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Little Mermaid!

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too true.

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College life

So much money I don't have to pay for the last year of my degree :(

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How to Love Someone with DepressionWithout faltering and without doubt. If someone is depressed, the main difference you’ll see is that things don’t make them happy; that probably seems like they don’t enjoy things they used to, but obviously, you can’t know how everything was before they started feeling like this. That said, you might start feeling bad because you’re not good enough to please them, but in reality, you’re doing all you can and all they could ever ask for. What I’m saying is, you should try to make them happy, but don’t feel that them being unhappy is at all your fault (unless, of course, you’ve done something to make them feel bad). In fact, part of what depression does involve making it harder for people to feel and express things, especially emotions. That’s where a lot of the self-harming tendencies come into play; while some do it because they want to hurt themselves and they think they deserve that pain, others just want to feel something, anything, to escape that crippling numbness that they’re so crushed by. That consuming feeling of numbness, just this overwhelming sense of defeat, is relentless and every moment they live through fighting that off is another bit of their life they haven’t enjoyed (and probably feel they’ve wasted, making them even more resentful of themselves). Loved ones typically mistake the person’s lack of outward appreciation as being ungrateful, but in reality, they are trying their hardest to show you how much they value what you’ve done for them, it just isn’t easy. Loving someone who is depressed can be difficult, because your natural desire is to make them happy, to be what they dream about, to see the feelings in them that they bring out in you, but they have immense difficulty showing you those things. Someone who is depressed often sleeps a lot (or is constantly exhausted) or very, very little. Anxiety over something most people would see as minor can keep someone awake all night, and getting very little sleep can be extremely detrimental to their mood and physical well-being. The symptoms of depression, loss of interest, change in appetite (for food or for romance, both are affected in a lot of cases), irritability, anger, frustration, all coincide with many of the symptoms characteristic of sleep deprivation. As a result, those issues only compound, and someone who was feeling bad before will continually get worse as the body becomes less and less able to cope with the mounting level of mental, physical, and emotional distress that constantly plagues their body. Depression is as much a physical ailment as an emotional one, and people don’t seem to realize that; it saps at any energy that person has, causes aching and soreness, makes any kind of exertion much more than it would feel to most people (though some use exercise as an escape, dependent on their body chemistry and personality), and kills their drive to do things. As their body begins to lose its grip on things it used to be able to do, that’s just another thing to add to that debilitating sadness. They’ll hate themselves more for being less than they were, the clearest, most inescapable way to say they’re not good enough. Soon enough, they’ll stop feeling like they can get better, because if they were feeling bad before, how could they get better now that they see themselves as disgusting and even more worthless? Love them. Give them something to be happy about. If you neglect them physically because they’re not as attractive as before, that will only further cement their self-loathing, and while they may not appreciate or accept every compliment the way you think they should, never make them feel you don’t think their body is worth anything. If they believe their body is worthless, they will be much more inclined to hurt it or get rid of it. If you won’t touch them because of the marks they’ve left on their body, you don’t deserve their love. Take them as they are and be appreciative you got someone who cares enough to go through hell to be around with you. If you can’t tolerate imperfections on their body, they can do better. That’s not to say that you need to dog someone who is depressed, asserting sexual/aesthetic interest all the time, or even doing anything sexual (though, if you have been in a relationship and have been physically expressive before, cutting that out won’t make them feel any better, in all likelihood), but don’t make them feel that their body is disgusting. They probably think that already, and if you affirm it, intentionally or not, it could lead to real consequences. Don’t lie to them. A lot of people are bound to leave someone who faces depression, and they’ll likely be mistrustful toward a number of people who want to help them. Most people who leave have at one point offered, “Come to me with anything, I want to help.”, and if someone has been told to trust and has been hurt time and time again, they won’t be so willing to trust (and even less, trust fully). If you say you are going to stand by them, don’t go back on that promise. If you expect them to stay here, be alive and trying for your sake, you have no right to abandon them. Trust is the biggest thing they have right now, and they need help; you should never take that away, they need acceptance, loving people more than you know (and, probably, they know how to express). That said, do not smother them. Love them unconditionally, loyally and proudly, but don’t take away their freedom. They need support, but how are they supposed to feel like a whole, healthy person ever again if you won’t let them stand at least a little on their own? Be there for them in the morning when they wake up, dreamy-eyed to see you or frightened at a nightmare, and let the sweat of their forehead drip onto your lips, hold them until you can feel their heart beat calmly as the sun shoulders its way through the blinds to scream at them they’ve made it another day. Another day. Love them hard, let passion guide you and never give up on them. The ones with the saddest eyes hold the most light, and the heaviest bones can hold you in their arms until you both crumble to dust. Love them because they’ve been through hell and they’ll never be afraid again as long as they have you. They will be the most loyal, faithful, loving soul you have ever had the immeasurably good fortune to come across, just as soon as they can love life as much as you love them. Please, love them without hesitation and with all your heart. You will never find a stronger love. Remember, they are not only the depression inside them. They are a person, a resilient one, with dreams and fears and loves, and never let that depression define all they are to you. They are so, so much more.

Cindersontheskyline / JDR (via wnq-writers)

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don’t measure a woman’s worth by her clothes - terre des femmes

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Sooo, I really am having a dilemma. I like people, but I don't. I hate my phone, but I get bored. I want people to talk to me, but not all the time. I want him, but I don't...cause it hurts. But really I just want people to quit being so fake and lying. Which I'm not innocent in the area, but I'm working on it. I mostly lie to myself and about how upset I really am or what is really bothering me. I just want someone to care ya know?

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Pets don’t like the vet

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How the fuck do I stop loving you?

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If you're not excited for OITNB coming back in 5 days

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Hey there! So, you may have seen these body pillows around. You may have thought, “Wow, I sure want one of those.” Well good news! I take commissions for these cuddly lil nuggets!

THE SQUIDS: Each squid is handmade with love from fleece, cotton, and felt, and stuffed with hypoallergenic 100% polyester filling.

SIZES: Two sizes are available: an 8-foot body pillow, and a 4-foot cuddle buddy or travel pillow.

COLORS: I can find just about any color, within reason. I am limited by what the fabric store has to offer, but the selection is great, so I can try my hardest to get the exact color you want.

UNDERSIDE PATTERNS: Again, I am limited by what the fabric store has to offer, but I can find just about any pattern from paisley to polka dots in nearly any color. If you wish, you can request that I choose an underside for you based on the main color you choose.

OTHER OPTIONS: I can fit the squids with an eye color, if you so desire. If not specified, your squid will come with traditional black and white eyes. Also, three different highlights are available for your squid: original (photos 4 and 5), circles (photos 6 and 8), or crescent (photo 7). If not specified, your squid will come with original highlights. Additionally, you may request the firmness of your pillow. There are three firmness options: firm, regular, or what I call squishy. If not specified, your squid will come with regular firmness.

PRICES: Large squids are $75 (shipping not included) and small squids are $40 (shipping not included). Shipping will be $20 nationwide. International customers, I apologize. But soon hopefully there will be international shipping available!

HOW TO ORDER: It’s easy! Just send me a message on tumblr or email me at tentacle.club@gmail.com with the following information:

Color Underside color and pattern Size Shipping Information Eye color (optional) Eye highlight (optional) Firmness (optional)

I will reply to your message with the email address you’ll send money to via PayPal. If you would rather send a check or money order, I will provide you with that information at your request.

OTHER INFO: Please know that these squids are not made in a pet-free home; if you are allergic to cats please be aware that despite my efforts to keep them away from my cat, he still might have sat on the fabric while I wasn’t looking. Also note that these are made with FLEECE; if you have a fleece allergy, please do not buy these pillows. The filling of the pillows is guaranteed hypoallergenic BY THE COMPANY, NOT BY ME. If it turns out you have an allergy to the stuffing, sue them, not me. I am not responsible for any injuries that happen from your enjoyment with my pillows.

Thank you all so much for the support so far! I hope you consider purchasing one of my squids, I have a 100% satisfaction date so far. And please, spread the word!

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Deactivated the facebook, probably shutting off the phone or at least powering it off for awhile. I'm over all this bullshit.

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Like for reals though people what is the point? 

Spending all your time trying to do what you're supposed to in life

Making friends, going to class to attain something

But everything eventually fades into nothing

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Much of the boreds.

Been the sick.

Very angry with life.

Really just wish the last 2 months would vanish and I could have my life back where it should have stayed.

But alas I am a boob.