am-still-that-bitch-blog

[am-still-that-bitch-blog]

lemme tell you what one of many things i’m fuming about rn. fuck our world and school system. i have hours of homework to do each night to keep up my grades. i have hours a week of required extra after school hours of activities required by my school. i also have activities i do to get scholar ships for. things required of me bc of  my parents. plus things i do that i enjoy. to keep my body healthy i have to work out. oh, don’t forget i need to eat and sleep and lets think about the prep time for school and my activities. also don’t forget i have to add in a social life. my therapist says i need alone time to relax, when, pray tell, will i have time for that? and getting 9 hours of sleep is a joke. now, do i have to do allll of this? maybe not. but i do if i even want a decent chance at a future. all of this time taken up. all of this stress. and yet every day i’m reminded these high school days are supposed to be easy. i’m constantly told collage will be harder, and getting my life after that will be harder than collage. because even if i get an 8 year degree i’ll still be working in fast food for a year or two bc i can’t get the experience required for jobs. so yeah. add on my depression and lack of motivation? even less fun. and i know i’m not close to the only one