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Rest in peace!

Rest in peace, Maggie Smith... Words can not describe how amazing of a person you were and you will be so missed.

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I’m getting married!!!

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In shadows of the past, you didn't dare to see,

The innermost parts of me, a locked mystery,

My favorite hue, not just by chance,

But the color of your shirt in our first dance.

Hiking trails and souls that intertwine,

Multiple lives and soulmates, a belief so fine,

Writing opens up secrets I couldn't share,

Photography, capturing beauty, life so rare.

I've grown to love reading, though I once denied,

A path to escape, where my spirit can glide,

And talking to you, my sweet escape,

Conversations, silence, the moments we'd create.

I yearned to know you, like the back of my hand,

But now I'm left wondering, unable to understand,

You never let me in, your walls held me at bay,

You never wanted me to, and that's why I couldn't stay.

The diary pages hold memories, a love that has grown,

A chapter closed now, as I journey on my own,

I'll keep exploring the world, seeking love anew,

In the colors of my life, I'll find shades of you.

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how draco malfoy would react to you teasing him |

would fucking flip.

i mean, this guy is not the type of person who takes jealousy to a low.

it all happened when you flirted with some gryffindor during your free period, twirling your hair and throwing flirtatious comments at the boy.

he came across you, practically face to face with the fellow student. he eyed you, warning signs visible.

you didn’t really listen, mainly because you knew that draco wasn’t the verbal possessive type, more like the private and confidential possessive type. he’d rather be 1 on 1 with you.

so, you spent more time with the gryffindor, grabbing his hand and play fighting in the hallways.

when they go low, i go lo-OW.

you know well that he’s gonna fuck everything up for you.

he’s gonna make sure you fucking pay.

less visits, less time spent with you,

and… well… let’s say, you won’t be walking for a while.

warnings: absolute filthy smut, MDNI (17+), dacryphilia, draco is an absolute menace (literally a dom), hate fuck, choking, deepthroat, unprotected sex (wrap b4 u tap) p in v, degradation/name-calling

“That’s how you want to be toyed with, huh?” Draco had you down on the bed, legs apart, right on top of you, with his hands around your throat. You choked, gagging as you tried to respond back to him. His grasp lightened, but as soon as you tried to even speak, he applied more pressure to your throat.

“Girls like you don’t deserve the privilege of speaking, hm?” He used his free hand to pin your arms. You tried desperately, attempting to wriggle your way through his hold on your arms. “I’m gonna have to fuck you until the only thing you can say or think about is only my name, and my cock ravaging this tight cunt.”

He let go of you completely, before unbuckling his belt and dropping his dress pants and untying his tie and white shirt, throwing it to the floor as he laid down next to you on the bed, tapping his thigh to signal you to come near him. You obeyed, willingly. “What’re you planning?” You teased, licking your lips. He pulled his boxers down, a slight “tap” as it hit his abdomen. “Suck it.”

You leaned closer to him, your fingers grazing his cock. When you finally grabbed ahold of his cock, you lightly jerked it, carefully observing how beads of pre-cum leaked down onto his hand. A breathy moan leaked through Draco’s lips, causing him to lean his head back. You jerked his cock at a faster pace, watching his eyes switch from complete anger to euphoria. You met eyes with him, your hand still jerking his cock, twitching.

“Be a good girl and suck it like I told you, sweetheart,” he commanded. Your lips met the tip of his cock, causing him to shift. You licked and swirled around the mess of pre-cum, mixing it with the spit on your tongue. You played with his cock, sucking his tip and using your fingers to trace the veins that decorated the base of his cock. You moaned, going deeper down his shaft, his cock hitting your uvula.

“That’s not good enough for me, darling,” he grabbed your head, forcing his cock down your throat until your nose hit his pelvis. Your head bobbed up and down, up and down, making your eyes tear up and trail down your puffed cheeks as he instinctively bucked his hips up your throat. Gurgles and sounds emitted from your mouth, a smile on his face forming. “Such a slut,” he whispered.

“Gonna cum down this pretty little throat? Yeah?” He talked to you like you were a dog, praising your efforts as you obeyed, allowing him to face-fuck your throat like it was made for him.

“Gonna cum in your cunt next,” he said. He grabbed a chunk of your hair to force you down on his cock, thrusting as far as he could up your throat as he could, shooting thick white loads of salty cum down your throat. He exhaled, moaning as your fingers dug into his thighs, carving crescent-shaped marks into his skin.

When he finished violating your throat, he pulled your mouth off his dick. Shortly after, desperate inhales of oxygen made you hyperventilate, tears falling from your eyes as he grabbed your hair, forcing you to look at him in the eyes.

“Fuck,” you cried out. He grabbed you, pulling you forward onto his lap. His hands traveled to your pussy, using his long, slender fingers to pull your panties to aside. He felt how wet you were, gathering up your arousal and feeling it around his fingers.

“Is this what you wanted?”

“What?” You asked, dumbfounded.

In response, he lined up his cock to your entrance, letting you slowly sink down onto his length. The pain of the stretch made you nearly moan, but his tip lined up against the spongey part of your walls, twitching as you arched your back at the feeling, moaning at the sensation. You had sex with Draco before, but it was like his body knew yours better than you knew yourself.

He began thrusting his hips up inside of you. His movements were fast, rough, and even-paced. He held onto your hips, your arms around his neck as you leaned into him. Each thrust made you blank out, your mind only focused on the shape of his cock and his girth as it filled you whole. “Fucking slut,” he smacked your ass, making you yelp and slam onto his dick, hitting your cervix.

It felt like there was no stopping. He was determined to what he promised. He wanted you to only remember his cock and his name.

“Draco!” You moaned, screaming his name and digging your nails into his neck every time he thrusted harder into you.

“I’m gonna cum in this-“ you clenched around him, giving him pleasure. “This tight cunt…”

He thrusted inside of you one more time, releasing his cum inside of you as you clenched around him and climaxed yourself. He loosened his grip on your hips. The both of you panted, his laugh of relief echoed through the room.

“I’m sorry, Draco. I shouldn’t have been so disloyal to you.” His hand brushed your cheek, and he pulled you in for a quick kiss. “You did so well, darling,” he pulled you in for another kiss, praising you.”

The both of you laid down, and he gently pulled his cock out of you. The mix of your cum and his leaked down your thighs. He pampered you with kisses, affirmations came flooding from his mouth.

He got a wet rag and cleaned you up, allowing himself to put in all of the work just for you. He looked at your beautiful body, admiring it like a piece of art work. When he got done, he put the rag in the dirty laundry bin and laid down next to you, his arm wrapped around you.

“I might just have to do that again.”

“What?” He asked.

“What?” You playfully mocked him. “Maybe I should flirt with that Gryffindor boy again. Perhaps you can put me in my place again.”

His hold on you was tighter. He kissed your cheek with embrace.

“I could just do that regardless,” he chuckled.

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Victoria Secret Bombshell look on brown skin 💖

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Diary Entries Masterlist

6/30/2023: Entry #1

7/6/2023: Entry #2

7/6/2023: Entry #3

7/18/2023: Entry #4

8/23/2023: Entry #5

9/11/2023: Entry #6

10/20/2023: Entry #7

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Goodbye Ethan

Dear Ethan,

I hope this letter finds you well, and I trust that you've been enjoying your life. I want to take a moment to express my thoughts and feelings because it's time to say goodbye.

Our journey has been a rollercoaster, filled with emotions, promises, and ultimately, a profound sense of betrayal. I wanted us to be together, forever. I believed in our connection, in the dreams we shared, and in the love that seemed to be at the center of our story.

But sometimes, life takes unexpected turns. Our paths have diverged, and I've come to understand that we weren't meant to be together in this chapter of our lives. The revelation that you had a girlfriend all along was painful, and the deceit and manipulation that followed were even more difficult to bear. "Did you ever love me?" I asked, and although you assured me, I couldn't find it in myself to believe it. Trust, once broken, is challenging to rebuild.

Despite all the pain, I want you to know that you will always hold a special place in my heart. You were my first love, and you'll forever be my favorite "friendly robber," as you once called yourself at our first introduction the playfulness I met you at the age of of 13 will always be remembered as one of my favorite memories it playfully described our connection well into adulthood. The moments we shared, the laughter, and even the tears, they all meant something to me. It's essential for me to let you go now, not out of bitterness, but out of self-love and the realization that I deserve honesty and respect in any relationship.

Perhaps, in another time or another place maybe another lifetime, our paths will cross again. Until then, I wish you nothing but happiness and love. May your journey be filled with genuine connections and open-hearted conversations. I hope you've learned the value of honesty and transparency, not only for yourself but also for the person you choose to share your life with.

This goodbye is bittersweet, Ethan. I will always cherish the memories we created together, and I hope you do too. I am letting go of the pain and making room for new beginnings. Goodbye for now, and I wish you all the best.

Sincerely,

Skye/ Alyssa

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Diary Entry #6

Title: Love and Deceit: My Painful Journey of Being Led On

Written by: Alyssa | 10/20/2023

Have you ever felt that strong connection with someone, believing that you were meant to be together, only to find out that they had been leading you on? The pain of discovering that the person you've been talking to for years has a girlfriend is indescribable. This is my story, a tale of heartbreak, manipulation, and shattered dreams.

It all started when I met him, Ethan. We met when I was 13 and I was at a party and he stole my phone and called himself the “friendly robber” and it was history from there. Best friends till we were lovers at 15 eventually on and off until we hit the ripe age of 20 where I believe I got closure but it was unwanted and I’m saying goodbye to the future I wanted with the man I wanted to share the rest of my life with. We had known each other for years, and our connection was undeniable. We talked about our future, about how we'd get married, build a life together, and share countless happy moments. Little did I know, these promises would turn out to be empty words.

One day, the truth came crashing down on me like a tidal wave. It turned out that Ethan had a girlfriend all along, a secret he had kept hidden from me. The person I had cared about deeply was committed to someone else. The pain and betrayal I felt were immeasurable.

The worst part was not just the revelation itself but the way I had been deceived and manipulated. Ethan had gaslit me, making me question my own intuition and feelings. He assured me of his love while concealing the truth about his girlfriend. I asked him, "Did you ever love me?" and despite his assurances, I couldn't bring myself to believe it. Trust had been broken beyond repair.

What hurt even more was the secrecy surrounding their relationship. I couldn't help but imagine the consequences if his girlfriend ever found out about our conversations. I would be labeled a homewrecker, a role I had never intended to play. It made me feel desperate, a feeling I had never associated with myself. I thought we were vibing again, but it was all a charade. 

What baffled me the most was his reluctance to be upfront with me. We had known each other for years, and the least he could have done was to tell me about his girlfriend. Instead, he chose to keep me in the dark, which seemed like a cowardly act. 

I want nothing but happiness for Ethan and his girlfriend. I genuinely wish him the best in his relationship. My only regret is that I was not told the truth earlier. I wish he had said, "I'm seeing someone." It would have spared me the heartache of discovering the truth on my own.

This painful experience has taught me valuable lessons. Anyone who is afraid to express their feelings for you publicly may not be worth your time. Love should not be a secret; it should be celebrated and cherished. I have learned to value honesty and to protect my heart from those who don't respect it.

In the end, my heartache is a reminder that love is not always what it seems. We must guard our hearts and trust our instincts. The pain of being led on is excruciating, but it also makes us stronger and wiser. I hope that Ethan's new relationship will be built on trust and openness, unlike the one he had with me.

Here’s my letter to him

Poem about this situation

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Taking a break got my heart shattered and every time I try writing I break down in tears and I don’t even know how to put it into words. I might just post a note that I wrote to him because those were the only words I knew how to formulate in the moment but yeah giving myself time to process

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The Complexity of Love: Can You Love Someone More Than They Love You?

Written by: Alyssa | 9/11/2023

Is It OK To Love A Man More Than He Loves You?

Introduction:

Love, often considered one of the most profound and beautiful emotions, is a complex and multifaceted experience. In the realm of romantic relationships, it's not uncommon for the depth of one partner's love to differ from the other's. The question that often arises is whether it's okay to love someone more than they love you. In this blog, we'll explore this intricate aspect of love and relationships.

Understanding the Imbalance:

Love doesn't always follow a neat and symmetrical path. People have different ways of expressing and experiencing love. While it's natural to desire reciprocity in love, it's important to recognize that imbalances can exist without necessarily indicating a problem. The key is whether both partners feel loved and valued.

Communication is Key:

In any relationship, open and honest communication is paramount. If you find yourself loving your partner more intensely, it's crucial to discuss your feelings with them. This dialogue can lead to a deeper understanding of each other's emotional needs and expectations.

Emotional Fulfillment:

Rather than quantifying love, focus on emotional fulfillment. Are you receiving the support, care, and affection you need from your partner? Are you also able to provide these things to them? It's not about counting the "I love yous" but ensuring that both partners feel emotionally nourished.

Boundaries and Self-Care:

Loving someone more than they love you should not come at the expense of your self-worth or well-being. Setting healthy boundaries and practicing self-care are essential. Remember that your happiness and emotional health matter just as much as your partner's.

Acceptance and Adaptation:

Love is a journey, and it can evolve over time. Sometimes, feelings may become more balanced as the relationship matures. Other times, they may remain imbalanced, and that's okay too, as long as both partners are content with the dynamic.

Conclusion:

In the complex world of love, there's no fixed rule about loving someone more than they love you. What truly matters is that both partners feel loved, valued, and emotionally fulfilled. Love is not a mathematical equation but a deeply personal and unique experience for each couple. Open communication, self-care, and understanding each other's needs can help navigate the intricacies of love and build a healthy and satisfying relationship.

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Being alive is kinda out of my price range right now

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Diary Entries Masterlist

6/30/2023: Entry #1

7/6/2023: Entry #2

7/6/2023: Entry #3

7/18/2023: Entry #4

8/23/2023: Entry #5

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Navigating the Fog: A Tale of Uncertainty, Exhaustion, and Love

Written by: Alyssa | 8/23/2023

Introduction:

As I sit down to write, it's like staring into a dense fog that mirrors the confusion swirling in my mind. My thoughts are a jumble of everything and nothing, a reflection of the emotional turmoil I'm currently experiencing. The third year of college has only just begun, yet I find myself mentally and emotionally drained, grappling with decisions that could shape my future. Among these is the tangled web of my love life, a complex journey that has led me to reconsider the possibility of marrying an ex, a decision that my family views with skepticism.

The Whirlwind:

Navigating college life is supposed to be exciting, a time of growth and discovery. But here I am, struggling to keep up with my own thoughts. Each day feels like a blur, the weight of assignments and expectations adding to the mental fog that clouds my perspective. It's not just the academic pressure, though. The emotional exhaustion I feel from discussions about my relationship status and potential marriage is almost suffocating. My heart and mind are at odds, leaving me feeling like I'm drowning in a sea of uncertainty.

Valued Concerns and Second Chances:

I understand the concern my family holds for me. Their worries about my romantic choices are not misplaced. But, truth be told, I've always been the kind of person to give undeserving people second chances. It's a trait I can't easily shake off, and it complicates my decision-making process. The idea of revisiting a relationship with my ex, someone my family already disapproves of, is like walking a tightrope between my emotions and external expectations.

Examining the Possibilities:

As I ponder the potential of rekindling this connection, I can't help but scrutinize every detail of what an "us" would look like. There's so much I desire in a marriage, things that I've grown to realize are non-negotiable for my emotional well-being. Communication and reassurance, among other things, are vital components I need in a relationship. And that's where the doubt creeps in. Can he provide what I need? Am I setting myself up for disappointment? These questions hang over me like a storm cloud, obscuring any clear path forward.

Love, Fear, and Uncertainty:

Yet, despite the uncertainties and the barrage of doubts, there's one thing that remains unchanged: my love for him. It's a love that has persisted through the years, from the giddy excitement of our initial days together as 12-year-olds to the complex emotions that now in our 20s define our connection. This enduring love is both my anchor and my source of fear. Loving him is easy; it's the prospect of what might come next that terrifies me.

 The silence between us is deafening, a void that amplifies my insecurities. What is he thinking? Does he feel the same weight of this decision? The fear of not knowing what lies in his heart adds another layer of confusion to my already muddled thoughts.

Conclusion:

In the midst of this confusion, exhaustion, and love, I find myself standing at a crossroads. The path ahead is shrouded in fog, concealing potential happiness and heartbreak. While I may not have all the answers right now, I'm learning to embrace the uncertainty. This journey is messy, painful, and riddled with doubts, but it's also a chance to understand myself better and make choices that align with my well-being. As I navigate this fog, I hold onto the belief that even in confusion, there is a chance for clarity, and amidst struggle, there's an opportunity for growth.

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Diary Entry #4

Title: Embracing Destiny: A Journey of Growth, Redemption, and Rekindled Love

Written by: Alyssa | 7/18/2023

Destiny is a concept that often divides opinions, but sometimes life presents us with situations that feel too persistent to ignore. For me, that situation was my on-and-off again boyfriend. Our journey together has been filled with ups and downs, doubts, and second chances, but amidst it all, a sense of fate seems to intertwine our lives. As I reflect on our tumultuous history and the personal growth we've both undergone, I've come to realize that perhaps destiny does have a role to play in our story.

A Teenage Love:

Our relationship began during our early teenage years, a time when emotions run high and maturity is still a distant horizon. We were young and inexperienced, prone to making mistakes and struggling to express ourselves. Although we dated from the ages of 13 to 15, our connection persisted long after, with intermittent flings and lingering feelings that refused to fade away. Fearful of getting hurt, I held back from committing fully, allowing past grievances to cloud my judgment.

Confronting Our Imperfections:

In retrospect, I understand now that I too played a role in the toxicity that tainted our connection. Like many sheltered teenagers, I struggled to navigate my emotions and often lashed out at those around me. My inability to acknowledge my own flaws hindered our growth as individuals and as a couple. I carried the weight of past grievances, unwilling to give him the opportunity to grow and change. It was a crucial lesson I needed to learn: self-reflection and acceptance are vital steps toward personal development.

An Unbreakable Bond:

Despite the challenges we faced, we found ourselves continually drawn back to each other. Even during periods of silence and distance, our bond remained unshakable. We became each other's confidants and best friends, providing unwavering support through thick and thin. As we transitioned into adulthood, life presented us with new hurdles, and we both embarked on personal journeys of self-discovery and healing.

Growth and Healing:

Recognizing the need for mental health support, I sought therapy and medication to address my emotional well-being. Learning healthier ways to communicate my feelings became a priority, and I gradually shed the toxic behavior of my past. It was a process, but one that transformed my approach to relationships and ultimately paved the way for our renewed connection.

Navigating the Present:

Over the past three years, we have rebuilt our connection from the ground up, establishing a foundation of friendship and trust. While our journey hasn't been without its challenges, we've learned to address our past wounds and communicate effectively. Though external opinions and past mistakes threatened to derail us, our commitment to growth and each other prevailed.

A Future Together:

Now, at 20 years old, I have made a decision. He is the one. We have devoted ourselves to each other and are ready to face whatever lies ahead. Our path is not without obstacles, and the journey toward marriage and acceptance from our families will require patience and understanding. We are taking it one day at a time, allowing ourselves to flourish individually before embarking on a lifelong commitment. The engagement may be long, but it is a testament to our desire to build a solid foundation for our future.

Conclusion:

Sometimes, life has a way of leading us back to certain people, testing our resilience and teaching us valuable lessons along the way. My on-and-off again boyfriend has become an integral part of my life, and our love story is a testament to growth, redemption, and the power of second chances. As we embrace our destiny, we recognize the significance of personal growth, open communication, and forgiveness in creating a strong and lasting relationship. Together, we are determined to face the future with courage, love, and unwavering commitment.

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Diary Entry#3

Title: Breaking Down Walls: Exploring Trust and Protection in Relationships

Written by: Alyssa | 7/6/2023

In life, we all encounter experiences that shape the way we perceive and interact with others. Sometimes, these encounters lead us to build emotional walls as a means of self-preservation. In this blog, I want to share my journey of self-reflection during therapy, focusing on my struggles with trust and the walls I've constructed, particularly in relation to my father and certain family members. By answering a series of introspective questions, I hope to shed light on the complexities of trust, the need for protection, and the potential for growth and healing.

Why Did I Build This Wall?

The origins of my emotional walls trace back to my early middle school years, where I faced instances of bullying. However, I always had the ability to defend myself and thought that would be enough. It wasn't until a pivotal moment when my aunt called Child Protective Services (CPS), falsely accusing my mother, that my walls became higher and seemingly impenetrable. This betrayal shattered my trust in those closest to me, leaving me feeling vulnerable and abandoned. I began to question the motives of family members and learned not to trust anyone, even within my own family circle.

Do I Still Need to Be Protected?

As I reflect on my current situation, I find myself still harboring a need for protection. Even though I have grown from that 8-year-old girl to a 20-year-old young woman, the scars of the past have shaped my outlook on the world. I remain fiercely protective of my mother, as she endured immense pain and suffering due to the feuds and manipulations within our family. The presence of a particular family member, whom I choose not to name for confidentiality reasons, continues to loom over our lives, attempting to wreak havoc and disrupt our peace. This constant threat has fueled my sense of paranoia, making me believe that everyone is out to hurt me.

Can I Take This Wall Down?

In my quest for healing and growth, I have cautiously considered taking down my emotional walls. However, past experiences have taught me that doing so can lead to inevitable pain and disappointment. Each time I let someone in, hoping for connection and trust, I've ended up hurt in the end. It is a difficult dilemma, as I yearn for peace and genuine relationships while simultaneously fearing the potential consequences of vulnerability.

Conclusion:

Breaking down emotional walls is a formidable task, particularly when trust has been deeply compromised. In my personal journey, therapy has provided a safe space for self-reflection and exploration. While the process of dismantling these protective barriers may seem daunting, it also presents an opportunity for growth and healing. Through introspection, I hope to uncover the root causes of my emotional walls and learn to navigate relationships with greater vulnerability and discernment. While the road ahead may be challenging, I remain hopeful that by addressing my fears and doubts, I can eventually build bridges that lead to healthier, more authentic connections.

Remember, each person's journey is unique, and healing takes time. If you resonate with my experiences, I encourage you to seek professional guidance to embark on your own path toward emotional well-being and relationship growth. Together, we can learn to break down walls and forge connections based on trust, empathy, and understanding.

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Diary Entry #2 

Title: Navigating Heartbreak and Finding Self-Worth: Reflections on Ghosting

Written by: Alyssa | 7/6/2023

Life has a way of throwing unexpected challenges at us, and sometimes, those challenges come in the form of heartbreak. This week, I experienced a painful and bewildering situation when my boyfriend of six months completely ghosted me following his baptism. As I struggle to make sense of what happened, I find solace in expressing my thoughts and emotions, hoping to find healing and clarity in the process.

The Shock of Ghosting:

The signs of trouble began with the untimely revelation of his baptism plans, shared at the ungodly hour of 1 am. This unexpected disclosure served as the first red flag, leaving me questioning the sincerity and commitment within our relationship. However, the real heartache came when he disappeared from my life entirely after the baptism ceremony. Not a single word of gratitude for my presence, no explanation, no response to calls or texts – just silence. The pain cut deep, leaving me feeling abandoned and betrayed.

The Clash of Worlds:

To exacerbate matters, some of the people from my religious community were present at the baptism, unaware of our relationship. The surprise they expressed upon seeing me heightened my confusion and played with my mind. Did their reaction have something to do with his sudden disappearance? Were they involved in his decision to ghost me? The sense of isolation and rejection intensified as I grappled with these questions.

The Weight of Broken Promises:

Our plans for a celebratory dinner after the baptism now lay shattered. The promises we made to each other, the dreams we shared, and the love we nurtured suddenly seemed like distant memories. It's devastating to realize that someone you trusted and opened your heart to can discard you so callously, without even a shred of explanation. It's an affront to the value we place on communication and mutual respect in a relationship. The promises we made to each other during our relationship now seem like distant memories, fading away into the abyss of unanswered questions. We had dreams, aspirations, and shared goals. We nurtured our love, cherishing the connection we thought we had built. It is heartbreaking to come to terms with the fact that someone we trusted, someone we opened our heart to, could discard us so callously. What hurts the most is the absence of any explanation. Ghosting leaves us with a profound sense of confusion, leaving our minds to desperately search for answers that may never come. Communication is the cornerstone of any healthy relationship, and the lack of it feels like a betrayal of our shared values. We placed importance on openness, honesty, and mutual respect, and to have those principles disregarded in such a hurtful manner is an affront to our core beliefs.

The pain we feel is not just about the loss of a relationship but also about the erosion of our trust in others. It becomes difficult to open up again, to let someone into the sacred spaces of our heart when we have experienced the deep disappointment of being left without explanation or closure. The emotional wounds inflicted by this kind of abandonment take time to heal.

Learning from the Pain and Moving Forward:

In the midst of the heart-wrenching anguish caused by ghosting, it is crucial to remind ourselves that we deserve better. No one should be subjected to emotional manipulation or have their insecurities exploited. It's natural to feel hurt, betrayed, and even question our own self-worth in the aftermath of such an experience. However, it's essential to recognize that this painful encounter does not define who we are. Every hardship we face, including the pain of betrayal, can serve as a catalyst for personal growth and self-discovery. It becomes a turning point, propelling us towards a stronger and more resilient version of ourselves. As we navigate the aftermath of ghosting, we can choose to rise above the pain and use it as a stepping stone toward a brighter future.It's vital to remember that our worth as individuals is not determined by the actions or choices of others. We are inherently valuable, deserving of love, respect, and open communication in our relationships. The betrayal we have experienced does not diminish our worth. Instead, it highlights the importance of recognizing our own value and refusing to accept anything less than we deserve. As I navigate the path to healing, I am reminded of the strength within me. While it's natural to be hurt and to question our own judgment, it's crucial not to blame ourselves for the actions of others. It is not a reflection of our worth or our ability to love. In time, the wounds will heal, and we will emerge stronger and wiser. Healing takes time, and it is a unique journey for each individual. It involves honoring our emotions, seeking support from loved ones, and engaging in activities that nurture our well-being. It's essential to create space for self-reflection and growth, allowing ourselves to heal at our own pace. Along the way, we may discover new passions, uncover hidden strengths, and gain a deeper understanding of our own needs and desires. While the pain of betrayal may linger, it does not define our future. We have the power to choose how we move forward from this experience. By acknowledging our worth, learning from the past, and cultivating resilience, we can approach future relationships with confidence and clarity. We can set healthy boundaries, communicate our needs, and surround ourselves with individuals who uplift and respect us.

Conclusion:

Experiencing ghosting after a significant event like a baptism is undeniably painful and confusing. It tests our faith in others and challenges our ability to trust again. However, by acknowledging our feelings, seeking support from loved ones, and focusing on self-care, we can gradually heal from the heartbreak and emerge with newfound resilience. Remember, our worth is not defined by the actions of others, but by the love and respect we have for ourselves.

Xoxo Alyssa

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Beauty Masterlist

7/1/2023 -current fave glam makeup tutorial from Tiktok