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Alex Dimitrov, from "Waiting at Stonewall", Love and Other Poems

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self destruction really is such a fascinating human response to various factors both external and internal. what if sisyphus could leave at any time but kept rolling the boulder up the hill just to watch it roll back down anyway. what if he kept pushing it even as the rock cut into his palms and his legs began to ache with the desire to rest for even a moment and his body became a canvas of bruises and cuts that never have time to heal. what if he did it because it's the only thing he knows how to do. the only thing that gives him a sense of certainty and control in a world that takes both and offers neither.

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cant find a working stream rn killing myself

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yeah well. I'll jump off that bridge when I come to it.

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“The trick is you were never meant to be let in. This life is not for you.”

— Camille Rankine, from “Survival Guide for Animals Born in Captivity” published in Apogee (via lifeinpoetry)

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i’ve wasted my life running away from myself

a breath of life, clarice lispector / 14 lines from love letters or suicide notes, doc luben / the archer, taylor swift / close to the knives: a memoir of disintegration, david wojnarowicz / portrait of fyderyck in shifting light, richard siken / how to never stop being sad, dandelion hands / holly warburton / the torn up road, richard siken / soda, nothing but thieves / extracting the stone of madness, alejandra pizarnik

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woah this character is so cool i wish they were covered in blood their whole body trembling with a look of absolute horror on their face as theyre struggling to breathe in panic

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save me characters doing fucked up things out of self-preservation…..characters doing fucked up things out of self-preservation save me………..

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“Her brown eyes were untranslatable…She was made entirely of a sweetness bordering on tears.”

— Clarice Lispector, from “The Servant”, Complete Stories (trans. Katarina Dodson)

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Nikita Gill, from Fierce Fairytales Poems & Stories to Stir Your Soul; "Gretel After Hansel," (edited)

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Czeslaw Milosz, New and Collected Poems: 1931-2001

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does no one want to adore me and love me and fawn over me and dote on me and tell me how one of a kind and special and indispensable and poignant and irreplaceable and one in a lifetime I am anymore

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rule #1 of being a child soldier is to have fun and be yourself

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— fatima aamer bilal, from being unwanted is a language