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ive decided. argus theme on her banner drop day. on the main. im loving what i was playing around with hehe

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i actually cannot believe how excited i am for argus's banner to drop in. eleven days. argus theme is calling to me... even if its just for a day...

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mmm i stumbled across my event idea doc when i was trying to find sometimes and i stared at thee christmas one for too long...

i kinda wish i didn't scrap it but i wouldn't of had the time.. maybe the new years one could be possible hmm

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which anon found my other other blog? i see you in my inbox.

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this got a bit longer than i anticipated- requested by @velixxis ^^ part 1 here

you were embarrassed to say the least. when you sent those messages you didn't exactly know what would happen but you knew it felt nice to finally get all those feelings out. but you hadn't thought it out further, hadn't anticipated that by some stroke of bad luck someone saw those messages.

true to feixiaos's word, she tracked you down not too long after she parted with jiaoqiu. you knew from the very moment that she started talking about “you and jiaoqiu” that somehow she saw those messages. and at that very moment you wished for one of lan's arrows to strike you down then and there.

and even at your very evident embarrassment that she had seen the messages and now was aware of your crush, feixiao continued talking to you about him. and just when you thought it couldn't get any worse she posed the question -

“so how are you going to confess? and i mean for real this time”

feixiao “assured” you that he wasn't aware of the messages but it was clear that she was very invested into becoming you and jiaoqiu's matchmaker.

you tried getting across to her that those messages were just to get your feelings out, that it was easier to move on from your crush because you always thought that it wouldn't go anywhere - the reason why you'd never confessed before.

but feixiao knew differently, although she found it more amusing (for her at least) if she didn't inform you of what she'd heard from jiaoqiu. so she had absolute confidence when she proudly told you to meet her somewhere the next day.

you had no idea why, but you obliged - perhaps some part of you knew what she was doing and so maybe the part of you that still longed for him forced you to go. and so you waited for her.

even when you saw feixiao in the distance walking towards you, a familiar pink haired foxian beside her, even when dread and nerves consumed your senses, you stayed. even when she proudly announced their arrival and prompted you to greet jiaoqiu, you complied.

you didn't know where this confidence had come from considering this had all happened because of your cowardice to confess through messages, ones that you knew the recipient wouldn't ever see. but it quickly wavered when jiaoqiu said your name at the sound of your voice.

feixiao hadn't told him where she was taking him. but he could recognise your voice anywhere, a sweet melody that he missed dearly. jiaoqiu hadn't seen you much after returning to the yaoqing and it pained him, so hearing your voice again was a silent relief for him.

the air soon hung with silence and feixiao held up jiaoqiu's phone, opened up on your messages, and silently prompted you to confess. your nerves were still eating away at you but your confidence slowly crept back - you also knew feixiao was very insistent on you doing this.

and eventually you poured out every heartfelt confession and feeling that you had kept bottled up. it felt so nice to finally, properly, get everything off your chest that you forgot jiaoqiu was actually before you and when you did realize, you froze up.

what if he rejected you? oh you were so embarrassed… you should've never let feixiao get you into this mess-

“me too”

you heard the gentle tone in his voice, the kind he always used when it was just the two of you, a moment of pure affection and care.

“i love you”

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the part 2 i said would come out by the end of the week (which it clearly did not :') ) will be here tmmrw ^^

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WOHOOOO!! SHE CAME HOME IN 20!!

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wuwa update. please come faster please. but yeah- the part two should be... end of the week i hope.

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i am patiently waiting for camellyas banner. i cannot hold out much longer.

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part 2 to this in development :)

im so sorry but the pink foxian has infected my thoughts

imagine pining after jiaoqiu but only confessing to him after he lost his vision.

you still can't bring yourself to be honest about your feelings and so you text him, message after message pouring you heart out because you know he can't see it. it pains you to know that you'd never be able to confess to him in person, you simply couldn't, but it pained you more to stare at the messages knowing he'd never see them.

or he didn't. (un)luckily for you, feixiao was right beside jiaoqiu when you messaged. the general complied with jiaoqiu's request to tell him who messaged. she was intrigued when she read the very first message from you.

she giggled to herself and told him it was a spam message. jiaoqiu grumbled to himself before going back to what he was doing. feixiao made a mental note to track you down later - it's not that she didn't want you to date jiaoqiu, if anything she was over the moon because she had listened to jiaoqiu complain about you with a certain adoration laced behind his words, but she wanted you to confess in person.

she wanted jiaoqiu to be happy. and if there was anyone that she'd want him to be with, it would be you.

(and yes, she showed moze)

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i think my ratio theme on my main (and maybe this albedo theme) is getting to me- feeling super confident about my research project but i know that wont last long ueue

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urgghh

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great news(?) - i had an idea

bad news - i forgot it.. again

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i had such a revelation last night for something to write but i have completely forgotten all of it-

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OMG ANOTHER FF7 PLAYER?? IM BEING AERITH FOR HALLOWEEN I LOVE HER SO MUCHHH

YOU ARE?? THATS SO COOL!!! YEAH I LOVE FF7 IT'S ONE OF MY FAVES IF NOT THE FAV FOR ME!!

WE NEED MORE FF7 LOVERS!! IM STARTING A CLUB.

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taking a break from revision for like 1-2 hours after going for 4- but decided to make progress on my replay on ff7 and someone tell me why...

CAIT SITH IS SUCH A CUTIE!! I LOVED HIM BEFORE BUT RRRR

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i was so productive for the past couple hours.. please let me keep this level going tomorrow rrr