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my nine-year-old childe just said to me, "school kills children. it kills their imagination and it kills their freedom."

don't ever let anyone tell you children don't know what the fuck is up.

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oh so fic about cas going back in time to meet stanford era dean and dick some self-esteem into him is fine but when EYE say i want more fic about early 40s dean meeting s5 cas and immediately blowing his back out i'm the bad guy?

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Look everybody has been making absolutely devastating fluffy coda fics and art or whatever and I just think it’s time somebody asked the really hard questions, like does Castiel wear bee slippers? 

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one thing i really love about destiel fanfic is that no matter how fucking weird castiel is in a fic dean is ALWAYS embarrassingly into that shit

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Anyone else thinks that Dean sent one last prayer to CAS and this why he looks at him to see if there is any reaction 😢

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I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from Perdition.

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qUiT cLoWnInG dEAN

im obsessed with the clown memes these days

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there’s a version of events where in season four when castiel realizes that heaven is completely corrupt, he also decides that it’s god’s plan for him to love dean winchester. and he tells dean with all his desperate alien earnestness that god created him for the purpose of loving him

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seems accurate 🤣

the way i'm writing the reverse!verse scenes with dean and cas are like this

cas pov: i died and was tortured in hell for the equivalent of a century and then crawled out of my own grave. life is endless misery. im having nightmares and a migraine. i'm broke. i want to find my killers and then i want to rest for an eternity. life is hard then you die, i should know. misery misery misery

dean pov: i'm in a romcom :D

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okay other ships are great but there is truly nothing that can stand against watching a being as old as time with the angelic power of the cosmos reach out and rest a healing hand against the face of the man he loves and breaking through every order and every command that’s been inside him for millennia. like you mean to tell me that there is anything more romantic than that ??? anything more than castiel, a being of unfathomable power, choosing to reach out and use touch and feel dean to heal him over and over again even when we know it’s not necessary ??? i will never get over it and i will never be sane because there is nothing that even comes close to that in other ships im sorry but like the very touch of him corrupts and from that first second he was lost and he fell in love with humanity because he fell in love with dean and with every gentle and healing touch made with a soldiers hands he pours that love into deans skin and hmmnnngnng

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Seeing Jensen Ackles go from 300 to 0 the second Jared insulted Misha. Wow.

Misha did his impression of Apocalypse!Cas meeting Sam and Dean at a club, J2 laughed and then made it Sam and Dean laughing.  

After, Jensen made a joke at Misha’s expense for breaking/laughing, then Jared joked it was,

“to this day, the best acting I’ve ever seen Misha do" and this was how fast Jensen’s face changed:

the change in Jensen’s face

Video from @gayled-it from Jibcon9

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kinds of sex that cas and dean should have

frantic. cas holding dean up against a wall with stolen muscles and the power of his own grace, dean gasping into the corded tendons of castiel’s neck. they might never see each other again. this might be the end. they need this, need each other, need to say hello and goodbye all at once.

laughing. they take forever to find the lube and castiel is grumpy as shit about it; dean bites cas’ nipples until cas squirms under him and pulls him close, accuses him of being far too ridiculous to have stopped multiple apocalypses, and dean says guilty as charged pleased as punch and kisses cas into silence.

rough. cas’ fingers, long and dexterous, form bruises in the pale and freckled flesh of dean’s hips and thighs. they have wanted each other for so long, and castiel is so taken aback by wanting anything this badly, and everything is more harder faster quicker deeper more more more–

tender. dean presses their foreheads together and tries to memorize the soft abortive sounds of cas’ breaths punched out from his freshly-human lungs. he’s so determined to make this good for cas, to show him that sex is good, that being human is good. that there’s good to be had and that oh god please, please, he should stay. as long as he wants, maybe forever.

worshipful. castiel touches dean as if he’s a sought-after relic, lovely and rare and worth centuries of study. dean cups his hands around castiel’s face like he’s praying, whispers his name, castiel castiel castiel so many times that the lingering tendrils of castiel’s grace shudder in response. each thinks the other the holiest thing in existence and each is determined to prove it.

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Supernatural 5x4 — The End

Bonus:

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a concept

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kind of obsessed with the idea of dean and cas getting a house and sleeping in the same bed and building a normalcore life together, without ever officially getting together. cas comes back from the empty and dean hugs him, and after a few days he says they should get a house, so they do. they get a two bedroom and cas assumes it's so they each have their own room, but then dean picks one room as theirs, and says he thinks the other room will make a nice guest room for when sam and eileen/jack/claire come to visit. cas just goes with it. they always sleep in their pyjamas, and dean occasionally in his underwear when it's hot, so cas just figures they're friends who sleep in the same bed. dean has been so lonely his whole life, after all. dean sometimes puts on slow music and asks cas to dance, and cas is hesitant because he can't dance, but he figures dean needs casual touch and softness in his life, so he obliges. and then one day dean says "we should get married", and cas blue screens because he doesn't understand which need of dean's this is covering. his need for stability and family, perhaps, but he thought the house had been enough. so he just says "what?" and dean seems disappointed by that, and asks with a pout, "don't you want to?". cas is confused, but he answers honestly. "i do. i just don't understand why." dean seems confused too, but he presses on. "well, we've been together for almost a year now, and let's be honest we were basically together for twelve years before that, so i think it's time. plus i heard there are benefits, for like taxes and stuff. not that we pay that, but it could come in handy, i don't know." he searches cas' eyes, and cas' brain is going hold on a minute man. hold on a minute. dean asks again, "don't you want to?", and cas has to ask. "dean. when you say we've been together, what do you mean?" and dean is like, "i mean, like, dating? like a couple? right?" and when cas keeps looking at him with goldfish eyes he panics and goes, "oh god. haven't we? cas. we're together, right? i love you, you love me, all that? you haven't changed your mind on that, have you??" and cas about loses it like "what do you mean you love me??? when have you ever mentioned that?? dean, i thought we were just friends who lived together, i thought-" and now it's dean's turn to go "now hold on a minute man... you- what?? cas, we sleep in the same bed! we have breakfast together every morning! we've got a fucking garden!!" and cas just looks at dean stupidly and says, "but. we've never kissed? you sleep in your underwear! you've never said-" and he cuts himself off before he loses his damn mind because what??? so dean goes "oh. but you've been sleeping in pyjamas. and you've never tried to kiss me, or touch me. i tried it, with the dancing, but it was clear you were only doing it because i asked, so i didn't press it..." and cas does the goldfish bit a few more times before metaphorically shaking his head straight and saying "so, to clarify. we're a couple. and you think we should get married. and you want to kiss me?". dean laughs incredulously and says "yeah, pretty much. you okay with that?" and cas says yes. so dean kisses him. and wowza. cas would love to keep doing that forever. and well, apparently he can, because they're getting married.

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insane that castiel locked eyes with dean while gasping for air insane that dean grabbed the blade from castiel's chest while castiel was still alive Insane that this implies that castiel directed dean to grab the blade INSANE. insane.

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did we get new destiel or something?? in 2025???