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Do non-americans realize that the United States is literally just a bunch of countries in a trench coat that agreed to be semi-nice to each other in order to sneak into the Big Boy Club? Because let’s be honest that’s just what the USA is

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god this feels like im being chased by a serial killer with a fucking boombox blaring this

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Because it’s important. And it’s me.

I’m gay.

In the US, we bark about freedom  all the time. There’s the freedom of religion, freedom of speech, freedom to protest, freedom of the press, etc. I see Christians joining in, proclaiming that this freedom is God’s freedom. The truth is, I don’t think God really cares about all of that. The only thing He cares about is if we find freedom in Him; freedom from sin and eternal damnation. I have gone through periods throughout my 23 years where I’ve felt I was undeserving of this freedom. How could I, a truly lost person who was feeling such disgusting and despicable things be worthy of God’s freedom and forgiveness? I wasn’t…or at least that’s what I had decided. Let me explain.

Hello, my name is Phillip Coon, and I’m gay.

It truly has taken me my whole life to get to a point where I am comfortable enough with who I am to say that. A part of growing up gay in the Southern Baptist community is that you hear horror stories of families abusing their defected member, both verbally and physically, and also abandoning them. Hearing all of this shut me up for the last 23 years. Clearly this thing I was feeling could not be a good thing in any way if Christians reacted in this manner. So, I ignored those feelings. I pushed them away and assumed that all I needed to do was find a woman, fall in love, get married, and everything would be squared away. Nope.

Then came Biola. My college experience was the first time I was on my own and encouraged to think for myself, and believe things because I believed them, not because I’ve been told to believe them and that if I didn’t I was damned to hell. It was at Biola that my mind was opened enough for me to finally accept who I was and be okay with it for the first time. I finally accepted that I was born this way for a reason. God makes no mistakes. Maybe I’m here in this way so I can speak out and say, “It’s okay to be gay and Christian.” or to speak out against those who abuse others because of this part of them. Despite what people think, Christianity and homosexuality are not incompatible. Even if you were to say that acting upon those feelings is wrong, you would also have to admit that we are all born broken. If that is true, couldn’t it be possible that some of might be born with this, so called, imperfection?

I’m rambling now, but the underlying idea here is that I cannot sit back and stay silent, lying to myself and to all of you about who I am. Especially after 49 people were murdered in Orlando for being gay. How can I sit here in hiding when others are being physically and verbally abused and abandoned for being honest with their families? My conscience can’t handle it anymore. It is time to be open. It is time to embrace vulnerability.

Brene Brown, a self-proclaimed “researcher/storyteller” hosted a TED Talk called, “The Power of Vulnerability.” In this 20 minute talk, Brene talks about allowing herself to be truly and deeply seen and accepting her own imperfection. She did this so that she could truly feel that she was worthy of love and acceptance. This is my moment of being truly and deeply seen. I am terrified. I’m scared I will lose friends and family. However, the people I care about and love the most already know me as I am and have not abandoned me. I have to step out and trust that whatever happens now is meant to be. Life will definitely not be the same, but I’m ready for a change.

Freedom is a very American thing, but it has been taken over by this country. Freedom doesn’t really belong to one person; it is what is offered from God. He has offered it to me and I have accepted. He has given me freedom from condemnation and damnation through His salvation, and now He has helped give me freedom that I have found through sharing this part of me. He has brought peace to my mind and soul.

So, here I am, 23 years old, a gay Christian man, finally at peace with who I am. My life isn’t going to be boring anymore after this publishes, but no one really likes boring.

Phil ✌🏻

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MEEEEEEE

u kno when you’re crying and u catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror and you’re like??? if this was a movie this scene would have won me an oscar

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PUPPIESSSSS!!!!

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Y’all, this Moore spokesman’s stunned silence when Jake Tapper tells him you don’t have to swear on a Bible to join Congress is a-mee-zing. 

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when something’s kinda rad, but not too rad

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im not a christian but at this point i want jesus christ himself to descend from the afterlife to take the microphone out of trump’s hands and say “are yall fuckin serious”

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Pwom-horp-i forget-like she is okay, but, just, not great-like she is okay, but, just, not great-i forget-pwom Chunky-oboe-oboe-nup

The phonetic alphabet. Try spelling your name!

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“But if you forget to reblog Madame Zeroni, you and your family will be cursed for always and eternity.”

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Straight up Smirnoff lol

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Cherry Cola

When you drink my blood, you will taste my innocence and purity. When I drink yours, I will taste your charisma and sensuality.