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In all seriousness, though.

There once was a girl named Nicole

Who came up with this kind of cool goal

She gave up Tumblr for a bit

To see how well that would sit

And if it would take a toll

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So Nicole's been away from Tumblr, hiatusing it up, and I have been taking care of her Tumblr (by which I mean letting it sit here and gather dust).

I just wanted to pop by and let you all know that Nicole is very much alive and doing pretty well. Please do not be concerned, be sure to secure your own oxygen mask before securing the oxygen masks of those around you and of young children, etc. etc..

Not sure if/when she's coming back, but I'll show up at some point to let you know. Until then, keep it classy, internet. At least try, okay? If only for a few minutes?

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Oh man I would but I'm about to take a tumblr-hiatus sorry but I'm sure someone else'll take it? Or, um, people probably won't mind if you just kind of delete it?

Sometimes I wish I ran Literally The Stupidest Ever because there is SO MUCH TO WORK WITH.

Like, you’d never run out of potential posts.

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I can really relate to a lot of this. I don't have very many friends because I get really, really drained from trying to determine whether people like me or not, and trying to tell if they actually want to spend time with me and there are a lot of people who I just assume won't want to spend time with me because they hang out with people who are smarter or prettier or nicer so what would I have to offer?

And since I'm really frank and open about my emotions and curiosities, I ask people pretty often whether or not they like me, which I'd imagine gets annoying and probably causes them to dislike me more, and when I think they dislike me more, I have to ask, and it's just a vicious cycle of insecurities.

Also I guess I'm what you'd call an empath? Like, I can pretty much tell what people are feeling, regardless of how much or how well they're trying to hide it. And I can read people's relationships pretty well. But when it comes to reading how people feel about me, I just... can't. Cos I guess some of my leftover stuff from being bullied really badly and being abandoned by some people makes me feel like people could never really like me.

Also I was recently diagnosed with social anxiety disorder which sucks balls especially when I'm trying to become a journalist and I wish I was better at talking to people and I also wish I wasn't one of those people on the internet who were like "omg i'm really awkward in person and bad at talking to people lol" but um I am and it's relevant to my life and I hate it.

And I'm just disgustingly self-aware which is why I hate therapy because they're just telling me stuff I already know about myself. I've already figured out why I do all these things because I never stop thinking and usually I'm thinking about myself partially because I'm self-absorbed and partially because I'm insecure and I want to be better so I have to figure out how to be better.

Um I'm gonna stop now because I could keep going but I won't.

So this has been an update on my thoughts around myself, via Olga's post and I'm sorry to all of you but especially to you, Olga, I hope you didn't read this or if you did that you didn't find it a total waste of time.

ever think about the complexities of human life and like other people

I mean I tend to be incredibly self aware and over analytical and most of the time I don’t really know how to speak to people who aren’t that way because I tend to be incredibly frank in conversation and I kind of put my entire self out there and I speak about myself and my emotions quite crassly and it’s hard for me when people don’t do the same 

and I know for a fact that not everyone is like that obviously and I have an incredibly hard time being coy and demure with my emotions and intentions and I tend to have the easiest time with people who aren’t and I figure it must make some (most) people uncomfortable but those kind of people are my favourite kind 

I think about other people a ton when I let you in and let you get close to me I don’t just casually talk to you occasionally I start a mental folder for you in which I file away and analyse each and every word you say to me and every action you do and sometimes that manifests itself in me actually saving screenshots of conversations and I sit there and I review them and attempt to piece together and understand and comprehend our relationship and exactly how you feel about me (a lot of that stems from serious trust issues)

this wasn’t actually going anywhere 

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do you guys know how high the inflation rate in neopia is? the economy is busted. personally i blame nigel the commodity broker chia. then again, it’s a little absurd to put one guy in charge of the entire stock market. who runs this town? where is the president? something weird is going on.

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in italian everything sounds like you can eat it when you say cassonetto stupro u might think its a special pasta but in fact it means dumpster rape 

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An eloquent and rational defense of a cissexist RayWilliamJohnson video by the kind of person who likes RayWilliamJohnson videos

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Yeah? Look at these dogs. I'll fuckin' hold these dogs. Look at me holdin' these dogs. I was in Across The Universe. Wanna fight, punk!?

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I can’t stop looking at the baby sloth look at its cute wittel teef and eyes and nose so precious!!!! :’3

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“Eels always look like they just told a joke and are waiting for a reaction.”

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Testing focus on my camera and I think I’ll use one of these as an icon…

Which one should be my new icon?

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I hate it when people say "don't worry be happy" because sometimes there's a reason to worry and people shouldn't always be happy. I'm looking at you, McFerrin.

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Wow

iamthedealer asked: In your scale how racist is this?

Astoundingly racist, holy shit. :( PS. Do I have a scale? Is that a thing I’ve mentioned in the past? It’s the most on that scale, if so.

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oh my god

horse racing games are big in japan

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I can't kill a man

I can't betray someone's trust

I can't sleep

I can't give up