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okay i need sugar daddies like actual paying men where do i find them. you want me to visit? pay for flight and everything I'll be there. you want me to wear something sexy? buy and send it over. and tbf, you want love and affection? i have so much to give but i don't have the privilege to just give love without getting money in return

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guys do you remember THE GAME

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"you become what you hate" WRONG. you get stuck in the trope you hate the most. you don't like enemies to lovers? firstly, fuck off. secondly, you can't tell me you didn't/don't have that one situationship you hate. You don't like love triangles? when did you get cheated on, again?

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Woke up restless for the nth time tonight and the first thought this time was "maybe you can't sleep because there's no rest for the wicked."

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someone paypal me 70$ thanks

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I think about hozier more than i think about my grades these days, which is bad because exams but you know what's good? I DON'T WANNA CHOOSE BE-TWEEN BEING A SALESMAN OR A SOLDIER—

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Work song really has me thinking about how lovely love is. like yes I'm so full so love. yes i can barely eat. yes my baby's as sweet as can be. I'm so single but I'm so in love with the idea of being in love, in THE love of that kind, like you get me. i want heaven and hell to be words to me. i wanna be free. i wanna be in love, in so long that i just think about my baby like

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oh god i love marina, am i satisfied or am i sad inside? will we find out in the next episode? WILL WE EVEN LIVE TO THE NEXT EPISODE???? Of course we will, but will we be satisfied with that or will we be sad inside all over again, were we even sad inside to begin with? or were we

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when you look at it, hozier is kinda like jesus but i don't think he'd like that. AND I DON'T MEAN HIS LOOKS. i mean the vibes, the words and i feel like he could most definitely beef with a fig tree.

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i swear sometimes i skip days or days happen twice or thrice. I've been stuck on 9th October for 2 days now.

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I take pieces of my own brain and eat them like they're a delicacy. If you were to get close, i would feed you a few too because then it'd be easy, to make you love me.

To make you love me without my ribs and my back bone, to tear my chest and hand my heart to you so you're never alone. To let you pull my hair and slap my face, to let you have a permanent place, in my brain, so i never forget, even if my stomach bleeds out, even if i regret, ever letting you in.

Because loving someone who is worse, loving someone who would ruin and curse, my entire life would make me feel loved.

My brain can't comprehend the difference between love and harm, the scars, the bruises, the violence has its own charm. I'll spill out my guts, bind you with my intestines. i will kiss your face and draw pretty and deep lines, across both our thighs. It's a fear but also a thrill of how I'd lead to both our demise.

If i drown, I'll take you with me, because if you're my lover, six feet under is where you're meant to be.

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omg about to post all my poems here ???

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listening to hozier and realising that i have religious trauma is a different kind of bonding

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"I'm back with a new account !!!!!" yea you made one for a day and then deleted the app in 2014 what about it