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losercore girlcore sitting in her roomcore

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uhh... moo?

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and while we're on the subject of luigi mangione, FREE NATHAN MAHONEY (who stabbed his company's CEO during a meeting)! the reason you may not have heard this name is because the police clearly do not want to make the same mistake they did with Mangione by allowing him to become a symbol. let's show our support for Nathan Mahoney, who looks exactly how he should in his mugshot— proud of himself

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and while we're on the subject of luigi mangione, FREE NATHAN MAHONEY (who stabbed his company's CEO during a meeting)! the reason you may not have heard this name is because the police clearly do not want to make the same mistake they did with Mangione by allowing him to become a symbol. let's show our support for Nathan Mahoney, who looks exactly how he should in his mugshot— proud of himself

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can you guys watch my squab for me im gonna go on my smoko

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I love public transit

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Dump of old pics i never posted. I miss my long hair ;-;

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Naomichi Okutsu | Hana-kuruma | 227×158mm

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ahem

how do we feel about long haired Salem

long hair bunny tboy

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This is a piece I've been modifying since spring 2022, I first made it for photoshoots and performances my band Summer Houses was doing to promote the release of our full length Frantic Hearts. I had begun my third and final attempt at social transition in the winter prior and by the time that spring came around I was waiting for my appointment to start hrt set for that June.

I broke down during the marketing campaign. We'd worked on this album and it's release for 3 years tirelessly and I buckled under that pressure. I was so uncomfortable in my body. I couldn't stand to listen to my voice on the album. I bombed a handful of podcast interviews because I could not stop talking about trans stuff. The thought that I was going to be misread by the world, that I was releasing music very publicly as a man, or rather a trashy glam sex fiend, made me wanna scream till my lungs burst. This is not who I wanted to be, this was not my life.

I made this crop top out of a XL plasma donation center hoody I'd found in a house venue basement one night when I needed the extra layer. I then used it as workware for tile setting. I failed hard at tile setting. Turning this into a crop top with the Creature skateboards logo was my first creative project towards gender affirmation after I spent 5 years as a detransitioner working in construction.

I had to play shows and go to parties to mingle as a real fucking musician, or whatever. I would tell people, "my two genders are Legendary Creature and Being From the Year 3000" i thought I'd charm my way through transitioning. No one took me seriously when I'd say I might be a woman. I'd be jovially told, like as if this were support, "you have always been an absolute freak. You could do literally anything to your body and it wouldn't surprise me." This treatment broke me down. I was never successful in my masking as a man, as a detransed male. Already, from a childhood as a public performer, as a local creature, as someone who had already made my trans feelings known publicly, i had been marked as a Freak.

I wanted to pour out of my skin and melt in with the rain. I made crop tops and short shorts and hated the way my body looked in them. I hated the attention they brought me from scary men. Yet I wore them everyday. I needed them to approximate womanhood, no, to taste a small dosage of sweet gender euphoria.

Im very happy that I've finally made this piece fit my body in a way that makes me feel sexy.

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hi :3

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hey guys can you help me find that old portrait of a girl holding a little painting of a naked dude and cracking up about it?? I want to say it’s by Rembrandt but that’s probably not right

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*repeating crossbows not included in crossbows

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This was two weeks ago...

Need new news to feel better

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Reminder that I'm very pretty

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i just. the spice that makes drag so transgressive and femboys so sexual and calling your favorite fictional man "babygirl" fun is transmisogyny.

crossing the line from "male" to "female" is the ultimate gendered taboo in our society, you know it, i know it, we're all acting on it. but when trabs women say "hey we're actually living that transgression and it makes us, specifically, vulnerable" the fun music stops and everyone pretends they dont know what shes talking about.

you stand here enjoying and celebrating and profiting from the aesthetics of transfeminity, all while ignoring the societal hierarchies that make it so enticing. all while rejecting the people most harmed by that stigma.

if you ever wonder why trans women dont like drag or are so mean to femboys or whatever just sit on this and maybe have the barest minimum amount of self reflection.