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To the transgender man reading this: You have to keep going, you have to live. No matter how hard it gets, no matter how isolated you are or how much hate you're exposed to, you have to look at yourself in the mirror and remember that you are worth it, your life is worth it.

And one day, you will find somewhere where you are loved and accepted for who you are.

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It feels like everyone in my life has a sand timer attached to them.

It’s only a matter of time before the sand runs out.

It’s only a matter of time before they leave.

It just feels so inevitable at this point.

I know it’s going to happen so I try not to get too attached to people.

I try not to feel too disappointed now.

Im used to people leaving me. Even those I managed to convince myself won’t.

They all go eventually. They all forget about me. They all toss me to the side like I’m nothing.

There’s just something about me I guess.

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Thinking about how I will never belong anywhere. How much I wish I had a relationship, friends, my own little family. And the more time passes the more I realize I will never have that. And it breaks my heart a little more every day.

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Every time I think about messaging or calling someone, I have to remind myself that no one cares. If they did you wouldn't have to be the one always reaching out. They'd probably check up on you by now.

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I don’t really have any hope for the future.

I’m at the point where I’d go back to him. Even if I’m in pain and rotting and suffering, I’d at least have someone some of the time.

He’s the only person that knows me so well. He’s the only one who knows how to cheer me up.

I’m just alone and friendless. I wish he cared. I don’t know how to go on without him.

It hurts so much every day.

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the collection

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Had a vision

(the 'murder is okay' part didn't seem right)

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You know whats one of my favorite aesthetics? 

Nature taking over abandoned places 

Hauntingly beautiful

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Not to be incredibly vulgar and nasty or anything, but I’d like to close my eyes and rest my head in somebody’s lap while they run their fingers through my hair

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Beep beep!

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It's painful when your presence is merely tolerated, not cherished.

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no one is born to be alone

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Flower child