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Guess who got an "excellent" for her thesis defense as well 💁‍♀️

And who's starting her job training tomorrow (offer came out of nowhere yesterday even though I hadn't posted my resume or called around or anything, it was just through a personal recommendation from an old classmate ) 💁‍♀️

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My thesis defense is on Friday and anxiety keeps trying to kick my ass but I refuse to let it. Everything's fine, I know that I've successfully passed, I've declared it so and therefore it is done already 😌

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Today's little pleasant story :3

I've decided that I'm too grown to care too much about my appearance (not that it's too bad anyways), but I'm just kinda curious, so I've chosen to affirm that "I look perfect / I look ideal / I look like a dream" any time I either see a beauty on the streets (which would trigger my insecurities in the past) or I just feel good about myself.

Today I went to a book fair, and at one of the stalls a woman sold handmade dolls. Now, I LOVE dolls. And of course my parents offered to gift one to me without even having to ask. This woman also sold other handmade things - notebooks, postcards, headscarves. And as we're getting ready to pay for the doll, she asks me to choose a headscarf for free - to be exact, "because I like your eyes". Yes, that's the words she used.

So this is how I got a new doll for my collection and a free headscarf to match with her :3

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I manifested getting the highest grade at my bachelor's exam!!!

I feel so excited, I want to repeat it once more: I manifested getting the highest grade at my bachelor's exam!!!

I first found out about loa about a year ago, read all the blogs, went crazy affirming for better appearance, didn't get results and forgot all about it. However, desperate times call for desperate measures, so I came back to it about a couple of weeks ago, except this time I didn't scroll through various blogs for hours or sleep to subliminals.

My situation was this: my graduation exam was coming up, and my speciality means that there's a lot of material that's barely connected to learn. And... I didn't really study. I mean, I read some books here and there (I read them like I'd read any nonfiction, I didn't take notes, or memorise or anything), but it wasn't enough to put 4 years worth of information into my brain.

So what did I do?

I got into the mindset of a person who's gotten the highest grade. I have had this experience before, so it wasn't hard to imagine. I thought to myself that I'll pass everything, and felt instant calm. And whenever I felt any "has successfully passed" emotions or experiences (like being happy to sit under warm sun, or going for a walk at the beach, or wearing my favourite sundress - these are the things that remind me instantly of the feeling of lazy and content summer holidays - the feelings someone who's passed all their exams has) I anchored them to the state of having gotten the desired grade by affirming "I am an A student. I have passed my exam. I have defended my thesis. Everything's good". That's all I did - I didn't affirm robotically or saturate my mind or anything. I just connected this affirmation to my emotions and my emotions to this affirmation. And while everyone spent their days studying I lazed around, went for walks, played games and so on.

Today is the day of my exam. During my commute I had an intuitive feeling to read up on a certain topic. You guessed it - that's what was in the question I got on the exam.

I was super anxious while answering, my hands shook, I was stammering. Looking back at my answer, I forgot to mention so many things, the structure of my answer wasn't good enough, I didn't really explain the topic in full...

Still.

I wasn't asked any additional questions (something that I was scared of).

I didn't even get to finish my answer because the professors stopped me and told me they understood everything already.

And I've gotten "excellent"!!! Without giving a good answer and without studying hard and without being confident and eloquent!

States really do manifest xoxo