allwolvesaregay

[allwolvesaregay]

I've started cutting really fucking deep every day again and I know I need to stop but I feel like I can't. I feel like I can't control myself, idk how else to cope with all the awful shit going on in my life

[allwolvesaregay]

[allwolvesaregay]

[allwolvesaregay]

My last breath will be a sigh of relief.

[allwolvesaregay]

I broke a razor apart like a week ago and lost one of the blades in my bathroom. I looked EVERYWHERE for it,was completely freaking out about it and was worried my mom was going to see it and kick me out. I decided to give up looking for it and figured it had just disappeared. Why the fuck did I just find it?????? It was in such a obvious place idk how my mom didn't see it????

[allwolvesaregay]

I cut way too deep again and it didn't even help that much lmao I need to fucking off myself Idk why I have even stayed alive this long I can't do this shit anymore

[allwolvesaregay]

Even though we live in the same house my mom hasn't talked to me in nearly a entire day bc she is so mad I asked her to take responsibility for something lmao

[allwolvesaregay]

Very seriously considering ending my shit tonight bc my life just keeps getting worse and i really think i dont have a single thing left to live for anymore

[allwolvesaregay]

I was 6 years old the first time I had to try to stop my mom from killing herself.

Also when I was 6 when she was depressed she would lock me outside, even in the snow and the rain.

She would constantly tell me none of my friends were really my friends and that no one loved me, this is something she still does now.

When I was 7 and my dad died she moved us in with her sister and her husband who used their religion as a excuse to hit, pinch, shove, etc. me, she never defended me and only gave a shit when she was the one who was hit.

She was never EVER there for me after my dad died, not even once, not even at his funeral.

[allwolvesaregay]

My mom is a abusive piece of shit but I have never told anyone everything she's done and I have no one I can tell without risking it getting back to her so I'm just going to start listening shit she did here

[allwolvesaregay]

My life is never gonna get better lmao

[allwolvesaregay]

how i sleep after slicing my legs open

[allwolvesaregay]

“don’t trust any negative thoughts you have past 9 pm” girlies when they have negative thoughts before 9 pm

[allwolvesaregay]

I only talk to a friend once every few months. My mom is always mad at me. Society in general doesn't like me bc I'm mentally ill and on welfare. No matter how hard I try none of my interests make me happy anymore, cutting myself is the only thing that makes me happy and makes life at least a little bit easier. I can't work bc of all my health problems so I very rarely have money for anything. I spend 99% of my time trying not to kill myself. Is life really worth it? Is it really possible for things to ever get better? I've been trying to fix my life for so long I don't know if I can handle trying anymore. I just really think my life is totally over and it's time for me to say goodbye

[allwolvesaregay]

Idk what I'm supposed to do bc I don't belong or fit in anywhere. Everyone is always only friends with me until they find someone better to talk to. I just don't know what happened I used to think I was so loved and I'm just not at all anymore. If I died no ones life would change, no one would miss me, people probably would be happy I'm gone.

[allwolvesaregay]

I really can't think of a single reason to stay alive anymore. No one would miss me, I still really don't have any friends, and my mom is always mean to me so I doubt she gives a shit about me. I've been trying to make my life better for years and everything I try just gets ruined so my life either stays the same or get worse. I really just can't see any possible way my life could ever get better so what's the point in staying alive?

[allwolvesaregay]

I wish my mom wasn't such a horrible fucking person I can't even walk into the room without her horrible ass starting fights with me