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Before She Dies

I was in school when I saw this girl

Beautiful and Brimful

Full Of loved ones

But there was something in here eyes

She was in a trap of lies

Everybody thought of her as the popular kid

Who's loved by all and they were jealous

Wanted to be like her

Because they thought she was perfect

But I saw something that was different

She was pretty , the school's sweetheart

Good grades, funny and whatever you ask

She was nice to everyone

The girl who would have regrets

Immediately after an anger blast

She was the girl who'd believe in you

Even if you never did

But you know expectations kills

She had them all

Her eyes were so small

But nobody even imagined she held so much

Trying to maintain the perfection

But lost her identification

I saw it but she refused to agree

Saying she was just spree in happiness

But her smile hid it all in perfection

Soon I heard her news

She couldn't make it

Love fades

A suicide kills

A happy place

Of a little girl

Who was brutually raped

I wish she knew a way

Couldn't survive her unsolved battles

But people being people

Talked after her absence

Saying she wasn't strong enough

She was just a stupid girl who made a bad decision

She had everything they said

But they never realised not everything matters

I still pray

Hoping she's in a better place

Atleast she's free from all her struggles

Waited for a miracle that didn't happen

She is now in peace

But what about the many others

Who are fighting with their conflicts

Who have complaints but no one to listen

You're the main character of your story

Don't take any wrong decision

Don't fake your expression

You are strong and you have our attention

Be Bold, you don't have bad intentions

And people should think before making any assumptions

As Before She Dies

Let there be no misconceptions

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A plead by a 12th Grader

I'm so done with you, I know I was the one whining to god about how much I hate you and how it was unfair for us to give you offline when all we did was study online but in my defense... I honestly did not think God was going to listen..(because he never listens to me when I ask for an Iphone as a birthday present smh!)

Do you even know I'm literally stuck between whether to study or not? And if I should,then what to study and from where to start...

And I get it, there's a pandemic and it was necessary for you to get postponed but HELLOOO!?!

3 times!?!? Are we a joke to you!?! We give you our heart and soul but all you do is break that up just like that?!? How long is this relationship going to last!? Because I really want to end this, We are not a compatible couple and we definitely need to break up.

And ahhhh you got cancelled for the 10th graders!! No, seriously, tell me, are we the worst batch you ever got that you had to release all the frustration on us!?!?

We did not get a farewell party , which mind you I was looking forward to since 6th GRADE!! (I even bought a dress and now I have no occasion to wear it).We did not get a proper goodbye from the school and we didn't even meet our teachers and NOW YOU ARE TELLING ME YOU WANNA BAIL OUT ON US BY GETTING POSTPONED!?!?

Look I'm sorry for all the mean words I said to you when my 10th board's result came out and I'm sorry for making fun of you whenever I had the chance but I was a kid back then, are you really going to take revenge like that!?!? Absurd! Grow up for God's sake..

Do you even understand my mental state right now! I don't wanna study but I have to yet I'm still confused if I want to or not although I do have an entrance Exam so should I start with that or this and if I start with this then I'll fail in that and If I study that then I won't be able to dedicate myself to this, ughhh....

So my whole day goes with me thinking of what to do aka procrastinating...and you still expect me to have hopes!?!? I was confident before that I'll get good grades this year but now, I am..

So dear Exams, I conclude by saying You win and I lose. Now please just stop being a bruise.

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CROWN OF INNOCENCE

"There was a little girl

About 10 years old", she said

"She was careless, free and content

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She had a crown of innocence on her head

She was the definition of beauty

Because she loved herself

She was so pure

That her grace reflected to the world itself

Unfortunately She hit that stage of insecurities

Her originality started fading abruptly

Hiding her face

She isolated

Forgot her shine

And her innocence was rusted

Now she was okay being not okay

She was not who she really said",

The lady started laughing

Said she had to let her crown decay

Because for people she was too innocent

Manipulation was not indecent

For the world who let her purity end

She's back to being who she is

With the will more stronger and persistent

She's now an eccedentesiast

Hiding her pain behind her laugh

Not trying to play a victim

Want to be heard, a shoulder

To lean on and to Listen..