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accidentally deleting messages in our private notes server because we thought we said that where someone could see for a second lmao

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I worry sometimes when he's too quiet if he's enjoying the fact that we're begging him to come back. But I also know he wouldn't stay away if I really, really needed him so it balances out. It's tough love. He wants me to learn. He's still watching.

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(joins the back of the line which wraps around the planet several times)

I hate initiation

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I hate initiation

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Ohhh yes I see it's that it's another one of thoee I haven't fulfilled the—I need to keep going miles still

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Possess me already why does it have to be so violent. Come back and possess me you scoundrel. Possess me. Possess me!!! Are we lost without you?? Possess me. Why are you silent

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Lonely, lonely, lonely...I hate it, but I need it some times. More than anything I need to eat but I can't seem to get myself to feed myself despite the fact that it should be possible. I can still access my memory somewhat and that informs me the high probability of a few things that'll be very helpful to implement once they stop pissing me off. Like for example, that the first answer to my quandary is "you waited too long to eat" which is followed up by "that means you should go back to not ignoring your stomach when it cries. like you used to" which comes with "that means you need to eat about twice as much as you have been, which is extremely expensive" and more that I can't type without becoming increasingly hysterical.

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Trio of Rat Kings

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i have a good like . week after and before moonsickness kills ny stupid ass

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That which once was, occurred again; Wished and willed--possibility becomes.

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DO YOU WELCOME CHANGE? CHANGE WELCOMED YOU. DO YOU WELCOME CHANGE? CHANGE WELCOMES YOU. DO YOU WELCOME CHANGE? DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW?

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I just want to relieve the pressure, I can't afford to live.

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why does my tumblr dash have to be dead as fuck when I need it the most

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pulling myself out of a different spiral every 2 minutes lol

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I apologized for all the hurt I caused, I explained why it happened. It wasn't the first time I did this. What broke the damn was when my hands told me “We used to play together”—oh I had to break to cry again. We used to play together, what happened to that? I'm sorry, I'm just too sad. But we can play together again. I had more thoughts but that's alright we have a lot of tears to catch up on. I'm sorry. I love you I'm sorry.

That's the second time my organs have cried. I suppose we're going to be doing a lot of that together.

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That's the second time my organs have cried. I suppose we're going to be doing a lot of that together.