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12.7.18

It’s currently 23:05 and i doubt anyone will see this but here i go  ♡

I’m currently listening to Oblivion by Grimes and was recently watching danababy and i really want to change my way of living, i want to spend less money, i want to be more honest with people and express how I’m actually feeling. I’ve recently started a friendship with a guy I’ll can Anthony for the sake of this post, and he’s fallen in love with me but the gag that no one knows about is that i’m actually asexual and don’t really want any relationship and i don’t know how to tell him i don’t want anything more than a friendship without him calling me ‘baby’ ‘love’ ‘babe’ and anything of that sort, and I’ll eventually figure it out and this has been bugging me for the last week. I also have to get my books and start reading them/ doing some research on them and i actually am happy because I can focus myself on something else rather than lurking around the internet all day. Talking about change i really want to change my habits and stop eating so much and i also want o stop biting my nails and I’m thinking of starting tomorrow, and also want to stop using the typical gay slurs so i can stop giving wrong signals to my friends and family even though they all support me, I don’t think they’ll react any differently when I tell them the actual truth.

I think I’ll be going to sleep now though.

goodnight 

luv, alex  ♡