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the fact that the first time zayn has been included in a 1d official sign off in almost 10 years was in a tribute to liam mourning his death… i havent known a moment of peace

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When it suddenly crashes on you that it is real and not just a nightmare, and the dam of tears breaks 💔

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you know the post that's like: one day I'll be 45 at a party and ill hear a one direction song and ill be dancing my heart out because I never learned to love anything as much as I love one direction?......... yeah.......thinking of that right now

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We were supposed to be mourning our 1D boys in our 80s. Not now. I’m speechless.

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i'm experiencing so many emotions. i'm still in shock, i'm still waiting for someone to come out and say it's all a lie. i also feel bad, and i feel guilty because i lost hope in liam a while ago, i discussed his behavior with my friends and i pitied him... i never wrote anything online bc even for the worst people, i will never write a tweet wishing for them to kill themselves. but i still feel guilty bc i doubted he could get better.

then i think about 1d and how much they mean to me, how big of an impact they had in my life... they saved me. then i think about how all of liam's addictions and mental problems started while in the band. then i feel even more guilty.

i said to a friend "i don't know how the boys survived 1d", and now that statement is not true anymore. i wish he could have gotten better and dealt with all the damage he did to others.

i feel angry too... bc people will reduce everything to "he was good" or "he was bad", but it's way more complex than that. i once said people didn't want him to get better, it was way more entertaining for the outsiders to see him fall and break.

amidst all these mixed emotions is despair, i doubt people will learn from this, i know the press will have a feast, i know people will reduce liam to his death and his wrongdoings.

i know that a lot of people won't understand how we feel, they will even call us names for hurting at the news... but i know there are some of us who just get it, because we feel it.

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zayn😩 loml

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Un Professore - 1x10

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Can someone explain to me what happened with Bella's bff some time ago?? Didn't know anything about it

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Zayn Malik spotted today in NYC (x)

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how can i be civil when they’ve got me by the throat, pushing my feelings down, you ain’t got it like them, “boy your skin is so light,” okay motherfucker, take my name up on a flight and try to convince immigration that your bloodline’s half white.

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it's okay to be yourself, sit and talking to myself, I've been walking for the longest I just need a little rest, I know I ain't the strongest I can feel it in my chest

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are the lyrics of yellow metal somewhere to be found?? i need them

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“To Begin Again” by Ingrid Michaelson and ZAYN was used in the Grey’s Anatomy’s season 17 finale promo.

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Eurovision 2021 Sum Up

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THIS MAN BE SEEING GOD 😭😭😭

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italy’s minister for economy and finances rn