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merry christmas and happy holidays to all, except those who have wronged me. I send no merriment your way.

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me: you literally have a disorder. this is symptoms

me: no perhaps my soul is rotten

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blackkittycrew

"what? what is your problem?? always in here showing off your four fangs >:("

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"The Partner" by Vyacheslav Samarin (1979)

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There will be a lot of posts soon from people sharing how much they achieved in 2024. But in case someone needs to hear this, it's okay if the only thing you did this year was just get through it.... It's ok.

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step 1: get sexy

step 2: let no one hit

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Therapy is risky because sometimes they'll just ask you their standard "why can't you, though", and you think you're making some good point by saying something like "well if I don't do anything with my life then what's the point of being alive in the first place" and your therapist gets that look on their face and you immediately realise that your dumb ass just got caught, pinned to the ground with your stupid-ass neck between the spikes of a pitchfork, and you are not going to wiggle out of there before you two unpack what the fuck you just said.

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there’s a moment between switching into warmer clothes from the clothes you already have on where you put on the new clothes and they’re actually colder because they don’t have your body heat yet & you wonder if you’re doing the right thing by putting on this cold object. but if you just push through? it becomes warm. #saturdaywisdom

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ppl are rlly trying to defend being on your phone during a movie in the theater what is going on

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Gal paladin. Is this anything?

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Every now and then some discourse pops up around a queer ship consisting of a pair of fictional characters who are not blood related, but refer to themselves as "brothers" or "sisters," or are in some way, according to the fandom, "sibling-coded."

Every time I see that discourse, all I can think about are the very real queer men I once knew, who, before their deaths, lived their lives posing as "stepbrothers." The only way to avoid suspicion for being two older unmarried men living together in a rural conservative area was to pretend they were from the same family, even though the truth was that they were lovers.

They were never out in life. Their relationship was a strict secret to nearly everyone. They never knew that I knew, and sometimes it fucks me up inside that they never got to come out to me. It fucks me up that they had to hide behind a fake "brotherly" relationship for their own safety. It fucks me up to look at a gravestone that reads "beloved brother" and know what it really means, and what it could have said if they'd lived under different circumstances.

In another world, they could have been husbands, but they never had the opportunity. The world will remember them as brothers, because, even in death, that is what was safest.

The freedom to declare queer love openly is something that not everyone has. And I think more people could stand to remember that.

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two old guys who have like a weird gay thing going on is the best

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there's a stage in sandwich consumption where it's falling to pieces & you're desperately cupping it in your hands & it's like this poor wounded animal that is covered in mustard & wants to die