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Kierark: *says some unnecessarily dramatic shit*

Alec: Gay?

Magnus: Gay.

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is the world really such a terrible place? yesterday i asked if oat milk was extra and the barista said yes so i said ok just regular milk then and when she gave me my chai latte she whispered “i used oat milk ;)” doesnt that make u want to live another day?

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alina starkov i am so sorry that no one understands your character. i'm sorry that you have been reduced to the fandom's morality pony at the sake of your real personality and your depth. i'm sorry that they don't understand that you existed as a person outside of the men in your life, and that your relationship with your trauma was complicated and ugly and understandable. i'm sorry they didn't love you for this anyway.

i'm sorry they don't understand the metaphor of the sunlight in your soul representing your self discovery and growing ability to accept yourself - that every scene where you long so desperately to know yourself and then glow when you finally do is cast in darkness by those who would rather you starve yourself in the name of conformity than eat healthily at the table of self love.

i'm sorry that they didn't love you enough to see how much losing your light hurt you and i'm sorry that they didn't want you to have a happy ending that you truly wanted - one where you could be all of yourself without shame or borders. i'm sorry their love for you was so performative that it stripped you of everything you are, that it left you wanting and shamed and filled with grief. i'm so so sorry.

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This isn’t working for me.

THE MANDALORIAN | Chapter 23: The Spies

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miriam adeney

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KAZ BREKKER + text posts 

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shadow and bone season 1 but it’s just memes

(season 2 version)

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This is just so good!!

shadow and bone season 2 but it's just memes

(season 1 version)

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love how kanej and helnik are practically DROWNING in the angst and wesper are just living their best rom-com life being cute and wholesome

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love how tolya was playing marriage counselor to wesper but didn’t even want to touch the kanej trainwreck that was happening. he picked his battles.

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that scene in season 2 when we think nina’s betrayed kaz is so accurate to the books (reminiscent of wylan’s “he gave them everything”), because it was another instance of “omg a plot twist that wasn’t orchestrated by kaz!” only to realize that it was, in fact, orchestrated by kaz.

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Matthew and Lucie 😌✨ from that one scene from Chain of Gold, by @cassandraclare

A coat settled on Lucie’s shoulders, bottle green superfine and warm from the heat of Matthew’s body, smelling of expensive cologne. Lucie glanced up to see Matthew’s face above hers, limned by sunlight and the gold of his hair, serious for once as he carefully buttoned the coat closed. His hands were usually swift and bright with rings, flying through the air when he talked or to the curving hilt of his rapier when he fought, but now they were moving with great deliberation over such a small task. She heard him draw in a slow breath.

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Oh I will simply never be over Fitz’s face as he stares at Jemma waxing poetic over the first law of thermodynamics, they are about to die and he’s about ready to risk it all. He’s about to die and he is just in awe of her, the only thing on his mind is how much he loves her.