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genuinely fucking crazy that lisa in season six is the last time they give dean an actual female love interest. season SIX!! there’s nine years of show after that! and sure he occasionally has casual sex with a girl of the week, but they’re hookups, not even single episode love interests like cassie was. sam has relationships with women and what does dean have? benny. crowley. cas cas cas.

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working with little kids is so dangerous. you get one kid who has a unique way of speaking & then spend the rest of your life with an internal monologue like “me’s go bathroom?”

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you were never the problem, honey.

we live in a world that wants to grind everyone down into the same formless lumps of thoughtless consumption.

and that's always felt wrong to you, because it is.

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misha: oh yeah nbd we totally filmed a scene as Cas, Sam, and Dean while we were on set for The Boys

my tiny, stupid clown brain: j... jensen hasn't worn his hair like Dean or been clean-shaven since The Winchesters 👀

this means Dean would look like jensen now, all long-haired and scruffy 👀

the implications

i think i may expire

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Serenading extended version 🤭

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thinking about how dean started his prayers, the progression over the years. thinking about [well, i feel stupid doing this, but i am fresh out of options] [now i lay me down to sleep, i pray to castiel to get his feathery ass down here] [dear castiel, who art maybe running his ass away from heaven] [castiel, the, uh, fate of the world is in the balance, so come on down here] [cas, you got your ears on?] [hey, cas. you out there, buddy?] [cas, are you there?] [cas, I hope you can hear me]

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🥹

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cosmic shit 🪐✨🌠

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the thing about Faith is they literally heal Dean to humiliate him. his determined skepticism and disdain is a pronounced FEAR RESPONSE to the concept of God because of course concepts like 'hope' and 'faith' are fucking scary! faith makes you vulnerable. It makes you naked. It’s inherently the practice of taking down your shield, doing a trust fall, showing your underbelly, risking absolute humiliation. That’s like, the whole point. and dean is s1 is all exoskeleton, he's Tough, nobody's allowed under his skin, and he gets soooo horribly twitchy around priests. he can't resist snarking at Roy bc this culty southern gothic bullshit is FREAKING HIM OUT. which is exactly why Roy picks him, because a skeptic is a satisfying convert, they want to forcibly tear his armor away in front of everybody, haha bet you believe in God now. it's a violation. he doesn't react with wonder, he reacts with HORROR, of COURSE, bc why do I deserve to live, why was the natural order disrupted for me, you did something to my body that I don't understand, you got under my skin, everyone was looking, this is humiliating. and then s4 happens.

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Jack + child of destiny

Hold the phone. Jack Kline IS LIKE Dorothy Baum in SPN 9x04

image by FTWinchester & Jechiro

DOROTHY: I met up with these three freedom fighters, and they thought I was this child of destiny chosen to kill the Wicked Witch. They protected me, and then the witch turned them into -- CHARLIE: A scarecrow, a tin man, and a lion? DOROTHY: And then she hunted me down and killed me. CHARLIE: Yeah, that never made it to the books. DOROTHY: Sometimes real life is darker than fiction.

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CROWLEY (to SAM & DEAN): Wow. If it isn't the Scarecrow and the Tin Man. 

SPN 9x04, Slumber Party

Of note, the Wicked Witch and Dorothy are bound, soul to soul. Like Jack & Chuck, perhaps? Or even triparted, like Jack & Amara & Chuck.

DOROTHY: A binding spell that came at a price -- her soul with mine. SAM: So you've been frozen with the witch for all this time? DOROTHY: Yes. Look, the witch cannot be killed. If I am awake, then so is she.

SPN 9x04, Slumber Party

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...Sam's cancelling his next Enochian lesson.

Happy belated Pride (convention season has delayed me a lot this year), with my most sincere apologies for this stupidity.

(Please don't repost, but reblogs are great!)

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Had this idea of what would happen if Dean went looking for Cas in Heaven.

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5

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chapter 18 for your reading pleasure. pain? 🤔 hmm, yes. your reading pain. 😈😘

get ready, friends!

@jemariel and i are comin' atcha with a brand-spakin'-new destiel AU fic! dropping just... as soon... as i can... finishing... tweaking... the author's note... 😂

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Oh my, I cannot stress this enough, god

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"Making everything awkward - that's kinda your thing, pal...."

Sketches, I think

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k but if u haven’t seen the guy ritchie sherlock films u don’t get it but they fully wrote holmes as in love w watson. like undeniably in love. In the first ten mins holmes refuses to take a Single case for three months bc watson won’t go with him. he locks himself in his room for two straight weeks, drugs the dog, and shoots the wall for attention bc watson is moving out. he says the world outside his room has nothing to offer until watson asks him to go to dinner & immediately agrees. he humiliates mary bc he’s jealous she can marry watson and he can’t. he goes to a fight club to Feel Something bc he knows john is slipping away from him. there’s never any “oh well just bros being bros” the whole tone towards it is just “ofc he’s in love w watson that’s one of his defining character traits”

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I feel legitimately sick when I think about Dean Winchester not getting a happy ending with the man he loves.