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I know. I just know that these sleepless nights of crying myself to sleep will be over. If not today, then i just know someday they will.

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🌿 Affirmations To Nurture Yourself 🌿

I am here for myself in the most positive and loving way

The more I nurture myself, the more at home I feel.

I’m so happy that I nurture my souls expansion

The way I nurture myself helps me manifest everything with ease and with happiness

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And so one day, i just came to realize that I can't keep calling you out for your bad behavior and mistreatment when you can't even see that yourself.

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And when you finally find someone you can give your whole heart to, without doubts, with respect, with all that you are, i hope you also find the essence of making each day count as if it's always the last.

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All the countless times that I wanted to talk to you about all the things that are inside my head will forever stay there - just inside my head. They will remain as thoughts forever, i guess.

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You just know you're nearing the end when you don't have the energy to argue anymore. You cry, yes. But the thought of arguing is now SENSELESS.

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And so now I can say that I am lonely. I feel so alone.

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LONELY. SAD. ALONE.

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Sometimes, i really wish to call you and tell you how NOT OKAY i am, but most times, i just keep things to myself because you'd either just tell me i am overthinking, or tell me to brush it off.

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I want to cry and let it all out as much as I can, but these tears just ceased from falling, not because it hurts no more but because it hurts so much that I ran out of energy for one more drop.

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There are moments when I want to go to your room and just hug you without saying anything. I just want to feel you. But I know how that would make you feel and what would happen next. I do not want us to share the awkwardness because for sure, We will probably burst into tears for the things that are left unsaid stuck on our minds and piercing through our hearts.

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Mang i love you so much. Sorry kung i can’t control my emotions most of the time especially on how I should react about certain things between our family. i am sorry for a lot of things. For making your heart hurt everytime I do and say things out of impulse. i am sorry if I can not say these things to you personally, but God knows how deeply sorry I am for being the meanest and for being rude and almost heartless most of the time.

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I hate myself for speaking ill to the people i love. I regret saying those things and I know I will forever be haunted by every ill-words I have said, and now all I wish and hope and pray is that I can be forgiven. I wish it is just that easy.

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I am having some panic attacks again. My anxiety heightens too as the night goes deeper. I feel all the fear for certain things.

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One day, you'll find yourself again. For now, you can not force things to happen. Let her wander, let her feel every pain, let her embrace every thorn, until that one day comes when all the pain will fade away.

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You're not going to regret anything. To her, you may not be enough, your sacrifices may not be enough, but you know your tears will forever remind you how well you did.

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You have done your best. You'll finally get your rest soon. So take a step back. You'll be fine. Trust yourself. Trust the process.