ametsuki-no-mise

[ametsuki-no-mise]

I think about how different this place must have looked before like maybe 10 20 years from today. Maybe there would have been no buildings. I remember the first house that i lived in (the one i was born into, its in bhopal) was a forest before and then my grandparents moved in after it was turned into a society. Nobody would even think that place could have ever been a forest bc the place is just full of apartments and buildings and even had a slum nearby.

[ametsuki-no-mise]

Sometimes i just want to sit inside my room and stare at maybe the ceiling or outside the window or the balcony(if i have one when i move to another house) and just............exist. But no matter what i do, the moment i try to do that my brain starts yelling at me about how i am wasting my time, how the seconds are going past, how useless i am. And i can never just relax and do nothing bc to my brain, doing nothing= being useless.

[ametsuki-no-mise]

I did my first post kinda. I am trying to u knw share my thoughts and stuff online but i swear this is by far the one that has been the easiest and the most aesthetic looking. I want to share with everyone(i mean who see these posts if they ever will) how i see the world. how pretty it is. Maybe talk about my interests and thoughts. And obviously share my art i am trying to get better but i dunno if i ever will but practice makes better. A person?Practice makes a person better? Something like that.

[ametsuki-no-mise]

No matter how many places i shift. The sky stays the same but is still so different. It has so many moods but i missed so so many of them because i was so absorbed in the world , studying, being anxious and dreading conflicts. I just look up at the sky and i feel myself getting lost. It is so mesmerising. It makes me feel so insignificant that it comforts me in a way