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canon: they died

fanfic: fUCK YOU

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If you support gay marriage reblog this. If you're on the homophobic side, keep scrolling.

As a bisexual, it sickens me that some people WILL keep scrolling.

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To all the Philinda/ Phil Coulson/ Melinda May/ Clark Gregg/ Ming-Na Wen Fans

My friend Lele on Twitter is doing a thank you video to MingClark.

You can find more information in her tweet here or below the cut.

The submission deadline is 23 August.

Please reblog to help spread the word. 🙏🏻❤️

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CALLING ALL AOS FANFIC WRITERS, ARTISTS, READERS, MEMEMAKERS, MOODBOARD ARTISTS, AND PEOPLE THAT LOVE AND CHERISH THE SHOW AND CONSUME AND/OR CREATE FAN MEDIA FOR IT:

WE CAN’T LET THIS FANDOM DIE. NOT WITHOUT A FIGHT. THE SHOW MAY BE OVER BUT THE COUNTLESS POSSIBILITIES AND AUS AND FANMEDIA YOU CAN MAKE IS ENDLESS.

KEEP INTERACTING WITH CREATORS- THEN THEY’LL WANT TO MAKE MORE. SHARE THE SHOW WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY.

PLEASE, MAKE SURE THE AOS FANDOM CONTINUES BECAUSE ITS MEANT SO MUCH TO SO MANY PEOPLE AND IT WOULD BE A SHAME TO LET IT DISSAPEAR.

LOVE YOU ALL, HAVE A GOOD POST-AOS LIFE.

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“In one timeline we kiss but the stars don’t come down. In another you set a world on fire for me but I perish in the flames. Another and we’re strangers on a busy street, brushing by close enough to send each other reeling off balance but not stopping. Somewhere there’s a final space where your hand on my face is the punchy climax to an epic saga, where the way our mouths meet takes the breath right out of people’s throats. One universe has us right, of all the millions stacked on millions. So it’s not this one. I can live with that.”  - Elisabeth Hewer

phil coulson and melinda may in the final season of agents of shield

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Philinda fans in Season 4:

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Reblog if you are Team Philinda

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Source

Want more info? Here ya go: 

This Biology Teacher Disproved Transphobia With Science 

ALSO:

Sex redefined

“The idea of two sexes is simplistic. Biologists now think there is a wider spectrum than that.”

More on anti-trans arguments as bad science

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May: *is calling the team*

Coulson: omg my wife

Simmons: She doesn’t know you’re alive

Coulson: Oh ;-;

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Look at the tears in both of their eyes

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A doctor discovers an important question patients should be asked

This patient isn’t usually mine, but today I’m covering for my partner in our family-practice office, so he has been slipped into my schedule.

Reading his chart, I have an ominous feeling that this visit won’t be simple.

A tall, lanky man with an air of quiet dignity, he is 88. His legs are swollen, and merely talking makes him short of breath.

He suffers from both congestive heart failure and renal failure. It’s a medical Catch-22: When one condition is treated and gets better, the other condition gets worse. His past year has been an endless cycle of medication adjustments carried out by dueling specialists and punctuated by emergency-room visits and hospitalizations.

Hemodialysis would break the medical stalemate, but my patient flatly refuses it. Given his frail health, and the discomfort and inconvenience involved, I can’t blame him.

Now his cardiologist has referred him back to us, his primary-care providers. Why send him here and not to the ER? I wonder fleetingly.

With us is his daughter, who has driven from Philadelphia, an hour away. She seems dutiful but wary, awaiting the clinical wisdom of yet another doctor.

After 30 years of practice, I know that I can’t possibly solve this man’s medical conundrum.

A cardiologist and a nephrologist haven’t been able to help him, I reflect,so how can I? I’m a family doctor, not a magician. I can send him back to the ER, and they’ll admit him to the hospital. But that will just continue the cycle… .

Still, my first instinct is to do something to improve the functioning of his heart and kidneys. I start mulling over the possibilities, knowing all the while that it’s useless to try.

Then I remember a visiting palliative-care physician’s words about caring for the fragile elderly: “We forget to ask patients what they want from their care. What are their goals?”

I pause, then look this frail, dignified man in the eye.

“What are your goals for your care?” I ask. “How can I help you?”

The patient’s desire

My intuition tells me that he, like many patients in their 80s, harbors a fund of hard-won wisdom.

He won’t ask me to fix his kidneys or his heart, I think. He’ll say something noble and poignant: “I’d like to see my great-granddaughter get married next spring,” or “Help me to live long enough so that my wife and I can celebrate our 60th wedding anniversary.”

His daughter, looking tense, also faces her father and waits.

“I would like to be able to walk without falling,” he says. “Falling is horrible.”

This catches me off guard.

That’s all?

But it makes perfect sense. With challenging medical conditions commanding his caregivers’ attention, something as simple as walking is easily overlooked.

A wonderful geriatric nurse practitioner’s words come to mind: “Our goal for younger people is to help them live long and healthy lives; our goal for older patients should be to maximize their function.”

Suddenly I feel that I may be able to help, after all.

“We can order physical therapy — and there’s no need to admit you to the hospital for that,” I suggest, unsure of how this will go over.

He smiles. His daughter sighs with relief.

“He really wants to stay at home,” she says matter-of-factly.

As new as our doctor-patient relationship is, I feel emboldened to tackle the big, unspoken question looming over us.

“I know that you’ve decided against dialysis, and I can understand your decision,” I say. “And with your heart failure getting worse, your health is unlikely to improve.”

He nods.

“We have services designed to help keep you comfortable for whatever time you have left,” I venture. “And you could stay at home.”

Again, his daughter looks relieved. And he seems … well … surprisingly fine with the plan.

I call our hospice service, arranging for a nurse to visit him later today to set up physical therapy and to begin plans to help him to stay comfortable — at home.

Back home

Although I never see him again, over the next few months I sign the order forms faxed by his hospice nurses. I speak once with his granddaughter. It’s somewhat hard on his wife to have him die at home, she says, but he’s adamant that he wants to stay there.

A faxed request for sublingual morphine (used in the terminal stages of dying) prompts me to call to check up on him.

The nurse confirms that he is near death.

I feel a twinge of misgiving: Is his family happy with the process that I set in place? Does our one brief encounter qualify me to be his primary-care provider? Should I visit them all at home?

Two days later, and two months after we first met, I fill out his death certificate.

Looking back, I reflect: He didn’t go back to the hospital, he had no more falls, and he died at home, which is what he wanted. But I wonder if his wife felt the same.

Several months later, a new name appears on my patient schedule: It’s his wife.

“My family all thought I should see you,” she explains.

She, too, is in her late 80s and frail, but independent and mentally sharp. Yes, she is grieving the loss of her husband, and she’s lost some weight. No, she isn’t depressed. Her husband died peacefully at home, and it felt like the right thing for everyone.

“He liked you,” she says.

She’s suffering from fatigue and anemia. About a year ago, a hematologist diagnosed her with myelodysplasia (a bone marrow failure, often terminal). But six months back, she stopped going for medical care.

I ask why.

“They were just doing more and more tests,” she says. “And I wasn’t getting any better.”

Now I know what to do. I look her in the eye and ask:

“What are your goals for your care, and how can I help you?”

-Mitch Kaminski

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Hello! Can you rec me some good philinda fics? (If you read really any) I’m new to the fandom so I’d really appreciate it :) have a nice day

first of all thank you so much! and yes, i do read fics. (actually have been since 2013 when there were like 9 philinda fics) i should probably tell you in advance that i don’t ever read au fics. it’s kinda my pet peeve. (except for soulmate au) the fics i recommend here are almost all canon compliant. also, i’m a slut for angst but not really into smuts so nothing explicit below.

these fics are all amazing and i’m greatly thankful for these writers. have a nice time going through them

1. A Thing Endurable by sammie28

one of my favorite fics. it was written only after 1x10 (only us oldies remember that almost 3 month long hiatus after that ep) so A LOT of the plots in the fics are canon divergent (we didn’t even know may had been married lmfao) but it doesn’t undermine the quality of this fics AT ALL. the writer went through the years of may and coulson spent together and it was absolutely beautiful. it’s a little long (12k words in one single chapter) but go read it. it’s worth the time. (w*rd hadn’t turned nazi when this was written so…. maybe ignore his presence in this one)

2. Navigation by wordsinbetween

pre-show fic. philinda undercover as a couple but this time was after may and andrew got married. super hot. super cute. i may or may not have a thing for them not being able to hide their feelings even after may’s marriage.

3. shrapnel is shrapnel by cateliot

angst. which means my cup of tea. set between s2-s3 after may left shield. coulson tried to make some contacts with old friends to track her down. the last part had me dead.

4. forever by your side by marvelleous

i’m pretty sure many people have read this one. the holy fic of all pre-show fics. well-written and in character. it’s multi-chapter so it may take some time reading all of it. it’s not complete yet and i hope the writer won’t give up on this one because it’s just too good!

5. Shadows fade into the light by itsamagicalplace

finally one au fic. the only kind of au i read is soulmate au and this one is simply beautiful. i think i cried a bit reading it.

6. He Lied About Death by paperclipbitch

my personal favorite philinda fic of all time. set between 3x10 and 3x11. FULL angst so you’ve been warned. this is probably the fic that i reread the most times. idk how to explain why i love it so much but please go read it. i always think it’s a shame that there aren’t enough fics set during s3 and between s3 and s4, because personally i think those are the times that the relationship of philinda went through great changes. and this one just met all my expectations.

7. and your words will burn onto my soul by SkylandMountain1013

four times phil coulson doesn’t express his feelings and the one time he finally does. beautifully well-written.

8. Epic by betweenthepages

By any account, the story of Melinda May and Phil Coulson was epic.

9. Five Times He Loved Her, and the One Time He Told Herby CJS_DEPPendent

another fic featuring our favorite idiot phil coulson. with a dash of happy times in tahiti (what do you mean coulson’s dying he ain’t dying)

10. I Wanna Be Your Endgame by Carlet

i can’t be the only one wondering how coulson asked may to go to tahiti with him, and this fic is exactly what i imagined.

11. Merry Happy by kitlee625 & Sarahastro

these two writers write great philinda fics and this one is one of my favorites! again it features philinda before the show started and it’s absolutely wonderful

12. she couldn’t see the sky by cateliot

another s3 angst. Coulson ponders the fate of his partnership, his mistakes, and his best friend in the past few months. (i love pain)

13. Snowdrifts by daisyqiaolianmay (skinman)

FLUFF. cuteness overload. i’m not really into fluff but this one really had me rolling my bed, though it’s a little bittersweet at the end of it.

14. Better Late by northernexposure

coulson and may finally have *that* talk after may told him she loved him. very in character and it just makes you want to scream how tf did these two nOT get together twenty years ago???

15. deep inside i know that you’re my destiny by SkylandMountain1013

i’m ending this rec with a fic featuring happy times in tahiti. #coulsonlives

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Is it just me or does it look like a single tear escaped from his right eye in the last gif?

#heartbreaking #philindaforever #agentsofSHIELD #WHY

When everyone thought May was getting to Sarge…

It has been incredible seeing May opening up herself and talking about her feelings. Although it was so not the May we were used to seeing, it showed such character development and that Coulson has changed her. He brought her out of a darker place she was once in, and they both found love again with each other.

Philinda. Always. Alive or dead.

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Can we, for a minute, just stop and talk about how the most loving, healthy, supportive family dynamic we see in the MCU is quite possibly the May family, and why it’s so clear how Melinda became the hero she clearly is?

I mean, let’s start with Lian May, superspy extraordinaire, who drives 500 miles to pick up her daughter, no questions asked. Everything in Melinda’s life had crumbled at this point – she was hitting the ice over, and over, and over, so to speak – and she calls her mom to come and pick her up, both literally and metaphorically. And I loved the juxtaposition of ordinary, everyday family love – “five hundred miles and you didn’t even say thank you – with that element of superspyness, “you’re not going to take her out, are you?”. Embedded in that, of course, is ‘if you were I trust that it’s for a good reason.’ May grew up with family who believed in her, in her ability to do good, and that’s so important.

And then in this episode we meet William May, her father, who lets May pretend for a short while that she’s back to take care of him, while loving and supporting the hell out of her. I love love love William May being 100% done with Lian and Melinda’s superspyness – that exasperated fondness and love in ‘you’re just like your mother’ was gorgeous – but also being the one to get them going again when the going gets tough. And I love that we saw attempts at giving Melinda a ‘normal’ childhood, with figure skating lessons and parents who sat by the rink side for years upon years watching her get up over and over. 

I love that Melinda grew up with people who chose very clearly different lifestyles – and perhaps William could lead an ‘ordinary’ life precisely because Lian kept them safe, and Lian could be a hero because William was willing to do something more low-key, and that she clearly loves and looks up to both of them for different things. When she’s hurt professionally first and personally second, she goes to her mom. When the hurt is personal, and when she doubts if she can lead a normal life, she goes back to her dad. 

Equally as important, Melinda adores her parents. There are worse things to be than her mother’s daughter, remember? When she’s considering having kids of her own, she wants to be just like her mom. Her father sees her mother in her in everything she does, from the way she handles a knife to how she sees the world. And that’s a point of pride. 

And all this is why May is able to be the adult she is today, why she’s able to be the hero that she is today. Plenty of superheroes come from rough family backgrounds, and not only is it refreshing to see one come from a deeply loving and supportive family, it’s also incredibly important to see an Asian-American family depicted with the care and nuance the May family is. It’s especially important to see Melinda modelling her behaviour from Lian, and wanting to be just like her. Melinda May doesn’t let other people ever doubt it because she grew up with parents who never let her doubt that they had her back, whether that meant picking her up from ice skating practice, supporting the change to martial arts, or providing her with classified information for a mission.

May grew up with family that believed she could be extraordinary. And extraordinary she is, all the more so for knowing that no matter how far up she climbs or how far down she falls, she’s got padded floors waiting to break her fall. Those padded floors, that support network, is her family. And that’s vitally important.

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therapist: and what do we say when we feel like this?

me: i was hoping to... see him again.

therapist: no.

me: i guess... i guess i’ll see him soon enough.

therapist: stop.

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WHAT WAS THAT

I CANT-

Feel free to message me/scream because honestly can we have a therapy circle