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@trelavoux @angiesucks @chrisishh @gemmakaylondon https://www.instagram.com/p/B58Rop5lIgH/?igshid=1hvepnl9o9jg

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✖️ (at Gender Equality) https://www.instagram.com/p/B55sm1wlcDf/?igshid=1wuckuhlicp7z

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been seeking serenity〰️ (at Crocheron Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5Xzz3yFYrr/?igshid=126ahcqjmegcd

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How do you begin to explain that the same people who brought you into the light are the same that drained it.

how do you explain that you have had to recreate your mind by substituting pressed thoughts to original thoughts

How do you explain that no one believes you

exactly like that

no one believes you

you are alone.

trapped inside vile thoughts and repressing memories that shouldn’t have ever occurred

Lost inside my head

attempting to separate those thoughts that have been pushed from those that have been there

Begging for someone to see

longing for someone to see

That the corrupt minds will always persecute those who do the least

feast on the lies

devour it as if it were your breakfast, lunch or dinner

it is gone.

inside my body, it will remain

for the truth is bound to come out

wait on the persecution of the evil

for karma is real

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be on that NYC vibe 🏙 lets hop transit and go onna adventure~ (at MTA New York City Transit) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3hy1waFkJW/?igshid=5yh0u78fjmez

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social constructs and labels are becoming irrelevant. proud to be queer. proud to be here. it’s not a sin to love they/her/him 🌈 (at Crocheron Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3e3J0KF73l/?igshid=1ug52ronfhks7

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mad w ambition, where’s the competition 🧐⁉️ (at Queens, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2b7jtxFNtU/?igshid=oevct21usgc7

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a lost cause. (at Lost In Space) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2CgXNKFMhj/?igshid=krme4ek5609j

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Virgos: “WhEn iS LeO sEaSoN gOiNg tO EnD” Me, a Leo: (at Lions' Gate) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1trASLFu9M/?igshid=myzr4qhbdbrc

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Virgos: “WhEn iS LeO sEaSoN gOiNg tO EnD” Me, a Leo: (at Lions' Gate) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1tq1p_FuGv/?igshid=g1kn10fgtci

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even on sum chill shit, we kill shit 🗡😛 https://www.instagram.com/p/B1q600XFLbI/?igshid=3pxd10796nrw

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08/06/2019

I spent most of today crying; Part of me wants to believe it’s my period- the other half just believes it was waiting to come out. Though today is a day like none other, because today is my birthday. Happy Birthday to me- a day started with screaming, crying & LOTS of walking. 5 hours walking with no destination- 5 hours that could’ve been spent with my friend, carelessly wasting my time on people it doesn’t need to be spent on. But at the end of the day- those 5 hours were spent ALONE. no friends, no family, nothing except the cash in my pocket and on my card. Cash that i have struggled to earn- spent- attempting to get through the day. At the end of the day, you need $ to survive in this world; if it was love you needed to survive in this world- I’d be rich; wasting my love on people that don’t merely appreciate it- no more that acknowledge it; however, through it all I remain compassionate. Through writing, i know I will be able to comprehend the expansion of my mind- to compose what is flying through my mind because it won’t even begin to fathom it in this realm. Yes, I most definitely live in my own world- yearning for a world where everything turns out in my favor and I just get by smoothly; yet, that’s not the path that I am MEANT to take. There’s a point you realize that everything in your life is set for you- you just have to endure the trials & tribulations. There’s a point you realize that deja vu isn’t deja vu- it’s the universe TELLING you that you are moving correctly. I will never cease to put my faith into the universe; who fucking knows where doing so will get me- all I know is that I have to follow where the universe guides; if you listen, it will speak to you. Words that come as if they come from a crazy woman; am i crazy or do i just speak the truth so frequently that you become too scared? The universe has prepared me for this mentality; as i come into my own- independent, unusual, unlike any other- people become more scared of how UNLIKE any other I am. The universe has prepared me to be ready for people judging me, attempting to use me, abusing me, loving me, hating me- ALL for one reason- I am MEANT for something bigger. I am MEANT to do something beyond this world, something none other has ever dared to delve upon; when the time comes, all the tribulations the universe had put me through- will prepare me. I guess I am crazy- crazy about expanding my mind in every sense: spiritually, educationally, sexually, lovingly, emotionally, and through it all- my mind remains open & READY for change.

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at Florida https://www.instagram.com/p/B0EAtTJlb-i/?igshid=1drszky7nfqrc

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straight moves, no announcements🗣 (at Anna Maria Island) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzyIhSclbbN/?igshid=1fnrkwdrkrbc2

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straight moves, no announcements🗣 (at Anna Maria Island) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzyIMsCFiPJ/?igshid=16i20urswo5uf

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gotta move different, when you want different 👀🔥 (at Brooklyn, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bzf9j4blaWr/?igshid=107o8h9fbxntl

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icon. (at Brooklyn, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BywUzEGlaNw/?igshid=8qvezmgbpr4g