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i just know in my bones that i will somehow make a beautiful life for myself no matter what the world throws at me

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Dream and have faith on your dreams....

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the never ending drive to learn everything, pursue every possible path, understand everything and everyone, read every possible book, listen to every possible podcast, experience all the art

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does anyone else love being "easily impressed" by life, just in general? from art pieces of all forms- films, paintings, sculptures, literature, tv shows etc- to most mudane things in life, im impressed. im impressed by them all. im overwhelmed by the beauty of life, by the beauty of the things humans create, by the beauty of nature in action. all of it feels so extremely overwhelmingly important to me, all of it feels alive. everything is truly important to me and i dont quite know how to explain it in any other way,,, genuinely tho i love being like this, i love loving things so easily, finding the beauty in it all so instinctually. its all natural to me, its all so beautiful, its all so impressive. i love being impressed by the beauty of life thats seen in everything : )

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Humanity has survived 37 apocalypses.

You tell yourself this as you scratch out the 6 and write down a 7. You try to grasp the concept you delivered to your own settlement as you do so: Apocalypse n.37 has been dealt with. The Blood In The Sky dried out and cannot be considered a threat anymore. You are safe. You cannot be hurt by it anymore.

You hold the papers in your hand, all covered with old handwriting from people you will never know. Humanity has survived 33 34 35 36 37 apocalypses, written on top of a page, is what you read before putting the small pile in the history books aisle. You know a librarian back in the settlement would be mad at you for doing this, but you don’t care much. It’s not like he can come to this library.

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I recently read about the Greek concept of meraki, which is all about leaving parts of yourself in everything you do. Really pouring yourself and self love into it all - from doing your dishes or brushing your teeth to your passion projects or organizing a birthday party for your best friend. It's in making that conscious efffort to really imagine parts of your heart being left in absolutely everything you do. I promise it will make life that much more beautiful.

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"the world Is a cruel place." watch the faces of the little children as their parents pick them up from school, and the old couple in the park who never fails to feed the birds, a mother in the hospital as she carries her newborn, and a man who just left a bakery with his family's favourite treats. more often then not, you will see love around you than you will see cruelty. we allow ourselves to be so burdened by what is wrong, we forget about the simple pleasures of life. we spend so much time chasing the world, we die without having lived.

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being a sentimental person is difficult. i want to keep everything. to store memories that are imbedded in bottle caps and candy wrappers. every single moment seems to slip through my fingers so easily.

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Kinda wild how all the bacteria in your gut have their own DNA, like they are not related to you, they don't have your DNA in them, they are just separate lil beings that just live in your gut. They don't even know they live inside a human, but you are their whole universe

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I love being alive! I love being gay! I love understanding jokes in my niche communities online! I love consuming my favorite things with a gut wrenching passion! I love when I see art I love! I love my friends! I love screaming over fictional worlds! I love community! I love humans! Look at us, specks of stardust that stretch and hope to create and see and feel as much as we can! To connect! We make art of worlds that exist in our heads to tell stories and then go ‘that character is so me’ because the yearning for connection is so great! Life is really hard but I love waking up and knowing if it gets too hard I can watch or read something and feel okay!

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i think to be loved is to be a pomegranate. it’s to be held as your tough ridges get scored and gently taken apart. to bare your intricate crimson soul, one piece at a time. to stain the delicate fingers of your carver with your blood. to fall apart at the gentle brush of their thumb. to be unmade. to be consumed. to be one with the person who tediously pulled you apart and stain their lips pink.

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The next time you feel down within your flaws, within your darkness, remember that you have constellations within you. Your strengths, your internal beauty, your unwavering kindness, the way you care so deeply – that's what people notice when they see you, and that's what makes you so special. You're worthy of everything you desire.

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you know what? fuck this.

i love my life. i don't like a lot of what's in it, what with the loneliness and bigotry.

but my life, as is? i love it. i love breathing, walking, eating. i love being alive on so many levels.

i love being cells, little tiny protein robots that, by themselves, are little more than combustion engines running on glucose, but build up to a (comparatively) colossal being.

i love being terrestrial, feeling the dirt under my feet, the air in my lungs, every grimy bit of being on land.

i love being animal, eating and sleeping and being gross in every disgusting, happy way that animals are

i love being human, having such a big brain that i can truly revel in how vast the world is, and yet how small.

i love life. i don't like a lot of stuff in it, but i love life and living.

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screw it!!! im going to savor every moment!!! im going to appreciate the trees!! im going to live!!!

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“People are inherently terrible” no!!! Have you ever seen a child wait for their friend while they tie their shoelaces? Have you ever known someone who would bring hurt squirrels and rabbits and mice to the nearest vet just so it doesn’t suffer? Have you seen someone grieve? Have you ever read something that hit your heart like a freight train? Have you looked at the stars and felt an unexplainable joy? Have you ever baked bread? Have you shared a meal with a friend? Have you not seen it? All the love? All the good? I know it’s hard to see sometimes, I know there’s pain everywhere. But look, there’s a child helping another up after a hard fall. Look, there’s someone giving their umbrella to a stranger. Look, there’s someone admiring the spring flowers. Look, there’s good, there’s good, there’s good. Look!!!!

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we were meant to live slowly!!!! we were meant to savor moments and feel unabashedly lazy and frolic and smell the flowers and laugh with our entire hearts and love with our entire souls!!!!! don’t ever feel guilty for resting!!!!!! don’t ever feel guilty for slowing down!!!!!! enjoying life shouldn’t be something you’re ashamed of

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so. bad news. we have to keep going tomorrow. good news is that I’ll keep going with you