anawritess

[anawritess]

I wish I could press rewind and fix things but i cant. so ill hold your memories in my heart until they stop hurting.

[anawritess]

I cant write anymore. my brain isn't working and I dont mean in a way that I cant type or write words. I still know all the alphabets and how to arrange them to make words and how to arrange words to make sentences and how to turn sentences into paragraphs to essays to chapters to novels. but I cant make sense of them. I cant write my feelings. I cant word them. I cant conclude them so I cant get over them and because I cant get over them I keep feeling them and because I cant stop feeling them I cant forget them and because I cant forget them I cant focus and im not myself when im not focusing because when i'm not focusing, im not observing and what am I if im not observant? who am I if I dont remember how much you smiled or cried in a day? who am I if I can't figure you out? who am I if im not me? I can't word my feelings and I feel them overwhelm me and I cant write because they're overwhelming me. im tired of feeling this feeling of feeling everything and nothing and everything in between. im tired of me because im not me. im tired of me because ive forgotten me. im tired of me because I hate who I am. I am staring at a person I cant recognise. her face is different, her body seems worse than mine, her eyes have no shine and she gets panicked up for no reason or a hidden reason. she wears black more. she is exhausted. she deals with everything and never says anything anymore. shes just someone at this point. shes someone who has no one and although she has someone she doesnt have anyone that will listen. maybe because she doesnt want anyone to listen because she feels as if shes messed up. shes more pretentious than I was. shes more kind. she doesnt have a side to her that wants to be defensive. she gives in. she cant fight but just a few days ago she lost a war. I don't know her but I hope shes better than I was. I hope she figures herself out. I hope she doesnt leave. I hope she knows how to write. i sure don't. anymore.

[anawritess]

hearts dont break. they bleed.

[anawritess]

y'all wtf is instagram and snapchat, come back to tumblr, lets talk books and vibe to conan gray

[anawritess]

if anything you were my favorite tear :)

[anawritess]

I broke your heart to save your life..

[anawritess]

a heart resembles a flower, once dried, it never blooms again.

[anawritess]

my dear I am just a flower in your garden,

but to me you are the soil that blooms me.

[anawritess]

I feel inferior to writers that can write about everything they feel.

I can't do that. sometimes i just feel it.

i can't inhale it and breathe it out through my pen.

I just feel it.