alltimeblonde

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Everyone always says “nobody’s perfect”. What if everyone is perfect and it is our perception of perfection that is incorrect?

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“I hope you find someone who knows how to love you when you are sad.”

— Nikita Gill

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I don't think food will ever go back to just being food

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Some times it hits me.. not everyone has a weird relationship with food. Some people don’t look at olive oil with big eyes and feel sick because of how many calories it is.

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I just realised that tattoos are an approved form for self harm

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My mom looked at me today and said “quite a belly you’ve got there. Did you gain weight?”

I stared at her and said “yes”. She then said “well just do what you did last time when you lost all that weight”.

I said “not eating?” She was stunned.

Timing is perfect tho. My sister is going though some shit atm. So their focus is 100% at her. They hardly even notice me.

Oh well. That’s the story about how I relapsed.

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Lol me

My ED to me after realizing I weigh the exact same as I did a year ago

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Sometimes I feel like I’m just bothering everyone around me. Like I am a waste of space..

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I stopped being afraid of the dark when I realised that nothing can hurt me more than I hurt myself

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me: why should i care how i look we only have like 80 years or so to live i shouldn’t waste my life on trying to lose weight its so useless besides why do i care what people think of me there’s literally 8 billion people on this floating rock and not even 0.01% of them know of my existence this is a waste of precious time i should focus on happiness and health-

*me looking in the mirror*: hah you should starve you fat pig✨🤟

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One part of me wants to go to therapy so bad. Like. I just realized that my idea of the perfect body doesn't include muscle mass..

The other part just dont want to give up the satisfaction of losing weight and getting closer to my next gw... 10 kg to go.. it infuriates the shit out of me

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Is it just me or does anyone else feel different when they’re hungry? It’s like my body looks different to me after I eat, like I can go the whole day not eating and I’ll feel skinny and my collar bones will seem to stick out more and my waist will be a little slimmer. But then when I eat it feels like I grow 2 sizes bigger and all of a sudden I’m fat again and never want to eat again. It happens even if I eat like a carrot or something really low cal. I don’t know I feel so stupid

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My sister accidentally let slip that I lost 20 kg (approx 40ibs) and my mom was like "wow, I thought you only lost like 5 kg?"

And I am telling you. That sentence slapped me to the moon.

Guess I just gotta lose 20 more and it will look like I lost 40 :)

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Guess not

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