amidthechaoss
AmidtheChaoss
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Samantha (29) So here is a life amid the chaos.
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amidthechaoss · 13 days ago
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I keep putting off buying my flight ticket, but my hotel room is booked and paid for. lol, the things I am doing with my life are shocking.
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amidthechaoss · 16 days ago
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Ever felt a sadness so obtrusive and violent it makes you want to tear away your own skin? My sadness is making my skin crawl, clenching my jaw shut.
I feel cornered. I am actually petrified.
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amidthechaoss · 16 days ago
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I am so sad, I feel like I am going to burst.
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amidthechaoss · 1 month ago
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Note to self:
being unkind to yourself won’t make life any more kind
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amidthechaoss · 1 month ago
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I cant seem to get myself to start.
on anything really. Its been almost 6 months since I quit my job and all I have done is sink deeper and deeper into a depression. Its comical really. I am the bird in the cage with the open door. 34 days till I am 30.
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amidthechaoss · 1 month ago
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this stopped me on my tracks, cs true
you'll lose october too
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amidthechaoss · 1 month ago
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amidthechaoss · 1 month ago
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Someone wrote about me.
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The Jacaranda Years by Yiwei Chai
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amidthechaoss · 2 months ago
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I am planning on moving back to Japan. My homeland has failed me—there are literally no jobs anywhere, and as I write this, my eyes are filling with tears. Being an ESL teacher until my aging years was never what I wanted. I want to scream, cry until my voice is hoarse, and faint.
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amidthechaoss · 2 months ago
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I really want to disappear.
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amidthechaoss · 2 months ago
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amidthechaoss · 2 months ago
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Every month without fail, my uterus plunges me into a world of pain like no other. And like that’s not enough.. it takes 6 whole days. Six. But I still have to participate in adult obligations. This has been on going since I was 13. I am 29 now. Goodness when will it end
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amidthechaoss · 2 months ago
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I am at a point in my menstruation where my jaw is clenched and I have the insistent need to bash my head against the wall repeatedly till my skull cracks open, I also hate myself to death. It’s all just dark and s**c*de. I want to get off the damn bus.
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amidthechaoss · 2 months ago
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Today I am extremely inspired to watch a bunch of movies, and so it’s no surprise I have to actually do some work.
The things my procrastination brain lies about!
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amidthechaoss · 2 months ago
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I know there is a way out, but I simply can’t find it for the life of me.
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amidthechaoss · 2 months ago
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I don't want kids because I don't have the patience, and based on my experiences with the kids around me, they're great—but not 24/7. Yet sometimes, I have this pick-ism that leads me to think that maybe my kid would be different, maybe they'd be less annoying. 😂 The human ego really knows how to lie!
-the delusion
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amidthechaoss · 2 months ago
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First draft of The Companionship Equation via instagram
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