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8.02 // 15.09 +bonus

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Jensen, control your face

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Intricate rituals: Cas heals Dean (4/7)

8.17 Goodbye Stranger

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Cas doesn't know SHIT about cars btw. Dean tries to teach him every week for an excuse to press up close to him and point at car parts and Cas tunes him out every time in favour of basking in Dean's attention. This is because cars and their inner workings are Boring.

Dean: well what if you have a break down?

Cas: I'd call you and you'd fix it

Dean: 😍🥰☺😚

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the thing about the supernatural finale is that it could have been so good. and i don't mean that in a "they could have written a different ending" way, i mean, keeping it exactly as it is, the finale could have been so good. all they needed was to shift the tone a little bit. really lean into the tragedy of it all. because in the end, chuck won, maybe not in a literal sense of being undefeated, but in the sense that he'd already set their paths in motion. just because he wasn't around didn't mean dean and sam were suddenly going to make different choices and wave off years of trauma and bad coping mechanisms. so in a way the ending was extremely fitting, only it needed to explicitly be a tragic ending. because in the end, chuck, god, was only a surrogate for the camera. the audience. the villain won because we are the villain. as long as we're watching, the characters have to keep performing. the road has to keep winding. the car has to keep running. the characters can never be free as long as we're looking at them. and leaning into that would have made it a spectacular ending. because it wasn't an ending, it was just a purgatory the characters were trapped in until we clicked off. making the same mistakes over and over. living half lives. blurry wife, absent parents living down the road, dying and driving and dying all over again, and never ending loneliness. because that's what was expected of them. that's the life that was set in motion for them in the pilot episode. and they grew up and away from that, but then they didn't really. and they didn't because they were always watched. and so they always inevitably went back to what was written for them. you will always end up here.

and they could have explored that fully in the finale. they almost did, with the crew being on the bridge in heaven. with the characters breaking the fourth wall and looking into the camera. talking to us, their audience, their gods, hoping they gave us a good show.

but then it was all unintentional and unexplored and painted as a nice little happy ending? which in itself is extremely ironic and i guess can be interesting in a meta way? but really all they needed was to make it more clear that the villain won. that their story was a tragedy. and i would have been satisfied with the ouroboros of it all.

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Misha had enough of the con hiatus. He was like "I have more gay things to say about destiel."

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There is agreeing to the gay confession.

There is recording the gay confession on your phone.

There is rewatching the gay confession once after recording it.

There is REWATCHING THE GAY CONFESSION RECORDED ON YOUR PHONE YEARS AFTER IT AIRED!!!!!!

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Yeah Mr. Darcy’s proposal was a complete turd and a half but you gotta understand. You got your life together. A good career, stable income, retirement plan, all that shit together. And you meet this girl. And she’s everything. Clever, outspoken, funny, calls you on your bullshit. Grade A cutie, right? And she doesn’t go out of her way to spend time with you but she’s nice, and sometimes you catch her looking your way in a way that makes you think you might have a shot.

But her family. Holy shit.

First off, it’s p much ALL women, and mostly UNMARRIED women, which at this time means of something happens to her dad then you’re financially responsible for like. Four grown ass adults, potentially forever

Because mom in law is DEFINITELY gonna need someone to take care of her when dad in law kicks it, and they have like. NO money. So already you’re accepting that if all goes well, you’re gonna be one random old bag’s retirement home. That’s expensive and exhausting, yeah? Imagine asking someone on a first date knowing that if they say yes and things go good her high-strung chihuahua mother is gonna move in with you. IMAGINE.

And girly’s other sisters. Well, one is a sweetheart, yeah, and she’s getting engaged so she probably won’t be an issue, but that still leaves two more, and those ones are INSUFFERABLE. Never went to school, dumb as rocks, spend cash like it’s toilet paper

And while one of ‘em’s young still and might grow out of it the OTHER one is actively torpedo’ing her entire family’s reputation by wandering off with random dudes and chasing ass. She’s never gonna work, she can’t build connections, she’s a fucking sinkhole, and she’s being led on by the same goddamn con man ass leeching tit who’s been bleeding you dry while telling anyone who’ll listen that your family is full of ratty thieving bastards.

And if he dumps her after a week- WHICH YOU KNOW HIS BITCH ASS IS GONNA- you’ve got a SECOND UNMARRIABLE GROWN ASS ADULT TO PROVIDE FOR. And you KNOW she’s gonna be a tantrum-throwing little shit about it, and it’s not like you can lock her in the basement or something, you’re gonna have to bring her fucking. Everywhere. And give her an allowance and shit while she contributes zero, because again, she NEVER GOT EDUCATED AND HAS NO MARKETABLE SKILLS. She’s not even good to TALK to. FUCK

And you’re looking at this girl’s father like “please for the love of fuck get your spawn under control, marry them off, get them working on their résumé, learning to sew or be nursemaids or manage staff or SOMETHING, yall got no money and one foot in the grave” and that old man just laughs like “haha yeah, what can you do. lol”

So you’re looking to the mom and finally it’s making sense how she got that twitch in her eye and as MUCH as she is you’re starting to realize she’s the SMART one, desperately throwing her armloads of girls at random men like they’re a bunch of fucking lifeboats bobbing around a sinking ship, like yes Jesus Christ sweetly that life boat IS old and ugly and kind of boring but for FUCKS SAKE PICK ONE

And you look back at this girl who is ALSO REFUSING THE LIFE BOATS BY THE WAY and god damn it she’s still the most radiant thing you’ve ever seen so fine, fuck it, Christ alive, you’ll do it. You’ll shoot your shot. She’s everything you’ve ever wanted in anybody abut it’s not even just about that anymore, it’s about being her best fucking shot at a future, and even if she doesn’t like you all that much she’s still gonna say yes and that might break your heart a bit knowing it’s about the money but who knows, maybe it will at least be civil, or companionable, and even if she doesn’t LOVE you at least you’ll know she’s well and cared for

And so you’ll do it. You’ll take on the neurotic stress mess mother in law, the absent father, the broke ass wingnut no brain no money no future airhead sisters, the bad mannered relatives and the embarrassing behaviour and the impending future of sharing your entire shit with a clown parade of freeloaders, you’ll risk it all and accept the absolute certainty of financial ruin and emotional exhaustion for the rest of your whole ass life and you’ll make your own family deal with it too, you’ll do it, you’ll fucking DO IT, you stupid lovesick motherfucker

And so you go to this chick like “look. Your whole family’s a shitshow. You’ve got fucking nothing and you’re gonna die on the street. But for some reason- and I don’t get it either- I’ve fallen in love with you, and I wish I didn’t, but I did, so I’m telling you that whether you like me or not, I’ll give you everything. I’ll give you everything even if it’s the dumbest shit I ever done. Fuck my stupid Baka ass, I’ll marry you.”

And she looks at you- having heard or considered absolutely none of your months-long internal debate and monologue- and goes “The fuck did you just say about my family, you son of a bitch?”

And the shock of that is enough to jolt you back into a reality where you are able to actually hear and process what just came out of your damn mouth And yeah

Yeah, I think I kinda get it

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because it was hard.

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empty pizza box on cas’s side of the bed in the finale i am insane

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dean should have tried to kiss cas to shut him up. dean should have immediately figured out what was going on and gone No shut UP and tried to make out with him to distract him out summoning the empty. and then cas should have shoved him against the wall, after putting his tongue down his throat ofc ofc, and put his hand over his mouth (lucifer rising parellels) so that he could grit the rest out furiously with tears in his eyes before dying. just imo of course of course

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i’ve also loved the headcanon that when cas pulled dean out of hell and was rebuilding his soul and body, that part of cas’ grace got intertwined with dean’s soul (possibly why he can take some of the hits he does) and that part of dean’s soul got intertwined with cas’ grace (possibly why he’s so empathetic towards humans)

however, it makes every time cas dies, especially the ending death, twenty times sadder. because now when cas dies a literal part of dean dies inside of him as well. the grace that dean was unknowing relying on disappears, making him weak.

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Dean: "Well, it's a mystery to me why Cas keeps helping us and risking everything for us time and time again." Anyone else who has spent five minutes in the company of Dean Winchester and Castiel, angel formerly of the Lord: "Right. A mystery."

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Just some cheese to tide me over in these troubling times. Hope it helps. :)

-->Special thanks to my Patron Celina B for saving the dialogue in that last panel!

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Introducing Cain but not Abel yet creating entirely new character Colette, love of Cain's wife, that paralleled Cas is almost as funny as introducing first human Adam but not Eve yet creating entirely new character Serafina, an angel, love of Adam's life that paral-- [gunshots]

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i need jackles to release the tapes…

I need to see EVERY MICRO EXPRESSION JENSEN MADE IN THAT SCENE THAT WAS SO RUDELY LEFT ON THE CUTTING ROOM FLOOR LIKE THIS ONE

please…