilyo nya. Itigil na nya kung ayaw nyang pagalitan ng ama.

Ang masakit na sinabi nya sa akin ay, "Hindi kita mama, patay na mama ko!"

"Akala mo magiging proud mama pag nakikita kang ganyan? Baka kampihan nya pa ako." At this point parang nararamdaman ko ang multo ni Lia.

Pinipilit ko syang intindihin. Minsan nakukuha ko loob nya.

Gusto ko ng sabihin ang totoo pero baka ano mangyari sa kanya.

Malapit na sya mag-18 at makukuha na nya yung trust fund na ibibigay ko at college funds.

"Bakit ba nagkakaganyan si Prima?"

Hinaing ko kay Apollo habang yakap yakap nya ang hubad kong katawan sa kama.

"Mana sayo."

"Ikaw nagpalaki diyan."

"Hinahanap nya yung adoption papers nya nung isang araw."

"Sabihin kaya natin?"

"Gawa ulit tayo ng kwento."

"I can't keep up with the lies anymore."

"Hayaan na lang natin. Wala rn lang patutunguhan yan."

May naging katinuan si Prima. Natuto sya magdrive. Mas naging mahinahon sya at naging close kami. Kahit may kasambahay, tinutulungan niya ako sa kapatid nya.

Nag-18 na si Prima at rinelease ko ang college fund nya, pero kay Apollo syempre at ang trust fund nya na 20% Hanggang grumaduate muna sya.

Isang mabagyong gabi ang bumago lahat ng maaksidente sa daan si Prima.

Nangangailangan sya ng dugo at dahil parehas kaming B+, ako nagdonate. Match na match kami. Dumating yung abogado ko dahil isa sa kontratang pinapirmahan ko sa magasawang Apollo at Lia, in case of emergency, ako pa din ang sasagot pero all under 18.

Dumating si Jacques at nag-usap kami abogado sa abogado. Nasa coma pa si Prima.

Medyo naging iba si Prima noong gumaling. Naging malamig.

Habang nasa kwarto nya at inaayos namin, bigla syang nagtanong kung bakit meron Yung abogado sa ospital.

Nagkatinginan lang kami.

"Galing sa tunay na magulang mo yun."

"So alam nya ba nangyayari sakin?"

"Hindi ko alam. Pero nung nagpirmahan kami, ang sabi ay hindi sya mangingialam pero sasagutin nya ang mahahalagang pangangailangan mo. It's their way of saying sorry."

"Nakilala nyo ba sya?"

Hindi sumagot si Apollo.

Ilang linggo Ang lumipas at graduate na sya ng senior high.

Patungong kolehiyo na sya at kumuha ng arts. Dahil may choice sya kung saan, pinili nya mag Ateneo. Umiling ako dahil baka mapariwara sya pag nasa Maynila. Hindi raw nya maintinidhan dahil mag-aateneo daw sya dahil sakin dahil galing Ako doon. Nag-away kami at natulak nya ako sa hagdan Hanggang nawalan ako ng malay.

Naospital ako at nalaman ko Kay Jane na pinagsasampal ni Apollo si Prima at pinapalayas kaya doon muna sa lumang Bahay nagstay.

May konting concussion lang ako. Binisita ako ni Prima. Inutusan ni Apollo na dalhin mga gamit ko.

Iyak ng iyak at humingi ng tawad.

Sya ang nagbantay sa akin.

Nagising ako at mulang-mula ang mga mata niya.

"Tita... bakit nasayo ang number ni Atty. Jacques? Bakit nasayo ang exact checkbook ng magulang ko?"

Sumikip dibdib ko. "IpinaDNA kita. 99% match tayo. Ikaw ang mama ko!"

"Prima..."

"Bakit? Bakit di mo sinabi? Bakit mo ko pinamigay?"

Humagulgol sya at niyakap ko.

"Ikaw ba talaga totoong mama ko? Bakit ayw mo sakin?"

"Anatayin natin daddy mo."

"Alam nya ba?"

Tumango ako. "Prima," suminghot ako. "Yung alam mo na tatay ngayon, sya ang tunay mong ama. Ikaw naging bunga ng relasyon namin."

Hindi kumibo si Prima. Nakatulog sya sa tabi ko noong dumating si Apollo. Pinaalam ko na alam na nya lahat.

Hanggang makalabas ako wala kaming kibuan pero panay ang yakap at lapit ni Prima. Mas naging sweet sya.

Nagtipon kami sa office ko sa bahay. Pinakita ang mga dokumento. Baby book at mga sonogram results na original copies.

Nilantad namin ni Apollo ang totoo. Na nagkaroon kami ng relasyon at nabuntis nya ako. Hindi na namin dinetalye ang iba. Sinabi ko na pinaampon ko sya dahil hindi ko kaya maging ina pa kaya pinaampon ko sa ama.

Nagalit sya dahil sa pagtatraydor namin Kay Lia at sa buong pamilya.

Hindi ko alam kung galit pa sya. Pero desidido sya mag-aral sa Ateneo. Bagay na pinayagan ko na basta wag syang mapariwara.

"Huwag ka mag-alala mommy, di ako tutulad Sayo." Sabi nyang pasarkastiko.

"Mommy?"

"Ayaw nyo po? Mas gusto nyo po yung tita?"

"No, it's okay. Pero Prima, you can't tell this to anyone okay? Especially not to your brothers and sisters"

"Okay,mommy."

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Simula noong pinanganak ko si Fierro, hindi na kami nagsesex ni Apollo. Lagi syang pagod. Sabagay ganun din Ako. I took a year off. Yung mga anak niya, palipat lipat pero si Elio nakalagi doon. Inaayos na ni Apollo ang paghahatian ng naipundar nilang mag-asawa para sa apat na anak nila. 35 na ako. 20 years nung makilala ko si Apollo. Si Prima ay nasa high school na. Graduate na ang tatlo pero ibang buhay na ang kaharap ni Apollo.

Wala naman siyang reklamo dahil feeling binata pa daw. Singkwenta anyos na sya. Kasi parang wala na masyado sa akin ang atensyon which is okay lang dahil lagi niya kalaro si Fierro at pinagtutuunan nya yung bahay. Kaya naman nabobored na rin ako. Nakalimutan nya atang asawa nya ako. I try to initiate it pero I get turned down. Pagod or too sleepy. Minsan blowjob at pagkain lang ng puke ko, doon na natatapos.

"Pasensya ka na. Pagod lang ako." Bulong nya sakin at yumakap sa likod. Hinimas nya suso ko kahit may lumalabas na gatas.

Mamaya, yung kamay nya inaakyat na hem ng nightie ko. Inamoy amoy nya leeg. "Ambango mo mahal."

Medyo may gigil ang paghimas at pag-amoy niya. Hinimas nya rin ang pepe ko na may balot pa na panty.

"Hmmm.. pagod pala ha?"

Umungol pa ako ng malalim para nalibugan sya. Lumikod kamay ko at hinablot ang titi niya.

"Ohh fuck, Apollo. Tumitigas ka na~ Oooohhhh!"

He slipped his hands under my panty and I slid mine as well. His fleshy dick is getting hard and he moans.

His hands still gripping on my breasts and his mouth nibbling against my neck.

Napagiling ako sa pagkalikot nya ng aking hiyas.

"Ooohh~" kinalikot kalikot nya ng mabilis basically rubbing my clit. My legs kepts moving and until I felt something in my core tightening then I felt my pussy tremble until I came. I felt my nipple, lips and neck more itchy.

Pinaharap nya ako at nagpatuloy kami ng mainit na halikan. Halos magtagas na mga laway namin.

Napayakap ako ng mahigpit sa asawa ko tapos tinanggal na nya panty ko.

"O Akala ko pagod ka."

"Hindi pa ako pagod na gusto."

He made me lie down then he started to climb on top of me, kiss me then nibble my neck, then his mouth sucked my nipples and pulling them while he is massaging my breasts. I kept grinding around him. He then snaked down and sucked my inner thighs making me wet, hungry and wanting for more. Then his tongue slids up and down my pussy. His tongue playing around my clit like cherry. He ate me good trying to insert his tongue into my hole. I kept grinding on his face on his nose until I squirted again.

"Ahh~~ahhHH! Shit baby Ang sarap~~"

Habang nasa rurok pa ako ng kasarapan pinasok na nya ang finger nya.

"ohhh~~~ fuuuuck! Baby!"

Umabot ng ilang minutong ganun.

"Ako naman~~" Sabi ko after ako labasan, hindi sya pumayag. Inipit nya mga braso ko sa taas ng ulo ko at sinimulang bayuin ang gutom kong puke.

"Aroused na aroused ka na~~hmmp!"

Binilis-bilisan nya ang pag-ulos at pagbayo habang sarap na sarap Ako.

"Oh shit! Putangina~~ diyan, baby, ahhh!" Napasigaw ako nung may nabubundol syang maselan sa loob ng kweba ko. Umanggulo sya at sunod sunod Ang bayo nya hanggang nanginig ak at akmang lalabasan.

Pumatong sya ng mariin at pinagbabayo Ako ng malakas. Palo ng mga balat at halinghingan at ungol ang laman ng kwarto namin. Napahwaka Ako sa pwet nya habang naglalaplapan kami, at nageespadahan Ang dila namin.

"Malapit na ako mahal~~" bulong nya. Napapikit sya ng mariin habang umiikot na ang mga mata ko sa ligaya.

"aHhhHhhHH~~ baby!"

"Mahal kita Ely---hmp--uhhh! I love you."

Nangisay kaming dalawa. Puro hingal habang lunod sa pawis at titigan naming mag-asawa.

"Ang bigat mo Apollo."

"Palit tayo higaan mo ko."

Bumaligtad kaming dalawa at nakapatong Ako sakanya. Lupaypay na titi nya na lumabas Mula sa puke ko. Tapos bumuhos Ang mga tamod namin. Nagpunas muna Ako. Tapos bumalik sa higaan na may fresh na beddings. I laid on top of him. We were both naked. He kissed my hair. "Mahal na mahal kita."

I kissed his lips. "I love you baby."

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Masaya ako na naging legal na asawa na Ako. Pero hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon. Lalo na kapag pamilyadong tao na at malalaki na ang mga anak nila. Ilang years lang ang agwat ko sa mga anak niya. Mas ate pa nga ako kaysa tita. Kapag mas bata Ang asawa, iba ang tingin. Pero abogado ako at matured na. Eh kung noong 19 years old pa ako, syempre iba na yun.

Pansamantala kaming nakitira sa pinundar nilang bahay. Yung pinapatayo namin ay malapit lang din sa kanila para malapit sa pamilya nya. Magkakatabi lang kasi sila ng bahay.

Nandoon pa din ang mga litrato ni Lia. Pati na din ang mga ilang cross stitches. Yung kama lang ang pinakiusap kong tanggalin niya at ginawa naman Niya. Mula kutson at kobre kama.

Hindi maiiwasan na makaalitan ko Ang mga anak maliban Kay Prima na tinuring nya Kong Ina. Sabi ni Apollo baka lukso ng dugo.

Nagduda si Elio puro tanong tungkol sa amin ni Apollo. Umamin din siya na kinompronta sya ni Elio dahil nalaman ng ina na may kabit si Apollo pero hindi alam kung sino.

Ayokong kamuhian si Apollo ng mga anak niya.

May minsan pang nag-away kami ni Jane. Naistrrss ako at dinugo. Pero safe ang baby. Grabe ang galit ni Apollo na ngayon ko lang din nakita. Malapit na din matapos yung bahay na sinusubaybayan namin. Doon muna kami sa condo. Pinatawad ko na si Jane pero matigas ulo ni Apollo. Dinala niya si Prima. Kaya natira doon sa bahay na yun, yungkasambahay, at silang magkapatid. Dinadalaw dalaw naman kami ni Onic. Ayokong isipin nila na pinaghihiwalay ko sila pero so Apollo na rn may Sabi na Hindi ko mapapalitan ang kanilang Ina at unfair iyon sa akin na nagsisimula pa lang magkapamilya.

"Gusto ko magsimula ulit kasama ka."

Lalaki magiging baby namin. Ako na ang umayos sa relasyon nilang mag-aama. Medyo napapagod din ako. Alam ko namang mangyayari ito pero ganito pa din. Dumating ang pamangkin ko at ate ko para tulungan ako dahil malapit lapit na akong manganak ulit. Mahigit isang dekada noong ipanganak ko si Prima. Hanggang ngayon natatanggap pa din ni Prima yung yearly Christmas money nya mula sa abogado ko.

Inamin ko na rin Kay Jacqes ang totoo.

Gulat na gulat sya.

By January 2028, pinanganak ko si Fierro. Malusog na bata.

Nagparental leave kaming pareho. Natatapos na yung bahay at ready na kami lumipat. Tuwang-tuwa rin si Liza sa bagong apo. Inalagaan ko pa din si Prima.

Naging katulong ko si Apollo sa pag-aalaga sa mga bata. Tumatanda na sya.

In no time, lumipat na din kami sa bagong Bahay. Si Elio, he moved back. Malapit na din grumaduate sa medschool si Jane. Graduate na din si Onic.

Si Prima, nagkakaidentity crisis. Gusto nya makilala ang ina. Kaya sya kumausap sa abogado. Pero di ako pumayag. Ayokong aminin na galing sya sa kasalanan. Kamumuhian nya kami.

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Inuwi ko si Apollo sa kanila na lasing na lasing. Walang mga tao.

"Nasan mga anak mo?"

"Pinapunta ko muna sa Lola nila at summer vacation din lang."

"Tapos ikaw itong lango sa alak? Apollo magpakatino ka nga!"

"Hmmm! Okay lang yan. Lika nga dito, pakiss mo."

Bigla nya akong hinila at pinaghahalik sa kama nilang mag-asawa. Akma na nya akong huhubaran pero pinigilan ko sya. Baka multuhin pa kami ng asawa niyang namayapa na.

"Apollo, you can't keep doing this okay?"

"Galit ka?"

"No, Basta."

We kissed bago ko siya Iwan.

Bumili ako ng Isa pang condo at lumipat. Mga ilang linggo, di ko sya kinakausap. Tapos nagpunta pala sya sa condo at hinanap ako.

"much better na huwag muna tayo magkita. Ayusin mo muna sarili mo."

"Ely naman! Pati ba naman ikaw mawawala sakin?"

"Hindi lang ako ang mawawala sayo kung di ka umayos."

"Kailangan kita."

"You only need me if you're sad and horny."

"Alam ko pero kelangan kita."

"Let's take a break muna."

Dinalaw Niya ako sa trabaho. Ayaw na ayaw ko ganun. Hindi ko pa rin sya kakausapin.

Lumipas Ang mga linggo. Three months na nakakaraan simula ng pagkasawi ni Lia.

Message sya ng message na nagtino na sya. na hindi na sya umiinom.

Nagkita lang kami for coffee sa hapon. "Subukan mo magpatherapy."

"Sus." Sinalungat nya ako.

"Ely, narealize ko. Mahal din talaga kita."

"Kamamatay lang ng asawa mo."

"Oo, mahal ko din sya. Minahal ko siya. Pero mas higit sayo."

"Why are you saying this?"

"Hindi ba napag-isipan natin to? Iiwan ko siya para sayo."

"Ikaw lang nakaisip non."

Hinawakan nya kamay ko. "Magsama na tayo."

"Apollo-- " I shook my head.

"I understand."

Nagkikita pa kami. Tuloy ang relasyon namin. Nagtherapy na sya at sa puntong ito, alam ng therapist ang tungkol sa amin. 30 na ako. Umakyat na biglang assistant prosecutor.

Lumipas ng isang taon, at bumuti buti na sya.

Habang hubo't hubad kami sa kama, nag-usap kami. 46 na sya.

"Dami nagtatanong sa akin if mag-asawa pa ba ako."

"Wag muna."

"Ikaw bahala."

"Mga ten years pa."

"Ang tagal naman!"

"Ayokong paratangan na kabit ano ba."

"Eh kung magpakasal muna tayo?"

"Ha? Na Tayo lang?

"Oo, gusto na kita asawahin. Alam mo yan. Di na kita pakakawalan. Akin ka lang. Para sakin ka lang."

He kissed me.

I got turned on by his words, so I rode him until I reached multiple orgasms.

Noong nag 2026 na at 3rd anniversary ng pagkamatay ni Lia, ipinaalam na ni Apollo ang relasyon namin. Pasinungaling namin na anim na buwan na kami. Wala namang reaksyon mula sa kanila. Nakilala naman nila ako at normal siguro pag lalake ang nabyudo ay maghahanap at maghahanap ng babaeng makakasama.

Ang dependent pa din kay Apollo ay si Jane na nasa med school, si Onic na nasa kolehiyo pa lang at syempre, si Prima na nasa elementary. Bumukod na din si Elio dahil may kasintahan na.

Una kaming nagpakilala sa ina niya, si Liza. Tinanggap naman nya ako ng buo. Tapos sa mga anak niya, paisa-isa and okay naman pakikitungo nila sa akin.

Nung 2027, nagdecide na kaming magpakasal kahit sa iba ay parang napakabilis. Ang katwiran ko matanda na rin lang kami, ayaw naming kumplikaduhin pa. Kinasal kami ng mayo. 48 na si Apollo at Ako 32. Nagpakasal kami sa juez. Hindi muna kami nagsama agad pero naghoneymoon kami ng 1 month sa Europa.

Pagbalik naman, dalawang major things ang nangyari. Buntis ulit ako at bumili kami ng sarili naming bahay.

Medyo may pagkadismaya kay Apollo na nagbubuntis ako.

"Matanda na ako masyado para magkababy."

"Expert ka na nga eh."

"Sabagay kung may sarili tayong anak na inalagaan, mas mainam Yun."

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"Iiwan ko sila pag graduate na yung bunso namin."

"Si Prima? Matagal pa yan. Baka senior citizen na niyan."

"Hindi siya, si Onic. Anak natin si Prima, kukunin ko sya."

"Hibang ka ba? Eh di pinalabas mo yung totoo."

"Hibang Sayo,hmmmp!" Siniilan ulit nya ako ng halik sa bunganga at leeg at hinimas Ang namumula kong mga suso. Hubot hubad kami sa kama ko. 26 na ako at eto nga nagpandemya na. 6 years na rin si Prima at 41 na sya. Nalipat na ako sa piskal. Patuloy pa rin ang masalimuot, at masarap naming pag-uulayawan. Mahirap itong pandemya dahil hindi makatakas. Pero dahil sya ang Padre de pamilya, lalabas sya kada linggo para samahan ang asawa. Yung Isang Araw ay kunwari magbibisikleta pero pupunta lang sa akin. Sya ang sinasakyan ko.

O kaya Isang Oras na quickie.

Nag-69 muna kami at doggy bago sya umalis.

"mamimiss ko puke mo..." Bulong nya.

Umuwi na sya.

Umabot ng 2021, ganun pa din ang Sistema naming dalawa. Kahit nung nagbakasyon sila, nakibakasyon din Ako sa resort Kasama mga Kaibigan ko. Naka sexy na one piece Ako at mga swimsuit at dadaan sa harap nya para matakam. Pinalibog ko sya Hanggang pag Gabi tatakas kaming dalawa .

"tangina wala lang pamilya ko kakantutin kita sa dagat."

"daming naglalaway namga lalaki Sayo. Di nila alam nilalaspag kita."

Pagalit nyang Sabi habang tnlinitira Ako ng malala.

Sobrang sarap. 2022 at eleksyon. Nag-aaral na si Prima. Minsan nagbibigay Ako ng pera para sa kanya pero di nya tinatanggap. Tinanggap nya din para si birthday ni Prima.

September 2022 ay may mapait na balita. Nagkaroon ng cervical cancer ang asawa niya. Kaya naging mailap Ang pagkikita namin dahil kelangan Niya alagaan sya. Minsan, pag di sya nag-alaga, ay pumupunta sya sa akin. Minsan nagsesex pero kadalasan, naglalabas sya ng hinaing.

Parang pagsisisi.

"Tngin mo ba kinakarma ka?" Tanong ko. Hindi sya sumagot.

"Hindi ko alam "

Last sex at pagkikita namin ay March 22. GRADE 3 na si Prima at malala na Ang stages ng sakit ng asawa Niya. Graduate na ng kolehiyo ang panganay.

Pinuntahan Niya ako Isang Araw sa opisina para humingi ng tulong para humingi ng pinansyal na support mula sa city. Tinulungan ko sya. Pinakilala sa mga tamang tao at nakakuha ng suporta. Sa pagpupunta niya, nakilala ko pa ang dalagang anak niya. Normal lang kaming mag-usap. Sir ang tawag ko sa kanya or Mr. End--rano at pormal lang ako.

May time Ako pa naghatid ng cheque.

Noong paalis kami sa ospital nasa Isang gilid kami.

"Pasensya ka na ha."

"Okay lang."

"Ayoko nawalan ng Ina mga anak ko."

"I understand. I like to help."

"Babawi Ako Sayo balang Araw."

"Don't mind it." Hinalikan ko sya sa pisngi at humalik sya sa labi. Matamis at mainit.

"I miss you." Sabi nya.

"I love you." Sabi niya.

Sa may kotse, sa parking ng hospital, doon kami nagsex habang lumalaban Ang asawa niyang may sakit sa taas.

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Nag-usap kami. Pinatingin ang picture ni Prima. Four years old na kaya pinasok sa kinder.

"Ayaw mo ba syang Makita? Mahaplos? Maghalikan?"

"For what? I gave her up di ba?"

"Anak mo pa din sya? Sarili mong laman."

"I gave my bit. That's more than enough."

Nauwi kami sa inuman. Linapitan ko siya at naghalikan kami.

"Namiss kita, Sir."

"Simone..."

Tuloy-tuloy kami hanggang bahay ko. Grabeng ligaya ang pinadama niya sa akin. Tatlo hanggang limang beses ako nilabasan sa pag-iyot niya sa akin.

Umalis sya agad dahil hinahanap ng asawa.

"Magmeet tayo ulit."

At dun na nga, naging kabit na naman ako.

Naulit pa iyon. Hindi kami pumasok ng buong araw at doon lang kami sa bahay, nagpapakasasa sa sarap ng bawal na pagtatalik, nagpapakalunod sa kasalanan, sa tawag ng laman, sa bawal na pag-ibig.

Umaga pa lang, nagkantutan na kami agad. Pahinga, tapos ganun ulit. Sa Umaga, nakatatlong rounds nakami. Sa hapon, nakalima kami. Sobrang hapdi na ng puke ko at halos pilay na.

Tumigil din kami dahil pagabi na at babalik na sya sa realidad nya.

Hindi na sya nagpavasectomy dahil masakit. Ako naman nakaIUD ulit. Nagkasakit ako the next day sa pagod.

Nagtext pa Ang Loko. "Habang nagiiyutan kami ni misis ikaw lang iniisip ko na ikaw sya."

Nakadama ako ng selos. Nagsesex pa din sila. Kinainis ko naman ito kaya inaway ko ulit. Wala syang magagawa dahil mag-asawa daw sila. Kaya Sabi ko simula noon, magcondom sya.

Pumayag sya basta once a month, puputukan Niya ako sa loob. Lagi lagi sa bunganga na lang.

Nagkikita kami Minsan ng Patago bago umuwi.

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Dumaan na ang January 2017. I'm 22 now. 2 years old na yung anak ko na iniwan ko. Two years na din akong hindi umuuwe ng Baguio. Graduating ako this year ng law sa May pa actually. I was at the airport na may connecting flight from MNL to SG to Dubai para kitain kapatid ko.

Waiting by the chair sa boarding gate, I sat across Apollo holding a toddler na halos wala pang buhok. Our eyes met and froze. When the boarding gates opened, dumiretso ako habang sya karga-karga pa din ang bata na linuwal ko two years ago at pinabayaan sa tatay nya at sa pamilya nya.

Kasabay ko ang buong angkan nya sa flight na to. Buti nasa business class ako.

Paglapag ng eroplano, nagCR ako at sinundan pala niya ako.

"Ely," hinila nya braso ko.

"Sisigaw ako--bitawan mo Ako."

Mukha syang galit, parang uusok ang ilong.

"Bakit?"

"Go back to your family. Leave me alone."

"Iniwan mo ko ng Basta Basta!"

"Hindi kita asawa."

"Paano yung anak mo?"

"Wala akong anak. Sinurrender ko na pagiging ina ko."

Hinila nya ulit ako. "Sisigaw talaga Ako!"

Saka nya binitawan.

"Pol, iihi din Ako."

Biglang Sabi ng asawa nya at tumalikod Ako agad.

Nasa Dubai na ako at patuloy pa rin ang pagbubulabog nya.

Gusto nyang makipagkita ulit. Hindi Ako pumayag. Tapos na kami. Tapos na yun. Tumigil na din sya.

Nag-aaral na din Ako para sa bar exams. Inigihan ko. Hindi na rn Ako nagka boyfriend kaya Minsan mabilisang hookups na lang. But I wont mess it up. I have realized how much Apollo damaged me. He groomed me, raped me and abused me. Kahit sabihin nya pang mahal niya ako. It fucked me up but I'm still looking for it.

I looked for attention and sex from older men. I wanted rough, I wanted being raped.

Binuntis nya ako and now he and his wife gets fo keep it. Sising sisi ako na hindi.

Simula noong grumaduate ako, wala ako ibang ginawa kundi mag-aral ng mag-aral para sa bar. Nahanap nya bagong Socmed ko kaya panay istorbo nya.

Mabilis umikot ang taon at nakapag-exam ako. 2018, 23 years old ako at naging top 15 lawyer sa Pinas. Syempre, may pacongratulatoy Ang UC dahil doon ang undergrad alma mater ko.

Kinongratulate din ako ni Apollo.

After a month, galing bakasyon, naisipan kong imeet si Apollo. Nagkita kami sa Isang cafe.

Nagkumustuhan at kwinento nya ang anak namin na pinangalanan niyang Prima. Iyon yung isang choice ko na pangalan. Nakikinig pala sya.

Three years old na yung bata at kinagigiliwan ng mga anak nya. Tuwang-tuwa ang asawa na walang kaalam-alam na anak ng asawa nya sa labas na pinapasok niya.

Tinanong ako ni Apollo kung pwede ulit maging kami. Ang sabi ko ayoko na. Tinanong nya ako kung anong ginawa nyang mali.

"Tayo Yung Mali. Ayoko na, please. I'm trying to have a fresh start. Ibigay mo na saken to."

Nung paalis na kami, bigla nya akong hinalikan from cheeks tapos sa labi. Binawian ko sya ng halik bago ko sya tinulak at umalis na.

Nanatili ako sa Baguio and I joined the Prosecutor's office pero Ang specialty ko ay mga white collar and civil cases. Hindi pa ganap na abogado kundi paralegal pa lang.

Nagkaboyfriend ako, si Daniel, 32, at chief of staff ng isang konsehal.

He's good, mabait, sweet but boring sa kama. I always initiate tapos parang ang baba ng tingin sakin dahil mataas sex drive ko. Nagbreak kami after 3 months dahil dun. I had another string of disappointing relationships.

One time nung 2019, I visited UC at nakita ko sya. 40 na sya. Gwapong gwapo pa din.

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