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King Ramses’ Curse: alternate ending

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Oh, so its not just me!

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just thinking about how totally leftists opinions shifted from 2020 to 2023/2024 like

"a person of color being a bad person doesn't mean they deserve to face racism" >> "bad jews deserve what they get"

"black lives matter" >> "slavery is okay if the houthis do it"

"the US government is bad but people arent usually represented by their governments, most of us didnt vote for trump anyway" >> "all israelis are evil because of netanyahu's actions"

"if one nazi sits down at a table of 9 normal people, there are 10 nazis" >> *allowing swastikas and HH salutes at protests*

"silence is violence" >> "it isnt my job to talk about antisemitism"

"racial minorities shouldnt have to try to pass as white, 'white passing' privilege is complicated and should be treated as such" >> "jews are white and i wont entertain any other possibility, historical or otherwise"

"let minorities define their own bigotry" >> "jews dont know what real antisemitism is and theyre exaggerating anyway"

obviously this isn't a comprehensive list & feel free to add more if you see fit but the amount of things these people did a total 180º on as soon as it was about jews is insane

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we didnt come from poland or yemen. we’re just doing what you asked 🤷

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Even people who have called for my death have the right to due process, akshuwally

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Bro absolutely COOKED with this.

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Things tankies and Trump supporters have in common:

Wanting Donald Trump to be president again

Accidentally making liberals sound like the coolest people ever

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I’m sorry but if there is one thing the Tumblr left needs crucially, it’s the ability to celebrate.

I remember when marriage equality was called and there were waves of rainbows and love wins posts. When we successfully defeated Donald Trump, there was lukewarm relief, a reminder that you were only allowed one or maybe two days to celebrate and then it was back to work. That is if you were even a good person for voting Biden. We never did settle if he was better than Trump. (We did.). We didn’t celebrate student loan debt relief or any of the accomplishments of the Biden administration, or any of the times Trump was blocked, or other countries succeeding in keeping fascists out of office. Who cares if we had successes? It’s not good enough. Back to work!

And this anti-celebratory attitude stretches back to the past. On the 100th anniversary of female suffrage in America, we were reminded that not all women had the vote and so we weren’t allowed to celebrate. The only post I saw about Juneteenth was reminding us that there were enslaved people who were killed instead of freed and therefore celebrating the end of chattel slavery was wrong, and besides, we have prison labor so nothing really changed or got better and there’s nothing to celebrate anyway. Trans Day of Visibility comes with Trans Day of Remembrance so that people don’t fill the tags with hate crimes and death. So on and so forth. Nothing gets better. Nothing changes. Back to work!

So of course when we have a major setback, we fall apart and have to start frantic damage control. Frantic discourse ensues over how much people are allowed to unplug before it becomes bad and selfish. Yes, maybe you can have this one day off Mr. Cratchit but you better be here and miserable early the next morning. Like abusive bosses always insisting you squeeze out more, more, more, and any achievement is just proof you were lazy the other times and impetus for more work.

If we are never allowed to acknowledge any of our victories, how are we supposed to survive our defeats?

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Texas’ HB 3399 bill will kill people if it passes. It will make hormone therapy illegal. For all ages. Period. This was never about women’s sports. It was never about bathrooms. It was never about “protecting the children”. They want us dead. If you’re a fellow trans person and you live in Texas, I strongly urge you to be ready to move somewhere safer.

EDIT: For updates, check the #HB 3399 tag. It’s hardly being used by anyone else.

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My super conservative brother loved letting me know about the latest leftist who hated me now right up until I tried to kill myself. I put in my suicide note, "Great new - you won! After hurting me every day just like antisemites, you broke me. Now there's one less leftist in the world!" and he's continuing to be a sore winner. You'd think after months of gleefully telling me how people hated me, constantly, daily, in texts and in person and in little notes he slid under my door, he'd be happy he got me to give up on life. I've been repeatedly telling him since I got back, "Don't worry, I'm keeping up on things! People hate us! Isn't it great how many people hate us? Everyone wants us dead! Everyone wants us to be brutally murdered! We're not people to anyone anymore!" and instead of being happy he got me to go from optimistic and cheerful to cutting myself daily and actively wanting to die, he's been avoiding me. You're the one who used to tell me six or seven times a day how everyone hated me, but now that I'm actively participating in an activity that you enjoy, it's uncool? Ugh, this is like Pokemon when we were little kids all over again.

My therapist and psychiatrist are fairly sure my brother was the final straw that pushed me into relapsing in terms of both self-injury and my Bipolar Depression. My old medication and therapy regime could not withstand months of being bombarded with repeated, daily, constant, unrelenting reminders that people I used to look up hated me. And somehow, despite having gotten everything his conservative ass wanted - I have no hope, no joy, no heroes, no one I can watch online, no greater desire than death - he's still grumpy! We've hit new levels of sore winner with this. Even when he succeeds, somehow, he's still grumpy. He's made me give up on life before I'm old enough to drive but somehow, he's still not pleased with the fruits of his labor.

I need it to be September so he can go off to college already. Seeing someone get everything they wanted and still be annoyed is obnoxious.

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Seeing conservative Jews in my family glad Trump won because "at least he'll get rid of gender ideology and fags" was what made me try to kill myself. Not Trump winning in and of itself. The realization that my own family wants me to suffer and is happy I'm going to and that the rest of the world is so antisemitic I have no one to turn to is what did it. The hospital shuffled me out with virtually no psychological evaluations or interviews, which is good. Gives me time to plan my next attempt quickly. I'm hoping to be gone by the end of November.

I was born intersex. Not assigned a gender at birth. If I identify as anything, even what my family labeled me as, or as nothing, I'm "participating in gender ideology" to others. I cannot exist without it being wrong. And seeing all this horseshit about how Jewish people will support each other and love each other and get each other through this makes me want to laugh and then carve myself open with a knife. No. We hate each other. We hate each other enough to damn someone for how they were born. We will bully and harass and ruin our own. We will cheer on fascism if it means people we don't like getting hurt, because deep down, a lot of us are almost as hateful as goyim.

My biggest hope is that there's no life after death. I don't want to exist anymore. I don't want to think or feel or see or hear or be. And I know the thought of my not existing would make most of my family and especially my parents happy.

I know this won't get posted because no one gives a fuck. Intersex people aren't people to most of the world, we're vermin, likes rats or insects. I'm not writing this to have someone go, "Oh, no, I totally care about the life of this worthless roach!" I just want to type it to get it out of my system.

Next time someone says Hashem makes no mistakes, though, remember sick freaks like me were allowed to be born and exist. And by existing, we perpetuate "gender ideology". Hashem makes mistakes daily and those mistakes suffer through it every day until they finally correct the mistake with a fatal overdose or a bullet through the head. And then their fellow Jews smile because there's one less freak in the world.

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Grieving, grieving, constantly grieving. I mourn what could have been, what should have been, what will not be, what I cannot save.

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Being killed in an accident would be like winning the lottery

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Do not let anyone tell you, or so much as insinuate, that American Jews, or any Jews, are behind Trump's drive to crack down on the freedom of speech and assembly.