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Ready to move on?

Not today. Try later!

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With or without him?

They say love is when you can't stop looking at him, even if he'll never look back. You feel like a sailor drowning at sea. The difference is, you don't even need water to feel like drenching. Missing him comes in waves and right now you're drowning. You can't breathe, you feel lost, you can find no way to get out. You can't decide whether you want to forget him or continue waiting for him to come back. What is it that you really want? With or without him?

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His name

His name - the word that causes so much pain in you. It is hard to hear her saying his name while sleeping, isn't it? Then make her forget about him, them, everybody around her. Make her forget about the world and think only about you. You should be worthy of all her attention first.

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Escape your thoughts !

Stop now, pretty girl ! Don't you do this to yourself anymore ! Don't hurt yourself. Not anymore. Clear your mind, free your heart, escape all your thoughts, leave them behind you. Don't look back ! You don't care anymore. But you're too curious to know how he's been doing since you last talked that you always go back in the past. Live in the present and think for the future ! You're doing great :)

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Come back to me, maybe ?

What if I told you I still love you? You won't believe me anyway. You'll say I'm the same silly girl that never even knew what LOVE means. You may be right.. but what if I told you? Would you come back to me? I won't say it, cause you're better without me. No one could stand such an indecisive person as me. Today I'm warm, lovely, calm, a sunny day of summer, and the next day, I'm cold, just like a snowing cloud that's walking over the grey and heavy sky, leaving its footprints on it. I could burst all my feelings into a wildly storm at any moment. I could get you crazy. So, I guess I understand your decision to stay away from me. !

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me: *wakes up*

me: wheres my phone

me: *rips off blankets*

me: *hears loud thud*

me: there it is

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Midnight emptyness

I'm feeling dead. The only thing that proves I'm still alive is the fact that I'm still breathing. I'm still me, though I look in the mirror and not recognise what I see, though I feel broken into small pieces, i feel lost and gone , my thoughts aren't with me but they aren't somewhere else either. I dont know how I feel. What can I notice is the extreme emptyness that covers my soul like a blanket. It's all I feel. Emptyness ! What is it supposed to mean? I do not know to explain. It's almost midnight, and I'm alone. I turned off my wifi on my phone so even if I'd be searched I won't be found. That's weird. That's so not me. I'm always there. People are used to always reach me. Not tonight. Tonight I'm selfish. I'm only mine. The funny part is that I'm not even mine cause I can't find me. I'm lost in a deep ocean of..emptyness. My soul feels like screaming, shouting and crying but my eyes ran out of tears. Without crying I can't get healing, I can't get better. but I know I have to. It's midnight and I feel empty, with no way to get rid of this awful feeling.

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250 posts! haha. yaay.

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1. I’m lonely so I do lonely things. 2. Loving you was like going to war, I never came back the same. 3. You hate women, just like your father and his father, so it runs in your blood. 4. I was wandering the derelict car park of your heart looking for a ride...

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I’m a paradox. I want to be happy, but I think of things that make me sad. I’m lazy, yet I’m ambitious. I don’t like myself, but I also love who I am. I say I don’t care, but I really do. I crave attention, but reject it when it comes my way. I’m a conflicted contradiction. If I can’t figure myself out, there’s no way anyone else has.

Unknown (via trytobechill)

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When you are sad and somebody asks you if you’re okay,and you just answer ‘Yes,I am :)’ and then yeah,nevermind…

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And you wait, you wait for that one thing that will infinitely enlarge your life; the gigantic, the stupendous, the awakening of stones, depths turned round toward you. The volumes bound in rust and gold flicker dimly on the shelves; and you think of lands traveled across, of paintings, of the clothes of women found and lost. And then suddenly you know: it was then. You rise, and before you stands the fear and prayer and shape of a vanished year.

Memory (Rainer Maria Rilke)