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my owner finally gave me an actual meal

only a couple pieces of meat

but it was freshly cooked,

it was warm,

it was a reward

there was a piece where the bones splintered in my mouth

i was too eager

they’d cut me if i tried eating

swallowing it whole like i wished i could

it would take too long to pick all the meat away

i left it

i could go without another day

this was more than enough on its own

i thank them, even just a tiny bit

they shouted at me to come get this meal

and it was scary

but i’m a good dog

who got a good meal

even if it’s just one time this week

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the way the shadows over the original character portraits (namely angela and maria) make them look like they’re staring down their noses. is this anything

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any other woc out there who feel some amount of connection to the transfem label due to them being masculinized in their upbringing for any reason. i wasn't "allowed" to be feminine in a typical way because my parents were strict but that didn't stop my peers from seeing me as a girl, but not the "right kind" of girl. however my parents were still bigoted so i couldn't be outright masc either. not that i preferred it growing up, i really wanted/want to be a girl and i'm still in the (trying on dresses/makeup in my room) stage of my life right now, super late but i got here regardless. i like being nonbinary because i can still explore being masc and fem in a more accepted way with people who are more likely to hear out why i feel my gender is fucky in this way but. damn. i'm nonbinary but i'm still a woman of color at the core of it all. i want to wear skirts and makeup and feel "pretty", even if just for a bit

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the ending of bliss RUINED me. the fuckinf cigarette + sofia looking up at oz while he lit it + “i don’t know where to go from here. i don’t know how to trust you / how bout i keep showin you how” ITS SO OVER!

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i need oz x reader x sofia fics YESTERDAY. reeves universe bisexual noir media has struck yet again and i need those two BAD. i need my murderous wife and old ass husband who wants to be remembered as a sweetiepie i know they’d dote on me soooo much i just want sofia to pet my hair and kiss me everywhere while im using oz as a mattress

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im 20 and havent been able to get a job or start college since i graduated high school. my parents neglect me and im getting too tired to try to leave. id do anything for a fucking haircut and a shower and a meal. why do i have to live like im homeless just because my parents are too fucking careless to acknowledge that they have a human being in their house i cant keep doing this i need to get out i just want out i dont even have any reliable ways to end it because of how strict they are and i cant keep lying i just want tk live like a human being i dont care that im not one i just want to pretend to be for a few weeks is that too much to fucking ask

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oh to be glaring up at a woman who has a knife in my chest asking her if she’s still human while holding onto her arm in a death grip

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is there some form you'll take,

a shape i'll be able to recognize?

will you come back to me or

will i have to keep searching the shadows for you

like i'm waiting for my end

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is there something to be said about how some of the most powerful/deadly animals on earth often ponder their existences and their relations to other species/each other. is that a thing

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i never thought i could love this much but the way i ache, hurt for you puts all my past selves to shame. how much i’d give myself to the sole purpose of making you feel all the love you never did

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you are one of the only people who makes me feel so much that i can sense it physically trying to work its way out of my throat. something violent, organic, like i can retch up the presence of you in my heart and still come back to you safe like an animal curling up by a loved one

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decentering men is so fun until you accidentally isolate yourself because you have to realize just how much EVERYONE is conditioned to focus more on men than women and if you're mspec you RARELY ever find people who are willing to entertain you speaking about people other than men and oftentimes you feel unwelcome in sapphic/lesbian circles for their own reasons and

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there’s some amount of love that can be seen in jewelry depicting the human skeleton. this thing that’s inside all of us, that is so heavily scrutinized, is being made into a little charm, a pendant, an ornament, something to display on your person. this thing hanging from a chain that is so judged within the context of the human form is seen as something to be admired, gazed at, loved. suspended in the air like crystals meant to emulate raindrops, or like something anatomical, to be studied with care, or like something used to hypnotize people. jewelry depicting the human skeleton, or sometimes a love letter to the human body in one of the most unaltered forms possible

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you stick out like a sore thumb, you don’t like all the things they like, you can’t bring yourself to fake being one of them, why do you bother?

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i am the only person i feel this amount of grief for

what's wrong with me, i don't even feel like

a human

like an animal in the shape of a person walking amongst

everyone else and feeling their stares

knowing everyone can feel that something's wrong with me

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cage an animal for long enough and they will begin to feel like an animal they will reject their humanity they will gorge themself on being let out and feel sick afterwards

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the hell happened in s2. i know usagi and arisu werent the problem bc i loved them in s1 but what happened. i know the woman that screeched while tackling people and jumped out of multi story buildings with no hesitation was not the same woman who got beaten in a fight by niragi’s crusty half burnt dying self, saw him standing on top of a car with a loaded gun and still showed up with her “ARISU” shtick, and decided to nearly bleed out instead of just saving him normally in the last game. and i know it wasnt her because i wouldve LOVED more of her running on those shipping containers, or whatever happened when she decided to save kota by bringing him to a game. i want more of that instead of elephant hot spring

also i loved the king of spades but what happened to his aim with the main characters. i know ann is enough to distract anyone but they didnt even get grazed. why didnt the queen of spades get a name and why toss in a kid if it wasn’t dodo. just made her a terrible person for no reason